Quendy was like, “Oh, god! This is so romantic!”
“Oh, meg. Big meg. You can feel the breeze on your skin. It’s warm, like those nights, you know, when we’re like — we’re like, ‘We’re always going to be young.’ The breeze is like that. I wish you could feel it.” We all shivered. She said, “You can smell the salt. The moon’s out. It’s high above everything, and soft.”
Quendy actually cried one tear.
Violet and I looked at each other. We didn’t look away.
We still were like that, looking into each other’s eyes and all, when the doctor came in and was like, What the hell had happened in the examination room, what’s with all the needles? and he was upgrading to homicidal and going all, Da da da professional care unit, da da da dangerous and costly da da infection da da da, etc. Luckily, Link’s mom heard him yelling at us, and she’s a complete dragon, so she gave him a piece of her mind. She told him that we were all suffering from a very stressful experience and we weren’t used to these kinds of stresses and he had to understand that we had to have our fun, too. I still felt kind of bad about it, because we made a big mess, and Violet was completely meg blushing, but at least we didn’t get like shoved into orbit on cybergurneys or something.
I liked being just a few beds away from her. We could wave. We all talked about old music, like from when we were little, and all the stupid bands they had back then, and the stupid fashions we liked in middle school, like the year when the big fashion from L.A. and shit was that everyone wanted to dress like they were in an elderly convalescent home, there was this weird nostalgic chic for that, so we all remembered having stretch pants and velour tops, and Calista had even bought one of those stupid accessory walkers at Weatherbee & Crotch. There were those stupid ads for having your pants pulled up like around your chest. Violet said she still had a cane at home.
When we were eating dinner, sitting on her bed side by side, she said to me, “This is fun.”
“It weirdly is,” I said.
“Maybe these are our salad days.”
“Huh?”
“You know. Happy.”
“What’s happy about a salad?”
She shrugged. “Ranch,” she said.
Violet was off someplace talking to the doctor. I say “someplace” because we were using the examination room to blow needles at the anatomical guy’s basket.
Link and Calista were standing real close by the vibrating bath, and I realized that they had probably decided to hook up. It looked like Calista was getting over Link being so stupid, which was brag, because he’s a nice guy. Quendy sat there on the table, glaring at them.
Violet came back from the doctor. She was all intense looking. I asked what was wrong. She said she’d found a place she wanted to show me. I said sure, and I went with her. We went out into the hall. The shouting from the examination room was more distant. We walked for a ways through some tubes and so on. People floated by automatically on gurneys.
She walked in front of me. Her slippers went fitik, fitik, sliss, fitik on the floors. They were soft sounds, like the sounds mouths make when they open and close. I watched her from behind. When we stopped to wait for an uptube, she lifted her ankle so her heel came out of the slipper, and with her toes she slid it back and forth on the tiles without thinking about it. She massaged the floor. When the uptube was free, she settled her foot back in, and walked, fitik, fitik, sliss, fitik, right on in.
She took me up to a huge window. We stood in front of it. Outside the window, there had been a garden, like, I guess you could call it a courtyard or terrarium? But a long time ago the glass ceiling over the terrarium had cracked, and so everything was dead, and there was moon dust all over everything out there. Everything was gray.
Also, something was leaking air and heat out in the garden, lots of waste air, and the air was rocketing off into space through the hole, so all of the dead vines in the garden were standing straight up, slapping back and forth, pulled toward the crack in the ceiling where we could see the stars.
“Whoa,” I said.
“Isn’t it beautiful?”
“It’s like … ,” I said. “It’s like a squid in love with the sky.”
She was only looking at me, which was nice. I hadn’t felt anything like that for a long time.
She rubbed my head, and she went, “You’re the only one of them that uses metaphor.”
She was staring at me, and I was staring at her, and I moved toward her, and we kissed. The vines beat against each other out in the gray, dead garden, they were all writhing against the spine of the Milky Way on its edge, and for the first time, I felt her spine, too, each knuckle of it, with my fingers, while the air leaked and the plants whacked each other near the silent stars.
We were watching Marty invent a game called Struggle of the Dying Warrior. It involved him being tied with all of his limbs, like his arms and his legs, onto the frame of his bed with the rubber tubing. Then he tried to get up and walk. He was not getting very far.
Violet and I were sitting on a bunk, swinging our legs in rhythm. We were talking about our families. I told her that I had a little brother. She said I hadn’t mentioned him. I said he was a lot younger and a real pain.
Violet asked me about my mom and dad. I told her that my dad did some kind of banking thing, and my mom was in design. I didn’t understand what my dad did exactly. Whatever it was, he was off doing it on the moon until tomorrow, when they were going to tell us about our feeds.
When I asked her what her dad did, she said, “He’s a college professor. He teaches the dead languages.”
“People study that?”
She shrugged. “I guess.”
“Okay. So what are the dead languages?”
“They’re languages that were once important but that nobody uses anymore. They haven’t been used for a long time, except by historians.”
“Like what languages?”
“You know, FORTRAN. BASIC.”
“What does one sound like?”
She slid off the bunk, and went to get her bag. She opened it and pulled out something, which was a pen. She also had paper.
I looked at her funny. “You write?” I said. “With a pen?”
“Sure,” she said, a little embarrassed. She wrote something down. She put the pad of paper on my lap.
She asked me, “Do you know how to read?”
I nodded. “I can read. A little. I kind of protested it in School™. On the grounds that the silent ‘E’ is stupid.”
“This is the language called BASIC,” she said.
On the paper, it said:
002110 Goto 013500
013500 Peek 16388, 236
013510 Poke 16389, 236
She read it to me. I could tell the numbers fine.
“So what does that mean?” I asked.
“It’s the first thing my dad teaches the students on the first day,” she said. “It means, ‘I came, I saw, I conquered.’”
I looked at her pen. “You write all the time,” I said, completely in awe.
“I’ve done it since I was little.”
“Do you write … stuff?”
“Not stories or anything. I just write down things I see sometimes.”
“On paper.”
“Yeah.”
I looked at her. “You’re one funny enchilada,” I said.
She nodded real quiet.
“Doesn’t your hand get all cramped up?” I asked. “Don’t you end up like, hook-hand?” I made hook-hand. She made hook-hand. We pawed each other with hook-hand.
She shook her head and smiled.
I asked, “Why don’t you use the feed? It’s way faster.”
“I’m pretentious,” she said. “Really pretentious.”
“Yeah, so the studio audience has noticed, but seriously.”
“Seriously.”
Suddenly, something occurred to me. I looked up at her.
Marty had fallen to his knees, and was being pul
led back toward the bed by the tubing. His cheeks were puffed out. His hands were in fists. His fingers were getting blue. All of the ridges on his arms stood out. Calista and Link were whistling with their fingers in their mouths. The other people in the ward were yelling, “Shut up! Would you all shut up?”
I asked Violet, “Your father, he’s a college professor, but he was too busy to come see you after you like completely collapsed from a hacker attack? Too busy?”
She looked me in the eye. “No,” she said, “but that’s what I told you.”
The salad days couldn’t last forever. We really wanted to get back to Earth. Everyone wanted to forget how sucky the moon had been.
Tuesday, just before lunch, a doctor and a policewoman and a technician came in. Our parents were all talking over in the corner. The rest of us were all sitting around, talking about spaceship disasters.
The technician called us all to attention and went through this whole thing, he was sorry for the delay, but they wanted to be absolutely sure there was no permanent hack, that our feeds were safe, etc. He was all like, da da da, must have been a difficult time for all of us, da da da, we would find our normal service resumed without interruption, da da da da da, he was meg sorry we had to go through this, and he had complied with the police and handed over our data, da da da, like thank you all again for your patience.
One by one, we went into the examination room.
In there, there were nurses and the doctor and the technician. The nurses were watching the relays, our blood pressure and all. They were like, “Don’t worry about anything. You’ll feel it all coming back in a few seconds.” The doctor touched a bootstick to my head.
He said, “Okay. Could we like get a thingie, a reading on his limbic activity?”
The bootstick was cold on my neck. I could feel the little hairs standing up around it. There was some kind of static electricity.
They moved the bootstick a little. I heard it beep.
“You should feel it now,” said one of the nurses.
I didn’t feel anything. I looked around. They were watching me closely.
“No,” I said. I shifted on the bed. I didn’t feel anything. I said, “Nothing. I feel nothing.”
“Hold your head still,” said the doctor.
He shifted the bootstick and it beeped again.
I kicked my heels against the bed. “There’s nothing. Nothing,” I said.
“Why don’t you —” said the nurse. Pulse up. Rising.
Limbic activity okay?
He’s just nervous.
Don’t worry. It’ll hit him in like a second.
We have readings on engram formation.
Signal engaged.
Don’t drop the exterior relays yet.
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“There you go,” said the nurse.
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They slapped me on the back. I laughed, and the doctor and I did these big grins. I went back out into the other room, and we were all starting to feel it now. We were all starting to feel it good —
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And the feed was pouring in on us now, all of it, all of the feednet, and we could feel all of our favorites, and there were our files, and our m-chatlines. It came down on us like water. It came down like frickin’ spring rains, and we were dancing in it.
… Celebrate fun. Celebrate friends. You’ve just come through something difficult, and this is the time for a table full of love and friendship and the exciting entrees you can only find at …
We were dancing in it like rain, and we couldn’t stop laughing, and we were running our hands across our bodies, feeling them again, and I saw Violet almost hysterical with laughter, rubbing her cheeks, and pulling her hands down across her breasts, her chin up in the air.
… big bro? Big bro, you there? Mom says I should …
… until one crazy day when this cranky old woman and this sick little boy meet a coy-dog with a heart of gold — and they all learn an important lesson about love. The NYT called it …
… hits a grounder to the mound …
… In other news, protests continued today against the American annexation of the moon. Several South American countries including Brazil and Argentina have submitted requests to join the Global Alliance in response. President Trumbull spoke from the White House. “What we have today, with the things that are happening in today’s society, is …”
She held my hand — we found each other’s hands through the like, the waterfall, and —
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… We handpicked our spring fashions … and holding hands, we danced.
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… In your absence, you may not have heard … Hand in hand, we danced.
Things were back to normal real quick. We went back to Earth, and we all rested up, and our moms brought us ginger ale in bed. We chatted all the time on the feeds and shared music and shit. We had this major debate going on because we watched the Oh? Wow! Thing! and there was this part where Organelle asked Jackie whether she had meg hips and he was like, “Since you ask, we both could work out more,” and she was like, “You shithead, you should’ve lied,” and so all the guys were saying, no way, if she asked him this complete question he should answer it, and the girls were like, if you ever insult how I look then you’re completely shallow, and we were like, but she asked, and they were like, omigod, you don’t get it, and Link said if they really didn’t want to know how they looked, then how come they asked so much, and then I said this thing, and Calista said this thing, and it was like, da da da da da, da da da da da, da da da da da, all day. It was kind of fun. I like debates where you argue about different points of view.
My family, they were coming and going. I saw them on the landings, or sometimes, when I went down to the kitchen, behind the counters. My dad didn’t really talk to me except to walk up and check to see if I had a fever, which I didn’t, because it was a software problem. My mother was always holding on to my brother, Smell Factor, like squeezing him like a doll. She was real busy with him and she went to peewee league games for him and even took him to work with her sometimes. When she wasn’t around in the afternoons, he sat in his closet watching Top Quark, with it broadcasting all over the place, so I watched it, too, because there was nothing else to do really but watch Top Quark and eat Chipwiches.
Cap’n Top Quark, that whole planet is so sad that I think they’ll need a whole lot of good thoughts and hugging!
That’s why, lickety-split, and we’re on our way. Charm Quark, prepare the Friend Cannon. Boson, turn our biggest, orangest sails toward Cryos, on the planet Sadalia.
Aye, aye, sir! You’ve made me one happy particle, sir!
Smell Factor had one of those birds now, one of the ones that didn’t fly or sing, the metal ones, so I could tell they were meg yesterday. Stuff always starts with people who are cool and in college, and then works down, until when the six-year-olds get it, it’s like, who cares? The birds must have been yesterday for a while, because I didn’t see them in any ads, and even Smell Factor was leaving his around and not clutching it.
A few days later, I went out on errands, because really, there was no problem anymore. It felt good to get out and to see all of the upcars in tubes and in the parking lots, just normal stuff, like people walking and t
alking on their feeds, and kids hanging out and shit. There were all the suburbs stacked on top of each other, like Apple Crest and Fox Hollow, and I would just fly through the tubes in the suburbs in my parents’ upcar, looking at all the houses and the lawns, each one in its own pod, and everything was all like neat. Then I’d go home and sit on my bed and watch the feed, and everything seemed normal.
It’s times like this that I’m real glad I have friends. They say friends are worth your weight in gold.
We had a party at the end of the week over at Quendy’s, because her parents were off choking somewhere. That was when everyone was having those choking parties. I mean, it was completely midlife crisis.
It was the first time I saw Violet since we were on the moon. It was brag because she didn’t have a ride, and I could borrow my parents’ upcar, so I got to fly over and pick her up. I met her at a mall near her house. The mall was right on the surface, and you could see the sky through the dome. She was waiting there and looking up at the sun hitting one of the department stores.
Violet lived in a suburb that was a few hundred miles away from my suburb, so while we drove we had a little time to talk before we got to the party.
It was great because we had music on our feeds, and it was the same music, so I knew she was hearing the same notes that I was hearing, and our heads were like moving together, and she put her hand near the lift lever, so when I got to the exit tube and went to lift us, her hand was there, and our fingers closed over the lift lever, and we lifted it together, and were flung up into the sky.
We were going along pretty fast, and going around towers and shit, and she asked me, “What’ll a party be like?”
“Like a party.”
“I haven’t been to many.”
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