He dropped his head lower.
“I still don’t understand a lot of things you have shown me, Lord. I'm depressed. I've never asked for anything from except guidance and strength, but it's time I humbly ask, just this once, for you to bless me with something to give me the will to go on.”
A clap of thunder shook the walls of the church.
“This depression has become too great. I can barely rise from sleep when the sun sets. None of the hobbies that previously occupied me so well interest me anymore.”
Alex paused and took in a deep, shuddering breath.
“I would never try to bargain with or demand anything from you. I would never be so bold as to assume I'm owed anything. All I ask is for some kind of meaning to this life, or after-life; whatever you wish to call it.
“I need a reason to persevere. After all, I no longer have a family. The only thing I have, besides a few friends, is the everlasting torment of being one of the most unholy creatures to walk this earth.
“Please hear me and consider the needs of one of your servants. Thank you. Thank you so much for everything you have given me. I would do anything for you. I am yours in all ways, and I am yours in everything.
“In Jesus’s precious name, Amen.”
When Alex rose from his knees, contentment flowed through his veins and filled him up. He felt the same every time he prayed.
A moment later, he rushed out the door, stopping only to relock it like he always respectfully did.
***
“Do you think he’s ready?” Damion asked.
“He’s past ready,” Danielle murmured while she slipped off her perch on the railing that separated the choir area from the rest of the church. “Damion, his depression has to end.”
She felt Damion follow her to the front pew, on the right side of the aisle. She wanted to sit so she could see the altar.
He sat next to her. “I know Alex was chosen for this, but how do we know it will cure his depression? It could end this present situation, but begin another lengthy and dangerous one. How do we know this will not be the straw that breaks the camel’s back?”
Danielle smiled. “I have known Alex for almost four hundred years. Even though he thinks he is dammed, he keeps his faith in God, and that, my dear friend, is the strongest kind of faith there is.”
“So he’ll do it?”
“He has yet to decide.”
“I hope it goes the way we've planned.”
“So do I, Damion, so do I.”
“Why do you always come here to watch him pray? Don’t you think that’s like invasion of privacy or something?”
“I am his guardian.”
“You were, when he was a human. He hasn’t been mortal for a long time. I know enough to know you aren’t required to be with him at all times.”
“That’s true, but his prayers are a most important time for me to be with him.”
“Why?”
“He’s convinced God doesn’t hear his prayers. That’s why he comes here almost every night. He could go on living a sinful life, believing he is dammed anyway, but he doesn’t. It's vital he has some reinforcement of his faith in God. I know he feels me here.”
Damion shook his head. “We'd better get to the meeting. I'll see you there."
Damion left. Danielle didn't want to leave the church. She looked up at the large cross on the wall above the baptismal. “Come on, Big Guy. His time to shine is finally here, so let’s show him how much you really have in store for him.”
She reluctantly stood, walked back down the aisle, and moved transparently through the tightly locked doors.
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PLAY LIST
Just a few of the songs that I listened to while writing
Angel by Theory of a Deadman. This song was Zander’s song. I listened to it a lot while writing book five.
In Your Grave by Jaymes Bullet. In Your Grave is a really fun song and I have a thing for this particular kind of music.
I Had Me a Girl by The Civil Wars. The Civil Wars is an album I listen to a lot because most of their music is pretty mellow and sorta country and I like that.
Without You by Hinder. This song for Chloe and Drew when they are arguing.
Arms by Christina Perri. And on that note, this song is Drew and Chloe’s love song.
Radioactive by Imagine Dragons. Because this song is just awesome and in book three when the Vampire Apocalypse hits, it is appropriate.
My Songs Know What You Did In The Dark by Fallout Boy. Fun song for action scenes.
Burn it to the Ground by Nickleback. This is another good song for action scenes. I have to have some blood pumping music to get my characters amped up.
The Broken by Stars in Stereo. The Broken is a song that we all can relate to, this is a song for when the group is together and not feeling so hot.
Don’t Cry by Guns N’ Roses. I love, love, love my classic rock and I listen to lots of it. Don’t Cry is a song I listened to as a teenager and I use it to channel Chloe sometimes.
Short Change Hero by The Heavy. Listen to this song and imagine the group all armed up and heading into battle.
I am a Stone by Demon Hunter. Love this song. It’s a good one for when you feel like the world is coming down on you, but you have to become immune to all of it to carry on.
In The End by Black Veil Brides. Just a great song for writing.
All Songs by Halestorm. I love Halestorm and picking a favorite of theirs is simply too hard for me.
Times are Hard by Redlight King. Because times are hard.
City of Angels-piano version by Thirty Seconds to Mars. This is a nice mellow song and I write with mellow music quite a bit.
Pain by Three Days Grace. When you write about young adults and you are living life through their eyes and actions, you don’t do it without a little pain.
Tornado by Carrie Underwood. Great song for times of turmoil.
Roundtable Rival by Lindsey Sterling. I listen to a lot of Lindsey Sterling’s music. Its great for inspiration and writing any type of scene.
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