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by Emjay Soren


  "I'll sing for you in a minute if you keep it up." She says, then arches her back when I slipped two fingers in and pressed up, feeling her melt on my hand.

  "Mmmm, fuck yeah. Sing for me girl… I miss that sound." I say and bite her lip, then lick it.

  I am so hard, thrusting against her ass and feel my cum leak out with every thrust, when she fucking cums all over my hand and I lose it.

  "Shit!" I say and roll until I am between her legs. "Feel that? Feel that I want you baby." I say stroking against her and I am dying to be in her, but I swore I would do it right. "I wont do it tonight, but I will split you in half in the morning… Fuck!" I curse and fall down on her, hand down my pants as I stroke it.

  "Cum on me then…" She says, and I wont make her ask twice.

  I sit back on my knees. "Tell me where?" I say and whip my cock out, so close, so fucking close nothing can stop this train.

  She comes in fast and her mouth opens at my tip, I watch my apa slip past her lips, and shot right on her lips and tongue.

  "Holy… Aaah God girl. Take it, take it all!" I shout and fall on my back, dick half out and wet on my stomach, watching, dying as she licks me from her lips like a snack.

  I grab her and pull her to my mouth, kissing her in thanks. Tasting a small piece of myself on her tongue like a fucking marking.

  She straddles me, and I'm not so sure it's smart. I see her all pliant and happy, sexy as fuck and I want her again. I shift and hold her hips, her robe still open showing me everything. She traces my tats, leans down and softly kisses my True Love tattoo.

  "Sorry I broke your rules." She says and smiles. I trace her lips and then cup her neck bringing her down with me and rolling us so she is in my arms curled against me.

  "I'm a little mad at me having no restraint because tonight isn't about sex, but I don't regret it." I kiss her neck and just enjoy the moment. "I do want another dinner date though."

  She giggles and twists to look at me. "Oh yeah?"

  "Yeah, other than your pussy. That's a feast I'm having for breakfast"

  She laughs again and I love the sound. Love that I gave up the mourning to be in this moment. "Oh yeah?"

  I nod with a chuckle. "The minute we wake up, the fuckin gloves are off and I'll be on you with everything I have."

  "Mmmm, can't wait." She leans up to look at the alarm clock. "It's technically morning now…"

  I groan, on a yawn. "Woman…"

  She gets up from my arms and ties her robe as I watch with tired eyes. "Might as well sleep naked, easier access." I say and she leans over to kiss me then heads to the kitchen and flips off all the lights.

  "What's up?" I ask when she comes back in and climbs in next to me, I feel half asleep.

  "Nothing." She whispers and pulls the blanket up over me and rests her head on my shoulder. "Go to sleep you're so tired…"

  I only caught half of what she said, as I drifted off… But I swear she said she was sorry.

  Bright

  He was so sweet and peaceful as he slept beside me and I hated myself. I have been so occupied with him, and my feelings for him that it didn't hit me until tonight when Raleigh asked if I believed in long distant relationships.

  I don't.

  I barely believe in relationships at all, long distant or otherwise. And this would be an all over the world relationship. I had so much that tied me to California. I had him that tied me to Washington. Now I lay here plagued by the thought that he had done a complete turnaround to win me, to keep me, because he believed in me. I didn't think of a future with him, because I didn't see one.

  How could you? You were in the shadow of a ghost.

  I shake the thought and trace his face, knowing tomorrow wouldn’t be spent making love.

  It would be spent saying goodbye.

  I rolled from the bed and sent an email to Carrie instead of Tayla telling her that I was needed at home and wouldn’t be back until after Thanksgiving break.

  Now I needed the distance. I couldn’t stay and fall in love with the most unattainable man I had ever met. Men were my thing, I read them, played with them and left them in my wake. My changes brought me Noah, his changes brought him me. And I was going to ruin it all.

  I climbed back in bed and kissed him softly, unable to force myself to leave in the night while he slept. "I am so sorry Noah…" I said and stood to gather all of my things. I called a car service to come get me so I could get to SeaTac in time.

  I called Raleigh and woke him up, stepping out on the balcony I cried and told him everything. He was angry with me, but like always I had his loyalty and he was meeting me in the lobby in twenty minutes.

  Once I was dressed I took the remaining bags from the bathroom and opened the door, to see him sitting in the bed with a cigarette, waiting on me.

  "Fuckin didn't see that comin'." He said and ashes the smoke on the tray at the side table. I could see the hurt, but he was hiding how bad.

  "Noah…" I couldn’t find my words as tears welled.

  He stood from the bed and made his way to me. "Have the decency I do, to tell the fangirls it's me not them."

  "It's not that- "

  "Bullshit!" He yells and stands straight so we are eye to eye. "Tell me you don't want me Bright."

  "Noah, this is just a lot to think on and I need to clear my head."

  He laughs. "I get you want to clear your head, you go to the bus and get distance. You don't book a flight and bail in the middle of the night." He turns to walk away from me, spinning to drill me with his stare. "Tell me you don't want me?" He demands louder this time.

  I can't answer him though, there is no way I can look at him and tell him I don't. "I'm unsteady- "

  '"You're a fuckin pussy baby." He says and storms past me to the bathroom slamming the door in my face and locking it. "Leave the key card on the table." He yells and I hear the water turn on and know he has dismissed me.

  I do as he says, and leave him. I finally left for reasons I never saw coming.

  Look for the light that leads me home.

  Tired of feeling lost, tired of letting go.

  Tear the whole world down, tear the whole world down.

  Breaking Benjamin~Failure

  Chapter Fifteen

  Noah

  Solemnly I sit alone,

  Preparing my heart for the fall it is about to take.

  And then I begin.

  I write the sensitive words I long for you to hear,

  The gentle tears I cry for you at night.

  The seldom times I see your perfect face,

  I capture the moment and place it in my heart.

  The words you speak echo through my mind,

  As I try to free myself of this pain.

  The smile you bring the minute you enter the room,

  The heartache you bring the minute you enter the room…

  The scent you leave after storming off,

  Drifts away with you into the crisp night air.

  Alone!

  I stood, watching you leave,

  My heart fell and shattered at your feet.

  Had you been strong enough to take it with you-

  Now I can never love again

  I set the notebook down and want to puke. I know, know what night she wrote this. It was the night she was leaving to go to Cass and Shames and I ripped her apart for it.

  The notebook was full of little lymricks and sonnets. There were journal entries and more bleeding heartache than anything I thought she could summon.

  I feel a strong sense of perversion for wanting him, but forgive me this degradation. I humiliate myself for the trespass I want…

  Here she is talking about me, taking me, or wanting to, knowing I was devoted to Candey. This book is full of them and I know why she always had it now. I had thought she was taking notes on me… foolish thought, but its why I read it. Figured she bailed because she couldn’t keep business separate or some shit.

  All morning I ponder this shit and
then read it, and I know now.

  She more than wanted me. She loves me and I have ripped her apart this whole time.

  No wonder she ran

  I know where she went though. I have Raleigh in my back pocket, knowing he is on my side on this one. I call him, it's after one pm and I know he's in California by now, so is she. Carrie told me she got her resignation email when she woke me to scream at me.

  "The Brew, this is Raleigh. What can I make for you today?" He sounds so excited to be making coffee I almost believe him.

  "Ral, man its me Noah. Please tell me she isn't standing there?" He coughs and I hear the phone get smothered a little and know she is, right fuckin there.

  I might have had a small hope she would be at the bus, unable to leave me.

  No such luck fucker.

  "Yes sir we have peppermint mocha lattes'." He says and I think of her peppermint coffee and it makes me sad I won't be watching that gross morning ritual any longer.

  "I like mine strong and plain Ral. Now go the fuck away from her!" I yell into the phone, feeling kind of bad for yelling at him, but I am losing my mind.

  "Sir, that is so charming. Have you ever thought of coming to the Sage? It's our little bar and we read poetry and music, open Mic night stuff?"

  "What the fuck Ral…" I have no idea what he is talking about or if he is just fucking with me.

  "Yes absolutely. In fact…" He draws out the in fact and makes me wait a second. "We have Bright the owner doing a live reading on Saturday Did you hear that sir? I said Saturday!" He smothers the phone but hear him tell someone he thinks the person on the other line is hard of hearing.

  "I will be there but, fuck Ral. I know you are loyal to her, but I can't let her leave feel me?"

  I hope he does.

  "Oh, I do sir absolutely. Totally worth it."

  I smile then totally getting what he is saying.

  "Write my number down Ral."

  "If you need anything at all just give us a call. I am actually on duty all day tomorrow and Saturday so call me if you need to."

  "Got it, I'll call you tomorrow." I say and he keeps going.

  "Feel free to go to our facebook page and check us out, leave comments or message. The Brew is totally on facebook."

  Translation: Facebook me.

  "Okay Ral I get it."

  "Have a great day sir, thanks for calling."

  The line went dead and I honestly gotta say I love that guy.

  I had two days which meant I was flying out tonight after the show. Open Mic night? Whatever, I would be there with her fucking notebook.

  Saturday

  Bright

  Stay back, beautiful girl stay back.

  Stay back,, I mean it. Listen to me. We have been here before, too many times. You know better.

  Stay back. I am telling you, sweet girl this is impossible. This is as impossible as shutting the world out in a tornado.

  You let him see this, let him know and you will lose all grace.

  Stay back. Don't you dare trip and fall, he won't catch you baby. He is fragile, you know he is fragile and you are the chill in the eye of that storm. That chill that tells you this is not gonna end well.

  Stay back. You will regret this. You will hope like hell you’ll live again but you will not recover. This.... this will annihilate you. Do not listen to your heart, it fails you every time.

  But... I love him. That is the only response to the fear screaming in my mind every time I think his name.

  Stay back, God damn you! This is already over how can you not see it? Feel it yet? That burn to run to him and bare your soul in hopes he will finally see you? Don't do it girl. Stay back!

  But... I love him. I can't deny that regardless of my fear. If I lose everything in the fight, I am no worse off.

  Stay back, stay back, stay back.... please.... my voice will fade out to a whisper if you'll listen to me now. He cannot give to you what you need. This is not a romance novel sweet girl, it is your heart. You cannot save him, he has to save him. Only then will he decide if you're enough.

  But.... I love him. I can't stand by as he suffers. Not when I am certain he wants me just as much.

  Stay back! Fool don't make me laugh. You are not HER, not the one who crushed him. SHE is who he wants, you are a filler, a Band-Aid... you are the whisper of hope and that is the equivalent to a day dream. Sweet girl, stay back.

  But... I love him. She loved him too, endings don't matter when compared to the beginning and our beginning was magic.

  Stay back! Don't think of meant to be or love at first sight. Silly girl, you are in this alone. Look at him....just look at him.

  I am looking at him.....

  I can see the shock in his face when I say that and leave the stage. I knew he was trying to hide in the shadows but I could spot him in a crowd, I swear my bones know when that man is close.

  I watch him as he watches me, I can see his nostrils flair and the look in his eyes is so intense it burns me. He wants me right now, more than he ever has and with that look I am done denying it anymore.

  I want him just as much.

  I look over my shoulder to the hall behind the stage, then look back at him. My eyes telling him without words my intent. I leave the stage the instant I see a faint nod and he is off the stool and walking fast in an almost jog to that same hallway I am heading to. I make it to the hall behind the stage and stand in front of the door that leads to the parking lot and dumpsters. I look at my phone there is time before they start cleaning for the night and the in and out from the Brew to the dumpsters begins.

  I only need 5 minutes, enough to tell him where we are going.

  And I'll use you as a warning sign

  That if you talk enough sense, then you'll lose your mind

  And I'll use you as focal point

  So I don’t lose sight of what I want

  And I've moved further than I thought I could

  But I miss you more than I thought I would

  Oh I'll use you as a warning sign

  That if you talk enough sense, then you'll lose your mind

  Amber Run~I found

  Chapter Sixteen

  Noah

  He grabs my arm and I jump, I didn’t hear him come out the door, my mind fixated on what I would say or do.

  Sex had always come easy for me. Flirt a little, bite my lip, bat my lashes and offer a good time.

  Noah was different though. I didn’t want meaningless no frills sex. I wanted passion and that same intensity that has been present since the moment we met. I need that heat to ignite us both.

  I say nothing when his hand slips behind my neck, fisting his fingers in my hair and slams his mouth to mine in one furious, aggressive kiss that no other kiss will ever compare to. He is everywhere at once, and he tastes so good, so God damned good. I can't breathe and I don’t care.

  He bites my lip and pulls back slowly, not removing his hand from my hair or the one that is on my butt. We are still close, both of us breathing heavy. “I didn’t know…” He says and is back to kissing me, though not as rough, but oh so much deeper.

  “Know what?” I manage to ask, his lips still assailing me. I cant keep my fingers from his hair, I am pulling it as hard as he is mine. There have been nights since I gave up on sex and dating, nights where need was so fierce that I couldn’t sleep without masturbating to curb the desire enough to rest. This wasn’t need however. This was something I have never felt in my life. All I could think about was how he would feel slipping inside of me, how he would look above me. It was painful having him kissing me, hoping he had been feeling what I have been feeling.

  “I didn’t know you felt that. I’m so sorry baby. I am so sorry…” He keeps saying it, like a mantra on my lips while my heart beats a staccato rhythm all its own.

  “Ohmigod, Noah don’t stop.” I cry as he bites below my ear. He is rough in all the right ways and I want so bad to come with him, feel him come for me, for wanting and needing m
e as much. My brain is on a loop of lust and need and if I was smart I would stop and tell him to leave. He was everything that would ruin me and nothing inside of me had the strength to turn him away.

  “Don’t make me stop Bright. Please, fuck I need inside you.” His voice was a tender rasp against my skin, vibrating to the very core of me.

  “Come with me.” I say and step back from him, my stomach flipping in excitement when he growled low in his throat when I stepped back. “My apartment is above the Brew.” I say in way of telling him we were not stopping, but speeding careless and reckless into what could equally be my biggest regret or my greatest win.

  We went to the stairs we were making out under moments before and he took me by the arm, spinning me until I was behind him. “Come on baby.” He said and smacked the side of my ass. I jumped on his back and giggled in his ear as he took two stairs at a time.

  The key in the lock was the sound of everything changing. Once inside, he leaned forward and a simple shift I was now holding on to his front, my legs around him where everything was situated perfectly and for the first time in four years I felt that thick ridge of a cock beneath denim and my skin went to goose flesh instantly.

  He spun, placing my back against the wall, his hips pressing hard and firm against me to hold me up while he worked on stripping me from my tank top. He used one hand to start working at my jeans and the other to slip the cup of my bra down so he could feast on my breast.

  My fingers curl at the hair on the nape of his neck and I arch back because he feels so good.

  “Fuck, you are the sexiest thing Bright.” He says and is now using both hands to get my pants fully undone. My hands are working on his belt to get him free to my eyes, stopping dead when I first feel the metal, looking down to see silver balls aligning his dick.

 

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