Aron was holding open the skin of the turkey while Lee forced stuffing into the cavity. The oven cricked and snapped with growing heat.
Lee said, "Let's see, eighteen pounds, twenty minutes to the pound--that's eighteen times twenty--that's three hundred and sixty minutes, six hours even--eleven to twelve, twelve to one--" He counted on his fingers.
Cal said, "When you get through, Aron, let's take a walk."
"Where to?" Aron asked.
"Just around town. I want to ask you something."
Cal led his brother across the street to Berges and Garrisiere, who imported fine wines and liquors. Cal said, "I've got a little money, Aron. I thought you might like to buy some wine for dinner. I'll give you the money."
"What kind of wine?"
"Let's make a real celebration. Let's get champagne--it can be your present."
Joe Garrisiere said, "You boys aren't old enough."
"For dinner? Sure we are."
"Can't sell it to you. I'm sorry."
Cal said, "I know what you can do. We can pay for it and you can send it to our father."
"That I can do," Joe Garrisiere said. "We've got some Oeil de Perdrix--" His lips pursed as though he were tasting it.
"What's that?" Cal asked.
"Champagne--but very pretty, same color as a partridge eye--pink but a little darker than pink, and dry too. Four-fifty a bottle."
"Isn't that high?" Aron asked.
"Sure it's high!" Cal laughed. "Send three bottles over, Joe." To Aron he said, "It's your present."
3
To Cal the day was endless. He wanted to leave the house and couldn't. At eleven o'clock Adam went to the closed draft-board office to brood over the records of a new batch of boys coming up.
Aron seemed perfectly calm. He sat in the living room, looking at cartoons in old numbers of the Review of Reviews. From the kitchen the odor of the bursting juices of roasting turkey began to fill the house.
Cal went into his room and took out his present and laid it on his desk. He tried to write a card to put on it. "To my father from Caleb"--"To Adam Trask from Caleb Trask." He tore the cards in tiny pieces and flushed them down the toilet.
He thought, Why give it to him today? Maybe tomorrow I could go to him quietly and say, This is for you, and then walk away. That would be easier. "No," he said aloud. "I want the others to see." It had to be that way. But his lungs were compressed and the palms of his hands were wet with stage fright. And then he thought of the morning when his father got him out of jail. The warmth and closeness--they were the things to remember--and his father's trust. Why, he had even said it. "I trust you." He felt much better then.
At about three o'clock he heard Adam come in and there was the low sound of voices conversing in the living room. Cal joined his father and Aron.
Adam was saying, "The times are changed. A boy must be a specialist or he will get nowhere. I guess that's why I'm so glad you're going to college."
Aron said, "I've been thinking about that, and I wonder."
"Well, don't think any more. Your first choice is right. Look at me. I know a little bit about a great many things and not enough about any one of them to make a living in these times."
Cal sat down quietly. Adam did not notice him. His face was concentrated on his thought.
"It's natural for a man to want his son to succeed," Adam went on. "And maybe I can see better than you can."
Lee looked in. "The kitchen scales must be way off," he said. "The turkey's going to be done earlier than the chart says. I'll bet that bird doesn't weigh eighteen pounds."
Adam said, "Well, you can keep it warm," and he continued, "Old Sam Hamilton saw this coming. He said there couldn't be any more universal philosophers. The weight of knowledge is too great for one mind to absorb. He saw a time when one man would know only one little fragment, but he would know it well."
"Yes," Lee said from the doorway, "and he deplored it. He hated it."
"Did he now?" Adam asked.
Lee came into the room. He held his big basting spoon in his right hand, and he cupped his left under the bowl for fear it would drip on the carpet. He came into the room and forgot and waved his spoon and drops of turkey fat fell to the floor. "Now you question it, I don't know," he said. "I don't know whether he hated it or I hate it for him."
"Don't get so excited," said Adam. "Seems to me we can't discuss anything any more but you take it as a personal insult."
"Maybe the knowledge is too great and maybe men are growing too small," said Lee. "Maybe, kneeling down to atoms, they're becoming atom-sized in their souls. Maybe a specialist is only a coward, afraid to look out of his little cage. And think what any specialist misses--the whole world over his fence."
"We're only talking about making a living."
"A living--or money," Lee said excitedly. "Money's easy to make if it's money you want. But with a few exceptions people don't want money. They want luxury and they want love and they want admiration."
"All right. But do you have any objection to college? That's what we're talking about."
"I'm sorry," said Lee. "You're right, I do seem to get too excited. No, if college is where a man can go to find his relation to his whole world, I don't object. Is it that? Is it that, Aron?"
"I don't know," said Aron.
A hissing sound came from the kitchen. Lee said, "The goddam giblets are boiling over," and he bolted through the door.
Adam gazed after him affectionately. "What a good man! What a good friend!"
Aron said, "I hope he lives to be a hundred."
His father chuckled. "How do you know he's not a hundred now?"
Cal asked, "How is the ice plant doing, Father?"
"Why, all right. Pays for itself and makes a little profit. Why?"
"I thought of a couple of things to make it really pay."
"Not today," said Adam quickly. "Monday, if you remember, but not today. You know," Adam said, "I don't remember when I've felt so good. I feel--well, you might call it fulfilled. Maybe it's only a good night's sleep and a good trip to the bathroom. And maybe it's because we're all together and at peace." He smiled at Aron. "We didn't know what we felt about you until you went away."
"I was homesick," Aron confessed. "The first few days I thought I'd die of it."
Abra came in with a little rush. Her cheeks were pink and she was happy. "Did you notice there's snow on Mount Toro?" she asked.
"Yes, I saw it," Adam said. "They say that means a good year to come. And we could use it."
"I just nibbled," said Abra. "I wanted to be hungry for here."
Lee apologized for the dinner like an old fool. He blamed the gas oven which didn't heat like a good wood stove. He blamed the new breed of turkeys which lacked a something turkeys used to have. But he laughed with them when they told him he was acting like an old woman fishing for compliments.
With the plum pudding Adam opened the champagne, and they treated it with ceremony. A courtliness settled over the table. They proposed toasts. Each one had his health drunk, and Adam made a little speech to Abra when he drank her health.
Her eyes were shining and under the table Aron held her hand. The wine dulled Cal's nervousness and he was not afraid about his present.
When Adam had finished his plum pudding he said, "I guess we never have had such a good Thanksgiving."
Cal reached in his jacket pocket, took out the red-ribboned package, and pushed it over in front of his father.
"What's this?" Adam asked.
"It's a present."
Adam was pleased. "Not even Christmas and we have presents. I wonder what it can be!"
"A handkerchief," said Abra.
Adam slipped off the grubby bow and unfolded the tissue paper. He stared down at the money.
Abra said, "What is it?" and stood up to look. Aron leaned forward. Lee, in the doorway, tried to keep the look of worry from his face. He darted a glance at Cal and saw the light of joy and triumph in his ey
es.
Very slowly Adam moved his fingers and fanned the gold certificates. His voice seemed to come from far away. "What is it? What--" He stopped.
Cal swallowed. "It's--I made it--to give to you--to make up for losing the lettuce."
Adam raised his head slowly. "You made it? How?"
"Mr. Hamilton--we made it--on beans." He hurried on, "We bought futures at five cents and when the price jumped--It's for you, fifteen thousand dollars. It's for you."
Adam touched the new bills so that their edges came together, folded the tissue over them and turned the ends up. He looked helplessly at Lee. Cal caught a feeling--a feeling of calamity, of destruction in the air, and a weight of sickness overwhelmed him. He heard his father say, "You'll have to give it back."
Almost as remotely his own voice said, "Give it back? Give it back to who?"
"To the people you got it from."
"The British Purchasing Agency? They can't take it back. They're paying twelve and a half cents for beans all over the country."
"Then give it to the farmers you robbed."
"Robbed?" Cal cried. "Why, we paid them two cents a pound over the market. We didn't rob them." Cal felt suspended in space, and time seemed very slow.
His father took a long time to answer. There seemed to be long spaces between his words. "I send boys out," he said. "I sign my name and they go out. And some will die and some will lie helpless without arms and legs. Not one will come back untorn. Son, do you think I could take a profit on that?"
"I did it for you,". Cal said. "I wanted you to have the money to make up your loss."
"I don't want the money, Cal. And the lettuce--I don't think I did that for a profit. It was a kind of game to see if I could get the lettuce there, and I lost. I don't want the money."
Cal looked straight ahead. He could feel the eyes of Lee and Aron and Abra crawling on his cheeks. He kept his eyes on his father's lips.
"I like the idea of a present," Adam went on. "I thank you for the thought--"
"I'll put it away. I'll keep it for you," Cal broke in.
"No. I won't want it ever. I would have been so happy if you could have given me--well, what your brother has--pride in the thing he's doing, gladness in his progress. Money, even clean money, doesn't stack up with that." His eyes widened a little and he said, "Have I made you angry, son? Don't be angry. If you want to give me a present--give me a good life. That would be something I could value."
Cal felt that he was choking. His forehead streamed with perspiration and he tasted salt on his tongue. He stood up suddenly and his chair fell over. He ran from the room, holding his breath.
Adam called after him, "Don't be angry, son."
They let him alone. He sat in his room, his elbows on his desk. He thought he would cry but he did not. He tried to let weeping start but tears could not pass the hot iron in his head.
After a time his breathing steadied and he watched his brain go to work slyly, quietly. He fought the quiet hateful brain down and it slipped aside and went about its work. He fought it more weakly, for hate was seeping all through his body, poisoning every nerve. He could feel himself losing control.
Then there came a point where the control and the fear were gone and his brain cried out in an aching triumph. His hand went to a pencil and he drew tight little spirals one after another on his blotting pad. When Lee came in an hour later there were hundreds of spirals, and they had become smaller and smaller. He did not look up.
Lee closed the door gently. "I brought you some coffee," he said.
"I don't want it--yes, I do. Why, thank you, Lee. It's kind of you to think of it."
Lee said, "Stop it! Stop it, I tell you!"
"Stop what? What do you want me to stop?"
Lee said uneasily, "I told you once when you asked me that it was all in yourself. I told you you could control it--if you wanted."
"Control what? I don't know what you're talking about."
Lee said, "Can't you hear me? Can't I get through to you? Cal, don't you know what I'm saying?"
"I hear you, Lee. What are you saying?"
"He couldn't help it, Cal. That's his nature. It was the only way he knew. He didn't have any choice. But you have. Don't you hear me? You have a choice."
The spirals had become so small that the pencil lines ran together and the result was a shiny black dot.
Cal said quietly, "Aren't you making a fuss about nothing? You must be slipping. You'd think from your tone that I'd killed somebody. Come off it, Lee. Come off it."
It was silent in the room. After a moment Cal turned from his desk and the room was empty. A cup of coffee on the bureau top sent up a plume of vapor. Cal drank the coffee scalding as it was and went into the living room.
His father looked up apologetically at him.
Cal said, "I'm sorry, Father. I didn't know how you felt about it." He took the package of money from where it lay on the mantel and put it in the inside pocket of his coat where it had been before. "I'll see what I can do about this." He said casually, "Where are the others?"
"Oh, Abra had to go. Aron walked with her. Lee went out."
"I guess I'll go for a walk," said Cal.
4
The November night was well fallen. Cal opened the front door a crack and saw Lee's shoulders and head outlined against the white wall of the French Laundry across the street. Lee was sitting on the steps, and he looked lumpy in his heavy coat.
Cal closed the door quietly and went back through the living room. "Champagne makes you thirsty," he said. His father didn't look up.
Cal slipped out the kitchen door and moved through Lee's waning kitchen garden. He climbed the high fence, found the two-by-twelve plank that served as a bridge across the slough of dark water, and came out between Lang's Bakery and the tinsmith's shop on Castroville Street.
He walked to Stone Street where the Catholic church is and turned left, went past the Carriaga house, the Wilson house, the Zabala house, and turned left on Central Avenue at the Steinbeck house. Two blocks out Central he turned left past the West End School.
The poplar trees in front of the schoolyard were nearly bare, but in the evening wind a few yellowed leaves still twisted down.
Cal's mind was numb. He did not even know that the air was cold with frost slipping down from the mountains. Three blocks ahead he saw his brother cross under a streetlight, coming toward him. He knew it was his brother by stride and posture and because he knew it.
Cal slowed his steps, and when Aron was close he said, "Hi. I came looking for you."
Aron said, "I'm sorry about this afternoon."
"You couldn't help it--forget it." He turned and the two walked side by side. "I want you to come with me," Cal said. "I want to show you something."
"What is it?"
"Oh, it's a surprise. But it's very interesting. You'll be interested."
"Well, will it take long?"
"No, not very long. Not very long at all."
They walked past Central Avenue toward Castroville Street.
5
Sergeant Axel Dane ordinarily opened the San Jose recruiting office at eight o'clock, but if he was a little late Corporal Kemp opened it, and Kemp was not likely to complain. Axel was not an unusual case. A hitch in the U.S. Army in the time of peace between the Spanish war and the German war had unfitted him for the cold, unordered life of a civilian. One month between hitches convinced him of that. Two hitches in the peacetime army completely unfitted him for war, and he had learned enough method to get out of it. The San Jose recruiting station proved he knew his way about. He was dallying with the youngest Ricci girl and she lived in San Jose.
Kemp hadn't the time in, but he was learning the basic rule. Get along with the topkick and avoid all officers when possible. He didn't mind the gentle riding Sergent Dane handed out.
At eight-thirty Dane entered the office to find Corporal Kemp asleep at his desk and a tired-looking kid sat waiting. Dane glanced at the boy and
then went in back of the rail and put his hand on Kemp's shoulder.
"Darling," he said, "the skylarks are singing and a new dawn is here."
Kemp raised his head from his arms, wiped his nose on the back of his hand, and sneezed. "That's my sweet," the sergeant said. "Arise, we have a customer."
Kemp squinted his crusted eyes. "The war will wait," he said.
Dane looked more closely at the boy. "God! he's beautiful. I hope they take good care of him. Corporal, you may think that he wants to bear arms against the foe, but I think he's running away from love."
Kemp was relieved that the sergeant wasn't quite sober. "You think some dame hurt him?" He played any game his sergeant wished. "You think it's the Foreign Legion?"
"Maybe he's running away from himself."
Kemp said, "I saw that picture. There's one mean son of a bitch of a sergeant in it."
"I don't believe it," said Dane. "Step up, young man. Eighteen, aren't you?"
"Yes, sir."
Dane turned to his man. "What do you think?"
"Hell!" said Kemp. "I say if they're big enough, they're old enough."
The sergeant said, "Let's say you're eighteen. And we'll stick to it, shall we?"
"Yes, sir."
"You just take this form and fill it out. Now you figure out what year you were born, and you put it down right here, and you remember it."
Chapter 50
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Joe didn't like for Kate to sit still and stare straight ahead--hour after hour. That meant she was thinking, and since her face had no expression Joe had no access to her thoughts. It made him uneasy. He didn't want his first real good break to get away from him.
He had only one plan himself--and that was to keep her stirred up until she gave herself away. Then he could jump in any direction. But how about it if she sat looking at the wall? Was she stirred up or wasn't she?
Joe knew she hadn't been to bed, and when he asked whether or not she wanted breakfast she shook her head so slowly that it was hard to know whether she had heard him or not.
He advised, himself cautiously, "Don't do nothing! Just stick around and keep your eyes and ears open." The girls in the house knew something had happened but no two of them had the same story, the goddam chickenheads.
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