by Alexx Andria
I wanted to be a good father.
I wanted to be a good man.
But did I have it in me to do so?
The fears and doubts started to creep back in but Bree wasn’t playing around and sealed her mouth to mine, her tongue demanding an audience with mine.
“Bree...” I breathed against her sweet mouth, a prayer, a promise, my hands filling with her gorgeous tits. “I don’t deserve you...”
Bree groaned as she pulled me on top of her. “Dex...you worry about stupid shit,” she said, her sultry voice drowning out the negative bullshit that threatened everything I ever wanted. “I need to feel you inside me. Now.”
I sank into her body with a deep moan, my heart bursting with an emotion I never thought capable.
And I realized in that moment, the truth of it was simple: I may never be good enough for her — I may never deserve the chance at happiness she offered — but I would damn sure never stop trying to be worthy of her love.
Travis was wrong. Bree was more than my redemption.
She was my everything — and I would fucking love her until the day I died.
One Year Later…
It seems cliche to say, a lot can happen in a year, but it was true.
One year ago, I was lying in a hospital bed, my nose broken, my life turned upside down, recovering from a murder plot concocted by my psycho aunt (whom I’d never met in my life) and pregnant.
Yeah, the guy hired to kill me had actually knocked me up.
Well, we fell in love, too, there was that.
Now we have a beautiful daughter, Lily Grace, who is the light of our lives and Dex is so in love with fatherhood he wants gobs of kids running around his feet.
Good thing we can afford all those future kids he wants.
As if summoned by my thoughts, Dex walked into the sunroom, his green eyes warming with his smile.
“There you are. Everything okay?” he asked.
I’d converted my mom’s painting room back into a sunroom but I’d framed some of her art canvases to represent the true vision of her spirit.
My mom’s art had once been a source of contention, now it was a comfort.
My entire life I’d spent judging my mom without all the facts. My mom had been ill but she’d done the best that she could under the circumstances.
My father had cared for his wife in the only way he knew to save her, even if it had meant letting her go.
“Just thinking,” I answered as Dex joined me on the plush love seat. “Lily asleep?”
“Like a drunk after a bender,” he quipped.
I laughed. “You really need to come up with some kid-friendly similes. Our daughter is going to be the only kid in kindergarten who can swear like a pirate and throat punch anyone who stands in her way.”
“You say this like it’s a bad thing…”
God, I loved this man.
His hand crept across my belly. “Since the princess is asleep…how about we start trying for Princess No. 2?”
“We have our hands full with Princess No. 1,” I teased but Dex was already plucking at my buttons, his one-track mind engaged and on target.
“I think you need a hobby,” I said, laughing as he pulled my shirt free, his green eyes darkening with instant need. “Doing me every day and twice on Sundays does not qualify.”
He rose and yanked my pants down and off. “You’re the one who wanted me to retire,” he quipped, going straight for my panties.
I closed my eyes at the first touch of his wet tongue between my parted thighs and I no longer cared about anything but the pleasure Dex always gave me.
For the girl who’d always felt invisible, always felt left behind and forgotten, Dex’s insatiable need for me and only me, was the sweetest balm to my forlorn heart.
I would never worry about Dex looking elsewhere because he showed me everyday that I was the only one with the key to his heart.
Dex had given me everything I’d always wanted but feared would never have.
The hot guy, the sex God, the dangerous bad boy…
He is my soulmate, my everything — and I am his.
Also by Alexx Andria
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*Pushed
Leverage
Still Into You (Miles and Dani’s story) (Formerly Falling from Grace
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Kings of Asphalt (MC romance)
All Dogs Bite (MC romance)
Up In Flames (MC romance)
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Against The Wall
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BONUS NOVEL
Caged Back Cover Blurb
I despise him, but he’s the only man who can save me.
Charlie—MMA fighter Damon McAvoy is not my knight in shining armor. Instead of saving me, he plans to deliver me to a dirty king pin. I should hate him but I can’t keep my hands off him.
Damon—Charlie Williams belongs to a man who owns Detroit. She’s not mine, nor will she ever be. I should deliver her to her owner and save my ass, but I can’t quit her.
Even if loving her may cost me my life.
Warning: This is a bad boy romance with dark themes. It is over-the-top sexy with all the dirty sweetness you’ve come to expect from an Alexx Andria read.
1
Damon
It was the sound of the rain that woke me.
Fucking rain.
Rain that would turn to snow soon enough because Detroit was colder than a witch’s tit.
A vicious jabbing behind my eye and the sour copper taste in my mouth told a familiar story even if I couldn't remember details.
I was at the fighter bar hang-out, Lou and Tony's, last night — drowning my mutha-fucking misery in triple shots of Jameson — after a seriously fucked-up conversation with my used-to-be manager, Manny Riggs.
Seems I was yesterday's news. He got a new pony for the ring — someone young, dumb and full of cum — just the way Manny liked 'em.
Didn't matter that I was once the shining star of The Underground.
I was garbage now.
You were only as good as your last fight and I'd lost against Johnny "The Jackhammer" Robberts.
Worse than that, I'd gotten injured.
Fucking right shoulder tore in two.
Surgery wasn't an option.
But neither was fighting no more.
I was cut loose.
Just like that.
Gone.
See ya.
Don't let the mutha-fucking door hit your ass on the way out.
I gave my life to The Underground.
It's all I've ever known.
Louie Davonte was like a mentor of sorts.
I thought I was something special.
I was gonna be the one to put Detroit back on the map.
Going to the big time.
But fuck, joke was on me, apparently.
I wasn't nothing but a stupid dreamer, easily replaced by another numbskull with faster hands and a younger body.
I guess I should’ve known I was nearing the end of my career when I was one of the oldest fuckers still kicking it around at the gym.
Nine years in the ring was about all most could stand anyway. That’s why it was a young man’s sport — they bounced back quicker.
Unlike me, who seemed to find a new ache or pain each time I breathed.
Goddamn, where did the fucking time go?
Thirty-five years old and broken as a junkyard Buick.
So, drowning myself in Jameson was a legit option to end an epic failure of a career, right?
I have no fucking clue how much I drank — but if my empty wallet was any indication — it was a lot.
The pain behind my eyeballs rivaled the ache in my hands. I opened my eyes long enough to stare blearily at the damage. I grimaced at the raw, skinned knuckles, scabbed with dried blood, frozen in the clenched position.
I worked my jaw, wincing at the bruising.
Holy fuck, who the hell did I tangle with last night?
I groaned and started to fling the covers away so I could stumble, crawl or limp to the toilet but that's when I realized I wasn't alone.
Shit.
Buried deep beneath the bedding, a woman was lying in my bed.
A woman with red hair slept fitfully, her small hands curling reflexively against her dreams.
Her face was delicate…like one of those dolls you see on television that cost more than a small car.
A collectable piece with fiery red hair.
I lifted the sheet and sucked in a tight breath.
She slept in panties and one of my t-shirts that I didn't remember offering.
I dropped the blanket. She stirred, her eyes fluttering open.
Golden eyes locked on mine.
I might’ve still been drunk but I knew a beauty when I saw one. No beer goggles needed for this one. Staring at her was like looking into the sun. I ain’t no poet but damn, this woman was stunning.
And something about her scratched at my brain as I tried to recall details from the night before.
I was too tired to spend the effort to piece together the mystery so I got straight to the point.
"What are you doing in my bed?" I asked bluntly, the pounding in my head and the inopportune morning wood of my cock obliterating any chance of being nice for appearances sake.
"I was cold. I couldn't find any other blankets so I crawled into your bed last night after you passed out."
"How'd we get here?"
"Cab."
That made sense but nothing else did.
I narrowed my gaze. "Who the fuck are you?"
"I'm Charlie."
"Charlie who?" I waved away her answer. I had bigger questions. "What the fuck happened last night?"
"You broke Louie's nose." A small satisfied smile followed her answer. "And you took down everyone else in Louie's crew. It was epic."
I stared, my stomach clenching on nothing but bile. Her praise only heightened my anxiety. "Why the fuck would I do that?" Punching Louie Davonte in the face? That was suicide on many different levels.
"I don't know but I'm glad you did. You don't know what Louie was going to do to me."
"Fuck," I groaned, scrubbing my face, trying to rid myself of the certainty that I'd just pulled the mother of all self-destructive stunts with my sudden hero act. I squinted against the milky light coming in from the bedroom window. "You're Louie's new girl?" I guessed.
"I'm no one's girl, least of all his," she hissed, her golden eyes flashing with real heat. "It's a pity you didn't crush his skull with those meat hooks of yours. Would've done the world a favor. He’s a fucking menace. I certainly wouldn’t shed a tear if he got run over by a metro bus."
“Shut up for a minute,” I growled, trying to get my head on straight. “What you’re saying ain’t makin’ sense. Why would I punch Louie and tank my career for you? I don’t know you, lady, and I’m not in a habit of doing random acts of kindness.”
“I told you I don’t know why you did it,” Charlie shot back, gathering the blankets closer to her chest as she glared. “You just did.”
"No, no, no," I muttered as I started to pace. "What the fuck did I do?"
I searched my whiskey-soaked memory. I'd been pissed at Manny for tossing me aside, for shitting on my future. I'd been mad at the world and the Jameson had understood.
Jameson always understood — maybe a bit too well.
But then, I saw her.
A tiny slip of a thing being dragged into the back room in spite of her kicking and thrashing.
Even in the dim bar light I could see the black eye marring the soft skin, the cruel hand twisted in that mass of red hair.
Something about her had caused a growl to rumble from deep inside my chest.
Suddenly, I’d wanted to break things, people. Anything that got in my way of her.
Things got hazy after that.
No, that couldn't be right. I wasn't the hero type.
I didn't get off by rushing in and rescuing the girl.
I minded my own damn business.
So, why the fuck had I just put a death sentence on my head for this girl?
Fuck me.
If what she said was true, there was no going back. Davonte wasn’t known for his forgiving nature.
Hell, I was probably a dead man walking already.
Twenty-four hours ago, the death spiral of my career had been my sole focus.
Now…fuck, what was I supposed to do?
Davonte owned more than just The Underground — he ran Michigan. He had fingers in everybody’s business.
And I’d just broken his mother-fucking nose?
The whiskey remaining in my system rebelled, kicking like an angry mule. A bubble of bile scorched my throat as I fought the reflexive spasm to spew.
“Are you okay?” she asked, peering at me with wary concern.
That was rich. She’d gotten me into this mess and now she was worried about my welfare?
Fuck. Women.
“I’m fine,” I managed to croak before staggering to the toilet. I kicked the door shut and puked my guts out.
2
Charlie
My hero wasn’t exactly happy with the position he’d put himself in.
I guess I couldn’t blame him. Going up against Louie Davonte wasn’t the smartest decision if you wanted to keep your head on your shoulders or at the very least your fingers and toes intact.
But I wasn’t sorry.
I was desperate.
And desperate people clutched at the smallest blessings.
The sound of retching echoed in the small shitty apartment.
The place was a rat-hole, typical of a fighter’s pad. A weight bench took up a corner of the bedroom. A heavy bag hung from a retrofitted support beam with duct tape shoring up the most abused areas.
The smell of dirty gym socks rivaled the lingering odor of stale food.
No pictures, no sentiment anywhere.
It was all about training, getting harder, using every spare moment to get faster, more agile.
The man was thick, roped with muscle.
Tattoos crisscrossed his trunk and climbed his back.
Everything about him was big and intense.
I pulled the blankets closer, shivering, not because I was cold but I sensed everything about my life was about to change.
Damon.
The only reason I knew his name was because it’d flown out of Louie’s startled mouth right before Damon’s fist had cr
ashed into his smarmy face.
God, that’d been beautiful. I would play that moment in my memory for years to come.
Assuming I lived that long.
That fucking pig had made my life a living hell since the day he set eyes on me.
Louie Davonte ran The Underground and he lorded his power over everyone beneath him like a spoiled king using the backs of peasants so his feet didn’t have to touch the dirt.
The biggest mistake I’d made was thinking he wouldn’t notice me when my brother Tommy started hanging out The Underground.
I was an idiot.
And Tommy’s death was on my shoulders.
I choked back the wave of anguish that always followed my grief over Tommy’s death.
I hated fighting, hated The Underground but I reserved the whitest, most dangerous hatred for Davonte.
I wanted him dead.
Someone had to make him stop ruining innocent lives.
And that someone had just appeared, bringing righteous fury with two clenched fists.
No one ever stood up to Davonte. Or, maybe I should clarify, no one had ever stood up to Davonte and lived to brag about it.
But there’d been fear in Davonte’s eyes when Damon had come for him. That was worth gold.
I needed this man. Whether he wanted to help me or not. He was already hip-deep in shit and the only way out was to fight to survive the hell that was coming.
I couldn’t do it without Damon.
I needed him — he didn’t need me.
I had to figure out a way to convince him that there was a reason he stood up to Davonte and if that didn’t work, I’d do whatever else it took to get him on my side.
And don’t fucking judge me for whatever I have to do because you’ve never walked in my shoes.
You don’t know the terror of watching someone you love more than life itself being beaten to death under the guise of a legitimate fight.
Tommy died choking on his own blood in the ring.
All because I wouldn’t sleep with Davonte.