I haven’t found any evidence that Elspeth Furnes was related to your family, but it is possible, as the Furnes clan is a branch of the larger Rutherford clan in Scotland. I did stumble across an ancestral connection with Ewan MacCoinnich. When your twice-great-grandfather emigrated, US customs changed his surname from MacCoinnich to Mackenzie. After an astonishingly easy back-trace from Andrew Mackenzie, I can verify that Ewan MacCoinnich is your fourteen-times-great-grandfather, on your paternal grandfather’s side.
The only record of an Arailt Fraser, in the requested time period, is a death record. He also died of the plague in 1585.
I can continue to investigate if you wish, at my standard fee. Please feel free to contact me, if you need anything else. It has been a pleasure working for you in this matter.
Sincerely,
Gavin Stewart,
Genealogist
September 25, 2012
I’ve glued the letter from The Scottish Genealogy Society to the first of the blank pages remaining in this journal. It comforts me greatly, knowing that my great-grandmother wasn’t imagining things, or losing her mind, when she wrote these entries. Knowing the events she wrote about were true—and there was no way she could have known about them if she hadn’t witnessed them—gives me hope that I’m not crazy either.
See, like Great-Gran, I live two lives at once; or rather, I experience the life of another as she lives it. Right now, I am Candice Elizabeth Mackenzie. When I go to sleep, I wake up in the mind of Katryce L’Ming, a thirty-first century history professor, specializing in the Great Pandemic of 2026.
Unlike my ancestors, though, I know my great purpose, in both lives. My purpose is to prevent the pandemic from happening at all. My purpose is to save a civilization. Now I just have to figure out how.
Venus Envy
By Josephine Ballowe
Published by Hot Ink Press
An Imprint of
Crushing Hearts and Black Butterfly Publishing
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©Text Copyright 2014 Josephine Ballowe
Cover By Rue Volley
All rights reserved
This is a work of fiction. All characters and events portrayed in this novel are fictitious and are products of the author’s imagination and any resemblance to actual events, or locales or persons, living or dead are entirely coincidental.
Looking back, it’s easy to see that my world had changed from what it once was. But what happened, and how it happened, that is the mystery. Some say desire is like a bright sun beating down through holes in an old rusted tin roof, but it isn’t like that at all. Not until you feel the blunt force of what you want, or what you think you want, it isn’t yours to hold. And soon, I found something that pierced the armor of my heart.
Perhaps it was the smell of his sweat that had my heart beating so fast that I thought it would lodge in my throat, I don’t know. The music was loud, so loud that the bass thumped like a metronome in my chest. The smoky haze of lights shone upon his dark hair and eyelashes. There was no talking, but conversation wasn’t what I wanted anyway. I went with one purpose - to find someone. Someone who wouldn’t text me the next day, making me regret they existed. Lasting relationship? No thank you. Not again. Never again.
Ice was frozen on the outside of the windows, unaffected by the heat of the packed club. On the inside of the windows, steam and condensation oozed from the walls. Staring, I walked past this new man; my red vinyl boots protected my feet from the drunken sway of the hypnotic dancers. My hip grazed his thigh and he turned to look at me. Blue eyes, cold and unblinking. This one wouldn’t bother me later, I was certain of it. I smiled. He did not. And that, dear reader was a very good sign.
He placed his pale hand on the front of my shirt and gently slid it down…first over my nipples and then to my waist. I tensed and looked down at the wet floor, slick with drinks and sweat.
“Hello,” I muttered. “I’m Venus.” He ignored my words, which was fine with me.
I leaned back against a brass railing to a spiral staircase leading to a darkened bar. He pressed against my body, the smell of him made my eyes close. He stood so close, his feet surrounded mine as he played with my earring – twisting in between his fingers, pulling it almost painfully as my head rested on his chest. I looked up at him, sideways. It was only then that he smiled. Slightly.
His teeth reflected the limited light of the dance floor. So white, they seemed to glow in the dark. I stepped away to go to the bathroom but he grabbed my wrists to stop me and turned them up to the strobed light of the ceiling. My already short skirt rose way above decent standards when he pulled my right hand to his mouth and I could feel the pressure of his teeth graze my skin.
“What are you doing?” I pulled back, though his hands grabbed mine with a vice like grip. He held my arms against his chest and looked down at me, studying me. I felt his finger quickly separate my thighs and run across my clit. I instinctively arched my neck back and then…he stopped.
“Whatever,” he whispered, almost hissing over his shoulder as he turned away.
I inhaled deeply and smoothed my clothes back to submission. Shaking my head, I ran up the staircase to find my favorite bartender, a friend of mine since elementary school. He saw my face and handed me a cigarette, smiling through a curtain of blonde dreadlocks. I slowly took a drag and let the smoke roll from my lips. I looked over my shoulder for the strange man with the wrist-sucking fetish, scanning the balustrade to the lower level.
“Avoiding someone?”
“I think the freaks are out tonight,” I answered.
“Freaks are usually right up your alley.”
“My freak days are over. I want uneventful…satisfaction,” I smiled as I French inhaled.
“Well, you’re dressed for freaks. Your ass is hanging out and I have a pretty good view of the front too. Nice Brazilian.”
“Shut up.” I tossed the cigarette on the floor and stomped it out with the heel of my boot. I felt the cool air rush to my exposed pussy and I decided to keep my legs apart. A girl at another table looked shocked as I sat with my legs spread but I didn’t care. More people should enjoy themselves. Her boyfriend turned to look, so I let my low cut shirt fall more to the right, exposing my nipple. His girlfriend kicked him as he smiled.
I looked downstairs and watched two girls dancing together, one platinum blonde and the other a redhead. Both were rubbing against the other and significantly increasing the sex factor on the floor. A damp smell, sex and sweat, hit me at once – mixed with the scent of lust and desire. I looked at the DJ and I saw the stranger again, against the wall next to the speakers; his crimson shirt was damp. I could make out his features better from afar as the light hit his face directly. His hair wasn’t long but his bangs were. They were damp too and swept to the side. His hair was dark, almost black - and very shiny. His pants looked absolutely packed with huge cock.
Suddenly I felt a crushing pain in the back of my neck and pressure from behind as if someone was pushing me. He looked up the stairs towards me as I squinted back, frozen in pain. Still, he gave no expression. I blinked and bent over, reaching around to the back of my neck. My hair stuck to my skin and my breathing staggered.
I felt a hot flash of breath waft into my ear as the pain ran down my spine. He was behind me. How did he get here so fast? I turned and tilted my head to question him, but there was nothing to be said. I could make no noise. Everyone and everything around me was frozen in place. No sound, no music, no movement. It was as if I lived in a painting. Cigarette smoked froze in place, white swirls stagnant and still, unmoving in the air. Before I could bring forth a serious scream, my legs buck
led and he balanced me with his arm around my waist.
He turned me with a brisk force to face him. I closed my mouth and his palm pressed against my lips to keep me quiet. Cold, so cold. He leaned in and slid his hand to my throat and squeezed it slightly as he bent into my neck.
“Isaac. I am Isaac.”
That’s all I remember until I woke up on the damp cement floor of the bathroom with two blondes snorting coke by the trashcan.
“Nice,” I said as I arranged my skirt that was twisted around my hips. My bare ass on the cold floor. My head pounded and my mouth tasted like blood and metal.
“We’re not judging,” said the blondes in unison and in identical squeaky voices. The white powder dusted on their nostrils matched their hair.
Freaks.
***
I walked to my favorite coffee shop the next day, pulling my hair and twisting it into frayed ringlets until I finally gave in and gnawed on the ends. I sat in my favorite spot under the Hemingway portrait while my nervous hands clutched the red cup of my eggnog latte. I sensed the heat of eyes darting around me, as if everyone knew a secret. Maybe it’s just me.
As the sugary steam from the holiday latte hit my skin, the motions of the customers and baristas slowed as if they existed in super slow motion. Each of them moved like they were weighed down by time and gravity. With each second passing, they slowed further. Some halted completely. Frozen, staring eyes, gaping mouths surrounded me. The music slowed to a monstrously slow sound, low and warped. I stood up quickly to leave.
Should I run? Damn it! My coffee is tipping over. As I grabbed my ridiculously overpriced beverage, the light brown froth stilled to a motionless drip, clinging to the table’s edge. Tears stung my eyes. I could still move, as others around me froze.
“What is going on?” My voice cracked above the heads of the crowd as my chest tightened and I began to hyperventilate. No one noticed, most of them still moved in quarter time, as if in a drug-induced waltz. The barista’s dark red lips, stained in a cranberry hue, dragged across her teeth slowly, forming words that slowed with each passing syllable. Her crimson-black fingernails gestured slowly up to the menu until they hung still in the air above her head. Still, silent, like a statue. Just like at the club. What is going on?
The air in the shop popped with electricity. I felt a sucking feeling pull me back to my chair as I collapsed into the faded wood. Invisible chains held me in place. I can’t move! Get me out of here! I squirmed to the side, twisting. Then all was still. My heart pounded through my shirt when I saw him. Isaac, the man from last night stood outside the glass wall. He wore a black trench coat, tortoise shell Ray Ban sunglasses, with large droplets of rain beading on his shoulders. His hair hung wet over his forehead as he pressed himself into the glass window. Then, as if the window was made of water, he walked right through it. The glass did not crack nor did it shatter. First his foot and left leg shifted through the glass, then the rest of him pushed through the solid glass pane as if it were a gelatinous liquid. The window was undisturbed in his wake. The sound of a flutter of wings clipped through the air, whispering and blowing.
Watchers! An old crone’s voice crackled in my ears for only me to hear. The sound smacked like thunder. Watchers!
My mind buzzed and my mouth felt dry. I tried to scream as he held his hand out to quiet me. Even though he wasn’t actually touching me, I could feel the icy heat of his hands along my lips. Isaac was pale and seemed tired but he still exerted a strong force. The shop was filled with the sounds of rushing wind, as if air whistled through a tunnel. I tucked my head down as my scarf flew from off my neck. Next my brown sweater, an oversized warm cable-knit, slid roughly from my shoulders. I felt like I could no longer breathe on my own. I stood in front of him, shirtless and cold. He bent slowly to lick my nipples, first a lick, then a slow suck. I felt my pussy throb, ignored. As if he read my mind he rammed his hand into the front of my pants and applied pressure to my clit. I felt like I was flooding him as my body rocked against his hand.
He stopped and pointed to the floor at my feet. I lay down as he slid my pants over my hips and thighs, all of sudden his mouth was all over my pussy. I looked down to see his black hair falling down on me as his mouth sucked my clit until I screamed. It was as if I flew through time as my orgasm fed him. His white face was drained of any color and his blue eyes were dilated in the brightness of the fluorescent ceiling lights. He crouched in front of me and rested his hands on my thighs. My sharp, and pained, intake of breath made him look at me. His nostrils sucked in air like a vacuum. A breeze filled the room, and again I heard the sound of wings. His took his dick and gently eased himself into my pussy as the world stood still, literally still, around us.
It’s hot, so hot. I feel like I’m on fire. His eyes closed as he kissed my shoulder and neck. I’m cold … I can’t breathe … I’m empty.
I sucked in more air and opened my eyes. The walls of the room bent and warped in rhythm with my pulse. His lips rested against my chest. Then, painlessly, he laid his hands on my heart. I could feel the pressure of the palms, but a numb stillness ran down my body. It’s so quiet. It’s so still. But at least there is no pain. As my ears rang, my clothes were back on my body and I was holding my latter. A dream? I don’t know. My pussy felt satisfied.
“Who are you?” I begged. “What are you?”
Watchers. The syllables hung, whispered in the air as the room and its occupants swept back in motion. Sounds of coffee brewing and foaming, the sharp laughter of the customers, and the coughing and throat clearing of the bored baristas, all returned as if nothing was amiss. No one was the wiser. But I knew. I knew there was a change. Yet I wouldn’t know what it was for many days to come.
***
I moaned. Damp sheets of sweat twisted around me. I tossed and turned as my heart fluttered. Flashes of the Isaac kissing my neck burned into my dreams and seared my thoughts.
I’m sorry… a deep voice whispered through the curtains. I heard a loud car alarm along the street below, but it didn’t even startle me.
Why? I asked the voice in my sleep. Who are you? I didn’t want to wake up. I finally enjoyed feeling again.
Feeling something, anything instead of the empty anger I’d grown accustomed to. Anger had lived inside me for so long. Ever since, well, ever since awhile. An incredible vibration filled the room and suddenly I felt cold. The window was open yet I was shimmering with sweat. I sat up, letting the silk sheet slide from me and I walked to the window.
How did this window get opened? It’s freezing outside! It’s winter for fuck’s sake!
The crisp wind kept me tense and alert while I tugged the window closed. The man in the building across from mine stood in his window in a wife beater and holding a Pabst Blue Ribbon; a perfect redneck combination. He put down his beer can and then looked at me again; a cigarette barely clung to his bottom lip as he smiled. That’s right, pervert. I’m naked. Enjoy the show. I yanked harder on the window. Yes, my boobs jiggle. It’s quite normal. He closed his curtains behind him as he pushed his hair from his face, staring at me from across the night sky.
He didn’t stop staring, which pissed me off, so I decided to give him a little show. I jiggled my breasts in an exaggerated sway, then I squeezed them together, sticking my tongue out. He pointed at his chest and then to me, as if inviting himself over. Then I decided to get off. Just like that. I licked my finger and placed them into my pussy – in and out. My back arched and then I stopped myself. No way, buddy. I jerked the curtains closed behind me. No way.
I lit the candles along the edge of my bathtub and ran the water. The surge of water echoed loudly over the cold tile of the floor as I dipped my toes in the water to test the temperature. Too hot. The candles flickered for no reason. I slipped as I stood back up. Two strong and slightly rough hands grabbed me from behind - one hand around my waist and the other around my neck. I wasn’t afraid; I also had no intention of screaming. I knew who it was. It was Isaac. Part
of me wanted this stranger just as he was – unknown and unresponsive. Another part of me wanted to know everything about him, especially who or what the hell he was. I felt his hands on my body. And then I felt nothing at all.
***
“Venus!” a little girl’s voice yelled from the back of my mind. Her voice sounded muffled but full of fear. “Venus!”
Who is that girl?
I jerked awake and looked around, spitting water out of my mouth as the water splashed around me. I had fallen asleep in the bathtub.
“Who’s here?” I sat up quickly, completely startled as I woke up from under the water. And when did I get in the tub? Nothing makes any sense!
I rubbed my eyes and ran my hands through my wet hair. I splashed from the tub, leaving a river of lukewarm water behind me. I leaned against the door for a moment, and then locked it. Suddenly I heard music. Old music, an orchestra with a big band sound yet with an almost carnival quality, complete with the hiss and pop of vinyl.
The music stopped as soon as I opened the door, wrapped in my pink bathrobe. Water ran down my legs, making wet marks on the carpet. I felt motion in the air. I felt the cool breeze of someone’s presence. He must still be here.
I’m everything you wished for. Everything you could want. I’m here to help.
***
I rolled on my side with Michael’s face still clear in my mind. I turned on my iPod, techno and loud. The beat thudded in my chest and I let it vibrate in all the places I needed it. He’s gone, missing, dead. I missed him every day and every night, as I lay paralyzed on my pillow. Sometimes, I never slept at all.
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