by Zane Grey
“Is that all?” she inquired.
“All? Good God! What would you want? Have him beat me up like he did that cowboy?”
“I thought perhaps he might.”
“You’d have been an orphan all right, if he had... Janey, you don’t mean you’re dead sore at me?”
“You are an unnatural parent,” returned Janey, beginning to revel.
“Why, I thought I’d been the easiest dad any girl ever had,” he protested, not without pain. “Our friends always took me to task for giving you freedom — everything you wanted.”
“Yes. But never the love I was so hungry for,” said Janey, cruelly.
“Janey!” he exclaimed, amazed and shocked. “I always worshiped you — and spoiled you. This miserable trick I played on you — that’s turned out so badly — why it was a proof of — of—”
“Not of faith, Father,” she interrupted, coldly.
“Faith! Of course it was faith. I swore to myself that our rotten life in the East had not yet ruined you.”
“Please do not argue with me,” she returned, sweetly. “The thing’s done. You have ruined me, that’s certain. And I’ll never, never forgive you.”
This so crushed him that she had to leave before she must yield to an irresistible softness. And by way of a counter-irritant she went over to talk to the Durlands. They were cold and reserved at first, but presently her sad face, and the struggle she apparently was making to keep up, quite warmed Mrs. Durland. Her son, however, came around slowly. Finally he broke out in a tirade against Randolph and her father.
“Yes, I know, Bert, they’re all you say and more. But that doesn’t help me. I was perfectly innocent. You know what kind of a girl I am.”
“You bet I do. But, Janey, that about coming here willingly? Then you stood up so — so wonderfully and said you loved him!”
“You ninny. I was trying to save his life,” protested Janey.
“It was great of you, old girl, believe me,” replied Bert, fervently. “And I believe you did.”
Janey decided the Durlands would be hard to handle. Under her direct influence they would respond, but once away from it they would be likely to gossip, unless she could make them loyal to her. On the face of it that seemed an impossible task. And she was silly to hope for it, selfish to ask for it. She began to stroll around, hoping to get a peep at Randolph, conscious of a sneaking delight. She saw Bennet returning to camp, but the archaeologist had vanished. Could it be possible that the man was again digging for Beckyshibeta? If so she would have to hand him a laurel wreath. She could not, however, venture to find out, and had to content herself with waiting.
Out of sight of camp Janey found a lofty perch in the sun and there she succumbed to the glory and dream of this canyon country. There was no sense or use in trying to resist its charm. But it was a way with Janey to try to understand what got the best of her. This place had taken hold of her heart.
What was the spell of this deep fissure in the rocks? She dreamily attended to her senses. It had such a strange sweet dry fragrance, with sage predominating, but with other perfumes almost as clean and insidious. It was as colorful ‘as a rainbow. It changed with the movements of the sun, never very long the same. It had mystic veils of light, rose and pink at dawn, amber and gold at this hour of high noon, and in the afternoon with shadows lengthening, deepening into lilac, purple, black. Then the immensity of the cliffs, the lofty rims, the far higher domes and mesas beyond, the hundreds of inaccessible and fascinating places where only squirrels and birds could rest — these added to the spell. Not a little, too, was the evidence of a wild people once having lived and fought and died here. Perhaps loved! Lastly Janey was discovering the blessedness of solitude, the something leveling in loveliness, the elevating power of the naked sheer walls with their inscrutable meaning.
All of which led to a consciousness of the thing that had come to her. She called it “thing,” when she confessed to her soul that it was new, transforming, exalting love. And she dared not give in to that just yet. When she must, when she could no longer stand the old Janey Endicott, when pride and vanity, and the host of other faults must go by the board, then she would face the truth and its appalling problems. She had a tremendous consciousness that she would engulf all — this marvelous desert, her aging, worrying father, her friends — and Randolph. And it was going to hurt almost mortally.
Janey returned to camp. Sight of Randolph thrilled yet shocked her. That hour alone in the canyon had transformed him in her mind. And the reality of him was confounding.
Evidently she had interrupted a conference, or at least an argument. She caught Randolph’s slight gesture to enjoin silence.
“Wal, Randolph,” said Bennet. “I reckon Miss Janey needn’t be excluded.”
“If I’m intruding,” replied Janey, haughtily, turning to go.
Bennet detained her. “We was jest talkin’,” he said, “an’ mebbe you might put a word in. Randolph has lost his job. Mr. Elliot, haid of the New York Museum, is now at the post, waitin’ for some of his men to come over from New Mexico. ‘Pears he’s been agin Randolph’s explorations out heah. Wants to find Beckyshibeta himself. After Randolph has dug up the desert! Wal, he took this unauthorized trip of Randolph’s out heah as an excuse, an’ fired him. Your father feels bad aboot bein’ to blame, and he offered Randolph substantial means to go on with his explorations on his own hook. Randolph turned it down cold... What do you think aboot it?”
“I! Oh, I think it very unfortunate and distressing that Phil — Mr. Randolph should be discharged — and disgraced through father’s idiotic scheme,” replied Janey. “Certainly father could do no less than offer to repair the material loss. And just as certainly Mr. Randolph could not accept it.”
“Why not?” demanded Endicott.
“Well, Dad, if you’re so dense you can’t see why — I am not going to enlighten you.”
“Thank you, Miss Endicott,” said Randolph. “You understand, at least.”
Endicott might have exploded then, if he had had energy enough left to express himself as he looked. As it was, his first exclamation was unintelligible and scarcely mild. Then he added: “If you temperamental young fools weren’t loggerheads I could still save the situation.”
“Yes, you could,” declared Randolph, sarcastically. “Endicott, my private opinion is that you might save your face if—”
“See here, you hot-headed jackanapes!” interrupted Endicott. “You’ve insulted me enough.”
“I could still add injury to insult,” retorted Randolph.
Here Bennet stepped in and tried his Western common sense and kindliness. Janey had been thinking desperately. What astounded her now was that she simply could not stand Randolph’s unhappiness. She, who had wanted to make him writhe and moan and curse himself with remorse!
“Mr. Randolph, may I have a word with you alone?” she asked, very businesslike. No one could have guessed there was a lump in her throat.
“Certainly,” he said, with freezing politeness, “if you consider it necessary.”
He went aside with her, manifestly with misgivings. Janey heard her father whisper to Bennet, “Now what’s she up to? There’s no telling about a woman.”
Janey maintained an outward composure. She could rise to the moment and this one was big.
“Will you make me a promise?” she asked.
“I couldn’t very well be surprised at you. And if you’ll pardon my bluntness — no, I won’t,” he replied.
Janey was looking with a woman’s penetrating intuitive eyes into his face; and what she read there made the ordeal worse, yet gave her a hint of the assurance she needed.
“Well then, if you make me a promise — will you keep it?” she continued, steadily.
“Yes. If!”
“Do you recall the last time I was around where you were digging?”
“I’m not likely to forget it.”
“I am going to tell you the honest truth.”
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“Miss Endicott, are you capable of that?” he asked, acidly.
“If you were big enough to fight for my honor you can be big enough to give me the benefit of the doubt — when I particularly appeal to you. Will you?”
That struck him deep. He lost his grim cold look of doubt and became merely wretched.
“I’m not quite myself. But tell me what you want to.”
“If I reveal something to you will you promise never to tell it to anyone?” she asked, hurriedly and low.
“I don’t see any need of your revealing secrets to me,” he replied.
“Will you promise?” she went on, appealing as well with her eyes.
“You can trust me,” he said, surrendering in spite of himself.
“Thank you. The secret you have promised to keep is that I have found Beckyshibeta for you,” she whispered. “Go at once far beyond that place where I crossed and risked my life — where I taunted you and you told me to go to the devil... Go high up around the great cracked leaning rock. Find a stairway of little cut steps in the stones. Follow them. They will lead you to Beckyshibeta. Don’t doubt. Don’t laugh. But go!”
Janey did not wait to see his incredulity or to hear whatever he might have to say. She hurried away, up to her ledge. When she sank to her knees upon her bed, and looked back, Randolph had disappeared. Soon he would learn that her words had not been idle. The greatest ambition of his life attained! Beckyshibeta! How would he return to her?
CHAPTER 13
JANEY HAD ANTICIPATED peace, satisfaction, relief from her whirling thoughts. But she was wrong. Suppose it had not been Beckyshibeta at all? What a horrible mistake! Her eloquence, her exaction of a sacred promise, her cool certainty had convinced Randolph. But she might have been wrong. How could she be sure about cliff dwellings?
So she was tortured. How to make amends to Randolph if she had blundered! Of course she could give him herself. It did not seem possible that she could rival Beckyshibeta in this mad scientist’s valuation; nevertheless she might be some little consolation. That would be what she must do; that was what she had intended for long endless growing hours. Only it would have to be done at once, right there where this catastrophe had happened, instead of waiting until she felt utterly and forever avenged.
An hour passed, surely an hour Janey would never want to live over. The camp was deserted. She had not heard anyone leave. And presently she felt that she could not lie there any longer, waiting in actionless suspense. She must move around, do something.
Janey wandered in the opposite direction to the one she was sure the others had taken. She went round under the cliffs farther on that side than she had ever been. But for once the speaking walls had no power of solace. She was not ready to take stock of her own spiritual needs. It was Randolph of whom she was thinking. If she had actually discovered Beckyshibeta she would presently be the most fortunate — the happiest of women. She did not try now to reason out why. It was something she most devoutly believed and prayed for.
She found a clump of sage and lingered in it, reveling in its fragrance and color. She gathered an armful of the sprigs, meaning to treasure them in a pillow, to have near her a memory-stirring sweetness of the desert. Then she sat down with the sage in her lap, and tried to plan clearly her procedure from this hour. But she could only dream, because everything was uncertain.
Time passed, however, and upon her return to camp she found all the others there, except Randolph. At first glance they appeared to be friendly enough. There must be some occasion for intimate talk. Then her father spotted her and came running. Janey sighed with relief. Mr. Endicott was not given to overexertion in ordinary movements or when he was gloomy.
“I’ve had the very devil of good luck,” he announced, as he reached her, and quite forgetful of a former state of mind he put his arm around her and squeezed her.
“You have? Well, that’s fine,” replied Janey, yielding to him, as he pulled her to a seat on a rock.
“Randolph and I have made up,” said Mr. Endicott, with great pleasure and satisfaction.
“Made up! Indeed? I did not imagine it possible that he would ever forgive you — either.” Janey added the “either” as an afterthought. It quite escaped Mr. Endicott.
“Janey, the lucky dog discovered the lost pueblo — Beckyshibeta!” exclaimed her father.
“Oh! — How wonderful!”
“It’s true. And, well, I don’t know when I’ve been so glad about anything.”
“Tell me about it,” said Janey, composedly, although she kept her face half averted.
“Bennet was showing us the ruins,” went on Endicott, wiping his hot face. “We ran into Randolph. I declare I thought he was crazy. So did Bennet. At first we did not take him at all seriously. He convinced us finally. He had discovered Beckyshibeta — the pueblo about which archaeologists have been raving for years. Quite by a strange lucky accident. He was radiant. I never saw a man so completely happy. He was so absurdly grateful to me for sending him out here. Why, the fellow embraced me. I was embarrassed, remembering how he treated me a few hours before... Janey, he had actually forgotten. I declare it upset me — I was so glad. I like Randolph, and when I queered myself with him it hurt. He’s one of the finest chaps I ever knew!”
“I’m glad — for his sake and yours,” rejoined Janey. “This discovery must mean a great deal to him?”
“I didn’t understand that until after he rushed off again,” replied Endicott. “Bennet told me! It means fame and money to Randolph. In one word — success. Scientifically this is a very important discovery. Beckyshibeta is one of the greatest pueblos, says Bennet. An ancient buried city! Then the best of it is that Randolph was not working for the museum people when he found the pueblo. He was all on his own. That upstage Elliot, you know, fired him. Bennet says Elliot will practically expire. Randolph will have the credit, and everything else that comes with it. The work of excavation will be under his control, instead of Elliot’s. I’m just tickled over it.”
“Excavation,” mused Janey. “He will undertake that? Won’t it be expensive?”
“I’ll back him. It’s a big thing,” replied
Mr. Endicott, heartily.
“Do you think he would accept that?”
“Phillip has already accepted,” went on her father, happily. “He said he could raise any amount of money. The government would want to help. Patrons of scientific research would want to donate — to have their names connected with Beckyshibeta. But I beat them to it. And Phil was delighted.”
“Where is — he now?” asked Janey, with her glance downcast upon the bunch of sage. It would never have done for her to let anyone see her eyes then.
“He went back. Bennet and I tried to follow him. But he crossed a terrible place. We’d have broken our necks. So we returned to camp.”
It was night with silvery radiance streaming down over the dark canyon rims. The moon was rising. Janey lay in her blankets, waiting to see the white disk slide up over the black ragged rockline above. She had not cared to trust meeting Randolph at the campfire, and pleading fatigue had retired to her ledge, where her father brought her supper.
Randolph did not return until the others had finished their meal; and then he quite forgot to eat. His ragged appearance attested to hours of contact with the rough rocks, and his radiant face to the discovery that had made him a changed man. While he talked to Bennet and Endicott his glance went so often toward Janey’s perch that she feared she might be caught peeping. But she was in dark shadow there, and could revel in watching and listening. If she had ever seen three happy men it was then.
The Durlands had thawed considerably. They hovered around Randolph, fascinated, and warming to the man’s enthusiasm. When at last they went off to their shack, Bennet said: “Wal, Endicott, can you dig up a drink?”
“No. I didn’t bring any,” replied Endicott, regretfully.
“How aboot you, Randolph?”
“I had some for p
ossible snakebite, but it leaked out.”
Bennet turned over his saddle and procured a flask. “Heah, friends, we’ll drink to Beckyshibeta!”
What a long time they were in getting ready for bed! At last Randolph was left alone. He sat for what seemed an endless hour, gazing into the ruddy dying fire. What was he thinking about? Fame and fortune, the goddesses of all men’s ambitions, thought Janey, jealously. Certainly he did not appear to remember her.
The moon soared across the narrow opening between the rims of rock above; the dark shadow on one side of the canyon moved magically across to the other. An impenetrable silence enfolded the lonely place. Janey had sat up peeping until her back ached. Several times she lay down again, only to rise up and peep once more. Randolph was a magnet. She laughed happily under her breath as she watched him. If he but knew!
Endicott and Bennet lay prone in their beds, deep in slumber. It touched Janey to see the silver of her father’s hair, bright in the moonlight.
Randolph glanced rather markedly and long at them. Then stepping noiselessly he entered the zone of shadow and vanished. But soon the outline of his head and shoulders were silhouetted against the moonlight. Janey gave a wild start and shrank back. He was climbing to her ledge.
The sudden burning of her face and beating of her heart accompanied a panic she could not quell. But she covered herself with the blankets and feigned sleep. To her own eyes it had been almost as bright as day up there.
But Randolph, coming from the open moonlight, would find it dark. Yet if he stayed long enough! A child could read her heart in her face. She heard a slight rustling on the rock, and she began to tremble. Next she felt his presence. He was there, gazing down upon her. How could she lie still? What was his intention? Then she realized that he would surely awaken her, and she sought to still her nerves. Something lightly brushed her hair. His hand or his lips? Another instant she knew, for she caught a slight sound of intense breathing very close to her face. He had kissed her hair. If he dared to kiss her lips her rigid arms would fly up round his neck. She knew it. She waited, surrendering in her heart, ready to end the fight royally.