40. From the Outside
He stood outside the window watching as they feast
She stood outside the door pondering her fate
They stood outside society judging from afar
We stood outside the gates waiting to be let in
I stand outside reality admiring as it falsely unfolds
41. The Future
What does the future hold?
A warmth from the chilling cold?
A desire that has finally been fulfilled?
A prospect for the truly skilled?
Unknown to all, especially those who claim
Who beat themselves, but only have themselves to blame
A mysterious adventure, cruel and daunting
With exciting paths, wild and haunting
Such is the future as I see
But don't take my word, it's only me
Twists and turns are what I expect
I wish it weren't the case, but nothing's perfect
Words to be written, such a cliché
The future is not a novel, but a game to play
42. Glimmering Tears
The magic was lost
Tears glimmered in her sad eyes
How did this happen?
The fire consumed all
Destroying her home and life
Oh! To turn back time
Once a joyous home
Turned to ashes and rubble
Her beloved gone
43. Hard and Soft
Curious object
The hardest, except when soft
Always intriguing
Irreplaceable
To be handled with great care
Treasured by owners
Brings smiles to many
And excruciating pain
If ever damaged
A source of envy
A symbol of lasting pride
Yet rather fragile
A lost mystery
Solved with the stoke of a hand
Always fulfilling
44. Haunted
Haunted by a distant past
A vicious relentless evil
A daunting curse once cast
Spewing venom and causing peril
In fertile ground the curse grows
Feeding on its unsuspecting host
Spreading its poisonous vines as far as can go
Until it strangles its victim and they are no more
45. Heavy Weight
The heaviest weight
Crushes what lies beneath it
And is unaware
May be remorseless
But it is not without heart
Still ambivalent
46. Hunting Lions
Lions are hunting
In search of a weakling prey
It hides from the brute
Trying to outsmart
A hungry and ruthless beast
Crucial survival
47. Hurting Love
Hurtful family
Full of every kind of love
Bursting in anger
Members hurt themselves
Thus paining one another
A saddening truth
Tears in their eyes
As they are stabbed in the heart
Fighting through their love
A small family
Full of sorrowful losses
Yet they’re still standing
48. I Am Who I Am
I have to stop thinking it isn’t me
Because whatever it may be, it is always me
Whether in the past or the present it’s always the same
History repeats itself, but doesn’t change
I am who I am and they do not accept
Whoever I am, they do not accept
More than once I’ve changed before
But I will always be the same at the core
I try to believe that someday it will be different
But the truth is, they are content
With or without me their lives move on
So maybe my presence just seems wrong
I am who I am
And I can only change so much
I am what I am
Is that not enough?
49. I Wish Not to Care
I wish not to care
Because to care is to feel
And to feel is to acknowledge that others mean something to you
But others mean nothing, if you don’t mean anything to them
I wish to not to care
Because to care is to love
And to love is to respect others
But you can’t respect others, if they don’t respect you
I wish not to care
Because to care is to show your true vulnerability
And to show your vulnerability is to set yourself up to get hurt
To get hurt over those who don’t care, is more painful than having no one to care for
50. Imperfection
Perfect: a state of being that cannot be achieved
Causing those who try to ultimately grieve
Imperfection is the reality you must embrace
A sort of perfection filled with grace
In its desirability you should believe
51. In a Shell
Curl back in your shell
Safe, secure, without much fear
No harm shall reach you
Weary when outside
Frightened of their spying eyes
Calmness in your shell
52. In Shades of Brown
Chocolate skin melting the hearts of men
Mocha mistress struts with a seductive grin
Sipping coffee every morning, but at night enjoys her gin
Hazel eyes peering into a luring den
Copper clasps twinkling in the early light
Brunette beauty leaves in expert stealth
Mahogany doors close, shutting in useless wealth
While cunning caramel queen wanders in plain sight
53. Insignificant
Insignificant
Small, almost dismissible
Has a hollow heart
Craving a true love
One to fill her heart with joy
Left empty no more
This tiny creature
Still retains minimal hope
But shall it remain?
54. Intoxicating Scent
Intoxicating
Is the scent which surrounds me
What a desire
Need beyond control
From such a mysterious source
So captivating
The utter strangeness
Of this overwhelming feel
Captures from within
55. Invisible
I wish to be invisible
I wish to disappear
To be small and insignificant
And never reappear
If people can no longer see me
If I'm no longer there
The fear will leave me alone
And from nothing I'll be scared
To be tiny, minuscule, unimportant
That's all I really want
Because ambition is only for the mighty
And the truly tough at heart
But I am none of these
Nor shall I ever be
I only desire comfort
And for the fear to let go of me
56. It Is Them
Beat, maim, kill
It is them, not us
Isolate, shun, torture
It is them, not us
Imprison, decapitate, dehumanize
It is them, not us
“Because they are them
And we are us”
But in all honesty
We are them
And they are us
57. Leaving Home
Wishing to leave home
To venture out on my own
Fearlessly wander
Confining duties
Restricting regulations
Keep me in my place
A reality
True, but too bitter to face
My home is not home
The world still beckons
I can hear its siren call
I will soon answer
58. Legal Magicians
A classy law firm
For white collar criminals
Builds a solid case
Guilty? Innocent?
No one knows and no one cares
Playing with the law
Legal magicians
Skilled artists in their own sense
Aiming for a win
59. Lily on the Lake
Ripples are forming
On the surface of the lake
Lily is floating
Flowing stream carries
Delicacy and beauty
How mesmerizing
Lily travels far
And reaches the other bank
A simple journey
60. Lurking Demon
The mighty demon
Lurks silently in the dark
In mysterious wait
The victim suspects?
No. Demon sneaks through the cracks
Envelopes the soul
The victim crumbles
Unaware of deadly force
A demon was here
61. The Most Valuable Commodity
Tick tock goes the clock
Indicating passing time
Fearful or hopeful?
The highest value
No good can even compare
Can never be sold
Useless to the dead
But daunting to those who live
Threaded memories
Joy can spend it well
Sadness wastes it every day
Far from infinite
62. Mornings with a Capital M
Marvelous morning
Mirrored sunrise on a river surface
Majestic smiles on children’s faces
Milk and coffee for hurried workers
Meetings for board members in different places
‘Morrow will be another day for dreamers in hoping stages
63. Multiple Faces
A single person
With many changing faces
How do you trust them?
They hiding away
The truth behind this façade?
Know that person first
For every secret
There is a hidden purpose
Same for every face
64. My Own World
In a world all alone
In a world of my own
In a world that can easily be blown
I wander aimlessly
Not out of loss or misery
But in search of my destiny
I can only be happy
In this lonely world, where I’m free
In this seclusion created by me
65. Mysterious Tale
On this very first day of the year
Let us hold on to all that's dear
As you forget that which ails
I will tell you a gripping tale
One of mystery and constant thrills
As it progresses it will give you chills
A story of crime so intense
Blink for a moment and it will make no sense
Who is the culprit and who is the victim?
Are they the same or can you distinguish them?
So is our tale of passion and fury
One was wronged and the other wasn't sorry
66. Natural Light
She emits warm light
Embracing the world below
The source of all life
Great is her power
Rising above us each day
Beauty in yellow
A scorching anger
Can burn all those underneath
Such furious heat
A loving fire
Desired by all beings
Feared when merciless
67. A New Reign
A long reigning king
Overthrown by our hero
She was fiercely bold
Questing to the throne
She was supported by all
They admired her
Tyranny now gone
Abolishing its customs
Her rule shall prevail
68. New Year
New Year, new outlook
Newer opportunities
But same life, same you
New reality?
New hope for the uncertain?
Same person inside
69. Numb
Feeling of numbness
Lacking any emotions
So empty inside
Such blinding darkness
Intensely overwhelming
The dysfunctional
70. Painted Visage
Countless faces filling the streets
Blurry visages that never speak
But one stands out from the wall
And he admires her colors with every stroll
A mystery girl adorning the city
Neglected in plain sight, yet always pretty
She was made for him, he always thought
Marvelous, majestic and can never be bought
She soothes the ails of lonely sufferers
And quenches the thirst of young art-lovers
Desperate wanderers in a world that crushes
Can sometimes find hope in paint and brushes
71. Passing World
The world passes by
Watching hopelessly outside
Waiting to enter
Unfairly expelled
By those who would see you fail
Clinging to your hope
72. Perfume
Enticing fragrance
From such a distant perfume
Excites a lone soul
In search of this smell
It veers from its lonely path
Desiring much more
73. Pleasure
Joyous is the child swinging high
Real is his pleasure
Exuberant is the bride on her wedding day
True is her pleasure
Euphoric is the singer at his first performance
Exciting is his pleasure
Cheerful are the friends who cherish supportive company
Lasting is their pleasure
Ecstatic is the woman after winning the race
Rewarding is her pleasure
Delighted is the man who survived the crash
Relieving is his pleasure
Elated is the baby taking her first step
Monumental is her pleasure
74. A Poem on the Pain of Injustice
A mixture of guilt
An overwhelming sense of injustice
The shadowy spell of unworthiness
I’m screaming inside
I’m tormenting those who care about me the most
And I have no idea how to make it stop
I pray for an answer
I wish for a sign
My torment is agonizing
My reality is false
There is nothing I can do
There are no answers to my questions
There is no solace in my pain
The words I write are jumbled
The hand that types is trembling
The heart inside is pounding
In this green field I am not
In this vast space I am not
Where am I?
I do not know
Who am I?
I do not know
Why am I?
I do not know
She has suffered for too long
She has sacrificed too much
I am unworthy of her
She has sacrificed too much
Her life has not been her own
Her pain has
been silenced for too long
She carries the world on her back
But who will carry her
The reality of injustice
The cruelty of unfairness
The truth about this world
We are unworthy of her
I need to go home
I need to go home
I need to go home
75. A Race against the Clock
An endless race we will never win
As the hands of the clock spin and spin
Ever so cunning this game we play
Makes us wonder if we've lived a day
A deadly curse dooming all mankind
This funny concept: the elapsing of time
In a grinding life we all believe
Because our goal is to constantly achieve
Breathe, some say to those who run
Take a moment to have some fun
We're already late, the runners say
If we stop and wait, it'll all be taken away
A modern world revolving around success
Forbidding all to settle for less
"It's your duty to society and to yourself"
But by the time you get there, you'll have nothing left
76. Rainy Day
Rainy day, rainy day
Oh! How I wish you’d stay
As you cleanse the trees
And your droplets sparkle in the streets
Drip, drop, pitter, patter
The anticipated sounds of the rainy day
77. Ringing Bells
There are bells ringing in my head
Every day when I leave my bed
They are loud and they are strong
Ringing Ding-Dong, Ding-Dong
I take a step with every ring
To watch the window birds sing
They chirp a cheerful melody
I hum along happily
They brighten my morning everyday
Until they finally fly away
The bells are tuned to their song
Because they never stopped ringing all along
78. Rocky Surface
A rocky surface
Surrounded by untamed space
What would you expect?
Collapsing of sides?
Strength in the face of horror?
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