“What the hell are you hoping to find?” he asked himself, sweeping the beam from left to right as he navigated the alley. His voice echoed through the darkness, bouncing back at him from three different angles. He hated the sound of it.
Heading farther in, Morgan found there was nothing to see down here, save for a dumpster and a couple of black trash bags torn to shreds by cats. Food waste littered the ground, trailing to the far back where the alley opened onto the adjacent street. Morgan was no fool; he understood too quickly that this meant he was out of luck. Guilt and grief overtook him then, the realization that he couldn’t help Gary causing him to feel like a disappointment. He hadn’t promised he would find anything—in fact he’d said he probably wouldn’t—but that still didn’t make it any easier. The killer had taken the uniform and run through here, but there was no picking up the trail after that, so what was he expected to do? Morgan had no idea where to go next, but he was certain he couldn’t make something of nothing.
He just hoped Gary saw it that way too.
Chapter Seven
Less than ten minutes had passed before Morgan found himself at the bus stop. He was too impatient to sit and too stressed to stand still, so he kept to pacing back and forth while running the events through his head. It was a lot of information to process.
Even before the case came into play, it was hard to stifle the guilt of leaving Rachel on her birthday. She’d encouraged him to go with Gary, but she probably had no idea it would turn into a night-long work event. As usual, she’d be more than happy that Morgan was finding work again—despite that it was pro bono—as his home office had long ago become nothing more than a dusty old room. But cases like this got the brain ticking, and that was what kept him happy. Perhaps those feelings showed, or even contributed, to their relationship.
Then there was the case itself. Flashes of Gary’s heartbroken expression—the bloodshot eyes, his solemn tone of voice—intruded on Morgan’s memory. He wanted to be there for his best friend, but how could he? There was nothing to go on. At least not at this stage.
Shivering in the cold fall night, Morgan buttoned up his jacket and squeezed his elbows to his sides. He stared toward the end of the road, hoping the bus would hurry the hell up so he could get home to his wife. But there was no bus, only a pair of headlights creeping toward him like the eyes of a curious monster stalking its prey.
Morgan squinted into the distance, raising a hand to shield out the bright light. As the car drew nearer, a wave of relief washed over him, and he knew there would be no more waiting for a bus that may or may not come. “Gary?”
Gary stopped the car beside him, leaning toward the open window. “Get in.”
He didn’t have to be told twice; Morgan was in the car as fast as his numbing legs would allow, the car moving again before he could even fasten his seat belt. “I have to say, I’m pretty glad to see you out and about. It’s colder than it looks out there.”
“I was in the neighborhood,” Gary said, his eyes fixed on the road.
“Of course you were.”
“What about you?”
“Me?” Morgan said.
“Did you check out Pizza Palace?”
“I did.”
“And?”
Morgan wasn’t quite sure how to tell him without just blurting it out, so that was exactly what he did. “A guy over there had his uniform stolen. I spoke to him and watched the footage. His story checks out. As for the thief, I think he’s our killer, but that’s all we’ll ever know about him. Unfortunately, there’s nothing more to add.”
An uncomfortable silence filled the car.
Morgan waited for a response that never came.
“I’m sorry,” he said.
Gary waved a dismissive hand, then slid it back onto the wheel. “You’re too good an investigator to quit so soon. I’m sure you’ll find something to put us back on track. What about the victim’s neighbors? Planning to do the rounds?”
“Doing the rounds” was more of a police procedure. It entailed knocking on every door on the crime scene’s street to ask if anyone saw anything. It was a mind-numbing waste of time according to Morgan, and he only ever did it as a last resort. Even then, it rarely turned up any results. “I’m sure the MPD will take care of that.”
“Right, and then put the case down as unsolvable.”
“It’s not going to be an easy one.”
Gary grunted. “You’ll manage.”
“That’s what I’m trying to tell you; I don’t think I can help.” There was another silence until Morgan added, “I’m sorry. But with only the address of a pizzeria to go on, what more can I do? If there was more evidence—”
“But there isn’t,” Gary snapped.
“Hey now.”
“I just can’t believe you’re quitting so easily. What about being my friend? What happened to applying your skills to this? I’ve told you I’ll feed you any information from the police with or without the captain’s permission, so you have a strong advantage.”
Heat rose to Morgan’s face, though he was unsure if it was from the car’s heater or simple frustration. “You can’t play the friend card on this one. I’m always here for you—always—but you can’t expect me to perform miracles.”
“Not miracles,” Gary said. “Just more than an hour’s effort.”
“Oh yeah? Then what do you suggest?”
Gary quieted.
“That’s what I thought. Just… take me home.”
Neither of them said anything for the rest of the journey. Morgan sat quietly the whole time, awkwardly shifting his eyes to Gary now and then. When they were kids, such a thing would make them both smile and the argument would end as fast as it’d started, but something told him that wouldn’t happen tonight. Something had struck his friend on an emotional level—he was hurt and wasn’t thinking straight. Only vigilante justice made for a good cure.
They arrived outside Morgan’s home, where one of the bedside lamps offered an orange glow to the only lit window. The rest of the house was sleeping, and there was a strong chance Rachel was too. Morgan climbed out of the car, thanked Gary for the ride, then stomped up his path toward the front door.
Only the voice stopped him.
“Wait,” Gary said, exiting the car. He hurried around the vehicle and jogged toward Morgan, his graying hair swishing from side to side. “I’m sorry. I don’t mean to be a dick. It’s just that I can’t get the image of Carrie out of my head, you know?”
“I know,” Morgan said. “Nobody should have to see that, much less somebody who loved her. And I’m sorry I can’t help. Tonight was more about exploring whether I could make any contribution to the case—kind of like a consultation but less formal. Only I can’t. At least not unless there’s a development.”
“Something tells me there won’t be.”
Morgan nodded. “Like I said, I’m sorry.”
Gary glanced up at the house and then back to his car.
“Go home,” Morgan told him. “Be with your wife.”
“Yeah, right. What am I supposed to tell her? I’m moping because an old flame finally snuffed out?”
“She’s a good woman. She’ll understand.”
“You’re probably right.”
“Good night, Gary.”
“Good night. Thanks for trying.”
Morgan watched him return to his still-running car, catching a glimpse of that morose expression before he turned. It crushed him to see his childhood friend this way, and Morgan stuck around to watch him drive back up the road until he was left in silence. Too much had happened tonight, and it would take a lot of effort to decompress. Still, at least he had a wife to talk to about his problems, and she was upstairs waiting for him.
He just hoped he hadn’t ruined her birthday.
Chapter Eight
Cold-blooded murder was hard work. The killer had thought it would repulse him, putting him off his food for at least a week. The truth was, it created a
n appetite he wasn’t sure he could satisfy. But that wouldn’t stop him from trying.
It was midnight by the time he got home, forcing his key into the rusted lock and kicking open the door. The TV blared from the back room, its screen flooding light into the dark hallway. The killer slipped inside and closed the door, hurrying through to the kitchen before she could see him. Before she could make him feel even less comfortable with himself.
Opening the refrigerator with care, the killer bent over and peered inside, examining what ingredients he had to work with. The problem was—and he hadn’t seen this coming—every item reminded him of tonight’s disgusting activity. The way he saw it, the chicken was human flesh. The spaghetti sauce was blood, and it would drip onto his chin the way it’d dripped from Carrie Whittle’s stomach. It stirred something up inside him, and although he couldn’t decipher it as either satisfaction or regret, he knew he would do it all over again if he could.
With any kind of food off the menu, the killer sighed and shut the fridge, returning to the dusty hallway. If he couldn’t eat then he could at least keep himself busy, maybe find an activity to keep his mind off what’d happened. He sneaked through to the door under the stairs, reached for the knob, and then heard the voice; it was her voice.
“Moonpie?” she called from the living room. “Moonpie, is that you?”
“For Christ’s sake,” the killer mumbled.
“Moonpie? Honey?”
“Yes, Mom. It’s me.”
“Come in here and give your mother a kiss.”
It took every ounce of strength to remove his hand from the doorknob, but he succeeded. Scuffing his feet across the already worn carpet, he made his way into the living room, where the only light came from the TV. A musty smell filled the air: molding food and body odor. In the one tattered armchair that’d lived in this room for nearly two decades was his horrendously overweight mother, who’d, ironically, lived in this room for nearly two decades. The killer stopped and looked at her, realizing his upper lip was twisting into a look of disgust. He always made an effort to be kind to his mom, but that didn’t mean he found her anything other than repugnant. She hadn’t washed in months, after all, and only climbed out of the dip in the armchair when she wanted to eat, piss, or shit. What kind of life was that?
“Well, don’t just stand there,” she said, her cheeks wobbling as she spoke.
The killer stepped forward, closed his eyes to imagine someone else—a princess, perhaps—and planted his lips on her ragged, frayed hair. He then patted her on the shoulder, as he knew the kiss wouldn’t be enough, before taking a step back.
“Where’ve you been tonight?” she asked.
“Just out.”
“Not up to any trouble, I hope?”
“I’m thirty, Mom. Not thirteen.”
“Grown men can still get into trouble, you know. Just look at your father. I was only a teenager when we first met, but he was a grown man. He thought he couldn’t get into trouble, but I was pregnant before I even…”
The killer backed out of the room, having heard all the stories before. Yes, his father was an asshole who’d knocked her up and skipped town. Yes, he was replaced by a man of questionable morals who “accidentally” showed parts of his naked body to her only child. And yes, the killer had taken his first life, pushing him just a little too hard into oncoming traffic.
Accidents happened, the killer supposed, and that one had definitely benefited him.
But that was years ago, he reminded himself as he returned to the door under the stairs, and that son of a bitch deserved it. He padded down the steps into his basement office, wondering if that had really counted as a kill. He didn’t have to go out of his way or cut anybody up, did he? His life had been a countless string of knuckles to the chin and one too many sightings of his stepfather’s private parts, and he’d solved that problem with just a little push.
No harm, no foul.
Also, no more child abuse.
As ever, it was hard to shake that from his mind. The killer pulled on the cord, and the basement light flickered on. Surrounded by a pinball machine, a threadbare couch, and a vacant area in the corner he didn’t know how to utilize, he stalked around the perimeter of the large basement chewing on his thumbnail. Why did she have to remind him all the time? Wasn’t it enough that she’d stood to one side and let it all happen? She’d known it was happening, although she’d argue otherwise, so why did she have to keep bringing it up?
The killer squeezed his hands, grinding his teeth as he pictured that asshole’s face. He compared it to his expression when he’d died, and he realized how much easier things could be if he simply punished those who’d wronged him. He remembered Carrie and how she’d screamed, cried, even begged as he’d cut up her darling face. It was justified, it was acceptable, and it was everything she deserved.
That was why he’d do it again.
Chapter Nine
Three days had passed, during which Morgan hadn’t seen Gary, though not for lack of trying. He’d left multiple voicemails and text messages just to check up on him, and although his wife, Hannah, had reached out to let him know he was okay, Morgan didn’t much like how it was being handled. His friend’s misery was bleeding into their relationship, so now Morgan had a duty to be there without actually being able to be there. Nothing was more frustrating.
As if feeling useless wasn’t enough, there was plenty of spare time to think about it. Rachel’s upcoming charity event was sucking up a lot of her time, and she refused to let him help until he felt a bit happier. Morgan hated the idea that his emotions might instill some kind of negativity to her work, so he kept far away. The only way he knew how was to bury his face in a good novel, so he’d chosen the one his wife had insisted he read; it was a trashy romance novel, and although that wasn’t his taste, he could imagine liking it if circumstances were different. There was just the problem of concentration, and from the armchair across the room, Rachel must have read that in his frown.
“You don’t like it, do you?” she asked, wrapping her gown around her and yawning.
“Like what?” Morgan glanced down at the book he’d been staring into for a long while, realizing now that he hadn’t read a single word in minutes. “Oh, it’s okay.”
“Something on your mind?”
“Is it that obvious?”
“A little. Care to share?”
Morgan let out a long breath and closed the book, resting it on the arm of the couch. He didn’t really want to get into this, but maybe there was a way he could get it off his chest without bringing her down with him. The least he could do was try. “It’s all this stuff with Gary. I’ve not seen him like this before. I think he’s angry too.”
“Because you didn’t take the case?”
“Because I couldn’t take the case.”
“You think he blames you?”
Morgan shrugged. “It’s not like him to point the finger, but I could tell he was disappointed. And now that he’s avoiding my calls? It’s not a good sign.” He felt in his pocket for the cell phone, the mention of it making him wonder where it was. It hadn’t moved.
“Maybe it’s just his grieving process.”
“I’ve seen him grieve; this isn’t it.”
Rachel huffed and stared at him, her copper-colored hair dangling in front of her usually prominent cheekbones. Her blue eyes met his, full of love and care but not sympathy—he’d told her too many times how much he hated sympathy, and now she refused to give it. When the time came to break eye contact, she pulled herself up from the chair and took his hand, hauling him onto his feet with surprising strength. “Come with me.”
“Where are we going?”
“To the kitchen. I’m making you blueberry pancakes.”
“We don’t have any blueberries.”
“Then I’ll improvise.” Keeping her warm hand around his, she led him into the kitchen and dragged out a stool at the island, then set about the preparations, zipping fr
om left to right. She’d mastered the art of cooking long ago, and Morgan thought she looked right at home. It suited him just fine—he loved her cooking as much as he loved her.
Taking the stool and leaning onto the counter, Morgan clasped his hands together, watching her with respect and admiration. How had he gotten so lucky? How had someone like him managed to marry someone like her? They were two different people, yet somehow the same; she’d come from money but refused to inherit it, whereas he had come from nothing and stayed there. The sentiment they shared was that money was a good thing to have but not nearly as important as the love they shared… although Morgan sometimes wished they could have both. He just didn’t want to take it from her folks.
“Are you going to talk to me or not?” Rachel said, lighting up the stove.
“What do you want me to say?”
“How about your plans for the week?”
“I have no plans,” Morgan said.
“Exactly. So why not investigate a little further?”
“I told you, there’s nothing to find.”
“Bullshit, honey. Do you know how many times I’ve heard you say you’re at a loss, only moments before you solved the whole damn thing? Here.” She spun and tossed a strawberry into the air.
Morgan opened wide and caught it in his mouth, almost choking as he swallowed it whole. He hadn’t realized how hungry he was until now, and he remembered he’d been like that a lot lately. He put it down to stress. “Thanks.”
“You’re welcome.”
“So.” Morgan shifted on the stool. “What do you propose I do?”
“Just go over there and talk to him.”
“Hannah said he’s never there at this time of night. Not anymore, that is.”
Rachel glanced at the clock, then returned to the stove. “Then you know where he is.”
“Larry’s?”
“Larry’s.”
Morgan smiled. Larry’s was a diner across town that claimed to serve the city’s most amazing bacon and the country’s thickest milkshake. It failed to deliver on both counts, but the prices were reasonable and the staff didn’t mind you sitting there when you had stuff to think about. It stood to reason Gary would be there now. “I guess I should head over there, see what he has to say. Even if I don’t pick up the case, I can lend a shoulder to cry on.”
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