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by Daisy Dunn


  And fair; in vain I bore you, and was torn

  With those long pitiless pains, when you were born.

  Ah, wondrous hopes my poor heart had in you,

  How you would tend me in mine age, and do

  The shroud about me with your own dear hands,

  When I lay cold, blessèd in all the lands

  That knew us. And that gentle thought is dead!

  You go, and I live on, to eat the bread

  Of long years, to myself most full of pain.

  And never your dear eyes, never again,

  Shall see your mother, far away being thrown

  To other shapes of life… My babes, my own,

  Why gaze ye so?—What is it that ye see?—

  And laugh with that last laughter?… Woe is me,

  What shall I do?

  Women, my strength is gone,

  Gone like a dream, since once I looked upon

  Those shining faces… I can do it not.

  Good-bye to all the thoughts that burned so hot

  Aforetime! I will take and hide them far,

  Far, from men’s eyes. Why should I seek a war

  So blind: by these babes’ wounds to sting again

  Their father’s heart, and win myself a pain

  Twice deeper? Never, never! I forget

  Henceforward all I laboured for.

  And yet,

  What is it with me? Would I be a thing

  Mocked at, and leave mine enemies to sting

  Unsmitten? It must be. O coward heart,

  Ever to harbour such soft words!—Depart

  Out of my sight, ye twain. [The CHILDREN go in.]

  And they whose eyes

  Shall hold it sin to share my sacrifice,

  On their heads be it! My hand shall swerve not now.

  Ah, Ah, thou Wrath within me! Do not thou,

  Do not… Down, down, thou tortured thing, and spare

  My children! They will dwell with us, aye, there

  Far off, and give thee peace.

  Too late, too late!

  By all Hell’s living agonies of hate,

  They shall not take my little ones alive

  To make their mock with! Howsoe’er I strive

  The thing is doomed; it shall not escape now

  From being. Aye, the crown is on the brow,

  And the robe girt, and in the robe that high

  Queen dying.

  I know all. Yet… seeing that I

  Must go so long a journey, and these twain

  A longer yet and darker, I would fain

  Speak with them, ere I go.

  [A handmaid brings the CHILDREN out again.]

  Come, children; stand

  A little from me. There. Reach out your hand,

  your right hand—so—to mother: and good-bye!

  [She has kept them hitherto at arm’s-length: but at the

  touch of their hands, her resolution breaks down,

  and she gathers them passionately into her arms.]

  Oh, darling hand! Oh, darling mouth, and eye,

  And royal mien, and bright brave faces clear,

  May you be blessèd, but not here! What here

  Was yours, your father stole… Ah God, the glow

  Of cheek on cheek, the tender touch; and Oh,

  Sweet scent of childhood… Go! Go! … Am I blind?…

  Mine eyes can see not, when I look to find

  Their places. I am broken by the wings

  Of evil… Yea, I know to what bad things

  I go, but louder than all thought doth cry

  Anger, which maketh man’s worst misery.

  [She follows the CHILDREN into the house.]

  CHORUS. My thoughts have roamed a cloudy land,

  And heard a fierier music fall

  Than woman’s heart should stir withal:

  And yet some Muse majestical,

  Unknown, hath hold of woman’s hand,

  Seeking for Wisdom—not in all;

  A feeble seed, a scattered band,

  Thou yet shalt find in lonely places,

  Not dead amongst us, nor our faces

  Turned away from the Muses’ call.

  And thus my thought would speak: that she

  Who ne’er hath borne a child nor known

  Is nearer to felicity:

  Unlit she goeth and alone,

  With little understanding what

  A child’s touch means of joy or woe,

  And many toils she beareth not.

  But they within whose garden fair

  That gentle plant hath blown, they go

  Deep-written all their days with care—

  To rear the children, to make fast

  Their hold, to win them wealth; and then

  Much darkness, if the seed at last

  Bear fruit in good or evil men!

  And one thing at the end of all

  Abideth, that which all men dread:

  The wealth is won, the limbs are bred

  To manhood, and the heart withal

  Honest: and, lo, where Fortune smiled,

  Some change, and what hath fallen? Hark!

  ’Tis death slow winging to the dark,

  And in his arms what was thy child.

  What therefore doth it bring of gain

  To man, whose cup stood full before,

  That God should send this one thing more

  Of hunger and of dread, a door

  Set wide to every wind of pain?

  [MEDEA comes out alone from the house.]

  MEDEA. Friends, this long hour I wait on Fortune’s eyes,

  And strain my senses in a hot surmise

  What passeth on that hill.—Ha! even now

  There comes… ’tis one of Jason’s men, I trow.

  His wild-perturbèd breath doth warrant me

  The tidings of some strange calamity.

  [Enter MESSENGER.]

  MESSENGER. O dire and ghastly deed! Get thee away,

  Medea! Fly! Nor let behind thee stay

  One chariot’s wing, one keel that sweeps the seas…

  MEDEA. And what hath chanced, to cause such flights as these?

  MESSENGER. The maiden princess lieth—and her sire,

  The king—both murdered by thy poison-fire.

  MEDEA. Most happy tiding! Which thy name prefers

  Henceforth among my friends and well-wishers.

  MESSENGER. What say’st thou? Woman, is thy mind within

  Clear, and not raving? Thou art found in sin

  Most bloody wrought against the king’s high head,

  And laughest at the tale, and hast no dread?

  MEDEA. I have words also that could answer well

  Thy word. But take thine ease, good friend, and tell,

  How died they? Hath it been a very foul

  Death, prithee? That were comfort to my soul.

  MESSENGER. When thy two children, hand in hand entwined,

  Came with their father, and passed on to find

  The new-made bridal rooms, Oh, we were glad,

  We thralls, who ever loved thee well, and had

  Grief in thy grief. And straight there passed a word

  From ear to ear, that thou and thy false lord

  Had poured peace offering upon wrath foregone.

  A right glad welcome gave we them, and one

  Kissed the small hand, and one the shining hair:

  Myself, for very joy, I followed where

  The women’s rooms are. There our mistress… she

  Whom now we name so… thinking not to see

  Thy little pair, with glad and eager brow

  Sate waiting Jason. Then she saw, and slow

  Shrouded her eyes, and backward turned again,

  Sick that thy children should come near her. Then

  Thy husband quick went forward, to entreat

  The young maid’s fitful wrath. “Thou wilt not meet

  Love’s coming with unkind
ness? Nay, refrain

  Thy suddenness, and turn thy face again,

  Holding as friends all that to me are dear,

  Thine husband. And accept these robes they bear

  As gifts: and beg thy father to unmake

  His doom of exile on them—for my sake.”

  When once she saw the raiment, she could still

  Her joy no more, but gave him all his will.

  And almost ere the father and the two

  Children were gone from out the room, she drew

  The flowered garments forth, and sate her down

  To her arraying: bound the golden crown

  Through her long curls, and in a mirror fair

  Arranged their separate clusters, smiling there

  At the dead self that faced her. Then aside

  She pushed her seat, and paced those chambers wide

  Alone, her white foot poising delicately—

  So passing joyful in those gifts was she!—

  And many a time would pause, straight-limbed, and wheel

  Her head to watch the long fold to her heel

  Sweeping. And then came something strange. Her cheek

  Seemed pale, and back with crooked steps and weak

  Groping of arms she walked, and scarcely found

  Her old seat, that she fell not to the ground.

  Among the handmaids was a woman old

  And grey, who deemed, I think, that Pan had hold

  Upon her, or some spirit, and raised a keen

  Awakening shout; till through her lips was seen

  A white foam crawling, and her eyeballs back

  Twisted, and all her face dead pale for lack

  Of life: and while that old dame called, the cry

  Turned strangely to its opposite, to the

  Sobbing. Oh, swiftly then one woman flew

  To seek her father’s rooms, one for the new

  Bridegroom, to tell the tale. And all the place

  Was loud with hurrying feet.

  So long a space

  As a swift walker on a measured way

  Would pace a furlong’s course in, there she lay

  Speechless, with veilèd lids. Then wide her eyes

  She oped, and wildly, as she strove to rise,

  Shrieked: for two diverse waves upon her rolled

  Of stabbing death. The carcanet of gold

  That gripped her brow was molten in a dire

  And wondrous river of devouring fire.

  And those fine robes, the gift thy children gave—

  God’s mercy!—everywhere did lap and lave

  The delicate flesh; till up she sprang, and fled,

  A fiery pillar, shaking locks and head

  This way and that, seeking to cast the crown

  Somewhere away. But like a thing nailed down

  The burning gold held fast the anadem,

  And through her locks, the more she scattered them,

  Came fire the fiercer, till to earth she fell

  A thing—save to her sire—scarce nameable,

  And strove no more. That cheek of royal mien,

  Where was it—or the place where eyes had been?

  Only from crown and temples came faint blood

  Shot through with fire. The very flesh, it stood

  Out from the bones, as from a wounded pine

  The gum starts, where those gnawing poisons fine

  Bit in the dark—a ghastly sight! And touch

  The dead we durst not. We had seen too much.

  But that poor father, knowing not, had sped,

  Swift to his daughter’s room, and there the dead

  Lay at his feet. He knelt, and groaning low,

  Folded her in his arms, and kissed her: “Oh,

  Unhappy child, what thing unnatural hath

  So hideously undone thee? Or what wrath

  Of gods, to make this old grey sepulchre

  Childless of thee? Would God but lay me there

  To die with thee, my daughter!” So he cried.

  But after, when he stayed from tears, and tried

  To uplift his old bent frame, lo, in the folds

  Of those fine robes it held, as ivy holds

  Strangling among young laurel boughs. Oh, then

  A ghastly struggle came! Again, again,

  Up on his knee he writhed; but that dead breast

  Clung still to his: till, wild, like one possessed,

  He dragged himself half free; and, lo, the live

  Flesh parted; and he laid him down to strive

  No more with death, but perish; for the deep

  Had risen above his soul. And there they sleep,

  At last, the old proud father and the bride,

  Even as his tears had craved it, side by side.

  For thee—Oh, no word more! Thyself will know

  How best to baffle vengeance… Long ago

  I looked upon man’s days, and found a grey

  Shadow. And this thing more I surely say,

  That those of all men who are counted wise,

  Strong wits, devisers of great policies,

  Do pay the bitterest toll. Since life began,

  Hath there in God’s eye stood one happy man?

  Fair days roll on, and bear more gifts or less

  Of fortune, but to no man happiness.

  [Exit MESSENGER.]

  CHORUS. [Some Women] Wrath upon wrath, meseems, this day shall fall

  From God on Jason! He hath earned it all.

  [Other Women] O miserable maiden, all my heart

  Is torn for thee, so sudden to depart

  From thy king’s chambers and the light above

  To darkness, all for sake of Jason’s love!

  MEDEA. Women, my mind is clear. I go to slay

  My children with all speed, and then, away

  From hence; not wait yet longer till they stand

  Beneath another and an angrier hand

  To die. Yea, howsoe’er I shield them, die

  They must. And, seeing that they must, ’tis I

  Shall slay them, I their mother, touched of none

  Beside. Oh, up, and get thine armour on,

  My heart! Why longer tarry we to win

  Our crown of dire inevitable sin?

  Take up thy sword, O poor right hand of mine,

  Thy sword: then onward to the thin-drawn line

  Where life turns agony. Let there be naught

  Of softness now: and keep thee from that thought,

  ‘Born of thy flesh,’ ‘thine own belovèd.’ Now,

  For one brief day, forget thy children: thou

  Shalt weep hereafter. Though thou slay them, yet

  Sweet were they… I am sore unfortunate.

  [She goes into the house.]

  CHORUS. [Some Women] O Earth, our mother; and thou

  All-seër, arrowy crown

  Of Sunlight, manward now

  Look down, Oh, look down!

  Look upon one accurst,

  Ere yet in blood she twine

  Red hands—blood that is thine!

  O Sun, save her first!

  She is thy daughter still,

  Of thine own golden line;

  Save her! Or shall man spill

  The life divine?

  Give peace, O Fire that diest not! Send thy spell

  To stay her yet, to lift her afar, afar—

  A torture-changèd spirit, a voice of Hell

  Wrought of old wrongs and war!

  OTHERS. Alas for the mother’s pain

  Wasted! Alas the dear

  Life that was born in vain!

  Woman, what mak’st thou here,

  Thou from beyond the Gate

  Where dim Symplêgades

  Clash in the dark blue seas,

  The shores where death doth wait?

  Why hast thou taken on thee,

  To make us desolate,

  This anger of misery

  And guilt of hate?


  For fierce are the smitings back of blood once shed

  Where love hath been: God’s wrath upon them that kill,

  And an anguished earth, and the wonder of the dead

  Haunting as music still…

  [A cry is heard within.]

  A WOMAN. Hark! Did ye hear? Heard ye the children’s cry?

  ANOTHER. O miserable woman! O abhorred!

  A CHILD WITHIN. What shall I do? What is it? Keep me fast

  From mother!

  THE OTHER CHILD. I know nothing. Brother! Oh,

  I think she means to kill us.

  A WOMAN. Let me go!

  I will—Help! Help!—and save them at the last.

  A CHILD. Yes, in God’s name! Help quickly ere we die!

  THE OTHER CHILD. She has almost caught me now. She has a sword.

  [Many of the Women are now beating at the barred

  door to get in. Others are standing apart.]

  WOMEN AT THE DOOR. Thou stone, thou thing of iron! Wilt verily

  Spill with thine hand that life, the vintage stored

  Of thine own agony?

  THE OTHER WOMEN. A Mother slew her babes in days of yore,

  One, only one, from dawn to eventide,

  Ino, god-maddened, whom the Queen of Heaven

  Set frenzied, flying to the dark: and she

  Cast her for sorrow to the wide salt sea,

  Forth from those rooms of murder unforgiven,

  Wild-footed from a white crag of the shore,

  And clasping still her children twain, she died.

  O Love of Woman, charged with sorrow sore,

  What hast thou wrought upon us? What beside

  Resteth to tremble for?

  [Enter hurriedly JASON and Attendants.]

  JASON. Ye women by this doorway clustering

  Speak, is the doer of the ghastly thing

  Yet here, or fled? What hopeth she of flight?

  Shall the deep yawn to shield her? Shall the height

  Send wings, and hide her in the vaulted sky

  To work red murder on her lords, and fly

  Unrecompensed? But let her go! My care

  Is but to save my children, not for her.

  Let them she wronged requite her as they may.

  I care not. ’Tis my sons I must some way

  Save, ere the kinsmen of the dead can win

  From them the payment of their mother’s sin.

  LEADER. Unhappy man, indeed thou knowest not

  What dark place thou art come to! Else, God wot,

  Jason, no word like these could fall from thee.

  JASON. What is it?—Ha! The woman would kill me?

  LEADER. Thy sons are dead, slain by their mother’s hand.

  JASON. How? Not the children… I scarce understand…

  O God, thou hast broken me!

  LEADER. Think of those twain

  As things once fair, that ne’er shall bloom again.

  JASON. Where did she murder them? In that old room?

 

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