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Hugh was at the milking when Barton got back and Barton, remembering all the hostile thoughts he had had toward the boy, took pains to praise him.
“Sorry to leave you with all the work. Had some business in town. But I’ll grant that you’re handling things fine, just fine.”
Hugh took it with clear pleasure. And after some easy talk about farm matters he said: “I hope she never bothered you, woke you up from your nap. Did she?”
Barton laughed. “Why no. Why? Was she cutting up?”
Hugh shook his head, looking comically earnest. “She was singing around in the yard and carrying on. The thing with Deena May, Mr. Barton, is she is a good-hearted little thing, only she’s childish. She was the young’un of a big family and they catered to her something awful. But I’ve got real confidence that right down in her heart she ain’t really spoiled, but will turn out a first-class woman.” He sighed. “I do have a time with her, she’s that childish. She’s enough to wear out your patience sometimes. But I won’t leave her get on your nerves.”
“Don’t you let it worry you. You just keep up your good work . . . and keep on reading those Agricultural pamphlets and the papers and learning, the way you have been, and improving yourself. I like the both of you. Fine, just fine.”
“Would you like to come down to supper?”
“Not tonight. Young folks should be alone, and I take Sunday dinners with you . . . that’s plenty . . . not that she’s not a grand little cook. She is.”
“Thanks. She’ll be tickled to hear you said that.”
“Didn’t I ever tell her?”
“Well . . .” Hugh began uncomfortably. “No. And . . . well, I always was a little scared you don’t like her much . . .” He waited and Barton assured him. “I sure am relieved. I kind of thought you sometimes look at her . . . well, stern-like.”
“That’s mainly how old men do look, you know.”
Hugh chuckled. “Funny thing, but Deena May says she ain’t fooled the way you look stern because you like her.”
Barton felt a quick uneasiness. “I do, indeed I do.”
“And she sure likes you. Wants to come up and live in the big house. Says it’s a pure shame you got to cook yourself and stay around that big old empty place alone. I said to her: ‘Deena May, it would just aggravate him out of his wits to have to put up with your childishness right in the same house.’ ”
“But not at all . . . why, that’s a splendid idea . . . I mean, Hugh . . . if you’d want to . . . the pair of you would give the old place life, and the stove’s a good one and there’s that fine refrigerator and a nearly new bathroom . . .”
“Begging your pardon, Mr. Barton, it’s only her idea.” He shook his head. “You see, even if you could stand her childishness . . . well, you understand, I got my hands full already to make a woman out of her . . . and if you both like each other why you’d cater to her like she had it back home with old . . . older people . . . No offense, but, well, that little house is just nice. Sure you wouldn’t take supper with us, though?”
Barton hesitated; he dreaded cooking his own meal and eating alone in that oversized coffin of a house. Talking with Hugh, face to face, Barton liked him and shared with him, from Hugh’s viewpoint, his problems with the “child bride.” But Deena May in the flesh was something else. In his presence, they both became kids and meals with them were full of bickerings, and each would turn to Barton for support. He had always found it amusing, but inevitably he had had to side with Hugh. Still he didn’t want to go over there and be forced to sit like a gray sage passing down moral pronouncements. He didn’t want to say a word against her, nor uphold a set of principles that smelled of must and decay.
“No, thank you just the same,” he said. “See you tomorrow, Hugh.”
Barton sat in the parlor with the evening paper, rereading grain market quotes without absorbing them. He didn’t give a damn. There was something else, like a small, pleasant glow in his belly, holding his mind. Hugh had said she wasn’t fooled by the look of sternness; she knew with the sure female animal instinct that the sight of her stirred the still-living male in him. And she wanted to take over the big house, where he’d cater to her.
He turned off the parlor light and went up to the bedroom and turned the bedroom light on for a few minutes, as though he had come up to bed. He didn’t undress. Presently, he turned off the light and waited, listening near the open window. It would be awhile. She’d peer over to make sure the big house was dark and that he slept.
She was looking out her window. She vanished, and her front screen clapped shut and the hound, put out, whimpered for his mistress like an exiled lover till she shrieked at him. Then the lights went out. Barton tensed and rubbed his thick, calloused fingers against his dry palms. The beat of his heart quickened in anticipation and he could feel the juice of life rising in him, even his mouth salivated and his lips were warm and wet.
He began to fear that Hugh had, in a sense, won, that he was lying there cold beside her fire, sober and resolved to hoard his strength, and sleep like the goddamned fool he was . . . Then it came. A squall and a moan. Barton blinked, brightening. Hugh handled her roughly, but with no genuine air of mastery. Instead, his roughness seemed against the grain, something he did because she willed it. But one Saturday night they had gone to a dance, and, from the gossip Barton heard, Deena May had slipped out to the parking lot and serviced a squad of young bucks before Hugh caught her. He’d bloodied some noses and got a whaling himself and the sounds coming from the little house that night had been pure hell. But tonight, as usual, Barton heard her song of lust, a primitive sound of combat and terror and wild joy that set a serpent crawling in his belly.
In the long wake of silence, Barton found himself shivering and disgusted with himself. What had he come to? Turning his eyes and ears and mind into sneaking, slimy things that degraded everything he had ever been. The most shameful, the most intolerable part of it was that he was reduced to this cowardly caricature of manhood, as if he was a eunuch. He slept fitfully, waking repeatedly till almost dawn, when he dropped into a deep sleep.
He woke to the sound of her “Cha cha cha-tiyata . . .”
Light flooded the room and he knew from the slant of the sun that it was very late. Past ten. My God, he hadn’t overslept this way in years. He sat up and got heavily out of bed. He heard the tractor in the field. Everything was going on without him.
“Cha cha cha-tiyata . . . cha to cha . . .”
He shut the window and the blind, but her chirpy, teasy little voice penetrated the dim bedroom with an insistent, irresistible rhythm. It stroked his waking senses and thrummed through his tired body like another pulse. He had to see her, he had to see her. He got the binoculars. His trembling thick fingers fumbled at the blind. It got away with a startling zip and hiss and flapped around the roller at the top. He found himself standing flatfooted and exposed at the window in his old nightshirt. He jumped aside, and had to stand gripping the bedpost for balance until his heart quit slamming and the dizziness passed. He edged back into the room and in the mirror caught sight of his scarecrow old body, in the old fashioned nightshirt, and turned his face.
He couldn’t eat. He went out to the car in his best suit. He drove into the city and made some purchases.
He was back at two, the funereal old Sunday suit behind him, splashed out now in brown and white shoes, light tan suit, coconut weave straw hat with a band matching his turquoise sport shirt. He carried packages of vivid socks, underpants, pajamas, and straw shoes in two pieces of airplane luggage.
He put the binoculars, which he’d used at the State Fair races, into their case. He hung them by the strap across his shoulder and gave himself a sporty grin. For awhile he just walked around acquainting himself with his new clothes and personality.
He stopped in the middle of the kitchen, frowning. He should have saved the old suit. He’d have to go to the bank and tell them to put the place up for sale, because the new life woul
d be impossible in this community where he had a set meaning and where, if he changed the meaning, they’d think he was crazy. They’d snicker and wag their heads if they saw him in these clothes, and figure him insane because he didn’t just sit and wait to die.
He shuddered. Most of the acres were gone, most of the rooms closed . . . the dimensions were narrowing, narrowing . . . the old dark house had the feel of a coffin.
He wanted to hear the sunlight sound of her “Cha cha cha . . .” He kept listening vaguely, wondering where she was. The tractor was out in the field; he could hear it. Hugh was accounted for, but where was Deena May? In the little house . . . alone . . . on the bed . . .
“Andrew . . .”
He turned without thinking and went toward the sound of the voice and opened the door to the glassed-in porch. He was about to say: “What is it, Melly?” before he caught himself.
You’re crazy! he thought, frightened. Hearing voices. He stood, silent, wondering. Maybe there was some something, some communication somehow . . . not voices, but a feel, a presence. There was no feel of her here; she was dead.
He had to get out of this coffin house. He walked out into the front yard and let the sunlight soak into him and the warm air fill his lungs. From miles away he heard the bark of a dog, then a second nearer barking, and the sounds came down the line of farms like a string of firecrackers till Deena May’s hound took it up. The hair stiffened on the back of his neck as he heard her sharp little voice silence the dog. She was in the back yard of the big house . . . near the grape arbor, he judged.
Barton went around the side of the house, his step cautious on the grass, his whole body caught up in a helpless, trembling anticipation.
The arbor enclosed a rectangle of space and through the wall of vines he saw her lying on the grass within. She was propped on one elbow, her other arm lifted in a slim bare curve as her little fist crushed slowly into a succulent bunch of grapes above her upturned face. The juice streamed into her wide-open red mouth and he could see the rolling sliding motion of her arched throat as she swallowed greedily. Some of the juice ran over her chin and down her throat and ran in purple rivulets across the smooth white skin between her breasts. He could see the soft-rising slope of the side of one breast, in the blue shadow, where an upper button of her cotton dress was open. She was barefoot and barelegged. One knee was raised a few inches and a tantalizing bit of her thigh showed. She dropped the grape husks and reached her hand to the hound who licked her fingers, then licked the juice from her throat and from between her breasts. She pushed the dog away and slid her vivid blue eyes to their corners. She saw Barton and grinned slowly at him.
“Y’all dressed up sharp, Mr. Barton.” She wagged her knee lazily from side to side and watched him from the corners of her eyes.
He had scarcely been aware that he’d moved, but here he was within the enclosure. It was airless behind the thick vines and the sweet tart smell of the crushed grapes hung over her in the motionless heat and his throat was trembling so much he couldn’t speak.
She sat up, pivoted around on one hip to face him, both knees up and apart for an instant so he could see she wore nothing under the thin dress. She folded her feet under her and covered her legs with her skirt, her expression exaggeratedly demure. “Y’ scowling fierce. I do something to make you mad at me, Mr. Barton?” she said, her tone mocking and knowing. She indicated two heaped baskets. “You said I could just come and take all of the grapes I wanted to take. Can’t I?” She gave him a pouty look. “Or must I go on away. Y’ want me to go on away, Mr. Barton? H’m?”
“Deena May. Never go away . . .” He began hoarsely. His face was hot and he needed to sweat and he couldn’t. He was feverish. He blurted. “I want you. I want you to come away with me . . .”
She shook her mass of fiery hair back and opened those round blue eyes wide at him. “Where to? C’mon down where I can hear you sweet talk.” He got awkwardly down on his knees. “C’mon, clear down,” she urged. “Where y’ gonna take me, big old Daddy Lover?”
He sat almost touching her, his eyes fixed trance-like on her, his mouth twitchy at the corners. “New York. California. Mexico, foreign places, races, nightclubs, beaches . . . Deena May, come with me. Fly. You ever fly in an airplane?”
“No, I never. When? Buy me purties?” She thrust her leg out from under the skirt, fit the curve of her arched foot warmly against the bony round of his knee, stroking him. She wriggled her toes. “Purty high-heel shoes . . . stockings,” she touched her leg, then her hip and giggled, lowering her eyes, “and all? I’d leave you put them on me, even . . .” In a sudden burst of enthusiasm she came upright, standing on her knees before him. She hunched her shoulders and ran her hands slinkily across her chest. “Naked looking green dresses and blue and skin color ones and my hair piled zoop, up like this . . .” She pushed the flaming mass of her hair in a high wad and turned to show her ears and the lovely line of her neck. “And loop earrings and pearls wound in my hair. Whoo-eee . . .” She shook her shoulders and hips, standing there on her spread knees, and sang, grinning straight and dazzlingly close into his face. “Cha cha cha-tiyata . . . cha-ta-cha.” She pitched forward, winding her strong wiry little arms around his neck. She pushed her wet red mouth against his, hot and open and tasting like sugar. He toppled over onto his side on the grass, panting, his hands starting over her maddening body.
She rolled away out of reach. He pawed for her, scrambling, his eyes glazed and senseless. “Naughty big old Daddy Lover . . .” She got to her feet, kicked his hand from her ankle and danced away. She came within reach, teased him with her toe, jumped clear again. “Want it bad?”
“Please . . .”
She touched the dimple in her chin. “Devil’s in me. I set out for you, old man. My maw always said if an old man scowl at a purty young girl it ain’t natural; he’s fightin’ off young-man ideas and bound to lose and watch out. I been watchin’ the fierce way you look at me. Promise you’d cater to me, old man?”
“Anything. I—I promise. Come here.”
“No, no. You cool off and chicken on me, that’s what you’d end up. You chicken?”
Her eyes were blinking and dancing. He got himself to a sitting position and stared at her, sensing her meaning.
“What d’ya mean.”
“Hugh. He’d prevent us. And he’s got it comin’ to him, the way he won’t cater to me. I got it all set, but if you chicken out, y’can’t never get no closer’n them spy glasses you look at me through. I seen you once, don’t think I never . . .” She giggled, strutted and sang tauntingly, shaking her behind at him. “Cha cha cha-tiyata . . . cha-ta-cha . . . Well . . .?”
It was dark. Heat prickled at his scalp as he sat in the crotch of the tree by the turn in the creek, a shotgun on his knees. He knew he was there to ambush and kill a young man in cold blood, and yet he wasn’t. It wasn’t really him, Andrew Barton, but something else in him compelled to do it, to do what he had to do to hold onto the brightness of life against . . . He couldn’t think it through; he needn’t try . . . the past was dead, only the future was living . . .
“You can drop your shotgun now, Mr. Barton.”
Barton froze. That cold, strange voice wasn’t real; it was just fear and guilt working at his ears and mind . . .
“Drop it!” Hugh’s voice chopped at him. “I got a rifle at your back.”
Barton threw the shotgun down. “Shoot me,” he said. “Go ahead and shoot me.”
“I just want my pay so I can head out. Now, climb down. I found her hiding up in your house, hound led me straight to her. I scared the truth out of her. I never thought you could lie to me, Mr. Barton. Tell me she was hustling down to meet a feller so’s I could come and you could shoot me.” His voice cracked. “I never would of believed it, except I seen it’s so. Now, march!”
Barton moved along ahead of him, looking down. “Hugh, boy,” he mumbled. “I wouldn’t have gone through with it. Believe me.”
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Mr. Barton, you don’t know if you would of or not.”
Deena May stood scowling in a corner of the kitchen. Hugh ignored her. “I want my pay plus pay for the use of my wife.”
“I swear nothing’s happened.”
“If you’re the one who ain’t had her, no charge. Otherwise, kindly add twenty-five.” He spun, red-faced and furious and shouted at her, “Cents!” He turned, wiped at the sudden tears in his eyes. “Now will you please pay me my money so I can get the hell away from here?”
Deena May and Barton stood in the same room, not looking at each other. They listened after Hugh had gone and finally the old car coughed and started and went sputtering down the lane. They watched its lights turn onto the road. Then it was out of sight.
“Good riddance of bad rubbish,” Deena May sniffed. She slid a glance at him and frowned. “What’re you moping around about?”
He turned up his hands.
“You ain’t going to try kissing me off, too, are you?”
“I—I—” He couldn’t look at her.
“Lookit, big old Daddy Lover . . . Cha cha cha-tiyata . . . cha ta cha . . .” She sang and danced, shaking herself, and Barton couldn’t keep himself from watching. “That’s better,” she cried. “C’mon. There’s nothing to bother us none now. C’mon!”
She went up the stairs. After a moment, he lowered his head and followed.