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Copyright © 2011 by Jessica A. Redmerski
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DEDICATION
For my mom, Kitty, for always being there for me even when I was at my worst and to my kids, Devan, Jerricah and Jonah for bringing out my best.
NO ONE USED THE F-word more than my step-dad, Jeff. It pretty much made up his already limited vocabulary.
I stayed in my room around this time every night when he wasn’t out at the bar. A poor excuse for a man, yeah, but my mom, Rhonda, ‘loved’ him. Despite the drunken fit, it was a quiet night in our house. But don’t get the wrong idea: no one beat me and my life wasn’t all that bad, really. Jeff rarely bothered me or my sister, Alexandra, anymore. He backed off after Alex blacked his eye last year.
I’m not afraid of him. Who could be scared of a weasely-looking man with nine inch nose hairs and who could barely lift an economy-sized box of cat litter by himself? Okay, the nose hairs are pretty scary; I’ll give him that much.
I sat on the center of my bed with a book in my lap and a CD playing low beside me. Alex left earlier in the afternoon; she’d begged me to go with her to play pool, but I wasn’t much into pool. Besides, I knew why she really wanted me to go. She’d been trying to hook me up with Brent Haver-something. “But he’s hot,” she mentioned on more than one occasion. “And he’s a decent guy.” He probably was hot and a decent guy; she was rarely wrong about these kinds of things, but worse than usually being right, she was overprotective of her little sister and would rather pick out guys for me to date. Only problem was, I wasn’t into dating.
It was as simple as that.
I heard my mom shuffling around in her room across from mine. Hangers clanked violently in the closet. Drawers opened and slammed shut so hard the dresser banged against the wall. Her footsteps were heavy as she stomped back and forth, rattling the windows and the exposed light bulb just above me in the ceiling.
“What are you doing?” Jeff said.
“Why do you care?” my mom demanded. “Your girlfriend is getting warm in there on the coffee table.”
Mom always referred to Jeff’s beer as his ‘girlfriend’.
The only thing I could give him credit for was that it took more than sarcasm to get him to hit her. Not that that was saying much, but it was a small sense of relief for me. My mom, to be completely honest, couldn’t keep her opinions to herself; like right now, as she went on and on about his drunken ways. Sometimes I wondered if she was a masochist. I was used to the argument dragging out for at least an hour before Jeff’s inner-loser took over and he got physical. Some might say she deserved it (my stepbrother said that once—Alex blacked his eye too), but no woman deserves to be hit.
“Why don’t you back off,” Jeff said with a slur in his voice. “Crazy, nagging bi—”
“Nag?” My mom sounded shocked. I could picture her mouth open in total disbelief, her hands propped upon her bony hips. The more vulgar name he had started to call her she was so used to hearing. But ‘nag’, no way she was going to let him get away with that.
The rest of what she was saying, I ignored. It was always the same kind of argument with usually the same kind of outcome: drawn-out fighting, which ended in lengthy make-up sex that always forced me out of the house faster than the actual fight.
I hoisted my favorite canvas backpack on after tucking my book away inside it and then raised my bedroom window and slipped out into the humidity. It felt nicer than inside where the heat of the day grew and lingered. We lived in a tiny white house on twelve acres of land just outside of Athens, Georgia. From the road, the house looked like a dirty speck in an endless yellowing pasture. Not a single tree hovered nearby to help shade it from the blistering southern summers. I hated that house. It was Jeff’s house.
Our neighbors were spaced out here and there. Jack and Janice Bentley lived across the street—Janice had a cat-hoarding problem. Old Man Chester lived just around the curve past the proud and famous, Jacquelyn Morose, who had the pinkest house in Northeast Georgia. Though, the house didn’t make her famous; she was in a laundry detergent commercial like two hundred years ago and people still talk about it. Anyway, Old Man Chester was older than dirt too, and always wore the same coveralls. And then there was Mrs. Willis who lived next door. Unfortunately, she lived directly next door, as in about fifty feet away on the same acreage. We also shared the same mailbox post and driveway with her and our business was her business, too. One of those. There’s one in every neighborhood, isn’t there?
Like a vulture, Mrs. Willis watched me walk down the dirt-covered driveway and away from the rusted wire fence overrun by weeds. As if I couldn’t see her troll-like figure hovering at the kitchen window. Sometimes I felt like giving her the finger, but I was capable of restraint.
I did, however, super glue her mailbox shut when I was eleven. On the day she was supposed to get her Social Security check, at that. I could say that looking back on it now, I’m not proud of the childish deed. But then that would be a lie.
Neither my sister nor I were disrespectful girls. Despite Alex’s black eye record, she was the most caring and nonviolent person I knew. I learned a lot from her as we grew up (mom had too many unresolved issues to be much of a model herself). Alex taught me how to do a cartwheel, how to cook and even to drive a stick shift (the only thing that huge field around the house was good for). Admittedly, I wasn’t very good at any of them, but that’s beside the point.
An antique Ford drove past me, stirring up dust along the road. A gnarly hand poked out the window, waving at me as he went by. Old Man Chester. He waved at everybody; it was kind of customary in these parts. I waved back and kept on walking, slipping past a dozen eroded mailboxes and eventually over the creek bridge, which led to the park. The sun would be gone soon; the sky laced by thin, dark pink clouds just on the horizon. I could count four streaks of perfectly straight contrails left by planes, crisscrossing above me.
I sat in the park for an hour under an enormous tree; the one near the outskirts of the forest away from the playground and close to the public fishing pond. I loved it here. But I think a lot of people did. Hard to resist one of those mammoth trees with giant limbs that dip so low you can sleep on them. It was my thinking spot and where Alex could always find me.
“Adria,” she said walking toward me alongside the water, “Jeff went out, so let’s go home.”
She wore her trademark hip-hugger jeans, tank top and worn out black flip-flops.
I closed my copy of Neverwhere and left my index finger in-between its crumpled pages. The lamppost wasn’t putting off enough light anymore to read and the erratic cloud of bugs swarming around it was beginning to thicken.
“Is mom home?” I asked.
“She was when I left to find you,” Alex said, sitting down next to me on the rain-deprived grass, “but was on her way out, too.”
“Thought you were playing pool tonight?”
Alex shook her head. “I was, but I thought you could use some company.”
She always thought of me first, always put me before just about anything. She was no eighteen-year-old saint; left me on my birthday last week to hang out with Zach Anthony, but she was the best sister anyone could ever have.
“Surprised you didn’t bring
your friend along,” I said, smirking.
“What friend?” She paused. “Oh, you mean Brent—come on, Dria, he’s perfect for you. His dad owns a Honda dealership and his mom’s a doctor.”
I really had been referring to Zach Anthony—I admit; I was still a little bitter.
“I don’t care about that stuff.”
“I know, I know,” she said, “but he’s adorable—I swear he looks like Ian Somerhalder.”
I looked over at her with a roll of my eyes. “Oh please,” I said. “Why are you really trying to fix me up with this guy? Be honest.”
Alex grew quiet and frustrated all of a sudden. “I just don’t want you to make bad decisions,” she said simply.
Yeah, Alex always had that motherly way about her and sometimes she sounded like our actual mother should have. We grew up quicker than anyone we hung out with; honestly, sometimes we were more adult than some adults we knew. Mostly mom’s friends. No surprise there, really.
“You mean like the bad decisions mom makes?” I said. I had a feeling it was about something like this. She had always been more negatively affected by mom’s screw-ups than I was.
I regarded my sister. “I have to live and make my own choices, my own mistakes. You have to let me be me, even if I suck at it sometimes.”
“I know, you’re right,” she said, gazing out at the park.
“I love you for being you, though.” I smiled and she did too, just before she frogged me on the leg with her knuckle.
“Ouch!” I rubbed the spot hard with my palm.
“No cheesy love talk,” she laughed. “You know I hate it!”
She eased into a more serious mood then, impeccably.
“I need to tell you something,” she said. “I’ve been holding it in for weeks.”
Immediately, I had a bad feeling. I set the book on the grass next to me and turned to face her. I couldn’t actually say, “What is it?” as the words were stuck in my throat.
“I think I’m going to move out soon...”
I felt my heart sink. She just kept talking, but I could barely hear any word she said. Absently, I saw the way her dark hair flowed down around her oval-shaped face and how she kept the corners of her eyes soft as she tried to explain her reasoning.
“...Liz and Brandon said I could stay with them if I want. I’ll have to get a job and help keep the place clean, but I’m all for it...”
I didn’t want to hear this.
“...I’ll have my own space since they have the extra room above the garage. And you can come visit anytime you want. Once I get settled in you can come live with me too.”
“What?” I said, staring at her in mute.
Alex breathed deeply and let her head fall sympathetically to one side. “We can’t stay with mom forever; you know that.”
“So you’re just going to leave?” I stopped her before she answered. “Mom needs us here.”
“Adria,” she said, gazing at me with that just-listen-to-me-for-once look, “I don’t know about you, but I’m tired of being our mother’s mother. She won’t leave him. Isn’t that obvious already?”
“It doesn’t matter, Alex! That’s not the point....”
Silence filled the night air in an instant. Alex leaned against the base of the massive tree next to me. I could feel her hand on my leg, patting it in surrender.
“I’m sorry,” she said. “I just don’t know how much more of this I can take. And it’s not just Jeff; it’s everything. There’s nothing for me in Athens.”
“Well, Lexington really isn’t that much different,” I said begrudgingly. “I mean, I doubt you’re going to ‘find yourself’ in a place less than twenty miles away.”
I didn’t mean for it to sound so sarcastic….but then again maybe I did.
A drunken bug fluttered down and batted its wings against the side of my face. I slapped furiously at the air until I knew I had scared it away.
Alex stared more at the ground than me. She began twirling blades of grass around her fingers; her chin rested upon the knuckles of her other hand. I thought about how much she had done for me and I couldn’t bear the thought of being on my own and without her. And I knew it was because of me that she hadn’t moved out a month ago. She was eighteen now, after all.
Maybe I was being selfish.
I glanced over at her; the darkness shadowed her face.
“Alex,” I began, “if you want to move in with Liz, I’m really okay with it. And I’m not trying to guilt-trip you, either.”
“No,” she said softly, her gaze still lingering, “I won’t go anywhere if you won’t go with me. Probably a bad idea anyway.” She added, finally looking up, “I think Brandon likes me, so that’s a disaster waiting to happen.”
My chin drew back in surprise. “You’re lying!”
“I wish I was,” she said. “I mean, I could just be delusional, but he’s way too nice to me.”
“Listen to your gut,” I warned.
“Liz is so gullible,” said Alex, her face downcast, “and it makes me feel like crap.”
“It’s not your fault.”
“I know, but that doesn’t make it any easier.”
My suspicions went into blame-mode suddenly. “...Ummm, why did you even consider moving in with them if you thought he liked you?” I never knew my sister to be a home-wrecker, but I couldn’t help but ask and get it out of the way.
She swung her head around to see me beside her. “No, Dria,” she snapped. “I just saw it as a way out of Jeff’s. Nothing like that.” I think she mumbled something like: “Can’t believe you said that,” but I couldn’t be sure. I felt guilty for thinking that way at all.
“I want out of Jeff’s as much as you do, but....” I had no idea where I was going with it.
If what I said was true, about wanting out, then why was I not sharing her ideas? Yes, I did want out, but I wanted our mom with us. Maybe I was being delusional. Somehow, part of me knew that Alex was right about mom. She would never leave Jeff. God, how could any woman be so blind and stay with a man like him? I knew I would never be like her in that sense.
So, I guess I did learn something from my mother after all.
We sat quietly for several moments longer, Alex still twirling the delicate grass and me absently watching her. I loved the summer night air, the sound of summer insects and the smell of summer wind. Nothing could beat it. My most memorable moments were of summertime with my sister and even though this particular moment wasn’t exactly a joyful one, somehow I knew just sitting like this with Alex underneath the giant oak, would etch itself deeply into my memory. I would never forget the pond and the trees and the smell of honeysuckle and pine. And I would always remember that stupid left flip-flop that Alex had worn down so much that she often stubbed her big toe when she walked. I tried to get her to toss them, but she refused. They were her favorite.
I glanced over at her, down at her feet and just shook my head smiling.
“What?” she said as she noticed.
“Nothing.”
“You better tell me, Dria, I’m not playin’.”
I just laughed and she punched me on the shoulder.
“Damn it, Alex!” I laughed harder.
A moving shadow pulled me out of my thoughts then. Alex stood up, letting the torn grass blades fall softly from her fingertips.
“Who’s that?” I said.
She looked down at me. “It’s Brent—I swear I didn’t plan this,” she whispered harshly.
I knew she was telling the truth. When her eyes bugged out like that, she was always telling the truth.
“Hey Brent,” she said. “What’s up? What are you doing here?” I could tell that Alex was mortified about this extremely coincidental turn of events, and worried that I didn’t believe her.
“Heard you mention at Solids & Stripes you were coming here and I just live two streets over,” he said, pointing. “Want me to leave?” I admit he was attractive. He wore a tight-fitting navy tee that co
nformed perfectly to every chest and arm muscle. Dark hair. Hard cheekbones.
He smiled at Alex and his bright eyes seemed to glisten.
Uh oh, I thought. I gave it a minute more before confirming my suspicions about him.
“No,” said Alex, “I just didn’t expect to see you.” She turned to look at me then. “This is my sister, Adria.”
Brent politely acknowledged me and turned his attention back on her. “Headin’ home, or are you up to swimming in the Fork? Adria can come too, if she wants.”
“I, uh...” she paused, “I’m not sure about tonight.”
“No prob,” he said. “Maybe tomorrow after practice then?”
Yep, uh oh was right on. Alex’s plan had backfired and I think she knew it too; her posture tightened awkwardly as if something just bit her. Brent was interested in her, not me. At first, it was a relief. I looked forward to messing with Alex about it later, until I realized how insulted I felt. Alex and I looked a lot alike, being sisters and all, but guys were always more into her than me. What is it? I said to myself. Did I get more of the plain or ugly genes than she did? Is it that Alex is more outgoing, more likable? Is it because she’s the older sister? Wait a second, why do I even care? I’m not the slightest bit attracted to this guy, even though he does look like Ian Somerhalder....
Alex interrupted my thoughts suddenly.
“That’s right, you play football,” she said to Brent. “Adria loves football.”
“No I don’t!” I didn’t mean to shout, but I hated football. I hated sports in general, at least the competitive version of them. Alex was so desperate to turn the tables back on me that she had resorted to blatant lies.
“I mean, I’m not into sports,” I said. “Sorry.”
“It’s cool,” said Brent. “Most girls I know aren’t into sports, unless you’re one of my sisters.”
“That’s nice,” I said, trying to hide the smirk, but I know Alex saw it, at least.
I don’t think Brent meant to offend me. He just gave me a weird feeling, putting me in the ‘most girls’ category. I liked to think I was my own person. And like competitiveness, I hated categories.
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