by Nora Roberts
They’d lost sunset and were drifting toward dusk. Somewhere along the way, he realized, his last CD had finished playing. Now there was only the sound of wind rising up and Drusilla’s breathing.
Rain was coming. He could smell it—could sense the storm dancing on the air.
He’d have to shut the windows. Eventually.
He lifted a hand to stroke it along the side of her breast. “I guess you’re relaxed now,” he murmured. “Whether you like it or not.”
“I guess I am.”
He certainly was, she thought. That was a good sign. Wasn’t it? She hated herself for being stupid. Hated knowing that now that her mind was clearing again, the doubts were creeping in.
She could hardly ask if it had been good for him without sounding like a ridiculous cliché.
But it didn’t stop her from wanting to know.
“Thirsty?” he asked her.
“A bit.”
“Hmm.” He nuzzled in. “I’ll get us something, when I can move again.”
She combed her fingers through his hair. He had such soft hair, so straight, so full of lights. “Ah . . . you’re all right?”
“Uh-huh. Rain’s coming in.”
She glanced toward the windows. “No, it isn’t.”
“I mean rain’s coming.” He turned his head to look out at the sky. “Storm’s blowing in. Your car windows up?”
Why the hell was he asking about her car windows when she’d just had a life-altering experience? “Yes.”
“Good.”
She stared at the ceiling. “I should go, before it rains.”
“Uh-uh.” He wrapped her close, then rolled over with her. “You should stay, and we’ll listen to the rain when we make love again.”
“Again?”
“Mmm. Did you know you have this little dimple right at the base of your spine?” He skimmed his finger there as he opened his eyes, and saw her face. “Something wrong?”
“I don’t know. Is there?”
He caught her head in his hands, and considered. “I know that face. You’re mildly peeved and working toward seriously pissed. What’s wrong? Was I too rough?”
“No.”
“Not rough enough, what? Hey.” He gave her head a little shake. “Tell me what’s wrong, Dru.”
“Nothing. Nothing. You’re an incredible lover. I’ve never been with anyone as thorough or exciting.”
“Then what is it?” he demanded as she pulled away and sat up.
“I said it’s nothing.” She could hear the testiness of her own voice. God, she thought, she’d whine in a minute. The first threatening rumble of thunder seemed the perfect accent to her mood. “You might say something about me. Even the standard, ‘Oh baby, that was amazing.’ ”
“Oh baby, that was amazing.” He might have laughed, but he saw the glint in her eye wasn’t just temper. “Hold on.” He had to move fast to grab her before she could scoot off the bed. And to avoid a tussle, just rolled on top of her again to keep her in place. “Just what happened between you and that guy you were engaged to?”
“That’s hardly relevant now.”
“It is when you’ve just plopped him down in bed with us.”
She opened her mouth, prepared to strike out with a sharp, damning reply. And sighed instead. “You’re right. You’re absolutely right. And I’m absolutely stupid. Let me up. I can’t carry on any sort of conversation this way.”
He eased back so she could shift. And said nothing when she tugged the sheet up over her breasts, though he recognized the gesture as a lifting of the shield.
She tried to gather her thoughts as thunder rolled again and lightning shuddered through the dark. “He cheated on me, and as he claimed to love me, his reason was the fact that I was unimaginative in bed.”
“Were you taking yoga back then?” When she merely stared, coolly, Seth shook his head. “Sugar, if you bought that line, you are stupid.”
“I was going to marry him. We’d ordered the invitations. I’d had my first fitting for the wedding dress. Then I find out he’s been romping between the sheets—ones I bought, for your information—with a lawyer.”
Wind blew in a gust through the windows, and lightning slashed behind it. But he didn’t look away from her. He didn’t rush over to shut the windows against the oncoming rain.
“And he expected me to understand his reasoning,” she went on. “He expected me to go through with the wedding because it was just sex, which was something I wasn’t particularly skilled at.”
Prick, Seth thought. The kind of prick that gave regular guys a bad name. “And do you figure a guy who’d go shopping for wedding invitations with one woman and sneak around with another is worth one minute of your time?”
“Hardly, or I wouldn’t have walked out on him, causing myself and my family considerable embarrassment. I’m not thinking of him. I’m thinking of me.”
She was wrong about that, but he let it go. “Do you want me to tell you what it was like being with you? It was magic.” He leaned forward to touch his lips to hers. “Magic.”
When he took her hand, she looked down at the way they joined. Then sighing, looked toward the windows. “It’s raining,” she said softly.
“Stay with me awhile.” He brought their joined hands to his lips. “We’ll listen to it.”
* * *
IT was still raining when she rose. The soft, steady patter after the storm turned the room into a cozy nest, one she wished she could wallow in.
“Stay the night. I’ll even run out early and hunt up something decent for breakfast.”
“I can’t.” It seemed so intimate, so romantic to talk to him in the dark that her first reaction was disappointment when he turned on the light. The second was shock as she realized she was in full view of the windows. “For heaven sake.” She scrambled with her underwear toward the bathroom.
“Yeah, like there’s anyone out there at this time of night, in the rain.” Unconcerned with modesty, he got up and, comfortably naked, followed her. He managed to stop the door from slamming in his face. “Look at it this way, you’ll only have to walk downstairs to go to work in the morning.”
“I don’t have any clothes. Any fresh clothes,” she added when he gestured to the shirt still in a heap on the bedroom floor. “Only a man could suggest I go to work in the morning wearing the same thing I wore yesterday. Would you mind getting that shirt for me?”
He obliged her, but that didn’t mean he couldn’t stall. “Bring extra clothes tomorrow. I’ll pick up some supplies. We’ll have dinner. I can cook,” he claimed when she lifted an eyebrow. “Adequately. Or we could hang at your place, and you could fix dinner.”
“I don’t cook, even adequately.”
“We can go out, then come back here. Or your place,” he added, easing his arms around her. “I don’t care where. A planned date, instead of our usual impromptu.”
“This wasn’t a date.” She wiggled away to button her shirt. “This was sex.”
“Excuse me. We had food, alcoholic beverages, conversation and sex. That, baby, is a date.”
She could feel her lips quiver into a smile. “Damn. You got me.”
“Exactly.” He caught her around the waist again when she moved by him, drew her back against him. “Have dinner with me, go to bed with me, wake up with me.”
“All right, but we’ll have to eat after eight. I have a yoga class tomorrow.”
“You’re just saying that to torment me. But since we’re on the subject, can you actually hook your heel behind your head?”
She laughed and pulled away. “I’ve got to go. It’s after midnight. I’ll come back here around eight. I’ll risk your cooking.”
“Great. Hey, do you want me to frame the watercolor for you?”
She beamed at him. “I can have it?”
“That depends. I’m willing to trade a painting for a painting.”
“You’ve already finished the one of me.”
“I want another.”
She put on her shoes. “You’ve done two.”
“One day, when I’m a dead, famous artist whose work is studied, and the prices of which are ridiculously jacked up, they’ll call this my Drusilla period.”
“Interesting. If that’s what you want as payment, I’ll pose again.”
“Sunday.”
“Yes, fine. Do you know what you’re looking for with this one? What you want me to wear?”
“I know exactly what I’m looking for.” He walked over, laid his hands on her shoulders and kissed her. “And you’ll be wearing rose petals.”
“I beg your pardon?”
“Red rose petals. Seeing as you’re a florist, you should be able to get me a supply.”
“If you think I’m going to pose wearing nothing but . . . No.”
“You want the watercolor?”
“Not enough to be blackmailed.”
She turned away, but he only caught her hand, spun her back. “You admire my work enough to want to own it.”
“I admire your work very much, but you’re not painting me naked.”
“Okay, I’ll wear clothes, but you’re wearing rose petals. Ssh.” He tapped a finger on her lips before she could speak again. “Obviously I’m not having you pose nude so I can get you into bed because I’ve already gotten you into bed. And for the record, I don’t use art that way. I’ve had this image in my head since the first time I saw you. I have to paint it.”
He took her hands. “I need to paint it. But I’ll make you a deal.”
“What’s the deal?”
“I won’t show it to anyone. When it’s finished, you’ll decide what to do with it.”
He recognized the look on her face—one of mulling and consideration.
And knew he had her.
“I decide?”
“I’ll trust you to be honest about it. You have to trust me to paint what I see, what I feel. Deal?”
“Red rose petals.” She angled her head. “I’m going to order a lot of them.”
* * *
SETH walked whistling into the boatyard the next morning. He carried a box of doughnuts, fresh from the bakery.
Cam was already at work, drilling turnbuckles into a hull.
“She’s a beauty,” Seth called out as he strolled up to the prettily proportioned yawl. “You guys must’ve busted tail to get her this close to finished so soon.”
“Yeah. She’s done except for a little brightwork, some details in the cabin. Client wants to pick her up Sunday.”
“Sorry I didn’t give you a hand the last couple days.”
“We managed.”
There wasn’t a sting in the tone, but there was the implication of one. “Where’s everybody?”
“Phil’s upstairs. Ethan and Aubrey are checking crab pots this morning. I’ve got Kevin coming in after school. Another week or so he’ll be sprung, put in more time.”
“Sprung? School’ll be over already? What the hell day is it?”
“You’d keep up better if you checked in at home once in a while.”
“I’ve been busy, Cam.”
“Yeah.” Cam set another turnbuckle. “So I hear.”
“What’re you pissed off about?” Seth tossed the bakery box onto the deck. “I’m here, aren’t I?”
“You sashay in and sashay out as the mood strikes you. Decide to come swaggering in today because you finally got lucky last night?”
“What’s it to you?”
“What’s it to me?” Cam set the drill aside, vaulted down to the floor—a quick blur of aggravated male. “You want to know what it is to me, you asshole? It’s a hell of a lot to me when you up and disappear for the best part of a week. You go around with some damn black cloud over your head, then hole up in your studio. It’s a hell of a lot to me when I have to watch Anna worrying because you can’t be bothered to tell us what the fuck’s going on. You think you can just walk back in here feeling fine because you finally got Dru’s skirt over her head?”
Guilt, which had begun to shimmer, exploded into a red flash of fury. Seth moved before he thought, shoving Cam back against the hull. “Don’t talk about her like that. She’s not some easy lay I used to scratch an itch. Don’t you ever talk about her like that.”
Cam knocked Seth back a full step. They were squared off now, nose to nose. Boxers who didn’t give a damn about the bell. “You don’t treat your family like this. Like a goddamn convenience.”
Temper was a vicious dog that snapped at both their throats.
“You want to go a round with me?” Cam invited as fists bunched.
“Hold it, hold it. Jesus Christ, hold it!” Phillip all but leaped between them, pushed them apart. “What the hell’s going on here? I could hear the two of you all the way upstairs.”
“Kid thinks he can take me,” Cam replied hotly. “I’m about to let him try.”
“Hell you are. You two want to pound on each other, you take it outside. As a matter of fact, Seth, you go. Cool off.” Phillip pointed toward the cargo doors and the dock beyond them. “You’ve been scarce enough around here lately, another few minutes isn’t going to matter.”
“This is between me and Cam.”
“This is a place of business,” Phillip corrected. “Our business, so that brings me into it. Keep it up, and the first one to take a punch at you may be me. I’ve had enough aggravation from you.”
“What the hell are you talking about?”
“I’m talking about keeping promises, remembering your responsibilities. I’m talking about having a client who expects a completed design, which you agreed to do. Where the hell is it, Seth?”
He opened his mouth, closed it. Drusilla’s sloop. He’d forgotten it. Just, he remembered, as he’d forgotten he’d told Anna he’d pick up the mulch she wanted for a new flower bed. And the ride he’d promised Bram in his new car.
As his anger turned inward, he stalked out of the cargo doors.
“Pissant,” Cam grumbled. “Needs a kick in the ass.”
“Why don’t you get off his back?”
Baffled, still steaming, Cam rounded on Phillip. “Well, fuck you. You’re the one who just finished stomping on him.”
“I’ve been as worried and annoyed as you have,” he shot back. “But that’s enough. He’s old enough to come and go as he pleases. When you were his age, you were racing around Europe and getting your hand up as many skirts as you could manage.”
“I never broke my word.”
“No.” Calmer now, Phillip looked out to where Seth stood on the end of the dock. “And from the look of him, he didn’t intend to break his either. How long are you going to let him stand out there feeling like shit?”
“A week or two ought to be enough.”
At Phillip’s steady stare, Cam hissed out a breath, and felt most of the temper expel with it. “Damn it. I must be getting old. I hate that. I’ll go deal with it.”
Seth heard the footsteps on the dock. He turned. Braced. “Go ahead and take a shot. But you only get the first one free.”
“Kid, I’ll only need one.”
“Christ, I’m sorry,” Seth blurted out. “I’m sorry I let you down. I’ll do whatever grunt work you need. I’ll get the design finished today. I’ll make it up to you.”
“Oh hell.” This time Cam raked his fingers through his hair. Who felt like shit now? he asked himself. “You didn’t let me down. You worried me, you pissed me off, but you didn’t let me down. Nobody expects you to give all your time to this place. Or to be at home every spare minute. Damn it, first Anna’s nagging at me because you’re home too much and she doesn’t think it’s
good for you. Then she’s ragging because you’re not home at all. How the hell did I get caught in the middle?”
“Just lucky, I guess. I had some things I had to take care of. That’s all. And I was working. I got caught up in it and forgot the rest. The family’s not a convenience for me, Cam. You can’t believe that. It’s a miracle. If it wasn’t for you—”
“Stop right there. This isn’t about old business, it’s about now.”
“I wouldn’t have a now without you.”
“You wouldn’t have one without Ray. None of us would. Leave it at that.” He jammed his hands in his pockets, looked out over the water.
Jesus, he thought. It didn’t matter how old a kid got. They were still yours.
“So, you’re serious about the sexy florist?”
Unconsciously Seth mirrored Cam’s stance, and now they looked over the water together. “It appears that way.”
“Maybe now that you’ve scratched that itch we’ll get some work out of you.”
“I seem to have some energy to spare this morning,” Seth replied.
“Yeah, it always worked that way for me, too. What kind of doughnuts did you pick up?”
They were okay, Seth thought. Somehow, no matter what went on, they came back to being okay. “Variety pack. I got dibs on the Bavarian cream.”
“I’m a jelly man myself. Let’s go before Phil finds them.”
They started back in together, then Seth stopped short. “Zucchini football.”
Color drained out of Cam’s cheeks. “What the hell did you say?”
“The Bread Bowl. The zucchini bread. She baked bread and you guys used it as a football. She told me.”
“When?” Shaken, Cam gripped Seth’s shoulders. “When did you see her?”
“I don’t know. I don’t. I dreamed it. Felt like I dreamed it,” he murmured. His stomach jittered, but it wasn’t unease he felt. It was, he realized, a kind of joy.
He’d spoken with Stella, he thought. He had a grandmother who’d shared a story with him.