by Vivian Wood
“I think you may not be laughing at my joke,” he says, and stands.
I take a deep breath, trying to get control of myself, and look up at him.
“I think I may not be,” I say.
He offers his hand. I take it. It’s warm and strong and rough, and even though I wobble a little getting to my feet, he’s got me.
“Thank you for the bread,” I say.
“It was my pleasure,” he says, and offers me his arm.
It’s a formality, Hazel, I tell myself.
I take it, and he escorts me back to the dining room. As the doorman starts opening the heavy doors, we look at each other. I slide my hand out of his arm, and we walk back into the dining room.
As I sit, my dad leans over to me.
“You okay?” he asks.
“Fine,” I whisper back.
I’m just in time for the main course, a heavily spiced lamb dish with some sort of thick red sauce. I inhale, and my mouth starts watering.
The bread worked, I think, even though I know perfectly well that it shouldn’t have.
I glance across the table. Even though I’m pretty sure Kostya was sent as damage control, and even though he just gave me bread and tried to be friendly, I have the strange urge to keep what just happened a secret.
My stomach squirms again. I tell myself it’s the vodka.
Yelena, Kostya’s pretty, blond, blue-eyed date, is speaking to him softly. He leans toward her, nodding intently, focused on whatever she’s saying.
He was being polite to you, I think, and a sliver of disappointment slices through me, even though I don’t know why. It’s not like I thought I was going to date a foreign prince. For starters, I’m the ambassador’s daughter, and I can only imagine that’s frowned upon.
For the thing that comes after starters, he’s a prince. He lives in a palace and stuff, and someday he’s going to be in charge of a whole country. A country where I don’t even speak the language.
Yelena smiles and touches his hand, her big blue eyes exploring his face. Kostya nods, not smiling, but I’m not sure he can smile.
Just appreciate the hot prince from afar and spend your month reading books and really finding yourself or some shit, I tell myself.
Then, as Yelena’s still talking, Kostya raises his head a fraction of an inch and looks at me.
I get that pinned bug feeling again. For a split second, I forget to breathe.
Kostya’s mouth twitches, just a little, for just a moment. I look back at my plate.
I think he just smiled at me.
Chapter Six
Kostya
For the rest of the dinner, the vodka level in Hazel’s glass doesn’t change. At every toast, the waiter pours a few more drops in, but she’s only pretending to drink now.
Good. I’m glad she can learn.
As soon as the main course is over, Yelena wraps her hand around my forearm and gazes up at me, fluttering her long black lashes.
“What did you think of the lamb, Kostya?” she asks.
I hardly thought anything of it. I was busy keeping my eyes down, on the table or on my food and not looking at Hazel.
It feels like we have a secret, but I’m at a loss. I’ve got nothing to hide. There was no impropriety. She’s our guest, and I was hospitable.
“The lamb was excellent,” I tell Yelena.
“It was my mother’s recipe,” she says. She tilts her head just a little, looking almost like a pretty bird. “The chef asked her for it last week.”
“Your mother is an excellent cook,” I say, but my half of this conversation is on auto-pilot.
I’m just agreeing with whatever she says because my mind is back on the bench. I’m thinking of Hazel saying I’m a barbarian, of the strange electric jolt that passed through me when she took my hand.
“She’s taught me everything she knows,” Yelena says. “I could make you that lamb dish in my sleep.”
I’m so distracted that it takes me a moment to realize that Yelena is flirting with me. Or, if not flirting, trying to sell herself as my wife. She’s telling me that she’s a good cook, and if I’m not careful, she might move on to listing the number of children all her foremothers have had.
“What did you think of the soup course?” I ask, trying to steer the conversation.
She blinks, and I can almost see the gears turning in her blond head as she thinks back to the soup course. I missed it, of course, because I was taking a bread roll from the kitchen and finding Hazel in the hallway.
“I think it had a bit too much kidney in it,” she says, after a long pause. “It was very well spiced, though.”
“How would you have made it?” I ask as dessert comes around. It’s baklava and ice cream, and Yelena hardly touches it as she gives a long explanation of how she would have made the soup.
My father gives another toast. I drink again, finally starting to feel the effects of the vodka.
I glance over at Hazel, but she doesn’t look at me, instead carefully eating the baklava, doing her best not to get pastry flakes everywhere. Next to me, Yelena is eating neatly, delicately, with small bites.
I keep my eyes down and finish dessert.
After dinner, Yelena suddenly wants to take a stroll through the rose garden. It’s a beautiful, warm August night, and she takes my arm as the two of us walk around and she talks about which flowers are the loveliest.
How does someone who thinks so little say so much? I wonder, then feel bad immediately.
Thinking bad thoughts about Yelena is like being annoyed at a puppy.
Besides, she’s not the first girl who’s tried to win my interest. She’s not even the most aggressive. When you’re the crown prince, women just throw themselves at you in the most unattractive ways. Half the time I feel like a trophy to be won, like I’d simply be these women’s ultimate accessory.
Yelena, at least, is here at her father’s urging, and probably my father’s too. She’s genuinely pleasant and kind, even if there isn’t much going on upstairs.
“Don’t you ever wish it was the olden days?” she says, gazing up at a tower. “When ladies wore those beautiful dresses and men were so dapper, and the whole castle would have been lit by candlelight? There would be fancy dinners every night and balls each week, and everything would be lovely.”
“How long ago do you mean?” I ask.
“Oh, before all the bad things,” she says.
I know that she means before 1919, when tiny Sveloria was swallowed up by the U.S.S.R., but I can’t help thinking there was never a time before bad things.
I also can’t help being taken aback at the last hundred strife-filled years being reduced to the bad things.
“No,” I say. “I’ve never wished that.”
She smells a rose, then blinks at me.
“Why?” she asks. “You would still be king someday.”
I look up at the windows of the palace and imagine beautiful women swirling around, dancing with men dressed to the nines. The warm orange glow of a thousand candles.
“No, I wouldn’t,” I say.
“Of course you would,” she says. “Your family has ruled for hundreds of years.”
“It’s not that simple,” I say.
I think of Maksim the second, glaring out from his portrait. I want to say this castle has murder holes for a reason. I want to say the barbarians were always at the gates.
I want to say right now the barbarians are attacking villages in the north, only now they call themselves the United Svelorian Front, and my father insists on pretending that everything is okay.
“You’re of royal blood,” she says. “It isn’t complicated, Kostya.”
Everything is complicated, I think.
“When I was seven, I wandered into a part of the castle that was under construction,” I say. “And I stepped on a nail that the workers had accidentally left on the floor, sticking up through a discarded board.”
Yelena’s turned her mouth down a
t the corners, and she puts one delicate hand over it.
“I was so humiliated that I hadn’t been watching where I was going that I didn’t tell anyone. My foot turned bright red and swelled up, and I didn’t tell anyone. I didn’t want them to know I’d done something wrong, that I was anything but smart and capable, even at age seven. It wasn’t until my governess saw red streaks going up my leg that anyone realized I’d gotten blood poisoning,” I go on.
I pause a moment, wondering if Yelena will connect the dots on her own, but she just looks at me.
“If that had happened in the olden days, I’d be dead,” I finish. “But we have antibiotics, so I’m still here.”
“What a stubborn child you were,” Yelena says, shaking her head. “I would never allow my child to be so stubborn.”
I think she’s forgotten what we were talking about. She takes my arm again and we continue walking.
“My dress for the ball is deep red,” she says. She’s already forgotten that I nearly died twenty years ago, or that everything was never perfect.
Dear God, there’s a masquerade ball next week. It’s on my calendar, but I’d completely forgotten about it.
Probably because I have thousands of better things to do than attend the ball Yelena talked my mother into hosting, I think.
“Oh?” I say, because I don’t care and don’t know why she’s telling me.
“Deep red with rhinestones on the bodice,” she says in her soft, sweet voice. “Your mother helped me choose it. It will look lovely with your uniform.”
Finally, we go back inside. As sweet and kind as Yelena is, I’ve had more than enough. I tell her goodbye very formally, and she leaves the palace with her parents.
Hazel disappeared long ago. She’s probably asleep by now, and I don’t blame her.
Everyone else leaves slowly, and then it’s only my mother, my father and I in the formal drawing room, standing stiffly. My father looks at my mother and nods once, severely. She nods back.
“I’m going to retire for the evening,” she says, kissing my father on one cheek.
“Good night,” he says.
“Good night, my dear,” she says, and then kisses me on one cheeks. “Sweet dreams, Kostya.”
“Sweet dreams, mother,” I say, and she leaves the room.
As soon as the doors close behind her, my father turns to me. I’m a half-inch taller than him, but we have the same eyes and similar faces, though I got my mother’s hair.
“I will not have you chasing after that unmannered American girl again,” he says, his voice deadly quiet.
Something clenches inside me at unmannered, even though he’s technically correct.
“I was being hospitable,” I say.
“You chased her down, leaving Yelena Pavlovna alone at the dinner table,” my father says, his voice coming close to a growl.
That’s what this is about.
“I thought you wanted us to have close relations with the Americans,” I say, even though I know full well that arguing with my father has never gotten me anywhere.
“Don’t you disrespect me,” he says.
Anger flares inside me, sudden and hot. That’s what he says when he doesn’t want me questioning him. When he’s being stubborn for the sake of being stubborn.
But he’s the king. He can be as stubborn as he wants.
I step forward and lower my own voice. I want to shout, but I can’t shout what I’m about to say.
“The USF burned a dozen houses to the ground yesterday,” I say. “And today, you forced me to accompany you to the train station to meet that unmannered American girl instead of doing something about the threat.”
“Meeting her at the train station was a formality,” he says. “Ignoring a good, well-born Svelorian woman to chase after a strumpet who can’t hold her liquor is pure folly, Kostya.”
“You can’t ignore the USF forever,” I say.
He looks me hard in the eyes, not backing down. I’m probably making this worse by pushing him on the matter, but I can’t help it.
I spent years of my life fighting against them. I crawled through dirt and slept in mud to defend my country. I watched men who were like my brothers die at their hands.
And now, when I could really be doing something about it, my own father is more concerned with my love life than the fate of his country.
“I’m not ignoring them,” he says. “They’re a small threat, and small threats burn themselves out. But you need a wife and an heir, Kostya. A Svelorian wife and a Svelorian heir. And don’t think I’ll give permission for anything else while I’m still drawing breath.”
Then he turns on his heel and walks out, leaving me alone and furious in the drawing room. Maksim the second glares down at me from the wall, and I glare back at his portrait, my hands clenched in fists.
A few days pass. My father doesn’t budge, even though the reports keep coming, and they keep getting worse. Houses and farms burned. People killed. Good, hardworking people whose only crime was living in the wrong place.
It’s small-scale, yes. But this is like a few drops of rain before a storm. I was on the ground there for a long time. I can feel it.
He refuses to let the news channel or the newspapers report on the deaths and destruction, saying it’s only a few people, or we’ll take care of it. I meet endlessly with generals and people who’ve come from the north. I try to send a battalion, organize some kind of protection for the people under threat.
My father says he’ll consider my suggestions.
I hardly see Hazel. She and her parents are being whisked around Velinsk, a picture-perfect coastal town, full of charming stone houses that line the cliffs, cobblestone streets, outdoor cafes, and beautiful white beaches. There’s no wonder the summer palace is here, and no wonder that other wealthy Svelorians come here to get away.
I avoid her. Not because of what my father said. A bride and an heir are the last things on my mind right now. For either to matter, there needs to be a Sveloria.
No, I avoid Hazel because I can’t stop thinking of her ass in those ugly spandex pants. Because I can’t stop thinking about what she might look like naked. I can’t stop wondering whether she’s got freckles everywhere or just her face.
I can’t stop wondering what she tastes like, or what she sounds like when she comes.
Two nights in a row, I jerk off thinking about her body underneath mine, her breath coming in short, soft gasps.
I’ve had women before. I’ve been in relationships. I’m a prince, not a monk.
I just have things besides pussy to worry about, and I’ve never met a woman incredible enough to be worth the distraction.
There’s never been a woman I had to be with.
Still, it’s been a long time since I jerked off thinking about anything besides porn. Worse, jerking off isn’t helping at all. Usually it releases some pressure, gets my mind off sex for a while, but not now.
I’m still watching her for too long across a room. Still watching the shapes her lips make as she talks, listening for her loud American laugh.
It’s a problem. I’m the head of my father’s small council. I’m his advisor, Minister of Military Affairs, and Lord of the Realm. I’m an important state figure.
I cannot sleep with the daughter of the American Ambassador, and I especially can’t now.
Chapter Seven
Hazel
I manage to behave myself for several days. It probably qualifies as a miracle.
It helps that my parents and I don’t attend any more formal events with the royal family, so at least I can’t embarrass myself in front of Kostya any more. He’s already had to rescue my drunk ass once, and even though he was very polite about it, the fact remains: I made a spectacle of myself, and his father sent him to do damage control.
We only catch glimpses of each other. Walking down hallways in opposite directions. On either end of a big room. Him in the garden, me on my balcony, enjoying the sun. I do my best to
ignore the way my insides twist when we make eye contact.
The king seems intent on making our stay at the Summer Palace as pleasant as possible, and his office arranges outing after outing for us.
We stroll through the beautiful seaside town of Velinsk, which is almost impossibly charming. Like the palace itself, it mostly went without being noticed by the Soviet Union, so it’s still quaint and lovely, unspoiled by the brutalist architecture that so many other towns sprouted during that time.
A friendly, English-speaking tour guide takes us up and down the coast, past beautiful cliffs filled with sea caves, past pristine white-sand beaches unreachable except by boat. We have champagne picnics and cook fresh fish over a fire.
Another day, we visit the roman ruins in the town. It was only ever a small outpost, but the Romans maintained a presence there through the fall of the Byzantine Empire. Now the ruins are stark and beautiful, no more than a few low walls, columns without a roof.
I ask how much archaeological work has been done on them, and the tour guide just shrugs. Behind a low wall, I find a single empty wine bottle lying on its side and wonder if the ruins were cleaned up for our benefit.
Velinsk isn’t big, and we cover most of the town in a few days. The people seem bright, happy, and wholesome, and they all speak excellent English.
One evening, sitting in a cafe and sipping strong Turkish coffee, I look at a map of town. Once, it was split into quarters — the Russian quarter, the Svelorian quarter, the Roma quarter — but they’ve done away with that.
All except one sliver of town. On the outskirts, to the northeast, away from the coast, is the Shadow Quarter. The tour guides haven’t taken us there. They haven’t taken us anywhere near there, though we’ve been to nearly every other part of town.
I take a sip of coffee and frown at the map.
“What’s over here?” I ask the tour guide, tapping the Shadow Quarter with my index finger. He looks at it, and I see a frown pass over his face quickly.