The two men asked no questions. She reached into a section of her brain, touched it with paralysis, slid to Larien Selk’s mind. In his brain, too, a selected small section went numb. Then the controls she’d placed on him were flicked away.
He woke up. He had to be awake and aware for much of this, or her work would be immeasurably, perhaps impossibly, increased. But his wakefulness did result in considerable commotion, though much less than there would have been if Larien had been able to use his voice—or, by and by, Telzey’s. She’d silenced both for the time being. He couldn’t do more than go through the motions of screaming. Nor could he move around much, though he tried very hard.
For Larien, it was a terrifying situation. One moment, he’d been sitting before the screen, considering whether to nudge the console button which would cause a stimulant to be injected into Noal and bring him back to consciousness again for an hour or two. He enjoyed talking to Noal.
Then, with no discernible lapse in time, he sensed he was lying on his back, arms and legs stretched out, tied down. Simultaneously, however, he looked up from some point in midair at two tense-faced men who stood between him and the screen that peered into Noal’s bubble.
Larien concluded he’d gone insane. In the next few minutes, he nearly did. Telzey was working rapidly. It wasn’t nearly as easy work as it had been with a cooperating psi; but Larien lacked the understanding and ability to interfere with her, as a psi, who wasn’t cooperating, would have done. There was, of course, no question of a complete personality exchange here. But point by point, sense by sense, function by function, she was detaching Larien from all conscious contacts with his body. His bewildered attempts to retain each contact brought him into a corresponding one with hers—and that particular exchange had been made.
The process was swift. It was Larien’s body that struggled violently at first, tried to scream, strained against its fastenings. Telzey’s remained almost quiescent. Then both twisted about. Then his, by degrees, relaxed. The other body continued to twist and tug, eyes staring, mouth working desperately.
Telzey surveyed what had been done, decided enough had been done at this level. Her personality, her consciousness, were grafted to the body of Larien Selk. His consciousness was grafted to her body. The unconscious flows had followed the conscious ones.
She sealed the access routes to memory storage in the Telzey brain. The mind retained memory without the body’s help for a while. For how long a while was something she hadn’t yet established.
Time for the next step. She withdrew her contact with Larien’s mind, dissolved it. Then she cut her last mind links to her body. It vanished from her awareness. She lay in Larien Selk’s body, breathing with its lungs. She cleared its throat, lifted the paralysis she’d placed on the use of its voice.
“Dasinger!” the voice said hoarsely. “Wergard!”
Footsteps came hurrying over.
“Yes, he’s over there. I’m here . . . for now. I wanted you to understand so you wouldn’t worry too much.”
They didn’t say anything, but their faces didn’t look reassured. Telzey added, “I’ve got his . . . its voice cut off. Over there, I mean.”
What else should she tell them? She couldn’t think of anything; and she had a driving impatience now to get on with this horrid business, to get it done, if she could get it done. To be able to tell herself it was over.
“It’ll be a while before I can talk to you again,” Larien Selk’s voice told Wergard and Dasinger.
Then they vanished from her sight. Larien’s eyes—no longer in use—closed. Telzey had gone back to work. Clearing the traces of Larien’s memories and reaction patterns from his brain took time because she was very thorough and careful about it. She wanted none of that left; neither did she want to damage the brain. The marks of occupancy faded gradually, cleaned out, erased, delicately annihilated; and presently she’d finished. She sent out a search thought then to recontact the mind of Noal Selk in the brightly lit hell of his bubble, picked up the pattern almost at once and moved over into his mind.
He was unconscious, but something else here was conscious in a dim and limited way. Telzey turned her attention briefly to the organism which had been implanted in Noal. A psi creature, as she’d thought. The ability to differentiate so precisely between what was and was not immediately fatal to a creature not ordinarily its prey had implied the use of psi. The organism wasn’t cruel; it had no concept of cruelty. It was making a thrifty use of the food supply available to it, following its life purpose.
She eased into the body awareness from which Noal had withdrawn, dimming the pain sensations which flared up in her. It was immediately obvious that very extensive damage had been done. But a kind of functional balance lingered in what was left. The body lived as a body.
And the mind still lived as a mind, sustaining itself by turning away from the terrible realities about it as often as Noal could escape from pain into unconsciousness. She considered that mind, shifting about it and through it, knowing she was confronting the difficulty she’d expected. Noal couldn’t cling to this body; in intention, he already was detached from it. But that was the problem. He was trying, in effect, to become disembodied and remain that way.
He had a strong motivation. She should be able to modify it, nullify it eventually; but it seemed dangerous to tamper with Noal any more than she could help. There wasn’t enough left of him, physically or mentally, for that. He had to want to attach himself fully and consciously to a body again, or this wasn’t going to work. She could arouse him, bring him fully awake . . .
He would resist it, she thought.
But she might give him something he wouldn’t resist.
Noal dreamed.
It was a relaxed dream, universes away from pain, fear, savage treachery. He remembered nothing of Larien. He was on Cobril, walking along with a firm, quick stride in warm sunlight. He was agreeably aware of the strength and health of his body.
Something tugged at him.
Vision blurred startingly. Sound faded. The knowledge came that the thing that tugged at him was trying to drag him wholly away from his senses, out of himself, into unfeeling nothingness.
Terrified, he fought to retain sight and sound, to cling to his body.
Telzey kept plucking him away, taking his place progressively in the still functional wreckage left by the organism, barring him more and more from it. But simultaneously she made corresponding physical anchorages available for him elsewhere; and Noal, still dreaming, not knowing the difference, clung to each point gained with frantic determination. She had all the cooperation she could use. The transfer seemed accomplished in moments.
She told him soothingly then to go on sleeping, go on dreaming pleasantly. Presently, agitations subsiding, he was doing it.
And Telzey opened Noal Selk’s gummily inflamed and bloodshot eyes with difficulty, looked out into the metallic glittering of the bubble, closed the eyes again. She was very much here—too much so. Her pain shutoffs were operating as far as she could allow them to operate without hampering other activities, but it wasn’t enough. A sudden fresh set of twinges gave her a thought then; and she put the busy psi organism to sleep. At least, that part of it shouldn’t get any worse.
But she’d have to stay here a while. In this body’s brain was the physical storehouse of Noal’s memories, the basis of his personality. It was a vast mass of material; getting it all transferred in exact detail to the brain she’d cleared out to receive it was out of the question. It probably could be done, but it would take hours. She didn’t have hours to spare.
The essentials, however, that which made Noal what he was, should be transplanted in exact detail. She started doing it. It wasn’t difficult work. She’d doctored memories before this, and it was essentially the same process.
It was simply a question of how much she could get done before she had to stop. The physical discomforts that kept filtering into her awareness weren’t too serious a distract
ion. But there was something else that frightened her—an occasional sense of vagueness about herself, a feeling as if she might be growing flimsy, shadowy. It always passed quickly, but it seemed a warning that too much time was passing, perhaps already had passed, since she’d cut herself off from her own brain and body and the physical basis of memory and personality.
She paused finally. It should do. It would have to do. Her mind could absorb the remaining pertinent contents of this body’s brain in a few minutes, retain it until she had an opportunity to feed back to Noal whatever else he might need. It would be secondhand memory, neither exact nor complete. But he wouldn’t be aware of the difference, and no one who had known him would be able to tell there was a difference. She couldn’t risk further delay. There was a sense of something that had been in balance beginning to shift dangerously, though she didn’t yet know what it was.
She began the absorption process. Completed it. Went drifting slowly off then through nothing, through nowhere . . . Peered out presently again through puzzled sore eyes into the gleaming of the bubble.
Hot terror jolted through her—
“Dasinger!”
Dasinger turned from the couch on which the Larien body lay, came quickly across the room. “Yes?”
Wergard indicated the other figure in the armchair.
“This one seems to be coming awake again!”
Dasinger looked at the figure. It was slumped back as far as the padded fastenings which held its arms clamped against the sides of the chair permitted. The head lolled to the left, eyes slitted, blood-smeared mouth half open. “What makes you think so?” he asked.
The figure’s shoulders jerked briefly, almost as he spoke.
“That,” Wergard said. “It’s begun to stir.”
They watched, but the figure remained quiet now. Wergard looked at the screen. “Some slight change there, too!” he remarked. “Its eyes were open for a while. A minute ago, they closed.”
“Coinciding with the first indications of activity here?” Dasinger asked.
“Very nearly. What about the one on the couch?”
Dasinger shrugged. “Snoring! Seems to smile now and then. Nobody could be more obviously asleep.”
Wergard said, after a moment, “So it must be between these two now?”
“If she’s been doing what we think, it should be . . . There!”
The figure in the chair sucked in a hissing breath, head slamming up against the back rest. The neck arched, strained, tendons protruding like tight-drawn wires. Dasinger moved quickly. One hand clamped about the jaw; the other gripped the top of the skull. “Get something back in her mouth!”
Wergard already was there with a folded wet piece of cloth, wedged it in between bared teeth, jerked his fingers back with a grunt of pain. Dasinger moved his thumb up, holding the cloth in place. The figure was in spasmodic, violent motion now, dragging against the fastenings. Wergard placed his palms above its knees, pressed down hard, felt himself still being shifted about. He heard shuddering gasps, glanced up once and saw blue eyes glaring unfocused in the contorted face.
“Beginning to subside!” Dasinger said then.
Wergard didn’t reply. The legs he was holding down had relaxed, gone limp, a moment before. Howling sounds came from the screen, turned into a strangled choking, went silent. He straightened, saw Dasinger take the cloth from Telzey’s mouth. She looked at them in turn, moved her puffed lips, grimaced uncomfortably.
“You put your teeth through your lower lip a while ago,” Dasinger explained. He added, “That wasn’t you, I suppose. You are back with us finally, aren’t you?” She was still breathing raggedly. She whispered, “Not quite . . . almost. Moments!”
Animal sounds blared from the screen again. Their heads turned toward it. Wergard went over, cut off the noise, looked at the twisting face that had belonged to Noal Selk. He came back then and helped Dasinger free Telzey from the chair. She sat up and touched her mouth tentatively, reminding Wergard of his bitten finger. He looked at it.
Telzey followed his glance. “Did I do that, too?”
“Somebody did,” Wergard said shortly. He reached for one of the cloths they’d used to keep her mouth propped open, wrapped it around the double gash. “How do you feel, Telzey?”
She shifted her shoulders, moved her legs. “Sore,” she said. “Very sore. But I don’t seem to have pulled anything.”
“You’re back all the way?”
She drew a long breath. “Yes.” Wergard nodded. “Then let’s get this straight. Over there on the couch, asleep—that’s now Noal?”
“Yes,” Telzey said. “I’ll have to do a little more work on him because he doesn’t have all his memory yet. But it’s Noal—in everything that counts, anyway.”
“He doesn’t have all his memory yet,” Wergard repeated. “But it’s Noal!” He stared at her. “All right. And you’re you again.” He jerked his thumb at the screen. “So the one who’s down in the bubble now is Larien Selk?”
She nodded.
“Well—” Wergard shrugged. “I was watching it,” he said. He looked at Dasinger. “It happened, that’s all!”
He went to the screen console, unlocked the destruct switch, and turned it over. The screen went blank.
The three of them remained silent for some seconds then, considering the same thought. Wergard finally voiced it. “This is going to take a remarkable amount of explaining!”
“I guess it will,” Telzey said. “But we won’t have to do it.”
“Eh?” said Dasinger.
“I know some experts,” she told him. She climbed stiffly out of the chair. “I’d better get to work on Noal now, so we’ll have that out of the way.”
The Operator on Duty at the Psychology Service Center in Orado City lifted his eyebrows when he saw Telzey walking toward his desk in the Entry Hall. They’d met before. He pretended not to notice her then until she stopped before the desk.
He looked up. “Oh, it’s you,” he said indifferently.
“Yes,” said Telzey. They regarded each other with marked lack of approval.
“Specifically,” asked the Operator, “why are you here? I’ll take it for granted it has to do with your general penchant for getting into trouble.”
“I wouldn’t call it that,” Telzey said. “I may have broken a few Federation laws last night, but that’s beside the point. I’m here to see Klayung. Where do I find him?”
The Operator on Duty leaned back in his chair and laced his fingers.
“Klayung’s rather busy,” he remarked. “In any case, before we bother him you might explain the matter of breaking a few Federation laws. We’re not in that much of a hurry, are we?”
Telzey considered him reflectively.
“I’ve had a sort of rough night,” she said then. “So, yes—we’re in exactly that much of a hurry. Unless your shields are a good deal more solid now than they were last time.”
His eyelids flickered. “You wouldn’t be foolish enough to—”
“I’ll count to two,” Telzey said. “One.”
Klayung presently laid her report sheets down again, sat scratching his chin. His old eyes were thoughtful. “Where is he at present?” he asked.
“Outside the Center, in a Kyth ambulance,” Telzey told him. “We brought Hishee along, too. Asleep, of course.”
Klayung nodded. “Yes, she should have almost equally careful treatment. This is a difficult case.”
“You can handle it?” Telzey asked.
“Oh, yes, we can handle it. We’ll handle everything. We’ll have to now. This could have been a really terrible breach of secrecy, Telzey! We can’t have miracles, you know!”
“Yes, I know,” Telzey said. “Of course, the Kyth people are all right.”
“Yes, they’re all right. But otherwise—”
“Well, I know it’s going to be a lot of trouble for you,” she said. “And I’m sorry I caused it. But there really wasn’t anything else I could do.”
“No, it seems there really wasn’t,” Klayung agreed. “Nevertheless—well, that’s something I wouldn’t recommend you try very frequently!”
Telzey was silent a moment.
“I’m not sure I’d try it again for any reason,” she admitted. “At the end there, I nearly didn’t get back.”
Klayung nodded. “There was a distinct possibility you wouldn’t get back.”
“Were you thinking of having Noal go on as Noal?” Telzey inquired.
“That should be the simplest approach,” Klayung said. “We’ll see what the Make-up Department says. I doubt it would involve excessive structural modifications . . . You don’t agree?”
Telzey said, “Oh, it would be simplest, all right. But—well, you see, Noal was just nothing physically. He’s got a great body now. It would be a shame to turn him back to being a nothing again.” Klayung looked at her a moment.
“Those two have had a very bad time,” Telzey continued. “Due to Larien. It seems sort of fair, doesn’t it?”
“If he’s to become Larien Selk officially,” Klayung remarked, “there’ll be a great many more complications to straighten out.”
“Yes, I realize that,” Telzey said.
“Besides,” Klayung went on, “neither Noal nor Hishee might want him to look in the least like Larien.”
“Well, they wouldn’t now, of course,” Telzey agreed. “But after your therapists have cleared up all the bad things Larien’s done to them, it might be a different matter.”
Klayung’s sigh was almost imperceptible. “All right. Supposing we get the emotional and mental difficulties resolved first, and then let the principals decide for themselves in what guise Noal is to resume his existence. Would that be satisfactory?”
Telzey smiled. “Thanks, Klayung!” she said. “Yes, very satisfactory!”
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