She did that for six months but she wanted to earn more money so that she could build her own house in Buri Ram so she used the money she had saved to buy a contract to get a visa to work in London. Now she has already built her house. Now she is saving her money so that she can set up a restaurant in Buri Ram and when she has enough she will stop doing this job and go back to Thailand.
Wanda is very sensible. She says she will never have a boyfriend until she is back in Thailand and she never takes drugs. She is also careful when she plays cards at the Sloane Square flat. She says you have to be very careful with your money in this job. It is easy to earn it, but it is easy to lose it, too. Wanda talks a lot of sense. She is more sensible than Nancy who is wasting all her money on her boyfriend.
Then Oliver phoned me to say that Robert had booked me for four hours so I had to go home to change into my school uniform. As I was leaving the apartment, Simon phoned me to say that he had tried to book me but the agency had said that I was busy. I said that was true and he asked me if I would cancel my customer so that he could see me but I said that I was sorry but that was impossible. I have to go with the customer who books me first. Simon complained and said that he wanted to be my boyfriend and not my customer and I said that I was sorry but I had to go. I don’t like it when he says he wants to be my boyfriend. He is my customer and that is the end of it.
Chapter 57
Friday June 12. I phoned my mum she told me that the £4,000 I had sent had arrived, which was good news. Then she said that she had already changed the pounds into Thai baht but had spent a lot of it. I asked her what she had spent it on and she said that she had to go tamboon at the wat. The wat is the temple and to go tamboon means to make merit and she had give the monks thirty thousand baht which is more than £400. And she said that one of her friends needed money because her daughter was in hospital so she had loaned her forty thousand baht. And the airconditioner in her bedroom wasn’t working so she had bought a new one and that had cost thirty-five thousand baht. She said that my father wanted a new motorcycle too and that was going to cost twenty-five thousand baht. I started to cry because this wasn’t fair. Everybody is taking money from me. I have to work so hard to make my money and I don’t think they understand just how hard I work. My mother has spent about half the money I sent. That is not fair because it wasn’t her money it was my money. I didn’t tell her how upset I was and I don’t think she realises that she has done something wrong. In a way I think my mother is a bit like Kung. She cares more about my money than she does about me.
Even though I was very unhappy I still had to work. I had four customers yesterday. The first customer was Matt, the man with his name tattooed in Thai on his arm and the tattoo of a Buddha’s head. He said that he had just got back from Thailand and that he had had sex with twenty girls in two weeks. He had been in Pattaya most of the time and he said all the girls in Pattaya liked sex. I think he believes that girls like having sex with him but in fact they are only doing it for money. I don’t think any girl would enjoy having sex with Matt. He is rude and ugly and he doesn’t smell good. He kept trying to talk to me in really bad Thai but I said that I didn’t speak Thai. When he left he asked me for my phone number again and I said no. After he left I phoned Oliver and said that I didn’t want to see Matt again. I said he was a bad customer but I didn’t say why.
The second customer was called Russ and he was a nice man, quite sweet actually. He was about fifty years old and very polite and kept saying ‘please’ and ‘thank you’. He didn’t want sex, just oral, and he wanted me to use a condom even though I would have done it without one.
After Russ had gone I didn’t have a customer for three hours and I just lay on my sofa and cried because I was so sad. Then Oliver phoned and said that I had a booking for midnight. It was a new customer called Frankie and he wanted me to wear my nurse’s uniform. Frankie was younger than me, I think, and quite handsome. He had a good body but he didn’t want sex with me, he just wanted to lie on the bed while I stroked him. He said that when he was small he was in hospital for a long time and he almost died and that now that he was older he liked to pretend that nurses were touching him. I felt a bit sad for him. He said that he didn’t have a girlfriend and I gave him my phone number.
After he went I lay on the sofa and cried. I wanted to talk to somebody about my problem but there was no one I could talk to. I felt so alone. I missed Ice and I wanted to see him and hear his voice but I didn’t want him to know how upset I was so I didn’t talk to him. I miss my son and I wish that I was in Thailand with him now but first I have to sort out my problem. I feel so alone. After midnight I started getting text messages from customers saying good night. I didn’t send any replies. I was too sad.
Chapter 58
Sunday June 14. Yesterday was the party in St John’s Wood and I didn’t get up until very late today. I feel a bit sick and I have a bad headache and I am aching and sore all over. What happened at the party was not good.
Oliver said we were all to meet first at the Sloane Square flat and that we should dress very sexily, the way that we dress for the photographs on the website. I wore my tight black dress and my thigh-length boots, though obviously I had my Kenzo coat on when I went outside. I went to Sloane Square with Nancy in an Uber taxi and Alice and Rachel were already there. Cat had made some Khao Pad for us and we ate it. Oliver said it was very important that everyone at the party was happy. Alice asked when we would get paid and Oliver said that he would sort out the money on Sunday. Rachel wanted to know what we were supposed to do at the party but all Oliver said was that we should make sure that everyone was happy. That’s all that he would say. When all the girls arrived Oliver said that we should go.
I went to St John’s Wood in a taxi with Oliver and Nancy. Oliver looked a bit nervous and I could tell that he was worried. I had never seen him like that before. Normally he always looks confident but not yesterday. The house we went to was really big. There was a big wall around it and huge iron gates and through the gates we could see lots of cars. There was a red Ferrari and two Porsches and a Range Rover and three BMWs. Oliver had to press a bell and he looked up at a CCTC camera and then the gate opened and we walked in. As we got to the front door two more taxis arrived with Cat, Alice, Sandra, Dao, Rachel, Wanda and Candy so we all went into the house together. There were two men who looked like bodyguards at the front door and Nancy whispered in Thai that she had seen a gun but I didn’t see a gun so she might have imagined it.
A big Russian man in a black suit came to say hello to Oliver and hugged him. Oliver said the man was called Nikolai and it was his birthday. Nikolai was fat with his head shaved like a monk and a scar on one of his cheeks. He had really cold blue eyes and he didn’t smile. He looked at us like he was a farmer and we were his cows. He said something to Oliver in Russian and Oliver told us to take off our coats. Cat took our coats and Nikolai looked at us and nodded and then pointed to the main room and we all went through. As we went in I saw Oliver give Nikolai a thick envelope which looked like it had a lot of money in it. Nikolai just grunted and put the envelope in his jacket pocket.
There were about forty people in the room, I think. The men were all big and wearing expensive suits and gold chains and they were drinking brandy and whisky and smoking big cigars and shouting at each other in Russian. The women were all tall and pretty and had big breasts and long, long legs. There were blondes and brunettes and redheads and they were all young and pretty and wearing really nice dresses. They were dressed sexily, but not like we were dressed. We Thai girls were dressed like working girls. We were sexy but not sexy like the Russian girls, and I felt a bit shy. Everyone in the room turned to look at us and I know that if I had been there on my own I would have been a bit scared. Some customers look at me like I am a human being, someone they want to talk to and get to know. But some customers look at me like I am an animal, something to be used. I am serious when I say that everyone in the room, the m
en and the girls, were looking at us as if we were animals. One of the men said something in Russian and they all laughed. I looked at Oliver and he was smiling but I could see that he was a bit nervous.
There was loud music playing on a stereo and there were bottles of spirits everywhere and there were silver bowls with white powder that I knew must be cocaine. But I have never seen so much cocaine in my life. It was like piles of sugar. One of the Russian women was kneeling by a coffee table using a rolled-up fifty pound note to sniff up cocaine. Dao knelt down next to her and the girl gave her the note and Dao sniffed up a lot of cocaine. I mean a lot of cocaine.
Then the girl smiled and she kissed Dao on the lips and I could see that Dao was kissing her back. Oliver said that we should go and talk to the people and do whatever they wanted. I am not sure what he meant but I know that we were working so I smiled and me and Nancy walked over to two men who were standing by a huge TV, the biggest I have ever seen. It was showing a sexy movie of two blonde girls kissing each other.
The two men said that their names were Viktor and Alexei. They were both quite young, maybe twenty-five, Viktor was wearing an Armani suit and he had a big gold ring with a gold coin in it. He was quite good-looking but like Nikolai he had very hard eyes. He said something to Alexei and they both laughed. Viktor pointed at his groin and said ‘Blow Job’. Then he pointed at me. Alexei did the same to Nancy. I couldn’t believe it. They wanted oral sex while they were in the room with everyone else. I looked around and Dao was lying on a sofa with the girl who had been sniffing cocaine. The girl was taking off Dao’s dress and three men were standing around them, laughing and pointing at them. Alice was kissing a man while Rachel was giving him a blow job and Candy was sitting on the arm of a chair and kissing a man and stroking his leg.
Nancy said we might as well do it because we were there to work so we both knelt down and gave them oral sex. While I was giving Viktor oral a blonde girl came over and she stroked my hair and talked to Viktor. He came in my mouth and then he said he wanted to go upstairs with me and the girl. The girl picked up a bottle of champagne and we went up a big staircase. There were so many bedrooms, more than twelve I am sure. One of the bedroom doors was open and I saw Rachel on top of a man, naked, drinking from a bottle while she made love to him. Two Russian girls were watching Rachel make love and touching themselves and shouting things at her in Russian.
Viktor and the girl took me into another bedroom. Viktor sat on a chair and sniffed some cocaine while the girl started kissing me and undressing me, then she took off her dress and lay on the bed with me. She had a really good body and her skin was so soft and I actually quite enjoyed her stroking and kissing me. Then the girl got off the bed and Viktor told me to give him oral which I did. Then Viktor took off all his clothes and he got on top of me and tried to make love to me and I told him that he had to wear a condom. He said he never wore a condom and he tried to force me but I am quite strong so I pushed him off but then the girl held my arms and shouted at me that I was a whore and I had to do what they wanted and I said that I wasn’t a whore but Viktor put his hand over his mouth and then he was inside me and he pushed hard so that it hurt and he kept pounding into me until he came. I wanted to cry. No customer has ever done that to me before. Viktor laughed and rolled off me and I ran into the bathroom to wash out his sperm. I don’t want to get sick and I don’t want to have a baby. If I am sick or if I get pregnant I cannot work. I spent a lot of time washing myself and when I came out of the bathroom Viktor and the girl had gone so I got dressed.
Alice was in the hallway giving oral sex to a very old man with grey hair. She was naked. She laughed when she saw me and asked me if I was having a good time but I couldn’t say anything.
I went downstairs and saw Oliver talking to Nikolai. Nikolai said something to Oliver and Oliver waved me over. Oliver said that Nikolai said that I wasn’t smiling and wanted to know what was wrong with me. I told Oliver that the man upstairs had had sex with me without a condom and Oliver asked me if that was a problem. I was so surprised. Of course it is a problem, I said. I never have sex without a condom. Oliver said that it was okay, that all the men there were healthy and no one had Aids. He said something to a girl with long red hair and she went away. Oliver said that I had to relax, that these were his friends and he had to make a good impression. I felt like I wanted to cry because Oliver is my boss and he should understand how I feel.
Then the girl with red hair came back with a glass and Oliver took it and gave it to me and told me to drink it. I said I didn’t want to drink alcohol but Oliver said that I had to, it would relax me. I had no choice, I had to drink it. I don’t know what it was. Vodka, maybe. With tonic water. Oliver made me drink it all and I was almost sick. Then Cat came over and said in Thai that I had to do whatever Nikolai wanted, that he was a very important man and that if I upset him it would make the agency look bad and give Oliver a big problem. I felt a bit dizzy and I had to sit down on a sofa. Then two men picked me up. I remember giggling a bit because I couldn’t walk. My legs felt very heavy and they carried me upstairs.
I don’t remember much after that. I remember bits but I’m not sure if it really happened or if it was a dream. I think I was lying on a bed looking up at a big chandelier and there was a man on top of me who was making love to me and another man who was kneeling next to me and telling me to suck him. I think I did suck him and then I was picked up and turned over so that I was face down on the bed and they lifted me up and pushed a pillow under me so that my bottom was in the air. One of the men got on top of me and pushed my legs apart and tried to push himself into my bum but I said that I didn’t do anal then the other man grabbed my wrists and said something to me in Russian. I didn’t understand what he said but he was angry and then he spat in my face. Then I think the door opened and Oliver and Cat were there, looking at what they were doing to me and I think that I begged them to help me but they didn’t say anything and they didn’t do anything and then they closed the door. The two Russians were laughing and that is the last thing I really remember until I woke up in my own bed. I was so sore and there were red marks everywhere like I’d been bitten. I lay down in a hot bath and tried to remember what had happened but I really can’t remember anything else.
I phoned Nancy but her phone was turned off and I phoned Sandra but she didn’t answer her phone. Then I phoned Dao and she answered and seemed really happy. She said that she had had a great time and that one of the men had tipped her £1,000. I think Dao is a bit crazy. I think she likes sex and drugs too much. I asked her if anyone had forced her to do anything she didn’t want to and she just laughed and said that it had been fun. She asked me if I was okay and I lied and said that I was.
I think Oliver did a bad thing making us go to the party. I think he should have taken care of us. But I don’t know what I can do. I have to work because I need money to pay Kung so I have to keep working for him. I can carry on doing this job but today I am sad, sad, sad, and I never want to go to the house in St John’s Wood ever again.
Chapter 59
Monday June 15. Cat phoned me during the day and said that I should take my passport and Thai ID card to the flat in Sloane Square. I asked why and she said that it was because she and Oliver knew somebody who could get all our visas extended, which is good news.
I went to Sloane Square with Nancy and Sandra. Nancy had her passport and ID card and she was really excited because she had overstayed but Cat said that wouldn’t be a problem and they could get that sorted out for her. Sandra didn’t have her passport because she had posted it back to Thailand when her visa had expired. A lot of girls do that if they overstay. They send their passports back to Thailand in case they get caught by immigration in England. If they get caught they give a false name and they get sent home but nobody knows who they really are. Cat had told her to bring her ID card anyway.
England is a bit stupid about people who overstay. In Thailand the police put people who ov
erstay in prison and fine them and make them pay for their own ticket out of the country. If they do not pay they stay in prison for ever. But in England they do not put people in prison for overstaying, they just give them a ticket to go. I think that is crazy, actually.
Candy had bought a copy of a local newspaper which talked about a gang being sent to prison for bringing prostitutes into London and we all read it and talked about it. There was a gang who were bringing in prostitutes and making them work in brothels in Paddington and Lancaster Gate which means that they were working near to my flat. The men in the gang were from Russia and their photographs were in the paper. They all looked quite normal, actually. Two of them weren’t Russian, they were from China I think because they had Chinese names, Hui and Huang. The paper said that the police found drugs worth £100,000 in one of the flats of the gang. I think that drugs and working girls often go together. The paper said that the men were all arrested last year which was a long time before I started working for the agency. You know, it was quite funny because the police didn’t arrest all the men and they were looking for one man and they caught him because he went to the court to watch the trial of his friends. Sometimes people can be so stupid, I think.
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