Fantasy 02 - Forbidden Fantasy

by Cheryl Holt

  "Are you sure he'd want you to?" "He'd hate it, so we won't tell him. It will be our little secret."

  They laughed and went inside.

  Chapter Twenty-One

  Ian stood on a rocky outcropping and stared down at the small valley, studying the haphazard assortment of sagging huts owned by his relatives. With snow covering the hillsides, and smoke curling from the chimneys, it should have been picturesque, but the view was so depressing.

  While scarcely more than a boy, he'd left at his father's behest. He'd journeyed to England to befriend his half brother, as well as to become a prosperous gentleman and betrayer. He'd shed his accent, his poverty, and rural mannerisms like a snake shedding its skin, as if heritage and tradition meant nothing.

  Since then, he hadn't visited, so his recollections were those of a lad of twenty, who hadn't known how poor he was, who hadn't grasped the differences he'd encounter in the outside world.

  His kin had once been powerful and wealthy, had owned huge tracts of Scotland, had fought and died for their legacy and customs. But history had worked its toll, and they had so little remaining. His uncles seemed content, but they were all so old!

  Poverty and hardship had worn them down early, had them gray and stooped and weary from the struggle of keeping on.

  They were all thrilled to see him, and they'd welcomed him like the prodigal son, but he felt so guilty. Over the years, his father had encouraged him to take so much money from John, and he gleefully had, but he'd never sent a single farthing to his family. His childish memory was that they'd been affluent from whiskey and wool, so they hadn't required any assistance, and he was shamed to be so painfully confronted by reality.

  He wasn't like them, and he didn't belong, which shouldn't have hurt or surprised him, but it did. He'd never belonged anywhere. Growing up in Scotland as he had, he'd been an oddity, the bastard offspring of a rich nobleman. In England, he'd been an oddity, too, but snubbed and demonized because of it.

  So what was he to do now?

  He couldn't return to London. With Caro having married Edward Shelton, there was nothing for him in the city. Neither was there any reason to keep on in Scotland.

  His uncles had begged him to stay, but he wasn't a farmer and couldn't see himself engaged in the toil it took just to get by. Should he move to Edinburgh? To do what? For how long? And if he didn't go there, where should he go?

  He had no answers. Everything seemed futile, and his emotions were at their lowest ebb.

  A brisk wind blew past, the cold making him shiver. He trudged down the trail to the hovel where his bed and bag were located. A hot fire burned in the grate, and he hung his coat and hat and went to sit in the chair by the hearth, his shoulders draped in a shawl an aunt had woven, when someone pounded on the door.

  He frowned but didn't budge. He didn't want to chat, but his caller didn't realize that he was sulking and in no mood for company.

  The intruder knocked again, and again, and finally, Ian cursed and stomped over and yanked on the knob. Though it was mid-afternoon, the sun gave off a pitiful bit of light. The sky was leaden, and with him standing in the dim cottage, he could barely focus.

  There was a man on the stoop, and it seemed to be John, which was impossible. He was wrapped from head to toe against the bad weather, his face partially concealed by a scarf, but it had to be John. It couldn't be anyone else.

  Was he hallucinating? Had the isolation driven him mad?

  "There you are," the vision muttered, "and about bloody time, too." "What?"

  "Have you any idea how difficult it was to find you?" "John?" he asked.

  "Yes, it's me. What do I look like? A ghost?" "Yes."

  "Since I've just ridden from one end of this godforsaken country to the other, might I suggest you invite me in?"

  "John?" he said again, astonished and certain he'd lost his mind.

  The apparition stamped snow from his boots and snarled, "And if you still have a stick up your ass about that fight last summer, and you decline to grant me some of your supposed Scottish hospitality, I can't predict how I'll react."

  In a daze, Ian stumbled out of the way, and the man entered. Ian watched, stupefied, as he shucked off his heavy garments, regally tossing them in the middle of the floor, expecting a servant to magically appear and pick them up.

  It really and truly was his brother. At least, Ian thought it was. Perhaps it was a Scottish fairy, playing some terrible prank.

  "What in the hell are you doing in Scotland?" he demanded.

  "Hello to you, too, Ian. I'm pleased to note that you haven't been kidnapped or murdered." "Murdered!"

  John glanced around the tiny space. "Where do you keep the liquor?"

  "In the cupboard in the corner."

  Ian gestured to it, wondering if he might blink and John would vanish. But no. John marched over, rummaged for a glass, and poured himself an ample quantity of Ian's uncles' finest brew. Then he proceeded to the fire and stood, letting his backside be warmed by the flames.

  Ian stated the obvious. "It's the dead of winter." "Yes, it is." "Yet you're here."

  "And I should receive a medal for a job well done, too." He gulped the whiskey and poured himself another. "It's a lucky thing this bottle is full, and I hope you have more than one. While I'm away from home, I like to catch up on my ration of vice."

  "Why?"

  "I can't drink a drop in front of Emma. It's the kind of wicked behavior that sends a vicar's daughter into a righteous frenzy."

  Good for you, Emma! Ian mused. John had spent most of his adult life inebriated. Any person who could convince him to get sober and stay sober was a miracle worker.

  "You poor, poor man." Ian oozed sarcasm.

  "I admit that being married has its disadvantages"— John wiggled his brows and laughed—"but it has its advantages, too. Especially when your bride is as humorous and entertaining as Emma. You should try it sometime."

  "I'll keep that in mind."

  The moment was so bizarre. He couldn't remember when he'd last heard John laugh. Maybe he never had. In all the years they'd lived together, his brother had always been so despondent.

  Now he was smiling and making jokes. If he'd suddenly sprouted a second head, Ian couldn't have been any more stunned. John was carrying on as if they hadn't been separated a single day, as if Ian hadn't irreparably damaged their relationship.

  "Aren't you still angry with me?" he had to inquire.

  "Yes. I'd like to beat you to a pulp, but I think the icy trip has frozen my temper. And my hands. If I struck you just now, my fingers would crack into a dozen pieces."

  Ian slumped into a chair. Was he dreaming? He'd pondered a reconciliation with John so often and with such intensity that it was entirely possible he was imagining the scenario all over again, with the difference being the precise amount of detail.

  "Why are you here?" he queried.

  "I've come to fetch you to London."

  "But I don't wish to go."

  "You have to. Caro needs you."

  Once, he'd have been thrilled by the news, would have instantly raced to England to assist her, but he was wiser now. The summons was nonsense.

  "No, she doesn't. She made her opinion very clear: She's married her Mr. Shelton, and I'm certain she's happy and settled."

  "She hasn't married him yet," John maintained.

  "Yes, she has. The wedding was held on the twenty-fourth. That's why I left. I couldn't bear to watch it happen."

  "You know, you might have told me how much you cared for her. I could have helped the two of you. We could have avoided this whole mess."

  "I tried to tell you—that one time. You didn't seem inclined to listen."

  They both flushed, recollecting the night at Wakefield Manor when John had stumbled on Ian as he'd been kissing Caro. A brawl had ensued, and before it was concluded, they'd both been bruised and battered, their friendship ruined by harsh words and bitter revelations.

  "We were patheti
c, weren't we?" John mumbled.

  "Pathetic doesn't begin to describe it."

  "Afterward, I was so sorry."

  "I knew you were. So was I." Ian went over so that they were face-to-face. "Our father was an ass."

  "He definitely was," John enthusiastically concurred.

  "I can't figure out why I agreed to work for him to your detriment."

  "You were young and stupid and destitute."

  "That pretty much covers it."

  "Yes, it does."

  "I hated taking your money—I hated it every day— but Father said I should, and I forged on, even though I knew it was wrong. It's been an albatross around my neck. I want to return it to you. I want to return every penny."

  "I wasn't upset about the money." John waved away a decade of duplicity as if it had been of no consequence.

  "You should have been upset. You're being too kind to me."

  "You were the eldest," John stated. "I always thought you deserved a share. If you'd simply asked me for a portion, I'd have filled a bank account for you. I still would."

  "If you persist with this casual attitude about your fortune, I can't see how you'll remain a rich man."

  "Neither can I. Between you and my wife—with all the charities she makes me fund—I'm surprised I have a farthing to my name."

  "You love her, don't you?" Ian murmured, amazed.

  "More than my life."

  "I'm glad for you."

  "I think she saved me."

  "I think she did, too."

  As easy as that, they were friends again, the squabble of the previous summer swept away as if it had never been. Ian was so relieved he felt dizzy.

  Why had they fought? He could scarcely recall. In hindsight, it all seemed so silly.

  John was blushing, embarrassed at having confessed his fondness for his spouse, and he switched subjects.

  "Now, about London ..."

  "What about it? What has brought you all this way?" "Caro's wedding has been rescheduled for the original date."

  Ian's pulse pounded with joy, but he tamped down any elation. What was it to him if she hadn't followed through? What was it to him if she'd altered her plans?

  She was the most fickle female he'd ever met, and it was typical of her to change her mind. He'd have expected nothing else. Her future had no bearing on his. Whatever she elected to do—or not to do—she'd made it very plain that he would have no role in how events played out.

  He was over it. He was over her! When push had come to shove, when she'd been forced to choose between himself and her parents, she'd cast him aside like a worn pair of slippers.

  As he'd stood in her father's library, being dragged out by burly servants, as he'd bellowed her name and pleaded with her to pick him over them, she hadn't bothered to take a final glance in his direction.

  "So she isn't married," Ian cautiously ventured. "How could the delay possibly matter to me?"

  "Caro begged me to find you for her."

  "She did?"

  "Her mother claims she's had you kidnapped and that you'll be killed if Caro doesn't marry Mr. Shelton."

  "The Countess said that?"

  "Caro is extremely frightened. She insisted that—if she knew you were all right—she'd defy her mother and refuse the match, but if there was a chance the Countess might harm you, she'd have to proceed."

  "She'd wed Shelton to keep me safe?"

  "Yes, and you can't let her sacrifice herself like this."

  Ian reflected, then blew out a heavy breath. "I don't want to be involved. This is none of my affair, and I can't believe she's requested my assistance."

  "Why wouldn't she have? You're smack in the middle of it."

  "The Countess is such a witch!" Ian seethed. "I'd love to see her get her comeuppance."

  "So would I. You could make it happen by coming to England with me."

  "I don't know...."

  "Won't you help me redeem myself in Caro's eyes? I hate that she has such a low opinion of me."

  "If you cajole me into going with you, are you supposing she won't detest you quite so much?"

  "Precisely."

  "Her loathing is fairly intense. You're hoping for an awful lot."

  John shrugged. "I promised her I'd bring you home, and if I have to, I'll bind you, gag you, and throw you over my saddle like a sack of flour."

  "You wouldn't."

  "I would, but I'd rather you agreed on your own and came without all the fuss." "To do what?"

  "To prove that Britannia is a lunatic and a liar, which will keep Caro from a hideous marriage."

  "That's worth something, I guess."

  "And I have to admit"—John grinned from ear to ear—"that it will be hilarious to see Britannia's expression when you foil her by showing up alive and unscathed."

  Ian spun away and went to the window, staring out at the snow that was drifting down.

  He'd gone to Caro like an adoring fool, and with hardly a thought, she'd tossed away what he was offering. If he rushed to London and she spurned him again, he didn't know how he'd survive her rejection.

  Still, when John had braved such a distance, Ian couldn't imagine declining to accompany him, and in consenting to go back, Ian didn't have to do it for any emotional purpose. Obviously, Caro was a damsel in distress. He could steel himself against heartbreak, could aid her because she needed him to, then he could be on his way, with his sentiments in check and his detachment visible and firm.

  He peered over his shoulder. "Why would she put herself through all this just for me?"

  "She loves you, you dolt!"

  "No, she doesn't," Ian scoffed. "I spoke to her father, before I left. I asked for her hand. Didn't she tell you?"

  "No. She didn't exactly have time to share the details of your affair. Thank God."

  "I begged her to stand up to them, to leave with me, but she wouldn't. She was content to stay, and I can't decide why I should go to so much trouble for a woman who's been very clear that she's not interested."

  "She's interested, Ian. Believe me. She was so worried about you that she actually sought me out and talked to me."

  "Considering how much she despises you, that's definitely a sign of her desperation."

  "It is, so you must return with me. If you don't, I'll never hear the end of it from Emma. You wouldn't do that to your brother, would you?"

  Ian chuckled. "No, I wouldn't."

  "You'll come?"

  "Yes." Ian sighed, wondering what kind of predicament he'd gotten himself into. "When must we arrive?" "By the fifteenth." "But... that's only five days away."

  "You'll need a fast horse, and we'll be off at first light."

  "What if it keeps snowing? We might not be able to ride out of the valley."

  "I can control many factors," John replied, "but I can't do a thing about the weather. We'll just have to cross our fingers."

  "What if we don't make it by the fifteenth?"

  "We have to," John said. "There's no other choice."

  Chapter Twenty-Two

  Do you ever wonder about Caroline?" "What about her?"

  Britannia stepped in behind Edward, whispering so that no one could hear. Not that anyone was listening.

  The church was closed, the door locked tight so their exalted family could have a private ceremony. No guests had been invited, so the rows and rows of pews were empty.

  Bernard was over by the altar railing, awaiting the vicar, and he was so disconnected from the marital events that he might have been a stranger who'd wandered in by accident.

  Her surly, unpleasant son, Adam, was off in the vestibule, sulking over her command that he attend despite his protestation that he didn't care to participate.

  Caroline was seated in the front row. She'd chosen a silvery blue gown as her wedding dress, and with her blond hair and fair complexion the color washed out her skin so that she looked pallid and frozen. She might have been a carved statue, except that she kept glancing around, hoping for
a last-minute rescue by Ian Clayton.

  Britannia smirked.

  Wakefield could find a magic horse with wings to fly him to Scotland and back, but he and Clayton would never return in time, not with the blizzard on the border. The distance was simply too far, the roads too hazardous.

  In a few minutes, Caroline would be married to Edward. Britannia would finally have the revenge she'd sought for so long. She'd never been so happy!

  "Weren't you ever curious," she inquired, "about the date of her birth?"

  "No. Why would I have been?"

  "Don't you recollect our affair, Edward?"

  "Vaguely."

  He always pretended that their liaison hadn't impacted him, while on her end she'd suffered daily.

  "How typical of you to deny me," she fumed.

  "Good God, Britannia! It's been twenty-five years. Let it go."

  "I don't wish to. At the moment, there's nothing I'd like to talk about more."

  He whirled on her, his fury clear. "We will not discuss it! Be silent!"

  "No, I shan't be. In fact, I believe I shall chatter about you—and my prior relationship with you—all day."

  "Are you completely insane?" He glared at Bernard, who appeared to be in a trance. "Madam, as your husband is in no condition to advise you as to your comportment, I shall speak in his stead: Get a grip on yourself!"

  Britannia chuckled, assessing woebegone, pathetic

  Bernard, who was so weak of character that he'd been felled by the death of a mere strumpet.

  He only thought he was miserable. Before the festivities were concluded, he'd likely be comatose with shock.

  She grinned at Edward. "The last sexual encounter occurred in early May. I've never forgotten." "What encounter?" "Why, yours and mine."

  "Oh, for pity's sake, Britannia! Why dredge up ancient history? What is the matter with you? Your sense of decorum has utterly fled."

  "Caroline was born in January."

  "Thank you for letting me know. I'll be sure to buy her an appropriate bauble when next the day rolls around."

  She walked off, amused that he couldn't unravel the true message she was trying to send.

  He was so thick. He wouldn't figure it out till it was too late. She'd tell him in the morning, after the consummation, after he was beyond the point where he could fix what he'd done. She'd tell Bernard, too. She'd provide every sordid detail, and she'd watch and laugh as her words pushed him into an even deeper stupor. If she was very lucky, she'd drive him to an apoplexy.