“Well, I don’t think you should transfer to UW unless you really want to,” Mom says, increasingly blustery, as if the words will cut her tongue if she says them too slowly. “NYU was your dream. You shouldn’t give it up, no matter what your father says.”
I frown. She’s all over the place. But more importantly, she’s breaking with my dad’s line again, which is even stranger.
“Layla, do you have enough money?”
If I wasn’t already sitting, that question would have bowled me over. My mother, one half of the “earn what you get” Barros pair, is asking me about my financial situation? Is the world on fire or something?
I don’t literally know how to answer. “Ah…”
“I’m going to send you some money,” Mom hurries on. “I know how expensive that city is. You should be focusing on your grades, not working yourself to death.”
“But, what about…Dad says…” I’m stumbling. What is going on here?
“This is what family is for,” Mom says. “I’ll send you a check in the mail tomorrow. It should be there next week. Deposit it right away, understand?”
I push my hand back into my hair. I cannot believe what I am hearing. “Um, yeah. Okay. No problem.”
I want to ask how much. Is she talking twenty bucks here? A few hundred? A few thousand? I don’t want to get my hopes up, and I’m afraid if I ask, she’ll back out of the whole thing. Because the truth is, I could really, really use the extra cash. A little bit more, and I won’t have any more debt to pay off. And then I could start saving for the summer.
I’m just about to suggest as much when my mom interrupts me.
“Layla?” There’s a little more strength in her voice, like now that she’s gotten out something she’d been holding onto for a while, she can speak with her normal, even cadence.
“Yeah?”
A deep breath. Okay, maybe not quite so much confidence as I’d originally thought.
“Don’t tell your father,” she says quickly, and then with a hurried “I love you,” she hangs up.
“Dude, did someone die?”
I look up to find Vinny standing in front of me, two pairs of jeans draped over his forearm. He looks a little worried, which means the expression on my face must look way worse.
“You know,” I say as I stand up. “I’m not quite sure.”
Chapter Twenty-Nine
Nico
It’s close to noon when I roll up to Layla’s dorm on Saturday. I’ve been looking forward to this for the last two weeks. Layla’s the brightest spot in my life right now, and I need more of that brightness. After telling K.C. that I wasn’t going to be coming out to LA after all, I had to listen to him badger me for close to an hour, and almost every day since.
“I can’t believe you,” he kept saying. “You’re finally free. Gabe’s almost out of school. No more kids to watch over, no more field trips to sign. What are you doing?”
He threatened to tell Jessie and all of our other friends on me, and after that, started listing all the reasons why I had wanted to leave New York in the first place.
Shitty job.
Shitty family.
Shitty apartment.
Shitty everything.
Except her. In the middle of the slog, there’s Layla, sitting at her desk every day waiting for me. But I need more than a kiss or two behind the desk and the occasional lunch break. I need to know that I’m making the right decision staying here for her.
I wait outside her dorm, ignoring the curious looks from her classmates as they check me out. I know what I look like: older dude creeping outside the dorm. In my faded t-shirt and old Yankees cap, my tattoos sticking out of the sleeves and the St. Christopher medallion hanging on a chain, I don’t exactly look like the nice Connecticut kids who go to this school. A few of the girls scan me up and down––there’s that familiar look, half scared, half curious. Nothing like the kind, open way Layla looks at me. The way I hope she’ll never stop looking at me.
“Hey,” she says when I call up to her dorm. “You downstairs?”
Just the sound of her voice makes my chest tight. One day I’m going to get up the guts to tell her how I really feel. Maybe today.
“Yeah,” I say. “Do you want to sign me in, or are you ready?”
Part of me hopes she’ll say no, even though I know if I get her alone right now, we won’t leave her room for the rest of the day. And that’s not what I have planned.
“No, I’m ready. Be down in a few.”
I see her before she sees me, and for a second, I can’t breathe. She’s wearing this red thing that’s hugging her body like a second skin. I’d march her upstairs to change if I could say anything at all—that’s how hot she looks. It doesn’t look like she’s wearing much makeup or anything. Instead, she’s simple, with her hair in a braid over her shoulder, pulled back so her blue eyes shine, a little too big in her face these days. My heart practically stops. That’s the thing about Layla. She has no fucking clue how beautiful she really is.
She finds me, and her wide-eyed features move to a smirk. She can see my reaction—I’m doing nothing to hide it. I suck on my bottom lip, shift my weight onto one leg, and actually stumble backward, almost missing the lamppost before finally I manage to find my way to her. Then she laughs, the sound of it filling the street and my whole body, and bounds down the last few steps from the building and into my waiting arms.
“Damn,” I mutter as I push up the brim of my hat so I can see her better.
I slip a hand around her tiny waist and pull her close while still taking her in. God, how does she always smell this good? “That is some dress, baby. You look smokin’.”
She grins, and my heart swells.
“Thanks.”
“What’s the occasion? I thought we were just going to the park.” I gesture toward the backpack I have over my shoulder. “I brought a lunch.”
“You packed a picnic?” she practically squeals. Damn, she’s cute when she’s excited. “No one has ever packed me a picnic before!”
“It’s nothing big,” I mumble. “Just some bagels and stuff. I thought you might be hungry.”
And right then, I blush. I doubt she can see it, but I can feel my face get hot just the same. Who knew packing some food could make her so freaking happy? I grin again. I can’t help it. She’s so damn adorable, and when she smiles at me like that, all the other shit in my life melts away.
Layla tips up onto her toes to kiss my cheek, but I turn at the last second and capture her lips, pulling her even closer. I savor her, enjoying her mouth, the way it makes the rest of the world disappear. Unfortunately, the taste of her also shoots straight to my cock, and I’m already regretting not asking her just to sign me in. It’s obvious I’m not the only one feeling hard up. My hand slips down and lightly squeezes her ass before I groan and force myself to stop. She doesn’t need me mauling her in the middle of the street.
“Aah,” I moan lightly against her lips. “Maybe we just need to go back up to your room instead. Fuck the park. I need you more than bagels.”
But Layla just groans back with humor and frustration and pushes her head into my chest.
“My roommates,” she mumbles against my collarbone. “They’re all there right now. No go.”
I close my eyes. “Damn. Of course they are.” Because that’s just the kind of luck I have.
Checking to make sure curious students aren’t watching us anymore, I adjusted the front of my pants. The Mets. My counselor at Tryon. My mother’s plumbing problems. Okay, that about did the trick.
“All right, beautiful,” I say. “The park it is. And then mi casa for sure.”
* * *
Two hours later, we’re lying in the middle of Sheep Meadow on the threadbare blanket I brought, our bellies full of bagels. We’re surrounded by at least a few hundred other New Yorkers taking advantage of the warmer-than-average April weather. This goddamn city. If you’re not living in some tiny box, you can’t get
away from fucking people. All I want is to be alone with Layla, and other than my shitty apartment, there’s literally nowhere else for us to go.
Layla’s shucked her sweater and lies with her head on my thigh, clearly enjoying the sunshine. She’s nearly asleep, but I’m just entranced, watching my girl all blissed out. The sun bounces off her soft skin, and her lips are curved into a small, sweet smile. I’ve started drawing her from time to time, usually like this, when she’s asleep or almost there. She doesn’t know it. The drawings are just for me, reminders of why I’m staying.
I toy with the thin straps of her dress, pulling them over her shoulders, then putting them back, running the backs of my fingernails over the delicate bones of her clavicle, up the long line of her neck. It’s meditative, even though I can tell by the way her nipples perk through her dress that she’s turned on. I am too...but now I’m not in as much of a hurry to get her alone. I don’t get a lot of moments like this. Moments where everything is perfect.
Layla opens her eyes, lazy, contented, the same bluebird color as the sky. Then she registers the touch of my fingers grazing across her sternum, and a spark reappears.
I quirk a black brow. “You keep lookin’ at me like that, NYU, and you’re asking for some trouble.”
Her lips curve into a smirk. “Promise?”
So it’s like that, huh? I know from past conversations that Layla can be kind of competitive. I’m not normally so much, but she’s fun to play with. This is how we ended up doing it like rabbits on the balcony of her dorm—I bet her she wouldn’t have the guts.
Glancing around to make sure no one is looking at us, I slip my fingers, the ones toying with her dress, down a little farther to tickle the swell of her breast through the fabric. My thumb brushes over her nipple, once, twice. Her mouth falls open in surprise.
I raise one eyebrow. “Too much for you, NYU?”
Her surprise flattens, and she rises to the challenge, just like I knew she would.
“Bring it,” she mouths.
Before I know it, I flip her onto her back, one arm braced behind her head. I don’t know what it is about Layla, but she turns me into a predator in the space of a second. My shoulders block the sunlight over her, but she doesn’t care as she stares up at me with naked desire. Then she closes her eyes, clearly ready to be kissed.
And I can’t...move. It’s like every nerve in me is stalled, unable to move. I’m...paralyzed. Layla brings out so much in me––awe, lust, fear, adoration. Love. The word echoes through my head, just like it did when Flaco said it. And suddenly I feel like I can’t breathe.
So instead of kissing her, which is all I really want to do, I sit up and pull my hat down over my face.
Layla opens her eyes. “Hey. What just happened?”
“Nothing.”
I squint into the sunlight. Layla props up onto her elbows, not bothering to hide her disappointment.
“What are you talking about? What happened to bringing it?”
Fuck. I swipe my hat off my head, then put it right back on. “Well, you seemed short of breath. We’ve been out a while. I don’t want to overwhelm you, you know. You have been sick.”
It’s a stupid excuse. Layla is plenty healthy, and I’m being a chicken shit. I’m a scared little kid, scared to tell her how I really feel. About this city. About my life. About her.
She pushes herself up completely.
“Stop that,” she says.
I turn the bill of my hat around so she can see my face. “What? Stop what?”
“Talking.”
Before I can respond, she grabs a handful of my shirt and crushes her lips to mine. A groan escapes, buried deep in my throat. Every doubt I’ve had is suddenly gone, swallowed by the taste of her. Of Layla.
It takes me a second, but then I’m meeting her kiss for urgent kiss, snaking an arm around her waist and lifting her into my lap to bring our bodies closer, as close as we can. Somehow the hem of her dress pushes past her knees with the movement, and as she begs my lips to open with sweet, urgent flicks of her tongue, I palm her thigh, only inches from her ass, that part of her I can’t ever get enough of. She fits. We fit. Better than I ever thought possible.
She winds her arms around my neck, welcoming me closer, without a care in the world about the fact that we have an audience of literally hundreds surrounding our very public display of affection. But one of us has to be smart about this. I don’t give a fuck about what people think about me, but I’m pretty sure that neither Layla nor her uptight parents would appreciate videos of their daughter showing up on the internet.
I pull away and find another couple sitting a few feet from us watching over the tops of their sunglasses with disapproving looks. “Get a room,” one of them mutters before they both turn back to their newspapers. Layla buries her face into my neck in embarrassment, oblivious to the way the feel of her lips only make the, ah, problem in my pants get that much...harder.
“We should probably take their advice.” I gently bite her earlobe in that way that always makes her whimper. Fuck, I’d take her right here if it wouldn’t get us both arrested.
I’d take her for the rest of my life.
Fuck, Nico. What are you doing?
She shivers. “Let’s go,” she murmurs. “Now.”
We pack up the picnic in record time and practically sprint across the field onto one of the paths that lines the surrounding area. Both of us are laughing almost uncontrollably. I pull her onto one path, then another, until we’re running under green wood arches of the Central Park Dairy, which is by some miracle empty. We twist around, arms about each other’s waists, sneaking kisses until finally we slam against one of the doors, and I bury my face in the soft skin of Layla’s neck all over again.
The backpack hits the floor. Her mouth meets mine in a frenzy, nipping and sucking, twisting and diving with my tongue until we are both completely out of breath.
“How…ah…how well do you know…this park?” she gasps in between hurried kisses.
I chew on my lower lip before kissing her again. “Better than most. Why?”
You know why, you bastard. It’s all over her innocent face. Well, maybe not-so-innocent.
I press my forehead against the door over her shoulder, then glance from side to side, nervous of the onlookers I know will eventually come upon us here. It’s a visitor’s center, after all.
Then I look back at her, tensing when her hands reach around to my ass and grab, hard. Fuuuuuuck.
“I...I don’t think I can wait,” she whispers in a throaty voice. “To get to your apartment, I mean.”
Sex is painted clearly across her sweet face. Her lips fall open into a shape that would fit perfectly around my—
My hands tighten even more around her thighs. “Are you serious? Because I ain’t fuckin’ around, Layla. You have no idea what I’m feeling right now, baby.”
“Oh, I think I do.” Heavy-lidded, she rolls her hips against the fucking pipe I have in my jeans, which grows even harder when she moans a little.
Jesus Christ. This girl is seriously going to be the death of me.
Layla sucks on my lower lip like a lollipop, slips her tongue into my mouth, and welcomes me into hers. My arms hold her up, hold her close. I feel her light that I increasingly depend on to keep me steady in this dreary life. I’m a drowning man, and she’s my anchor.
I lift her off the ground and stumble us into a hidden alcove off the main arched corridor of the old wood building. I’m not sure how I even know it’s there—it’s like I have some weird sixth sense for where we need to go to be together. With the sky quickly covering with clouds and the new green of the trees offering a bit of cover from all the eyes around us, this is the best sanctuary we can get, the closest thing to a corner all our own. With Layla in my arms, open and eager, the rest of the city fades away.
Her body is warm. Her hands are everywhere, finding their way under the hem of my shirt, yanking at the buttons of my jeans, even as I’
m shoving her skirt up and pulling her underwear to the side. The humidity is rising—it’s like we want to melt into each other, and everything else is just in the way.
“Hold on,” I mutter as she tries to steer me inside her. It’s hard to find the condom in the back of my jeans with her lips fused to mine, but I manage to get it and put it on.
I can’t hear, see, sense anything but her. It doesn’t matter that we’re in the middle of the day. It doesn’t matter that we’re in the middle of this fuckin’ zoo we call a park. All I can think about is her, how badly I need to be inside her right fuckin’ now.
And then our bodies find each other, and I can’t think at all. I move automatically, and she arches violently as I spear her against the rough wall. She’s as desperate as I am, wriggling against me, eager to find that friction I know she needs to get off.
“Fuck!” My voice is hoarse; I’m struggling to be quiet. There are voices down the path, but for now we’re still hidden by the trees.
I bury my face in her neck as I pound away. Her nails bite into my shoulders as she whimpers in my ear. I’m so close, but I can feel by the way she’s tightening around me that she’s right there with me. Come on, Nico. You gotta last a little longer. Football. Dirty socks. Cockroaches.
“Please,” I whisper.
“Nico!” she cries, almost too loud.
But she’s coming—finally. I can feel it in the way her entire body tightens around me, the way her fingers tear at my skin, how her thighs turn to rocks around my waist. I cover her mouth with mine as I let go myself, shoving into her with one last painful, beautiful thrust. Our muscles throb. Our bones shake together, in waves that match the ebbs and flows of the wind blowing through the leaves above us.
Slowly, slowly, her feet fall to the ground. I feel the slick of her as I slide out and her skirt falls back into place. Layla takes in a deep breath. I try to remember how to breathe at all. But my hands don’t leave her waist. I’m stuck in place, my forehead pressed against hers for a few more blissful moments before I finally reach down to get rid of the condom.
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