by Zoe Blake
It was strange to think that my enrolling in school was what led to my biggest acting break. My flat mate Jane had heard of auditions for a Victorian-era play called The Lady Protests. It was about a woman driven mad by her scheming husband so he could get his hands on her fortune. I couldn’t have been more excited about the opportunity. I absolutely adored the Victorian era. It was one of the reasons why I became an actor. I loved the idea of being able to step back in time and feel as though I were actually living in the age.
We both auditioned. She got the role of parlor maid and to the surprise of both of us, I got the lead!
I played Lady Elizabeth Smythe, which was funny because my real name was also Elizabeth, although everyone called me Lizzie. My character was an American heiress forced to marry a cold unfeeling British lord who wanted her only for her oil fortune.
Between rehearsals, performances, and keeping up with my schoolwork, it had been an exhausting few months but tonight it would all end.
It was the final performance.
Swiping at my eyes as they teared up, I made my way down Beech Street.
I don’t want it to end.
None of it.
The play.
The camaraderie backstage.
The fantasy of living in the Victorian era with all its beautiful clothes and elegant manners.
Some of the actresses complained about the corsets and heavy skirts but I loved every minute of it. I always hated having to toss on a simple pair of jeans and a t-shirt at the end of a performance after wearing such gorgeous silks and lace.
It was fun having my long, unruly hair arranged each night in dramatic upswept curls, held in place by large combs topped with enameled flowers and jewels.
Unfortunately, it all ended tonight.
With school projects due in a month, I wouldn’t have time to audition for any new roles till at least the new year.
At least my final project was going well. With the help of Mary Parker, the theater’s costume designer, I was working on a gorgeous Victorian tea gown made of woven champagne-colored damask with turquoise glass beads. I only had to complete the stylish Watteau pleat down the center back of the neckline and then finish the waist sash.
“Whore!”
The crude shout came from my left. It was the homeless woman who always crouched on this particular corner yelling obscenities at everyone who passed. When I first started commuting here for rehearsals, I felt bad and often gave her money, and even food if I had anything on me, but all she would do was scream at me. When she started spitting as well, I had no choice but to avoid her.
Quickly crossing the street to get away from her continued shouts, I was relieved when the Barbican Center came into view. Just then my cell began to vibrate.
“Hello?”
“Where the hell are you?” asked Jane anxiously.
Glancing at the phone’s clock, I saw that it was still only 2:30 p.m. Call time was at 3:00 p.m. like usual so I knew I wasn’t late. “I’m on my way. Why?”
“He’s here,” she whispered in a conspirator tone.
From her emphasis on he, I didn’t have to ask who.
Richard Payne, tech billionaire and an actual duke, like from a romance novel.
Apparently, his company was involved in everything from cell towers to space exploration. The man was worth billions… or probably billions on top of billions. Yet despite all his wealth coming from anticipating the next big breakthrough in technology, he was a bit old school.
His family came from old money and still valued the traditions of the British aristocracy. I heard a rumor he actually went on fox hunting parties with Harry and William and insisted on his guests wearing formal attire for dinners at his home, even if it was just a regular Tuesday.
Mr. Payne also happened to be the executive producer of our play.
And he scares me to death.
Everything about him was just… too much.
He was too rich. Too tall. Too intimidating.
He also happened to be handsome as hell, which didn’t help matters much. It only served to make me more nervous around the man.
So you could add too sexy to that list.
I was just an American girl from a small town in Pennsylvania. I didn’t know how to behave in front of a freaking duke! Let alone a super-rich and incredibly sexy one.
“Hello? Are you there?” asked an impatient Jane.
Snapping back to the present, I stammered, “Yeah… I’m still here. What’s he doing at the theater?”
“He wants to talk to you!” said Jane, her voice going up an octave in her excitement. Jane was petite with curly blonde hair cut into a sassy bob that bounced whenever she became animated over something… which was usually just about everything.
For once, my excitement matched hers, but for way different reasons. “Me?” I squeaked. “Why me?”
“Well, you are his leading lady,” laughed Jane as she emphasized leading lady with a suggestive gravelly voice.
“Stop that,” I snapped.
“He’s been waiting for a half hour.”
“A half hour? Why didn’t you call me?”
“I did, stupid. You must have been on the tube.”
Crap. I had taken a ride halfway across the city to this tiny shop where I found the turquoise glass beads for my final project because I needed more. She was right. I had been underground with no cell service for at least the last half hour.
“I’m coming through the doors now.” Picking up my pace, I sprinted to the theater door. Ignoring the lift, I took the stairs to Level G.
As I reached the top, I saw Jane put down her phone and come running up to me.
“He’s waiting for you in the Hall,” she said as she grabbed my purse and backpack. I took a few steps toward the Hall before turning.
“Wait!” I said, calling Jane back to me. “Take this too.”
I handed her my cellphone. I knew from watching other cast members get their ass handed to them that Mr. Payne hated anyone who kept their cellphone out while talking to him. God forbid the thing rang or you answered a quick text. It was almost as if he actually hated technology, which was, of course, strangely ironic.
“Do you have any idea why he wants to talk to me?”
She just shrugged her shoulders. “Good luck.”
Taking a deep breath, I reached for the heavy door. I actually had to lean back a bit to swing it open. I entered the darkened Hall.
Our production was actually on this same level in a much smaller theater. The Hall was twice the size and way more imposing.
It took a moment for my eyes to adjust to the dim light. Finally, I saw a tall figure standing in the middle of the stage with his back turned to me.
After walking down the sloping aisle, I stopped just below the stage, unsure of how to proceed.
“Come up onto the stage, Miss Larkin.”
I couldn’t suppress a small jump. Despite its enormous size, the Hall was eerily quiet, which meant the sudden sound carried all the more. Plus, there was his voice. It was deep and authoritative, giving the impression that each word was carefully measured before being spoken. It suited him.
Everything about the man screamed control, from the impeccable way he dressed, to the way he spoke. This was a man no one dared say no to.
With shaking legs, I slowly walked closer to the stage. The toe of my sneaker slipped off the second step, causing me to stumble slightly. I could feel my cheeks burn even hotter with humiliation.
Nervously clasping my hands together, my own voice came out as a hesitant whisper. “You wished to see me, Mr.… I mean Duke… a… Mr.… um… Payne.”
I’m such a fucking idiot.
I had lived in London for six months and still I had absolutely no idea how you were supposed to address a duke. Although in my defense, it’s not like there were tons of dukes out and about riding the tube and sipping tea in the local cafés introducing themselves to commoners like me so I would learn how to
address them. Was it Duke Payne? No, that didn’t sound right. Fuck, I was going to have to fall back on being an American and call him Mr. Payne. God, this was awful.
After a moment, he turned and took a step toward me.
In school, I was always considered one of the tall girls. At five foot eight, I was usually head and shoulders over my friends. Still, he towered over me, making me feel even more like a foolish child being admonished by the school headmaster than I already did.
Looking down at the polished floorboards, I bit my lip, trying to will away the misting of embarrassed tears that threatened.
Then I felt a finger beneath my chin. My head was lifted up to meet his gaze.
Having never been this close to him before, I couldn’t help but stare into his dark eyes. It was probably the low lighting but they appeared almost black to me. I tried to lower my head again, frightened by the intense steadiness of his gaze, but his hand on my jaw prevented it.
“You may call me Richard.”
Not on your life.
There was no freaking way I would ever be comfortable enough around this man to call him Richard.
The tip of my tongue nervously swiped over my slightly open lips. Stunned, I watched his eyes shift and focus on my mouth.
Oh, god.
My breath caught for a moment. It wasn’t until he returned his eyes to my own that I felt I could breathe in a shaky gasp.
“I’ve enjoyed your performance as Lady Elizabeth Smythe.”
“Thank you,” I choked out.
Dropping his grip on my chin, he began to slowly walk around me. I couldn’t help but feel like a little mouse being sized up by a predatory cat.
The mirrored security screen was down on the stage. So we both stood in front of a three-story high curtain of fractured mirrors. I tried to read his expression in the thousand smaller images that shimmered and danced before me.
The hair on the back of my neck stood up as I felt his breath. He was standing close behind me. There was only the faintest rustle of clothing as he leaned in to whisper into my ear from behind.
“Tell me, Miss Larkin. Did you like playing a Victorian woman?”
“Yes, very much.” I wasn’t even sure he heard my softly murmured response.
My body stiffened when I felt his hand slide between my shoulder blades down to the curve of my lower back. “And the tight corset that came with your costume didn’t bother you?”
The thousand images of him reflected in the mirror curtain swayed and moved, making me feel disoriented.
Closing my eyes, I willed myself to breathe. Feeling off-balance and lightheaded, it took me a moment to think of a believable response, since I wasn’t going to tell him the truth about how the whalebone bit into my skin every night. It would make me look ungrateful for the part and opportunity. “No, sir. I was fine.” I’m not sure where the ‘sir’ came from but it seemed better than butchering his title again or trying to call him Richard.
His hand retraced its path up my back, causing what I was sure was a visible shiver to run along my spine. “It didn’t… hurt you?”
What was I supposed to say? Should I pretend as if the tight corset didn’t dig into my sides and ribs each night since he was the executive producer and I didn’t want him to think I was criticizing the costumes he provided? Or be honest?
There was something about this man that told me honesty was the only option, as if something dark and scary waited for the person who tried to deceive him.
“A little but I didn’t mind.”
My answer seemed to please him. He continued his predatory circle around me, once more standing directly in front. Flustered, I again lowered my gaze.
“May I?”
I looked up to see what he was asking.
His handsome face was looking down at me with one eyebrow arched and his hand raised. I looked from his sharp jawline, to his lips, to the way his cheeks were slightly sunken in, giving the rest of his face a chiseled, hard appearance.
I had no idea what he wanted so I could only nod. A gasp escaped my lips as he reached over my shoulder to pull out the clip keeping my hair up in a messy bun. Heavy waves of chestnut brown hair tumbled over my shoulders to land halfway down my back.
The back of his knuckles briefly touched my warm cheek as he reached for one thick curl. Watching in almost fascinated horror, I felt the tug on my hair as he ran his hand down the smooth length. When he got to the end, he gave it a slight tug.
The sting caught me by surprise. Shocked, I looked up at his face. His eyes were staring down at me with an expression of anticipation, as if he were studying my reaction.
“It was a pleasure to learn your hair each evening was your own and not a wig. Few women keep it this long anymore.”
“I like long ponytails.” Seriously, what the hell was wrong with me? I like long ponytails?
Helplessly, I gestured to my hair. “I mean, I like to put my hair in ponytails,” I explained lamely.
Shut up! Shut up!
He smirked.
It was the closest thing to a smile I thought I would ever get from the man.
Taking a step closer, he reached over both of my shoulders and took two fistfuls of hair, mimicking ponytails.
Unable to suppress a soft mewing sound, I tried to focus on what was happening but my mind was too fuzzy from his overwhelming presence… from his touch.
Using his grip on my hair, he tugged me forward. Inhaling the spicy scent of his cologne, I could almost imagine feeling the heat radiating from his body.
“Look at me, Elizabeth,” he commanded. His voice dark and deep.
“Lizzie,” I corrected without thought, completely out of habit. My eyes widened. I couldn’t believe I had just corrected him. Instinctively I felt that was something people just didn’t do around this man. If he said the sky were purple with pink spots, I’m pretty sure everyone would agree wholeheartedly… and worse, actually believe it. He just seemed to exude that kind of authoritative power. The kind that could make you believe just about anything he said.
He gave my hair a painful tug with both hands. “Elizabeth,” he stated emphatically, as if he were a god or a king commanding it be so.
“I left a package in your dressing room. It’s a dress. I want you to wear it tonight.”
Tonight was the cast party. It was taking place right after our final curtain call. I had no idea he was even attending.
Wait, a dress?
“The party is at The Brewery next door. I don’t think the cast party is that formal,” I offered, still trying to process why this man would buy me a dress. Realizing quickly that I might sound ungrateful, I stammered, “Not that I don’t appreciate it… I mean I’m sure it’s lovely and—”
“Elizabeth.”
The sharp command of his voice stopped my rambling.
“Yes, sir?”
“Wear the dress,” he ordered, not expecting a refusal and not getting one.
“Yes, sir,” I whispered.
Releasing my hair, he stroked the back of his knuckles down my cheek. “Good girl.”
The moment I heard the Hall door close on his retreating back, I sank to my knees in the middle of the stage, feeling shaken and more than a little alarmed.
What the hell had just happened?
Chapter 3
Lizzie
I couldn’t shake the feeling I had just been chosen for something… but what?
“What does it look like?” whispered Jane.
“What?” I asked.
“Shhh,” admonished Sally.
Sally Jennings was our always overworked, stressed-out stage manager. Our best guess was she was in her mid-forties but looked like she was in her fifties. You always heard her coming from the jangle of keys she kept on a ring attached to her belt. That and the constant cloud of cigarette smoke that enveloped her like cheap perfume.
“Sorry, Sally,” we whispered in unison.
We were both waiting stage left in the win
gs for our entrance.
“The dress of course,” sniped Jane in a low tone.
“I don’t know. I haven’t opened the box,” I whispered harshly back, already regretting telling Jane about my encounter with him… Richard.
“How could you not—”
Her admonishment was cut off as I surged forward onto stage.
“Lord Radfoot. Thank you for coming so quickly after receiving my note.” I stood in the center of the parlor room set with my left shoulder upstage and body at a slight angle. The idea was to appear as though I were talking directly to the actor across from me but not present the audience with only a profile of my face.
Mike, the actor playing Lord Radfoot, grasped my hands. “I took the swiftest horse I could find to be by your side, Lady Elizabeth. I am at your service.”
I collapsed onto the chaise lounge. “I fear I am going mad,” I exclaimed, careful not to oversell it.
Mike sat next to me, his hand once more grasping my own. “My dear, dear Lady Elizabeth, do not speak of such things. It is that fiend you have married. He is to blame for your melancholy.”
Rising swiftly, I crossed down stage right, facing the audience. “Lord Radfoot, you mustn’t say such things about my husband.”
Mike crossed behind me and wrapped his hands around my waist. “I must. I will no longer keep silent. I love you, Elizabeth.”
In that moment, I caught Richard’s eye. He was standing near the wall close to the stage just under a low light fixture. His whole body radiated anger, from his clenched fist to his thunderous expression. It almost seemed as if he were pissed about Mike touching me. That was insane of course. Mike was just acting and it wasn’t like Richard was some jealous boyfriend of mine.
Still, I was so shaken by the thought I missed my cue.
“Your line, Lizzie,” hissed Mike in my ear.
“No, Lord Radfoot. I must not!” With that I broke away and ran off stage left.
“Seriously, how could you not have looked at the dress?” continued Jane as if our conversation had never been interrupted.
I couldn’t tell her the truth… that I was afraid to.
I just shrugged, having no answer for her. Finally, I said, “It’s probably something silly his wife picked out.”