by Devon, Eva
She couldn’t believe how quickly she’d gone from being at the center of society, to the outskirts, then back to the center again. She did rather wonder if her mother-in-law was as stunned as she was by the large turnout of guests who were all drinking and having a marvelous time.
After several days, it had become clear that her mother-in-law was going to be a small difficulty. However, if the Dowager Marchioness thought she was going to ruin Felicity’s happiness, the older but attractive lady was very much mistaken.
At least, Felicity was fairly certain that her mother-in-law’s general unwillingness to be truly welcoming was her genuine distrust of Felicity’s family and reputation.
Still, it hadn’t stopped Lady Marksborough from being fairly unpleasant, even if it had all been behind a smile.
Felicity was determined, however, to win the woman over. She refused to be a wedge in the family, especially since she had not been her husband’s choice but rather a wife forced upon him.
To her dismay, William had been often gone, but she was proud of him. He hadn’t been going racing or fooling about as so many gentlemen of the ton did. Oh no, he had been at Parliament every day and was often in meetings at his club or bringing other serious looking gentlemen into his study, discussing the future of Europe.
Her husband was an important man who seemed to think that marriage was merely a positive step towards accepting the responsibilities of his title.
Some of his friends had eyed her strangely when they had come to the house, but so far all had been pleasant enough.
Now, she stood overseeing the crowd, a glass of champagne in hand.
“You’re a triumph, dear girl!”
Lady Melbourne’s strong voice punctured her reverie and Felicity turned. “I’m certain you’ve had a great deal to do with that.”
“Not a bit of it, my dear,” denied Lady Melbourne generously. “I merely opened the gates. They’ve all flooded in to know you.”
“They’re all whispering that I’m going to be as mad as my father.” She couldn’t forget that moment when she’d stood outside the library and William’s mother had voiced her cutting concerns.
She’d always known what society was thinking but it was another thing to hear it.
“Your father isn’t mad, he’s just very different.”
“To some, I think that’s just as damning.” She drew in a fortifying breath. “At least, that isn’t hereditary.”
“Isn’t it?” Lady Melbourne queried lightly. “You aren’t like so many of the other young women about. None of your sisters are. I shouldn’t like you so much if you were.”
“Thank you. But I worry. . .”
“Yes?” Lady Melbourne arched a questioning brow.
She shook her head. “Nothing.”
Even now, her sisters were all dancing with different gentleman, all of whom were highly placed. Lady Melbourne could stop assisting them if she wished. Felicity’s marriage had locked her and her sisters back into a reasonably good status.
“If you are worried, you should share the burden, Felicity,” Lady Melbourne urged.
“It is nothing. Truly.”
The fact was she was growing more and more concerned that her husband wouldn’t like her if she was truly herself. It was something she daren’t give voice to. Oh, she hadn’t been pretending at being someone else, but they spent so little time together and, frankly, they had little chance to converse. When they did it was all pleasantries.
She longed to speak intimately with him. To discuss poetry and politics, but perhaps he thought a wife wasn’t meant for such things.
She couldn’t complain if he did. Most men felt that way. At least, he was kind.
And his sisters adored him! My goodness, if she’d ever needed evidence that William was a good man it was there in the way his sisters fairly worshipped him.
In turn, he adored them.
It had heartened her greatly.
Thankfully, his sisters had welcomed her with open arms and, over the last days, Mary and she had begun to converse more about real things than lace and bonnets. Perhaps, Mary had a bit of a bluestocking beneath her seemingly perfect person.
“Might I intrude, Lady Melbourne?” William’s wonderful, deep baritone filled the air. “I should very much like to dance with my wife.”
Lady Melbourne waved graciously.
Felicity placed her drink on a passing tray and allowed herself to be swept away in William’s arms.
It wasn’t her imagination as she realized almost every set of eyes within their vicinity was watching them.
Was it because William was so handsome? So charming? He certainly seemed to be a darling of the ton. In fact, she always felt her heart flutter and her spirits lighten in his presence.
So, it was impossible to blame the ton for feeling the same. Still, she didn’t like the way the ladies eyed him. The married ladies. As if he were a sumptuous meal to be eaten.
He belonged to her!
It was, perhaps, entirely irrational, but she did feel as if he belonged to her. Somehow, since that night in which he had come to her rescue, she’d decided that even if she might not be exactly what he wanted in a wife, he was what she desired in a husband.
And she was determined to prove a perfect wife.
The music swelled and the dance that began was a rather intimate one, with twirling and hand clasping. He took her gloved hands in his and began the dance with easy confidence.
Her ruby gown swirled about her and brushed his legs as they made their way about the ballroom.
“Do you approve of the evening?” she asked.
“Without doubt, it is very pleasant. I commend you. May it be the first of many.”
She smiled. “I am delighted to be your hostess.”
“I’m glad.”
Here it was. A chance to show she wished to be more than an ornament. “Perhaps we should host a dinner for your parliamentary friends.”
He laughed. “I don’t have friends in Parliament. Not really. They’re all crusty old men, except for a few. So, I think you’d find it very boring.”
“I doubt it,” she continued, determined not to be brushed aside. “And I want to help you in any way I can.”
His brow furrowed. “Truly? You wouldn’t mind?”
“I should love it,” she enthused. “I promise I am more than simple decoration.”
“There is nothing simple about you.” His tone indicated he was paying a compliment. “But the dinners can be long and tedious. I don’t even know if you agree with my politics.”
“Does it matter?” she asked.
He blinked, clearly surprised. “One would think so.”
“The ability to debate? To converse? To engage one’s mind? That is what matters,” she said. “We do not have to agree on everything to admire each other or care for each other.”
“How right you are,” he agreed, his face beaming with pleasure. “I feel this is a sentiment your father must have espoused.”
“It was. He held very firm views, but he would listen to others with genuine interest.”
“Your father did make many enemies.”
Ruefully, she replied, “Because of ladies, gambling, and drink, but not because of his politics.”
William laughed. “I do not think I have ever met a woman like you, Felicity.”
Her mouth dried. “That may not be a good thing.”
“Do not worry yourself,” he assured as he turned her about the floor, easily navigating the other couples. “I know you will settle into being my marchioness over time and if you wish to host political dinners for me, I’d be grateful. A supportive wife is an excellent thing for a man to have.”
“I wish to make your life easy.”
“My dear girl, easy is overrated.”
As the music came to a halt, he pulled her across the floor and into a dark hallway. The sounds of their guests and music followed then dimmed.
“We haven’t long,” he w
hispered, “But I have thought of nothing but this since I first spotted you in that scandalous gown of yours.”
William leaned down and kissed her passionately before she could protest that her gown was no more scandalous than any other lady in the room.
The soft yet demanding press of his lips drove her wild with desire. How did he have such power over her? It seemed unfair for she couldn’t imagine she made him feel so nearly undone.
When he ended the kiss, she could have sworn she was floating but she knew she had to come back to earth.
“William,” she whispered. “Our guests.”
“Damn our guests,” he replied, his voice low.
“I am too close to scandal to abandon them,” she pointed out.
“You know, I almost don’t give a fig. I want you as I’ve never wanted anyone before.”
His words gave her sudden hope that perhaps they might see eye to eye in many things. That perhaps she would be able to be herself one day. She certainly hoped so. But if not, she’d find a way for them to be happy. She would.
Chapter 11
With a smile on his face, William strode down the hall towards the card room that his wife and mother had arranged for the male guests who did not care to dance.
Marriage was proving to be very pleasant. Granted, it had not been for long but he was beginning to be certain that Felicity was going to be exactly the sort of wife he needed. A good hostess, beautiful, and intelligent. And a good sister-in-law. Mary was becoming positively radiant in her newfound confidence. Jane and Elizabeth absolutely thrived in Felicity’s company.
“So, who will make the first attempt at the new marchioness?”
Those words stopped William dead. His whole body tensed as he tried to convince himself that he had not heard what he was certain he had.
“She looks a prime filly, no doubt. And with her reputation, she’ll be ripe for bedsport. No doubt she’ll be as hot for it as her father. A right little hoyden.”
Laughter met this outrageous claim.
William’s earlier pleasure died quickly, replaced by a deadly calm.
The voices came from the small study just before the card room.
Bracing himself, he entered.
Two young bucks stood drinking brandy and smoking cigars.
They grew quiet as soon as they spotted William.
William gave them a cold smile, walked to the brandy decanter and poured himself a drink.
They watched him silently for a very long time until, at last, one said, “Wonderful evening, Lord Marksborough.”
“My wife is proving a marvelous asset,” he replied evenly.
The young men glanced at each other like guilty schoolboys.
William palmed his snifter. “Now, I did hear one of you make some interesting comments about my wife.”
The slender fellow on the right with a shock of red hair William recognized as Lord Terry. He paled beneath his spattering of freckles.
Lord Eversly, on the other hand, a tall overly groomed blonde fellow, glared defiantly. “I’m sorry you heard that, Talbot.”
“Are you?” William queried.
“But face facts man, her reputation is bad,” Eversly said boldly. “She’ll be approached by any number of comers.”
It should have shocked him that Eversly so clearly felt that his wife was still fair game. It did not. He knew society and he knew men. Neither was to be admired particularly. “Reason or enlightenment isn’t your strongest suit, is it Eversly?”
Terry stuttered, “Surely we can all apologize and shake hands now?”
William felt the banked rage in him grow. “Shake hands?”
“Look,” said Eversly. “I meant no harm. You’ve slept with any number of married women, Talbot.”
“I have, but I’ve never spoken of any of them as you have done.”
Eversly rolled his eyes. “Come, man. She’s just a woman. We gentlemen must stick together. All ladies are burgeoning trollops, in my opinion.”
William eyed the other man, amazed at his stupidity. “You do realize I have sisters.”
“Yes. And, no doubt, your wife will corrupt them all.”
William arched a brow, further stunned the man could be such a fool. Someone needed to teach him a lesson. “Do you prefer pistols or blades Lord Eversly? And will Lord Terry be your second come dawn? For I swear, you—“
“My lord?” Felicity questioned as she hurried in.
All three men turned toward her.
She was so damned beautiful in her ruby gown, diamond necklace and tiara laced through her curling black hair. But her face, her lovely face, was a mask of horror.
“My lord, you are needed in the ballroom,” she added urgently.
“I am busy at present,” he replied calmly.
“It is extremely important,” she persisted.
“So is this,” William replied.
Lord Eversly bowed quickly. “Do forgive me, Lady Marksborough, but I must depart.”
William didn’t raise his voice but said, “If you must. I shall see you at dawn, Eversly. Someone will be around to your club to see Lord Terry. A place will be arranged.”
Lord Terry darted after Eversly, both of them leaving with an air of shock about them.
Felicity stood as stricken as a ghost. “William, you cannot.”
“I can and I will.”
“Why?” she demanded.
He looked away. He couldn’t tell her what they said.
“It was about me?” Her voice pitched low with sadness. “Oh God, of course it was. William, people will say wicked things. It is their nature.”
“I won’t let them get away with it.”
She rushed to his side and clasped his arm. “I beg of you to let them. Think of your sisters. Your mother. You have no heir.”
“Your confidence fills me with pride,” he drawled.
“I know your deadly reputation, William. But anything can happen. I am not worth it!” she cried. “Nothing is worth the risk of your death.”
Her self-derision nearly destroyed him. They hadn’t been married long, but he knew the moment she said such a terrible thing that she was worth everything. Felicity was the most worthwhile person he had ever met.
She was good and kind and strong and had to put up with a good deal from society and life. She hadn’t let it brutalize her.
She was the kind of woman a man loved.
And by God, he was falling in love with his own wife. With her intelligence, with her kindness, with the way she was good to his mother even when his mother was impossible, and now, with the way she put his sisters before anything else.
“Felicity, I can think of no better person to defend than you.”
Her eyes hardened. “You have saved me once. You do not have to do so again. You do not have to rescue me from all the ills in the world.”
He cupped her cheek with his palm. “But I want to. I want to protect you from all the cruelty you have ever known.”
“You cannot,” she protested. “Life is cruel, William. It is cruel and relentless and people who fawned over you one moment will destroy you in the next.”
“I cannot allow someone like Eversly to hurt you.”
“But don’t you understand?” Her gaze searched his face as she declared, “He hasn’t. None of them can hurt me. Only you can.”
“Only me?” He tried to understand her words but couldn’t.
“Yes.”
“How?” he asked softly.
“Because I don’t give a tuppence for any of them. But I do care about you.”
She cared about him? The words fell on his heart like the kindest balm. To his shock, he longed for her care. For her to love him as he was beginning to do with her. “What would you have me do?”
“Have Eversly send a written apology and have done with it. Surely the man is quaking in his boots. All London knows how good you are with a blade or a pistol.”
“I—“
“Please,�
� she pled. “If you fight this duel, it will not be about me, but about you.”
He tensed. “I beg your pardon?”
“My reputation is known. People will always gossip. They can’t touch me now. But there will always be someone making a sly comment about my father and his effects upon his daughters. If you fight this duel, it is because you wish to prove to the world that what they said isn’t true. Do you care so much about the ton?”
Good God, her words cut him like a knife but he couldn’t deny the honesty in them. He was affronted. He loathed having anyone speak thusly about his family.
“How do you do it?” he asked.
“Do what?”
“Not be bothered by them?”
She smiled then. “Because they are little people with little minds.”
He stared down at his wife, once again full of wonder. “You are astonishing.”
Her beautiful face hardened with regret. “William, I never should have married you.”
The wonder he’d felt grew cold. “I don’t understand.”
“I married you out of pure selfishness and now I see I have put you at risk and your family.” Tears shone in her eyes then. “I’ve put you in a position where you will always be wishing to defend me. You will always have to hear ill things about your wife. I’m sorry. I’m so sorry. It was a wicked thing to do. I—“
He grabbed her arms. “Stop. Stop this at once.”
She snapped her teeth together. Her body trembled beneath his hold.
“Felicity, you are better than all of them. All those fools. All those little minds and little people. Would you wish me a life with them and surrounded by them? Would you wish me a little-minded wife? Because that is what you are saying.”
She shook her head, tendrils of hair falling about her face. “I do not wish that. I will try to be a good wife for you.”
“Hear me now.” He held her firmly in his arms, determined to make her see. “I admire you. I think the world of you. I do not wish you to be a ‘good wife’. I don’t wish you to be anyone but yourself.”
She swallowed. “Truly?”
“Truly. I see now that any choice but you would have resulted in my life being one long stretch of expected paths. Of simple choices. You are right. There will be derision and, possibly, scandal. But damn them all to hell. You and I together can overcome any situation if we put our minds to it.”