Remembering something I stop “Mulatto there is something I need to tell you.” He looks at me. My face is deadly serious, my voice takes a grim tone. “You are my true Luna and my only mate. I would never mate with anyone else. But for the sake of the pack. I made a promise to SELENE. I promised that if I had not found my true Luna. I was ready to have a Luna for my pack and only for my pack not because I loved them. That Luna would have been SELENE.”
“Well, then it is a good thing you found me. She’s a real bitch” Reuben laughs at me saying “how did I get so blessed?” and kisses me. I pull back from his kiss “Your ass is toast dumb ass. For making such a stupid fucking arrangement with a real, as Randall says BE-YOTCH!” I see hurt on his face. I want to stop this, so smiling I tell him “But SHE, is done in OUR pack. I will personally see to that “You are MINE ONLY AND I DON’T SHARE!” a growl in my voice
“Our pack?” Reuben smiles “Amor I love you” and he affectionately leans in kissing me. I pull us back on the path to continue walking “yeah, yeah your ass is still in trouble” Reuben comes behind me holding me in a bear hug, growling in my ear, walking penguin style for a few feet. “leather huh? Grrr I can get into it.” I just chuckle saying “How did you get leather from what I JUST said?” adding “Never mind I DON’T WANT TO KNOW”. We continue walking through the woods, listening to the night life. Admiring the Fauna and sounds of the cricket, The rustle of dead leaves being shuffled by something. Yet I was far from the present. Lost deep in my own question. “How strong is the mate bond?”
FOR MY BROTHER
I noticed, Alejandro became distracted. My mate is deep in thought, it bothered me not knowing why my mate had become distant from me so suddenly. Reaching and passing a huge thick oak tree coming up on my left. I stopped short, leaned my back against the tree while simultaneously used our intertwined fingers, with a gentle pull, I bring my love into me. In one motion, my arms embrace him, around and behind Alejandro’s waist. Interlocking my fingers with his as my back bumps against the tree, leaning against it. I kiss him deeply, passionately my lust and my desire for him now evident and powerful.
Alejandro wraps his arms around my neck returning my kiss with the same intensity. I realize I will forever want to hold you Alejandro, my mate, my new and only reason to live. I realize I have become just as deep in thought, but mine are of my mate. We stop kissing as I look now into Alejandro’s eyes, the eyes of MY MATE. For a moment looking to me Alejandro’s eyes hold a fire in them, a passionate lust, ignited by my embrace. I can feel his body heat rising. I get rock hard. REALLY ROCK HARD!! I want him NOW!!! I growl for a second. He growls back. My own body heat is rising dangerously high. I want my lover/ my mate soooo bad, I want to fuck the living HELL outta him, so he can’t walk for a WEEK! I want to feel my cock sliding deep into him. But on the night we do, I also will mark him. So, the Goddess, no, not just the Goddess so all Wulves and the world will know, I have this wulf and he is mine! But right now, I need to stop this. For a good moment, I gaze at him still take in the blessing I have been given as my eyes dance all over his face. Committing it to memory
Dreading and hating what I am about to do. BELIEVE ME, MY DICK WAS SHOWING IT’S ARGUMENT AGAINST THIS DECISION I ask “Penny for your thoughts” pulling him out of his thoughts.
Sable where are you? Is this what having a mate feels like? I am so scared. The passion Reuben ignites inside me it too scares me. His touch alone sets my whole body on fire. I want to take him and fuck our brains out till we collapse. Til we both say ENOUGH!! Laughing to myself for a moment as my thoughts turn internally deeper. Sable, you who are my wulf, where are you? I need you so much. Will he grow tired of me? Will he really accept me with my affliction? Will he? Is all this because of the Mate Bond? I respond to Reuben with a question “How powerful is the mate bond Kojak? I mean I know how it feels because, now that I have you. I can’t imagine my life without you. Because of this desire, you also scare me, Reuben. I can’t explain it and have no control over it. I am sure it will be OUR LOVE, not a wulf bond that we have and will continually build on always. But something tells me we will learn both the good and bad or each other, how to communicate and understand one another, I can’t explain why I know this, but I do. I also know I get the chance to spend the rest of my life with someone finding out. Mostly, I am happy that this someone is you. I want the same for Randall. I don’t want Randall to repeat what he went through the first time”.
I am swept up in my lover’s words So deep, so true for a moment ignoring what he just mentioned. I look at him knowing this is the person I will happily spend the rest of my life reassuring him, making him happy for the same reason. I am not worried about MY baby. I know this will pass. Then, remembering what he just said my mood changes. Becoming worried about Randall and Alejandro “What do you mean the first time? What happened to Randall mulatto?” his next words rock me to the foundation of our wulf beliefs. Watching as he casts his gaze to the ground, away from me.
“Because of me Reuben, Randall killed his first mate.” I know my words left him speechless.
I stop walking not able to take another step “What! How?”
“Randall is the survivor of Domestic Violence. There was a time when to have a mate, Randall became desperate and took a wulf who liked him, as his mate. Everything started out fine but then, over time it changed. He would argue and later, beat Randall often. Randall accepted it determined to make it work. He fooled himself into believing it was the wulf bond. Randall loved his partner so much he accepted physical abuse from him.
We all hated his partner but tolerated him because of Randall. One day I got involved in an argument he was pressing on Randall knowing what would happen when I left. In my anger at seeing Randall bruised from a previous fight, I could not help itI lost it and hit him. Challenging him to hit me and see if he won’t get his ass whipped. Toti always told me we are family and family protects family. Shocked and even more, Fernando became furious saying “Ohhh, so you think you can take me you empty minded bitch!” phasing into his wulf form and came at me.
But Randall’s reaction was faster. Randall lost it, phased and instinct took over. The need to protect me proved stronger than that bond. COCO knocked escorpion off his feet and ripped out his throat without a second thought. It happened so fast it was over before I could respond. Then Coco placed one paw on his dead mate, hung his head low closing his eyes and began crying in wulf form. His spirit seemed broken, He just stood there standing on his mates still body. Then he Howled Reuben. Cocoa howled the most heart-wrenching howl I never want to hear again. I went to touch COCO and he snarled at me. In a flash, toti appeared out of nowhere screaming “RANDALL, ALEJANDRO!!“ to be met with blood, a dead body and Coco standing over Fernando grieving.
Coco’s head turned meeting our mother’s and he phased sobbing into her open arms “Mamaaa, he went after Alejandro. Mama he was going to kill him. I…I.. had.. to…to… mama…He would have killed my brother!!!“ The balling tears and sounding sobs resonated in my ears. I stood stunned shocked. Toti words were the softest I remember hearing them “Shhhh, its ok baby. Your family comes first. I understand. I am soo sorry. but you did right baby, you did the right thing.” WIthin my embrace, Alejandro grows quiet.
Having said this to Reuben it hits me “How? How am I remembering this? and why is it I remember now?”Mom appearing out of no where, Her eyes glowing yellow-white. Realizing what happened when she sees it all and me comforting Randall still. She told me “I am sorry Alejandro. Forgive me” and everything went blank. Remembering I blacked out. Did my mother wipe this memory from me? Can she do that? Would she do that? I have to know. I WILL KNOW. Returning to my conversation I finish “I remember after that Randall chose to never have another mate.”
I thank the Goddess Alejandro was avoiding meeting my gaze, staring to the ground as he spoke. If he had looked up. He would have seen my face pale, all color gone. No words could I think of, My heart drops for my Beta. It all
made sense now. Our conversation earlier today, his growl at my question of love; It all made sense.
To protect his brother, Randall killed who he thought was his destined mate. But, that was not his TRUE mate. But while not his true mate he still loved him. Yet such things do not happen with a true mate bond. I continue “I also remember because of this, we developed, what Carmen told me to be OUR MATE CODE. For a mate to be accepted he must prove he is worthy to the rest of us.”
Keeping my gaze lowered away from Reuben. I somehow remembered that day and our promise; I do. Reuben stops walking as I continued looking to my right, out to the lake. His hand reaches under my chin, lifting my gaze up to him. Gently reconnecting my focus with his. Eyes melting me into them, so much love. It is evident now, Reuben would have died proving his worth to my pack mates. His response, however, left me dumbfounded “I know... Sable told me about the CODE when he came”
“What? Sable is supposedly my wulf. He Came? How? What happened?”
As I initiate our walk again as we continued speaking. I tell Alejandro everything about sable, the challenge between myself, coco and Bella. Sable asking me to help him before he left. Alejandro asking me questions all the while of Sable. We became so engrossed in our conversation before we realized it; we were back at the cascade, back at the cabin pack house. Alejandro stops us then looks at me. His next words cause me to absolutely go weak feeling butterflies in my stomach. With the knowledge of one fact.
I am forever his and his alone. “I have not told you this because I was not sure. But I am now. The passion you ignite in my soul with your touch, the light of hope you have renewed in me. But mostly because my heart tells me, I am home Reuben. I no longer feel lost. Even though I don’t remember him, so does Sable. Thank you. Thank you for accepting me as I am. Reuben Acosta, I Love You.”
Alejandro remains looking at me eyes, glistening like a starlit sky. On his face a broad smile. Before my gaze, his cheeks reveal a slight reddish blush in contrast to his caramel complexion. Then, he leans and kisses me before sprinting to the center boulder and across to the opposite riverbank. Climbing up the steep embankment towards the pack cabin with me immediately in hot pursuit. GODDESS HOW I LOVE THAT wulf!!
That night while I watched Reubens family fawn over Tito I started missing mom. I excuse myself and head outside immediately followed by Reuben who sensed my mood change. “pa?” he word laced with a tone of concern. Brining the attention of everyone to us. I slightly grin “Seeing your mother, how much she fawns over Tito, the intense love in her eyes, a mothers love. Makes me miss mine” Reuben already beside me, leans into me holding me from behind as he tells me “then why don’t you wulf speak to her.” I respond “What?”. Reuben nuzzles his face in my hair as he spoke “Mulatto, don’t you know how to wulf speak?” With a roll of my eyes, replying with slight frustration in my voice “Amnesia remember?… no, I don’t. This is all new to me and A LOT to digest. Those times it happened, it has because you or others have reached out to me. Not me consciously doing it” Shifting my gaze out of embarrassment, to Dona Rosa who now smiles at me. I break a modest grin to her.
Kissing the top of Alejandro’s head I ask drawing his attention back to me wide eyed “want me to show you?”. The elation I feel from Alejandro at that moment is beyond words “YES!”. Excusing ourselves from the crowded kitchen. We go and sit on the porch steps placing our feet onto the ground past its one step. “Ok. Because it is your first time. It might be easier for you to close your eyes. Focus and visualize your mother.” Alejandro does as I instruct him to. “Now when you get her image in your mind call to her and talk. You might feel a sensation come over you, like electricity running through your body. When she responds just talk to her.”
I do as Reuben instructs me to do getting excited than nervous. At first nothing. Am I doing something wrong? Thinking to myself. but then “Alejandro? Alejandro IS THAT YOU!! PAPI HIIII!! Is sable back? HE MUST BE!! MY BABY wulf IS SPEAKING TO ME!!” she’s so excited. My chest aches a little because that is not it. But still, I’m so happy to “hear” her voice. “No Toti not in the way you’re thinking, thanks to my mate he just showed me how to wulf speak mommy. I miss you”
mom’s voice perks up higher “WAIT!! YOU FOUND YOUR MATE!! I BE RIGHT THERE!!” Then there is a flash and I no longer hear me mother from our wulf speak. When I opened my eyes, I see her there right in front of me a few feet away BUT, she is standing in front of me!A proud grinning toti is HERE! MY Mother!!!
TOTI
Leaping off the step I run to my mother and hugged her hard, a stinging sensation begins burning in my eyes holding her. A knot in my throat hoarsely croaks when I speak to her, my face buried inwards to her graying hair “I miss you so much, Toti”. My mother hugs me for a few seconds “and me you mijo (my son).” Then she pulls back to gaze up at me placing one hand open palmed, caressing the side of my face smiling. Her gazes continue up at me, wiping the two tears which had escaped. Her own eyes sparkle “Hi mijo. Your such a mush.” Without warning, a growl is heard behind us causing my mother’s eyes in a breath to glow. She longer hides what we are from me.
Quicker than a breath, In a nanosecond, I am behind mom. Before I realized it, She releases me and spun around locking to its source. Emitting a beastial savage menacing challenge of a growl. At the sound of her growl, members within the cabin hurriedly come out onto the porch to investigate with luminescent burning eyes. Instantly everyone including the growling wulf, realizing who she is, kneel with heads bowed. A single thought enters my mind of my mother “DAMN, SHE IS BADASS!!”
Seeing her, Carmen, Randall & Bella come running outside. “ALPHA!! MAMA GURL!!ALPHA!!” Carmen jumps down the step running to mom and embraces her. Then momentarily kneels, head bowed asking “what are you doing here Alpha? I am happy to see you but who is watching the pack? IT SOOO GOOD TO SEE YOU!” an overjoyed tone. Mommy hugs Carmen, Then, releasing her chuckling. “What?? A mother can’t come to see her boys, Beta and mystic dog?? Hahaha, It is good to see you also Beta.”
Without missing a beat, mom addresses Randall. Her eyes glint with a mischievous look and funny smirk. She openly demonstrates, just how much of a fag hag she really is. Looking at my brother her opens arms wise, she hand gesturing to Randall to come in for a hug. Toti screams “Randall MY BABY!! Hiiiiiii SCHNOOKIE, I am happy to see BOTH MY BOYS. Are you behaving yes?” lifting one eyebrow.
Wasting no time Randall comes racing to her saying “ALPHA!! HII MAMA GURL!! and YESSS.” I fling both hands up in the air, head down as if in a Baptist church excited “OOOOOhhh HONEY GURL. WE GOT-TA TALK!!!” laughing. Reaching mama I hug her giving her a hard cheek kiss. I whisper in mama Alpha’s ear with all my flair “my brother-in-law,ummmm, gurl, woooo, is HOT!! HOT!! HOT!! GUUUURL! SIMPLY SCHRUM--CHU--OUS!” mom responds with faked wide-eyed “REALLY! Thank GODDESS! TELL ME IT IS WHO MY VISION SHOWED ME?! BECAUSE HE IS HOT!!!” expression-filled faces all around hold on one look, SHOCK. My head vigorously nodding “no, no, no” Carmen and I watching once again, as those two behave like two old ladies gossiping, both laughing loudly and slap one another’s shoulder saying “YES!! THE ONE FROM THE CONFERENCE!! GURLLLL!!” Toti responding “NOOO!” Randall says “YESSSSSS!!!” and they giggle.
Pausing for a moment Mom drops her jovial fun with Randall, addressing the pack next with the Alpha tone “Everyone Please, stand up. Today I come as my son’s mother. Not as matters of a Celestial Guardian.” Turning her head she grins gazingly at me again. Until a high pitched wulf speak calls her attention again. “ALPHA!” Bella.
Watching her as she comes running excited, yipping, whining, running to her alpha. Bella sits in front of her, tail wagging furiously bowing her head. Then she drops to the ground revealing her underside, raising one leg to Toti. Mom bends down and picks me up “Hi bells I am happy to see you as well. You be having little one?” she asks pressing Bells to her cheek. Giving her a kiss before placing Bella back on the ground. “yes ALPHA. I finished the
ceremony as you requested.”
“Good. For it is only a matter of time now.” that said, Toti returns her attention to me Saying.
“SOOOOOO, where is this lucky handsome…” ..she winks “according to your brother. A HOT mate of yours and my future son in law?” Alejandro’s eyes, shine, beaming pride and radiance as he throws me a little sarcasm “Really toti, what if I was straight?” myself, Randall and Carmen laugh a good laugh at Alejandro’s expense. Looking at my son once, THEN LAUGH AGAIN!! I put a hand on my hip, switching it back and forth one time to bob my head also, from side to side “As your brother so often says UH HUH YEAH, YOU BE ALRIGHT” A round of laughter explodes loudly. Randall smiling, corrects me “no gurl it’s AWW-IIGHT” and we renew laughing.
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