by Wood, Lauren
“I can’t believe you haven’t fired her yet.”
Cece shrugged. “Why should I? I need her and she did me a favor with Cliff. It is good to know the truth, you know?”
She was being far better about it than I was. There was no way that I would have been so cool about it. I didn’t think I would be able to see her every day after that. I don’t know why I didn’t really care, maybe I should, but I just didn’t. I never wanted her in that way. Barb was never permanent. It worried me that Cece had so much anger because to me it meant that she cared about Cliff more than I liked to think about. But how she was handling Barb was vastly different. Why was that?
“I guess, but man that is one hell of a reminder walking around every day.”
“You know Dante, I didn’t even think about it. Do you want me to fire her? Does it bother you that she is still around? I mean, you were the one that walked in on it and all. I will get rid of her if you want. I would rather lose Barb then you.”
I knew that it must have been hard for her to say such a thing, but I am glad that it was an option. “I don’t really care to be honest. It was never like I had much to do with her outside of a few brief moments a couple of times a week.”
Her face got a little red and I wasn’t sure from what. “Oh, well okay. Then it is settled. She will stay on at least until I find some more workers. I am still about two short, but we are going to be okay for now.”
“So what is on the agenda today?”
“The vet is coming down and doing shots and vaccinations. If you could oversee that, I would appreciate it. I want to make sure they are all ready for duty if need be. I am already getting a few calls from some networking that I did at the rodeo. At least that trip wasn’t a complete waste of time, although Cliff sure turned out to be that very thing.”
It was still too soon to put my opinion in. She was taking it well I thought and I didn’t want to say anything to change it. I had seen him for what he was as soon as I met him, but she had to learn on her own. As long as I didn’t see that sadness in her face again, I think I would be okay. We would get past this and hopefully this time it would make us grow closer.
“Anything else?”
“No Dante, that’s it. But thank you. I know that telling me must have been hard and I could tell you didn’t want to. It would have been worse if you would have gloated, but thank you for not. I don’t know if I would have been able to handle that so well. I know I made a mistake, so thanks for not saying, ‘I told you so.’”
I just shook my head like I understood. I almost had, but it would have done me no good to kick her while she was down. It was clear that she was bothered by the way everything turned out, but at the same time, it was also clear that she had really liked Cliff. It was going to take her time to move on from him, but at least now I had a chance. Maybe she would finally see that I am not like those other people. I was here for the long run with her. No matter how it went with others, if I ever had Cece in my arms, I was never going to let her go.
I left her in the kitchen and set about getting the horses pulled out that were getting shots today. Not all of them needed some and after I found the immunization folder, I made sure I had them all out and there before the vet got there. The old crotchety man was never the nicest guy to deal with, but it had to be done.
I wasn’t prepared for the cute little vet tech that came by instead. It was old Dr. Johnson anymore and it caught me off guard. Lisa was the new vet tech that was going to help the old doctor out and I had to admit that if she worked with me, she would be an easy mark. The problem was that I was changing and the old me always got me in trouble. It was not okay for me to flirt with her or what my body naturally wanted to do. I found that I wanted to keep my distance so that I would have a chance with Cece. Even though my body needed something more, I was going to wait as long as I could. I had to, for my own sanity.
So against all instinct, I ignored the doe-eyed look of Lisa and made it through the whole afternoon without getting myself in trouble. It was hard because I wasn’t used to denying myself, but it was worth it if it meant that I could have her soon. There was too much banking on the fact that she would be ready to move forward with another man. What if Cliff was the final straw for her and he had ruined it for everyone else? I had to push her to decide that she needed to move on and that moving on was with me.
That evening I ate dinner in the ranch house and I even stayed after to help her out with the dishes.
“Lisa was adorable. How old was she?”
“I don’t know. She was pretty young. Just got out of college from what I gathered.”
“I thought you would know more about her. You must be slipping.”
“She is too young. I am retired from that.”
“When did that happen?”
“I don’t know, I guess my priorities have changed.”
“Mine too. I don’t think I am going to worry about men anymore for a while. No offense, but you guys are nothing but trouble.”
“Not all of us Cece. You can’t hate us all because of one idiot.”
“No, I know that, but I don’t think I will be jumping off anything soon. I can’t deal with the idea of it all. I really thought Cliff was different.”
It was hard to hold my tongue. I was glad that she was able to talk to me about it, comfortable enough to do so, but there was a bigger part of me that wanted to shake her because she was just that wrong. How could she think this way?
“Sometimes you got to have a little faith Cece. It will all work out the way it is supposed to. You two weren’t meant to be together. He wasn’t good enough for you.”
She scoffed like I had said something funny. It wasn’t funny to think about it all.
“You are too sweet Dante.”
I moved closer and took the dish out of her hand and started to dry it. “I am not sweet at all Cece, you know that. I wouldn’t say it if it wasn’t true. You are way better than him and you deserve to be happy, deliriously happy.”
The closeness was bothering her and I could tell it was when she moved back a little bit.
“Maybe I am not supposed to be happy. I keep thinking I have found ‘the one’ but it ends up just being another toad. I have been careful when I pick, but it doesn’t seem to matter.”
“You are just looking in the wrong direction Cece. I have known for a while that something is between us. Why don’t we see where it goes? You and me.”
“You and me?”
I nodded my head and pulled her closer to me before she could get something else in her hand to fiddle with. It seemed like she just wanted to stop talking about it, but I was in it and wanted to know what it all meant. I wanted her to tell me that she felt the same way, so at least I wouldn’t feel like it was all for nothing. I hadn’t waited all of this time, turned down several women because of something that was never going to happen. I don’t know if I could face it.
I moved my finger underneath her chin and kissed her on her lips. It was the first time that I had ever done it and there was a feeling that went through me. She felt so good leaned up against me, every soft inch pressed up against my hard chest. Nothing I could say would ever be able to change that. It just cemented the fact to myself that I had to have her.
I deepened the kiss, adding a little tongue and pulling her even closer. I was rock hard and I wanted her to feel how much I wanted her. I felt like she needed to know that if nothing else. There was an answering moan that drove me a little crazy and before long I had lifted her up, setting her down on the edge of the counter. I wanted her more than ever and it felt like it was finally in my grasp. All I had to do was convince her and I would finally have what I needed. Once she was in my arms and I was inside of her, there was going to be no going back for her. I was already there and I convinced myself that she would be too if I could just open her eyes a little bit.
But I moved too fast, my hands on her chests and I felt her pull back a little bit. I was breathing
hard when I pulled away, but I wasn’t ready to give in. I didn’t want the moment to end and tried to kiss her again, this time not as demanding as before.
“We can’t Dante. I can’t go from one bad mistake to the next.”
“I am not a mistake, this isn’t a mistake. It feels too right to be a mistake. I know that you feel it too.”
She slid off of the counter and high-tailed it upstairs to her room. I wanted to follow her, but there was another side of me that was convinced I was just going to have to wait her out. I was going to have to find patience that I never knew I had.
“I don’t want to feel this way anymore Dante. I want to feel good again. You said you would make me feel good.”
I didn’t know what to say to her, but I knew that she was upset, maybe even a little tipsy. She had just showed up at my door and it was about 3 in the morning. As she got closer I could tell that she had at least had one drink, but I had a feeling that it was even more than that just by the way she was looking around. I hadn’t seen Cece at the hand house in a while and certainly not in this state of being. Even her clothes were in disarray. Her shirt was unbuttoned to show off a little cleavage and her hair was loose around her, making its own messy ebony halo.
Before I could answer her, Cece was moving forward, pressing her lips against mine. She was moving me back, her need was palpable and I was at a loss of what to do, but what she asked. How in the world could I tell this woman no?
I was stunned and didn’t know what to do. The more I thought about her lips on mine, the more everything in the back of my head, the part of me that told me that it was wrong was gone. Her taste was altered with some wine, but her mind was clear as she pushed me back into the room, shutting the door behind her.
Chapter 46
Cecelia
“Are you sure about this Cece? I don’t want you to do something that you are going to regret tomorrow.”
“I don’t think I will regret this. I want you to do to me, what you did to that woman at the rodeo.”
“What woman?”
“That blonde in the stables. You made her scream so loud. I want that. I want you to pound into me like you did her. I need to feel something Dante and I feel safe enough with you. I know you won’t hurt me.”
“You saw me?”
I nodded and told him that I had seen it all. The way he had drove into her over and over again was something that I knew I would never be able to forget. He had such strength in him and the blonde had gotten so much pleasure out of it. It was more than I was able to handle and when the thoughts came back to my mind, I shivered. No, I don’t think I was going to regret this at all.
“Are you trying to talk me out of this Dante? You have been trying to get into my pants since I hired you. Now you don’t want to bang the boss?”
His eyes flared and that was all of the answer that I needed. He wanted me, I could tell that he did and now all I needed was for him to show me the way. I started to pull off my shirt. It was unbuttoned enough that it came right off and I tossed it on the ground. He had a look of lust as he stood there. Dante didn’t take a move towards me, so I took it as he wanted a little show. I wasn’t able to do much. I was actually shaking where I stood, but it made me move a little slower and he took that as me being frisky.
“God, you are beautiful Cece. I knew that you would be perfect.”
His words made me nervous because I didn’t want to hear it. I wasn’t perfect, far from it, but I liked that he was attracted to me. After all of this time telling him no, it felt damn good to finally be able to tell him yes. It was the answer that I wanted to give him all along.
I was standing in a pair of sheer pink panties and bra and it took everything in me not to cover myself up. I wasn’t used to all of the attention and even though he liked what he saw, I was still nervous. Even the two wine coolers I had before I came up here didn’t seem to be doing the trick. I was terrified, but it wasn’t from something bad happening. I was terrified that I was going to want it too much. Dante was still a player and I didn’t want to get hurt.
But none of that mattered as he moved towards me. I could tell what he wanted and I could tell that I was going to get exactly what I asked for.
“If this is really what you want, I will give you everything that you need Cece. I have wanted to do this since the moment that I met you. God, you don’t know how much I have wanted you.”
I didn’t have to hear his words. I already wanted him, but he kept going like I needed to know or rather he had to tell me. I took my bra and panties off and moved back onto the bed. I don’t know why I was so nervous, it wasn’t like I hadn’t ever done it before, but I hadn’t been with someone as big as he was. I hadn’t ever been with anyone that could pound and fuck like he did, or at least I had never experienced it. I just knew that whatever it was that he had been doing to that girl, I wanted him to do to me. If there was any way that I could feel the way she did, I was sure that I would forget all about Cliff. I just needed to feel good for one night.
Looking back to Dante, he was getting undressed quickly, not stopping until his body was bare and I could see all of him. My eyes were drawn to the hardness in between his legs and it made me nervous. He was larger than even he appeared before and I was nervous about how he was going to fit. Maybe I wasn’t ready for him, even though I was soaking wet and trembling with the idea of it.
What I hadn’t noticed was that I had backed up a little bit from him as he walked towards me. He just had so much lust and need in his eyes, it was hard to ignore. I couldn’t take my gaze from the swinging meat in between his legs and the idea that it was going to be inside of me soon. I had asked for it a certain way as well, a way that I now didn’t know if I would be able to handle. I didn’t quite know what I was getting myself into yet.
“Where are you going Cece?”
I made a whimpering sound as he pulled me to the edge of the bed by my ankle. He did it so quickly that I wasn’t prepared for it and I made a bit of a squealing sound that made him smile. “I love how loud you are Cece. I am going to make you scream tonight and keep everyone up.”
I felt my face getting red as he moved over me. He kissed me on my lips and then moved down, licking on my nipples and sucking on the tips, using his teeth just a little bit to send a jolt through my system. It worked perfectly and I was lost in the moment.
I didn’t realize that he was moving down my body, until I felt his hot breath in between my legs and they snapped shut. Dante moved off of the bed, gong to his knees as the edge of it and pulling me closer to his hungry mouth.
Now his hot mouth was all over me and his hands gripped underneath my thighs and gave me no choice but to take what was given to me. Dante didn’t just lick like his life depended on it, but he also sucked my clit until I was screaming and filling his mouth with my juices. There was no way that I could have stopped it, the feeling just too intense. Everything about him was just too much.
My thighs tightened and tried their best to close. I needed a break, a breather because my body was still tight minutes later. I needed just a moment of relief and I was finally given that as he moved back and let me close my legs.
Before I could say anything or get my breath back, he was turning me over and making me go to my knees at the edge of the bed. As his arm pushed my upper back down, pressing my face into the mattress, I became even more nervous than before. I could feel my ass moving up into the air.
“Is this how you want it?”
I had said before that I wanted it the way I had seen him do it, but the truth was, at the end of the day, I was really only worried about being able to handle it. Like everything else about him, the size of Dante was intimidating. I felt him start to press against the wetness I had created for him and the groan alone was enough to make me need more, no matter how hard it was going to be to control myself.
Shaking my head that it was, I felt him surge forward and my eyes almost instantly clenched shut. Every inch of me was
being pressed and stretched as he pushed deep so quickly. I was filled to the brim in seconds and my hands grabbed up some of the sheets around me and I couldn’t help the whimper that came out of me. It was muffled by the bed, but it was loud enough to still be heard. I don’t know why, but it embarrassed me to hear myself sounding so hysterical. I couldn’t help how I felt, no matter how hard I tried. There was no letting him inside of me in such a way and not being overwhelmed.
“You feel so good Cece, just like I knew you would.”
I tried to answer, but as he pulled out, my insides gripped his length and I felt emptiness with every inch that left me. He was surely supposed to always be inside of me, like I was the sheath for his massive member. I thought it fit rather well, considering I had wondered the whole time if it was going to even be possible or not. Now I was starting to think that anything was possible.
“So damn tight.”
I couldn’t answer him and I don’t think he was even talking to me, but more talking to himself. He felt so good that passed a light whisper that went over my pounding heart in my ears. I couldn’t hear anything much more than that. I was screaming as I came, unable to take the tension and I moved forward, trying to get a moment of rest.
Dante just followed me and moved on top of me as I lay on my stomach. It just gave him better access and now he was able to move faster. I cursed and cried out as wave after wave of pleasure moved over me. I had never come so much in my life and I didn’t even want to think about who could hear me. Even muffled by the mattress, I was sure that there was going to be some looks tomorrow when I went in for breakfast.
But I couldn’t think of that, not when he was unrelenting, pounding into me over and over again. It was all just too much and finally I clenched him as hard as I could, trying to get him to blast off inside of me before I lost myself all together. I had never felt so many emotions and feelings all at once. I really thought I may explode if he didn’t come soon.