Charlotte gave him a distracted smile, then returned to contemplating the tablecloth. She was in a brown study. Matthew wished he could say that was an unusual occurrence these days, but it was not. For months there had been something wrong in the atmosphere of home, with not only his mother but his father and even Charles Buford looking abstracted and occasionally snapping at Matthew. Sometimes Matthew dreaded the thought of what he might be told: that it was time he knew the truth, that his mother was going away forever. Sometimes Matthew thought if he only knew, he could bear it.
“My dear,” said Papa. “Are you feeling well?”
“Perfectly, Henry,” said Mama.
Matthew loved his father beyond reason, but he knew him. He was well aware that there were times when the entire family could have had their heads replaced with parakeet heads and Papa would simply tell the parakeet heads all about his latest experiment.
Now his father was watching his mother with worried eyes. Matthew could picture him saying, Please, Charlotte. Do not leave me.
His heart lurched in his chest. Matthew folded his napkin three times over in his hands and said: “Could somebody tell me—”
Then the door opened, and Gideon Lightwood came in. Mr. Lightwood. Matthew refused to think or speak of him as Uncle Gideon any longer.
“What are you doing here?” said Matthew.
“Sir!” Mama said sharply. “Really, Matthew, call him sir.”
“What are you doing here?” said Matthew. “Sir.”
Mr. Gideon Lightwood had the cheek to give Matthew a brief smile before he walked over and put his hand on Mama’s shoulder. In front of Matthew’s papa.
“Always a pleasure to see you, sir,” said Charles Buford, that wretch. “May I serve you some kippers?”
“No, no, not at all, I already ate breakfast,” said Mr. Lightwood. “I merely thought to accompany Charlotte through the Portal to Idris.”
Mama smiled properly for Mr. Lightwood, as she had not for Matthew. “That’s very kind, Gideon, though not necessary.”
“It is most necessary,” said Mr. Lightwood. “A lady should always have the escort of a gentleman.”
His voice was teasing. Matthew usually waited until after breakfast to take his father down in his chair to his laboratory, but he could not bear this.
“I must see James at once upon urgent business!” he declared, bolting upright.
He slammed the door of the breakfast parlor shut behind him, but not before he heard Mama apologize for him, and Mr. Lightwood say: “Oh, that is all right. The age he is at is a difficult one. Believe me, I remember it well.”
Before Matthew left, he ran up to his bedroom mirror to adjust his hair and cuffs and smooth his new green waistcoat. He stared at his face in the glass, framed in gold. A pretty face, but not a clever one like everyone else’s in his family. He remembered the faerie woman saying, Some would say only a shallow river could flash so bright.
He tilted his head as he looked into the glass. Many people thought his eyes were dark like his mama’s, but they were not. They were such a dark green that they fooled people, except when light struck the dark a certain way and the depths flashed emerald. Like the rest of him, his eyes were a trick.
He drew the vial of truth potion from his sleeve. Uncle Jem had not seen him buy it. Even if he suspected Matthew had it, Uncle Jem would not peach on him. When Uncle Jem said something, you believed it: he was that kind of person.
Matthew had refrained from ever mentioning his thoughts about Gideon to James, because Matthew was the soul of discretion and Jamie had an awful temper on him sometimes. Last summer a perfectly amiable Shadowhunter named Augustus Pounceby had come to the London Institute on his tour abroad, and Matthew had left Pounceby in James’s sole company for less than half an hour. When Matthew returned, he found Jamie had thrown Pounceby into the Thames. All James would say was that Pounceby had insulted him. It was quite a feat, since Pounceby was a Shadowhunter fully grown and Jamie was fourteen at the time. Still, however impressive, it could not be considered good manners.
Neither James nor Uncle Jem would buy potions like a sneak, or consider administering them. Only, what harm would it do to finally learn the truth? Matthew had considered adding a drop from the vial to breakfast this morning; then Father and Mother would have to tell them all what was happening. Now that Mr. Gideon Lightwood had started popping in of a morning, he wished he had.
Matthew shook his head at his reflection and determined to banish melancholy and dull care.
“Do I look dapper?” he asked Mr. Oscar Wilde. “Do I look dashing and debonair?”
Mr. Oscar Wilde gave him a lick on the nose, because Mr. Oscar Wilde was a puppy Jamie had given Matthew on his birthday. Matthew took this as approval.
He pointed to his reflection.
“You may be a waste of space in a waistcoat,” he told Matthew Fairchild, “but at least your waistcoat is fantastic.”
He checked his pocket watch, then tucked the pocket watch and vial into his waistcoat. Matthew could not linger. He had an important appointment at a most exclusive club.
* * *
First Matthew had to breeze into the London Institute to collect a parcel known as James Herondale. He had a shrewd idea of where James was likely to be, so he told Oscar to stay and guard a lamppost. Oscar obeyed: he was very well behaved for a puppy, and people said Matthew must have trained him well, but Matthew only loved him. Matthew threw a grappling hook up to the library window, climbed up while being careful of his trousers, and tapped on the glass.
James was in the window seat, his black head bent over—what a surprise!—a book. He looked up at the tap and smiled.
James had never really needed Matthew. James had been so shy, and Matthew had wanted to take care of him, but now that James was growing into his angular features and accustomed to having the certain company of three good friends, he was far more collected during social gatherings. Even when Jamie was shy, he never seemed to doubt or wish to alter himself. He never looked to Matthew for rescue. There was a quiet, deep certainty to James that Matthew wished he had himself. From the start, there was something between them that was more equal than between him and Thomas or him and Christopher. Something that made Matthew want to prove himself to James. He was not sure he ever truly had.
James never looked relieved to see Matthew, or expectant. He only looked pleased. He opened the window and Matthew crawled in, upsetting both James and the book from the window seat.
“Hello, Matthew,” said James from the floor, in slightly sardonic tones.
“Hello, Matthew!” chimed Lucie from her writing desk.
She was a picture of dainty disarray, clearly in the throes of composition. Her light brown curls were half pulled out of a blue ribbon, one shoe dangling precariously from her stockinged toes. Uncle Will frequently gave dramatic readings from the book he was writing on the demon pox, which were very droll. Lucie did not show her writing around. Matthew had often considered asking her if she might read him a page, but he could think of no reason why Lucie would make a special exception for him.
“Bless you, my Herondales,” said Matthew grandly, scrambling up from the floor and making Lucie his bow. “I come upon an urgent errand. Tell me—be honest!—what do you think of my waistcoat?”
Lucie dimpled. “Devastating.”
“What Lucie said,” James agreed peacefully.
“Not fantastic?” Matthew asked. “Not positively stunning?”
“I suppose I am stunned,” said James. “But am I positively stunned?”
“Refrain from playing cruel word games with your one and only parabatai,” Matthew requested. “Attend to your own attire, if you please. Heave that beastly book away. The Misters Lightwood await us. We must hook it.”
“Can’t I go as I am?” asked James.
He looked up at Matthew with wide gold eyes from his position on the floor. His pitch-black hair was askew, his linen shirt rumpled, and he was not e
ven wearing a waistcoat. Matthew nobly repressed a convulsive shudder.
“Surely you jest,” said Matthew. “I know you only say these things to hurt me. Off with you. Brush your hair!”
“The hairbrush mutiny is coming,” warned James, making for the door.
“Come back victorious or on the hairbrushes of your soldiers!” Matthew called after him.
When Jamie had flown, Matthew turned to Lucie, who was scribbling intently but who looked up as if sensing his glance and smiled. Matthew wondered how it would be, to be self-sufficient and welcoming with it, like a house with sturdy walls and a beacon light always burning.
“Should I brush my hair?” Lucie teased.
“You are, as always, perfect,” said Matthew.
He wished he could fix the ribbon in her hair, but that would be taking a liberty.
“Do you wish to attend our secret club meeting?” asked Matthew.
“I cannot, I am doing lessons with my mother. Mam and I are teaching ourselves Persian,” said Lucie. “I should be able to speak the languages my parabatai speaks, shouldn’t I?”
James had recently started calling his mother and father Mam and Da rather than Mama and Papa, since it sounded more grown-up. Lucie had instantly copied him in this matter. Matthew rather liked hearing the Welsh lilt in their voices when they called their parents, their voices soft as songs and always loving.
“Of a certainty,” said Matthew, coughing and making a private resolution to return to his Welsh lessons.
There had been no question of Lucie attending Shadowhunter Academy. She had never demonstrated any abilities like James’s, but the world was cruel enough to women who were even suspected of being the least bit different.
“Lucie Herondale is a sweet child, but with her disadvantages, who would marry her?” Lavinia Whitelaw had asked Matthew’s mama once over tea.
“I would be happy if either of my sons wished to,” said Charlotte, in her most Consul-like manner.
Matthew thought James was very lucky to have Lucie. He had always wanted a little sister.
Not that he wanted Lucie to be his sister.
“Are you writing your book, Luce?” Matthew asked tentatively.
“No, a letter to Cordelia,” Lucie answered, shattering Matthew’s fragile plot. “I hope Cordelia will come to visit, very soon,” she added with earnest eagerness. “You will like her so much, Matthew. I know you will.”
“Hmm,” said Matthew.
Matthew had his doubts about Cordelia Carstairs. Lucie was going to be parabatai with Cordelia one day, when the Clave decided they were grown-up ladies who knew their own minds. Lucie and James were acquainted with Cordelia from childhood adventures that Matthew had not been part of, and which Matthew felt a bit jealous about. Cordelia must have some redeeming qualities, or Lucie would not want her for a parabatai, but she was Alastair Loathly Worm Carstairs’s sister, so it would be strange if she was entirely amiable.
“She sent me a picture of herself in her latest. This is Cordelia,” Lucie continued in tones of pride. “Is she not the prettiest girl you ever saw?”
“Oh, well,” said Matthew. “Perhaps.”
He was privately surprised by the picture. He would have thought Alastair’s sister might share Alastair’s unpleasant look, as if he were eating lemons he looked down on. She did not. Instead Matthew was reminded of a line in a poem James had read to him once, about an unrequited love. “That child of shower and gleam” described the vivid face laughing up at him from the frame exactly.
“All I know is,” Matthew continued, “you have every other girl in London beat to flinders.”
Lucie colored faint pink. “You are always teasing, Matthew.”
“Did Cordelia ask you to be parabatai,” Matthew said casually, “or did you ask her?”
Lucie and Cordelia had wanted to be made parabatai before they were parted, but they were warned that sometimes you regret a bond made young, and sometimes one partner or other would change their mind. Particularly, Laurence Ashdown had remarked, since ladies could be so flighty.
Lucie was not flighty. She and Cordelia wrote to each other faithfully, every day. Lucie had even once told Matthew she was writing a long story to keep Cordelia amused since Cordelia was always so far away. Matthew did not really wonder why someone like Lucie found it difficult to take someone like him seriously.
“I asked her, of course,” Lucie said promptly. “I did not wish to miss my chance.”
Matthew nodded, confirmed in his new belief that Cordelia Carstairs must be something special.
He was sure that if he had not asked James to be parabatai, James would never have thought of asking him.
James returned to the room. “Satisfied?” he asked.
“That is a strong word, Jamie,” said Matthew. “Consider my waistcoat wrath somewhat appeased.”
James still had his book tucked under his arm, but Matthew knew better than to fight doomed battles. James told him about the book as they walked the London streets. Matthew enjoyed the modern and humorous, such as the works of Oscar Wilde or the music of Gilbert and Sullivan, but Greek history was not so bad when it was Jamie telling him. Matthew had taken to reading more and more literature of old, stories of doomed love and noble battles. He could not find himself in them, but he saw James in them, and that was enough.
They walked unglamoured, as Matthew always insisted they do in his quest to make Jamie feel less self-conscious after the disasters of the Academy. A young lady, arrested by Jamie’s bone structure, stopped in the path of an omnibus. Matthew seized her waist and whirled her to safety, giving her a tip of his hat and a smile.
Jamie seemed to miss the whole incident entirely, fiddling with something beneath his shirt cuff.
There were crowds protesting the mundane war outside the Houses of Parliament.
“The Bore War?” asked Matthew. “That cannot be right.”
“The Boer War,” said James. “B-o-e-r. Honestly, Matthew.”
“That makes more sense,” Matthew admitted.
A lady in a shapeless hat caught hold of Matthew’s sleeve.
“May I be of any assistance, madam?” asked Matthew.
“They are committing unspeakable atrocities,” said the lady. “They have children penned up in camps. Think of the children.”
James fastened his hand on Matthew’s sleeve and towed him away, with an apologetic hat tip to the lady. Matthew looked over his shoulder.
“I do hope affairs go right for the children,” he called.
James appeared pensive as they went. Matthew knew James wished Shadowhunters could solve problems like mundane war, though Matthew felt they were rather overstretched as it was with all the demons.
In order to cheer Jamie up, he stole his hat. Jamie burst into startled laughter and pursued Matthew, both of them racing and jumping high enough to amaze the mundanes, under the shadow of St. Stephen’s Tower. Matthew’s puppy lost his head, forgot his training, and dashed under their feet, yapping with the sheer joy of being alive. Their rushing footsteps outpaced the steady tick of the Great Clock, under which was written in James’s beloved Latin, O Lord, keep safe our Queen Victoria the First, and their laughter mingled with the gleeful chime and roar of the bells.
Later Matthew would look back and remember it as his last happy day.
* * *
“Do I sleep, do I dream, or are these visions I see?” demanded Matthew. “Why are Aunt Sophie and both of Thomas’s sisters taking tea in the same establishment as our private and exclusive club room?”
“They followed me,” said Thomas in beleaguered tones. “Mama was understanding, or they would have followed us directly into the club room.”
Aunt Sophie was a good sport, but that did not make Matthew feel any less uneasy about the advent of Thomas’s sisters. They were not kindred spirits, and they were liable to consider all the doings of their little brother both their business and very silly.
Matthew loved their
club room and would brook no interference. He had chosen the materials for the curtains himself, made certain that James put the works of Oscar Wilde in their extensive book collection, and reinforced the corner that was Christopher’s laboratory with steel sheets on the walls.
Which led Matthew to another grievance. He regarded Christopher with a steely gaze.
“Did you sleep in those clothes, Christopher? I know Aunt Cecily, Uncle Gabriel, and Cousin Anna would never let you inflict these horrors on the populace. What are those peculiar lavender stains upon your shirtfront? Did you set your sleeves on fire?”
Christopher regarded his sleeves as if he had never beheld them before. “A bit,” he said guiltily.
“Ah well,” said Matthew. “At least the purple stains match your eyes.”
Christopher blinked said eyes, the improbable shade of violets in summer, and smiled his slow-blossoming smile. He clearly did not understand Matthew’s objections, but was vaguely pleased they had been overcome.
It was not like with James, who actually presented a very fine appearance to the world. Christopher was incorrigible. He could rumple leather boots.
He could certainly set fire to anything. Matthew had not meant for Christopher to be asked to leave Shadowhunter Academy, but as it emerged, they did not let you remain in school if you blew up any portion of it. Besides which, Professor Fell had threatened to leave the Academy forever if Christopher remained.
Thomas had stayed out the full year, but found no reason to return with his friends gone and Alastair God-Help-Us Carstairs graduated.
So by luck, the closeness between their families, and an irresponsible attitude to flammable materials, more often than not all Matthew’s bosom friends could live near each other in London. They trained together at the London Institute and took lessons together in various schoolrooms, and Lavinia Whitelaw had referred to them as “that notorious bunch of hooligan boys.” Matthew and James had called themselves Shadowhooligans for some time after that remark. They had decided it was long past time to have a room of their own, inviolate from parents—however well-meaning—and preserved from siblings; though Cousin Anna and Luce were always welcome, due to being kindred spirits. So they had rented a room from the proprietor of the Devil Tavern, who owed the Herondales some sort of favor. They paid a monthly fee and had it all to themselves.
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