Ruin & Rule

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by Pepper Winters




  For those who were with me from the beginning.

  You know who you are.

  Contents

  Title Page

  Dedication

  Prologue

  Chapter One

  Chapter Two

  Chapter Three

  Chapter Four

  Chapter Five

  Chapter Six

  Chapter Seven

  Chapter Eight

  Chapter Nine

  Chapter Ten

  Chapter Eleven

  Chapter Twelve

  Chapter Thirteen

  Chapter Fourteen

  Chapter Fifteen

  Chapter Sixteen

  Chapter Seventeen

  Chapter Eighteen

  Chapter Nineteen

  Chapter Twenty

  Chapter Twenty-One

  Chapter Twenty-Two

  Chapter Twenty-Three

  Chapter Twenty-Four

  Chapter Twenty-Five

  Chapter Twenty-Six

  To Be Continued…

  About the Author

  Playlist

  Prologue

  We met in a nightmare.

  The in-between world where time had no power over rhyme, reason, or connection. We met. We stared. We knew.

  There was no distortion from the outside world. No right or wrong. No confusion or battles from hearts and minds.

  Just us. In our silent dreamworld.

  That nightmare became our home. Planting ghosts, raising fantasies. Entwined together in our happily skewed reality.

  We fell in love. We fell hard.

  In those fleeting seconds of our nightmare, we lived an eternity.

  But then we woke up.

  And it was over.

  Chapter One

  I always believed life would grant rewards to those most worthy. I was fucking naïve. Life doesn’t reward—it ruins. It ruins those most deserving and takes everything. It takes everything all while watching any remaining goodness rot to hate.

  —Kill

  Darkness.

  That was my world now. Literally and physically.

  The back of my skull hurt from being knocked unconscious. My wrists and shoulders ached from lying on my back with my hands tied behind me.

  Nothing was broken—at least it didn’t feel that way—but everything was bruised. The fuzziness receded wisp by wisp, parting the clouds of sleep, trying to shed light on what’d happened. But there was no light. My eyes blinked at the endless darkness from the mask tied around my head. Anxiety twisted my stomach at having such a fundamental gift taken away.

  I didn’t move, but mentally catalogued my body from the tips of my toes to the last strand of hair on my head. My jaw and tongue ached from the foul rag stuffed in my mouth and my nose permitted a shallow stream of oxygen to enter—just enough to keep me alive.

  Fear tried to claw its way through my mind, but I shoved it away. I deliberately suppressed panic in order to assess my predicament rather than lose myself to terror.

  Fear never helps, only hinders.

  My senses came back, creeping tentatively, as if afraid whoever had stolen me would notice their return.

  Sound: the squeak of brakes, the creak of a vehicle settling from motion to stopping.

  Touch: the skin on my right forearm stung, throbbing with a mixture of soreness and sharpness. A burn perhaps?

  Smell: dank rotting vegetables and the astringent, pungent scent of fear—but it wasn’t mine. It was theirs.

  It wasn’t just me being kidnapped.

  My heart flurried, drinking in their terror. It made my breath quicken and legs itch to run. Forcing myself to ignore the outside world, I focused inward. Clutching my inner strength where calmness was a need rather than a luxury.

  I refused to lose myself in a fog of tears. Desperation was a curse and I wouldn’t succumb, because I had every intention of being prepared for what might happen next.

  I hated the sniffles and stifled sobs of others around me. Their bleak sadness tugged at my heartstrings, making me fight with my own preservation, replacing it with concern for theirs.

  Get through this, then worry about them.

  I didn’t think this was a simple opportunistic snatch. Whoever had stolen me planned it. The hunch grew stronger as I searched inside for any liquor remnants or the smell of cigarettes.

  Had I been at a party? Nightclub?

  Nothing.

  I hadn’t been stupid or reckless. I think…

  No hint or clue as to where I’d been or what I’d been doing when they’d come for me.

  I wriggled, trying to move away from the stench. My bound wrists protested, stinging as the rope around them gnawed into my flesh like twine-beasts. My ribs bellowed, along with my head. There was no give in my restraints. I stopped trying to move, preserving my energy.

  I tried to swallow.

  No saliva.

  I tried to speak.

  No voice.

  I tried to remember what happened.

  I tried to remember…

  Panic.

  Nothing.

  I can’t remember.

  “Get up, bitch,” a man said. Something jabbed me in the ribs. “Won’t tell you again. Get.”

  I froze as my mind hurtled me from present to past.

  I’ll miss you so much,” she wailed, hugging me tighter.

  “I’m not dying, you know.” I tried to untangle myself, looking over my shoulder at the FINAL CALL flashing for my flight. I hated being late for anything. Let alone my one chance at escaping and finding out the truth once and for all.

  “Call me the moment you get there.”

  “Promise.” I drew a cross over my heart—

  The memory shattered as my horizontal body suddenly went vertical in one swoop.

  Who was that girl? Why did I have no memory of it ever happening?

  “I said get up, bitch.” The man breathed hard in my ear, sending a waft of reeking breath over me. The blindfold stole my sight, but it left my nose woefully unprotected.

  Unfortunately.

  My captor shoved me forward. The ground was steady beneath my feet. The sickness plaiting with my confusion faded, leaving me cold.

  My legs stumbled in the direction he wanted me to go. I hated shuffling in the darkness, not knowing where I came from or where I was being herded. There were no sounds of comfort or smothered snickers. This wasn’t a masquerade.

  This was real.

  This is real.

  My heart thudded harder, fear slipping through my defenses. But full-blown terror remained elusive. Slippery like a silver fish, darting on the outskirts of my mind. It was there but fleeting, keeping me clear-headed and strong.

  I was grateful for that. Grateful that I maintained what dignity I had left—remaining strong even in the face of the unknown terrors lurking on the other side of my blindfold.

  Moans and whimpers of other women grew in decibels as men ordered them to follow the same path I walked. Either death row or salvation, I had no choice but to inch my way forward, leaving my forgotten past behind.

  I willed snippets to come back. I begged the puzzlement of my past to slot into place, so I could make sense of this horrible world I’d awoken in.

  But my mind was locked to me. A fortress withholding everything I wished to know.

  The pushing stopped. So did I.

  Big mistake.

  “Move.” A cuff to the back of my head sent me wheeling forward. I didn’t stop again. My bare feet traversed… wood?

  Bare feet?

  Where are my shoes?

  The missing knowledge twisted my stomach.

  Where did I come from?

  How did I end up here?

  What’s my name?

  It w
asn’t the terror of the unknown future that stole my false calmness. It was the fear of losing my very self. They’d stolen everything. My triumphs, my trespasses, my accomplishments and failures.

  How could I deal with this new world if I didn’t know what skills I had to stay alive? How could I hope to defeat my enemy when my mind revolted and locked me out?

  Who am I?

  To have who I was deleted… It was unthinkable.

  “Faster, bitch.” Something cold wedged against my spine, pushing me onward. With my hands behind my back, I shuffled faster, negotiating the ground as best I could for dips or trips.

  “Step down.” The man grabbed my bound wrists, giving me something to lean against as my toes navigated the small steps before me.

  “Again.”

  I obeyed.

  “Last one.”

  I managed the small staircase without falling flat on my face.

  My face.

  What do I look like?

  A loud scraping noise sounded before me. I shied back, bumping against a feminine form. The woman behind me cried out—the first verbal sound of another.

  “Move.” The pressure on my lower back came again, and I obeyed. Inching forward until the stuffy air of old vegetables and must was replaced by… copper and metallic… blood?

  Why… why is that so familiar?

  I gasped as my mind free-fell into another memory.

  “I don’t think I can do this.” I darted away, throwing up in the rubbish bin in the classroom. The unique stench of blood curdled my stomach.

  “Don’t overthink it. It’s not what you’re doing to the animal to make it bleed. It’s what you’re doing to make it live.” My professor shook his head, waiting for me to swill out my mouth and return white-faced and queasy to the operation in progress.

  My heart splintered like a broken piece of glass, reflecting the compassion and responsibility I felt for such an innocent creature. This little puppy that’d been dumped in a plastic bag to die after being shot with BB gun pellets. He’d survive only if I mastered the skills to stem his internal bleeding and embrace the vocation I was called to do.

  Inhaling the scent of blood, I let it invade my nostrils, scald my throat, and impregnate my soul. I drank its coppery essence. I drenched myself in the smell of the creature’s life force until it no longer affected me.

  Picking up a scalpel, I said, “I’m ready—”

  “Holy fuck!” The man guiding me forward suddenly whacked the base of my spine. The hard pain shoved me forward and I tripped.

  “Wire—get me fucking reinforcements. He’s started a motherfucking war!”

  Wind and body motion swarmed me as men charged from behind. The darkness I lived in suddenly came alive with sound.

  Bullets flew, impaling themselves into the metal sides of the vehicle I’d just stepped from. Pings and ricochets echoed in my ear. Curses bellowed; moans of pain threaded like a breeze.

  Someone grabbed my arm, swinging me to the side. “Get down!” The inertia of his throw knocked me off balance. With my wrists bound together, I had nothing to grab with, no way to protect myself from falling.

  I fell.

  My stomach swooped as tumbled off a small platform and smashed against the ground.

  Dirt, damp grass, and moldy leaves replaced the stench of blood, cutting through the cloying sharpness of spilled metallic. My mouth opened, gasping in pain. Blades of grass tickled my lips as my cheek stuck to wet mud.

  My shoulder screamed with agony, but I ignored the new injury. My mind clung to the unlocked memory. The fleeting recollection of my profession.

  I’m a vet.

  The sense of homecoming and security that one little snippet brought was priceless. My soul snarled for more, suddenly ravenous for missing information.

  I skipped straight from fumbling uncertainty into starvation for more.

  Tell me! Show me. Who am I?

  I searched inside for more clues. But it was like trying to grab on to an elusive dream, fading faster and faster the harder I chased.

  I couldn’t remember anything about medicine or how to heal. All I knew was I’d been trained to embrace the scent of blood. I wasn’t afraid of it. I didn’t faint or suffer sickness at the sight of it pouring from an open wound.

  That tiniest knowledge was enough to settle my prickling nerves and focus on the outside world again.

  Battle cries. Men screaming. Men growling. The dense thuds of fists on flesh and the horrible deflection of gunshots.

  I couldn’t understand. Had I fallen through time and entered an alternate dimension?

  Another body landed on top of mine.

  I cried out, winded from a sharp poke of an elbow to my ribs.

  The figure rolled away, crying softly. Feminine.

  Why aren’t I crying?

  I once again searched for fear. It wasn’t natural not to be afraid. I’d woken up alone, stolen, and thrown into the middle of a war, yet I wasn’t hyperventilating or panicked.

  My calmness was like a drug, oozing over me, muting the sharp starkness of my situation. It was bearable if I embraced courage and the knowledge that I was strong.

  My hands balled, grateful for the thought. I didn’t know who I was, but it didn’t matter, because the person who I was in this moment mattered the most.

  I had to remain segmented, so I could get through whatever was about to happen. All I had was gut instinct, quiet strength, and rationality. Everything else had been taken.

  “Stop fighting, you fucking idiots!”

  The loud growl rumbled like an earthquake, hushing the battle in one fell swoop. Whoever had spoken had power.

  Immense power. Colossal power.

  A shiver darted over my skin.

  “What the fuck happened? Have you lost your goddamn lovin’ mind?” a man yelled.

  A sound of a short scuffle, then the fresh whiff of tilled dirt graced my nose.

  “It’s done. Throw down your weapons and bend a fucking knee.” The same earthquake rumbled. The weight of his command pushed me harder against the damp ground.

  “I’m not bending nothing, you asshole. You aren’t my Prez!”

  “I am. Have been for the past four years.”

  “You’re not. You’re his bitch. Don’t think his power is yours.”

  Another fight—muffled fists and kicks. It ended swiftly with a painful groan.

  The earthquake voice came again. “Open your eyes and follow the red fucking river. Your chosen—the one you hand-picked to slaughter me and take over the Club—he’s dead. Did you ever stop to think Wallstreet made me Prez for a fucking reason?”

  Another moan.

  “I’m the chosen one. I’m the one who knows the family secrets, absorbed the legacy, and earned his way into power. You don’t know shit. Nobody does. So bend a fucking knee and respect.”

  Another tremor ran down my back.

  Silence for a time, apart from the squelch of boots and heavy breathing. Then a barely muttered curse. “You’ll die. One way or another, we won’t put up with a Dagger as a Prez. We’re the Corrupts, goddammit. Having a traitor rule us is a fucking joke.”

  “I’m the traitor? The man who obeys your leader? Who guides in his stead? I’m the traitor when you try and rally my brothers in a war?” A heavy thud of a fist connected with flesh. “No… I’m not. You are.”

  My mind raced, sucking up noises and forming wild conclusions of what happened before me. Was this World War Three? Was this the apocalypse of the life I couldn’t remember? No matter how I pieced it together, I couldn’t make sense of anything.

  The air was thick with anticipation. I didn’t know how many men stood before me. I didn’t know how many corpses littered the ground, or how such violence could be permitted in the world I used to know. But I did know the cease-fire was fragile and any moment it would explode.

  A single threat slithered through the grass like a snake. “I’ll kill you, motherfucker. Mark my words. The true C
orrupts are just waiting to take you out.”

  The gentle foot-thuds of someone large vibrated through the ground. “The Corrupts haven’t existed for four fucking years. The moment I took the seat, it’s been Pure Corruption all the way. And you’re not fucking pure enough for this Club. You’re done.”

  I flinched as the sulfuric boom of a gun ripped through the stagnant air.

  A crash as a body fell lifeless to the grass. A soft puff of a soul escaping.

  Murder.

  Murder was committed right before me.

  The inherent need to nurture and heal—the part of me that was as steadfast as the beat of my heart—wept with regret.

  Death was something I’d fought against on a daily basis, but now I was weaponless.

  I hated that a life had been stolen right before me. That I hadn’t been able to stop it.

  I’m a witness.

  And yet, I’d witnessed nothing.

  I’d been privy to a battle but seen nothing. Knew no one. I would never be able to tell who shot whom, or who was right and who was wrong.

  My hands shook, even though I managed to stay eerily calm. Am I in shock? And if I was, how did I cure myself?

  The woman beside me curled into a ball, her knees digging into my side. My first reaction was to repel away from the touch. I didn’t know who was friend or foe. But a second reaction came quickly; the urge to share my calmness—to let her know that no matter what happened, she wasn’t alone. We faced the same future—no matter how grim.

  Voices cascaded over us, whispers mainly, quickly spoken orders. Every sound was heightened. Being robbed of sight made my body seek other ways in which to find clues.

  “Get rid of the bodies before daybreak.”

  “We’ll go back and make sure we’re still covered.”

  “Send out the word. It’s over. The Prez won—no anarchy today.”

  Each voice was distinct but my ears twitched only for one: the earthquake rumble that set my skin quivering like quicksand.

  He hadn’t spoken since he’d condemned someone to death and pulled the trigger. Every second of not hearing him made my heart trip faster. I wasn’t afraid. I should be. I should be immobile with fear. But he invoked something in me—something primal. Just like I knew I was female and a vet, I knew his voice meant something. Every inch of me tensed, waiting for him to speak. It was wrong to crave the voice of a killer, but it was the only thing I wanted.

 

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