I winced, but held my tongue. I didn’t want him knowing I hurt, even if he could grant me painkillers. Not that he would. He was a cold-hearted bastard who wanted broken and weak.
Leaning forward, he clasped his hands between his open legs, so close, dominating the space. Eyes searched my face again, almost imploring to know my secrets.
Discomfort made me wriggle, and I refused to make eye contact, preferring to stare at the licking fire.
We didn’t move and I wasn’t about to break the heavy silence. I wanted to go home.
Taking a breath, he said, “You are mine. Through circumstances I will not discuss with you, you have come into my possession, and therefore must obey me in all things.”
Like hell.
“You are not permitted to use the internet, phone, or any technology of any kind. You may not speak to the staff. You may not leave the house.”
He stood, toned muscles glided to the large wooden desk. Pulling a piece of paper free and a small black pouch, he settled back down. “My business partners didn’t say where they got you from, what languages you speak, what skills you have. You are no one—a fresh start. We will get along if you remember that.” He leaned forward again, encroaching on my space. “You are no one’s but mine. Do you understand?” Eyes flashed with excitement as he spoke, as if he loved the idea. Of course, he loved the idea. How many other women did he ruin?
Options ran through my head. I could spit in his face. Try and knee him in the balls. Run and scream. All of those choices ended with consequences and pain.
I stayed mute and still.
The man dropped to his knees, pushing the chair behind in one swoop. My heart raced as he inched forward, his breath hot on my bare thighs. So soon? I hadn’t been there for ten minutes and he planned to rape me already? Shit, I couldn’t do this. I’d only ever been with Brax. Brax was my first. The one who stole my innocence and my heart.
Breathe. Pretend you’re somewhere else.
I gripped the arm rests as he tugged my leg onto his thigh and rolled down my socks. His fingers scorched flesh all the way down, turning my bruises and sprained ankle into pinpoints of heat. My face scrunched and I gasped as the sock slid off my foot, leaving me bare.
He frowned, glaring at my ankle. Swollen and hot, it looked worse than it felt, but he stared as if my bone stuck out. “Did they do this to you?” His voice was soft, heartfelt as his gaze travelled back up my leg, spotting the bruises, the abrasions, remnants of my captivity and Leather Jacket’s hospitality.
My pulse came faster at his concern, then anger followed hot and true. “What do you care? You’ll probably do worse.”
His eyes snapped to mine and fingers twitched on my calf. “I care, because I don’t like damaged girls. And I won’t do worse.” He lowered his voice, fingers tightening. “Unless you deserve it.” His face blazed with protectiveness, followed by heart stopping need. He seemed to battle his interest, whatever sick attraction he had for me.
My heart raced, blood churned. I swallowed hard and waited for wandering hands, horrible fingers, but nothing happened.
The man leaned back, removing his touch. In quick, assertive moves, he pulled a long item from the black pouch and pressed a button at the back. A bright red light flared before muting to nothing.
Shuffling closer until an expensively clad shoulder brushed my knee, he unrolled my other sock and wrapped the item around my uninjured ankle. The cold bite of plastic made me flinch, but it didn’t stop him from tightening it. The snap of the twist tie set my heart beating, undoable but for a blade or scissors.
He stood and sat on the edge of the wingback once finished.
I spoke before I thought. “What is that?”
Sitting back, he wiped hands on his trouser legs. “It’s a tracking device.” Motioning to my bare legs, he added, “If you’re uncomfortable, you may put your socks back on.”
Ignoring the fact he’d tagged me again, like the Mexicans, I said, “They aren’t my socks. It’s what the kidnappers dressed me in.” I didn’t know what I expected by telling him, but the blank look of disinterest was not it.
Swiping a middle fingertip along an eyebrow, he checked the time on his diamond-encrusted Rolex. “That device informs me where you are at all times. See, slave, no escape.”
I had an insane urge to laugh. It was complete overkill. I had a barcode tattooed into my flesh, a beacon in my neck, and a GPS on my foot. I glared, hating him as much as I hated the men in Mexico. What happened to the other women? Did the little Asian girl who was as fierce as me end up in the same circumstances?
The man picked up the paper from the floor and passed it to me. “This is all I have on you. I want to know more.”
I took it and my throat closed.
Subject: Blonde Girl on Scooter
Barcode reference: 302493528752445
Age: Twenty to thirty
Temperament: Angry and violent
Sexual status: Not virgin
Sexual heath: No diseases
Ownership guidelines: Recommend strict punishment to break temper. Trim body, fit enough for extreme activities.
History: No living relatives
Oh, God. Brax. Did that mean he didn’t survive? No, I’d feel it if he were gone for good. Wouldn’t I? Something would break inside; become a void if he was gone forever.
I looked up, wide-eyed, hoping for some sort of compassion, something to latch onto while I swirled in misery, but the man stayed straight and taut, eyes closed off.
“What is your name?” he asked, French accent floating over me. I’d always thought the French accent was sexy, suave. Now, all I wanted to do was throw up and rip my ears off.
Anger dispelled my fear about Brax, and I snarled, “If I’m no one, why do you want to know my name?”
A flash of erotic yearning flickered across his face. “You’re right. It’s not necessary. However, it’s a lonely existence if no one calls you by your name.” The way he said it bristled with dark intensity. Don’t try to get my sympathy vote. You don’t know true loneliness.
“Why did you buy me?”
He leaned back, steepling his fingers. “I didn’t. You were a gift. An unwanted gift.” His lips twitched. “A bribe, if you will.”
My stomach coiled like a viper. I’d been given to someone who didn’t even want me. At least if someone had bought me, spent a lot of money, they might treat me a little better. Like a prized racehorse or an expensive breed of cat. But this… I was an unwanted present. Like a hand knitted jumper at Christmas.
“What will you do with me?” My voice was barely a whisper.
“That is none of your concern.”
“You don’t think my future is any of my concern?”
“No. Because your future is mine.”
I breathed hard at the unfairness.
He stood, looking down at me. In a flash of movement, he pressed me into the chair, hands over mine on the armrests. I stopped breathing. I stopped everything. I was immobile.
His gaze captured mine, holding me prisoner in their pale green depths. Something dark and urgent flashed, then disappeared. Eyes dropped to my lips and his mouth parted.
The heavy, heated air from the fire seared us. Every crackle of flames made me twitch.
Do not move. Do not move.
Finally, the man pulled back. It looked like it took a lot of effort and he adjusted himself discreetly. “Don’t you want to know who you belong to?”
The jump from overbearing to questioning took a while to catch up. Slowly, I shook my head. Why would I want to know his name when I had no intention of using it? “No.”
His nostrils flared; he strode away. His suit whispered with every footstep and he paused in the doorway.
“You have to call me something, and I don’t want master or owner. You’re ordered to call me Q.”
“Q?”
He didn’t answer. Striding away, he said over a shoulder, “My staff will show you to your room. Rem
ember. Don’t try to escape. There isn’t any.”
Chapter Nine
Blackbird
‡
The moment Q left the library, a silhouette appeared. I jumped a mile, holding my chest.
Images of a dark minion throwing me in a cellar to live with rats, filled me with fear. I tried to stay calm, remembering Q hadn’t liked my injuries. I doubted he’d make me sleep in a dank dungeon where I could get sick. After all, if I died of pneumonia where was the fun in that?
The girl, probably mid-twenties, with chestnut hair plaited in a tidy knot, smiled. “I didn’t mean to startle you.” Her accent was soft and feminine; hazel eyes glowed in dusky skin. Why the hell was she working for a man like Q?
Did she know who I was? What I was?
“Please, follow me.” She motioned out the door and into the foyer. “Do you have possessions with you?” she asked as we walked awkwardly side by side.
My eyes popped wide, and I snorted darkly. “No, I don’t have any possessions.”
I was one.
The thought snatched me around the throat. I had to stop thinking that. I wasn’t anything but Tess. I’d survive.
“Oh, well, that’s fine. I’m sure Maître Mercer can arrange a new wardrobe.”
“Mercer?” I trotted beside her up the flight of stairs. The thick blue carpet was like a cloud between my toes. Hang on, Q told me not to speak to the staff. I paused, weighing if talking to this girl was worth whatever punishment he’d grant. I curled my hands.
Screw it, for the first time in a week, someone wanted to talk rather than order or demand.
“The owner of this household. He’s—well, he’s the master.”
I didn’t like the sound of that. I wanted words like fair and a nice employer. Not for the maid to flush and shut up.
In silence, we walked down the longest corridor I’d seen in my life and ascended another twirling staircase before stopping outside a white lacquered door.
“This is yours. I’ve arranged for new bedding, and prepared it for your arrival.”
How long did they know I was coming? Days? Weeks? Fluffing sheets and ironing towels for an unwanted bribe. Who gave a stolen woman as a present, and for what? My mind ran with thoughts of drug dealing, or illegal weaponry, something completely far out to warrant a trafficked girl as collateral. Underhanded bastard Q.
I steeled against using his name. Q. What a ridiculous title.
I opened the door and slammed to a halt. I wanted to laugh. Sure, I was surrounded by elegant wealth, but I was a lowly slave and didn’t deserve space, or light, or niceties.
Stark and bare, the bedroom did nothing to invite or warm. The single bed, wardrobe, and shelves looked barren and unwelcoming, but the linen smelled clean and the air was fresh.
It was a cell, for all intents and purposes, but thankfulness swelled at having my own room with a hygienic bed. After a week in the Mexican trafficker jail, this was five stars.
My heart plummeted at the thought of Brax. He would hate the thought of me living here. Even our tiny, one bedroom apartment was comfy and designer style. Many a weekend, Brax knocked together a DIY project, the last being a sleigh bed from an old gum tree. This little room rested inside a mansion—owned by someone who wouldn’t hesitate to use me, however he wanted.
Oxygen turned to soup and I gave up trying to be fierce. Tears glassed my vision and spilled. My life would never be the same.
The maid tutted in concern, pushing me toward the bed. “There, there. Don’t cry. You have your own bathroom, and we can get some personal things to decorate.” Her warm arm descended timidly around my shoulders and I rocked.
Now I was here, in the destination of my fate, I lost strength. I wanted to stay angry and strong, but pity and loss swelled.
The simple contact of a caring woman unbuckled me.
I sobbed.
Into my hands, into a pillow, into sleep.
*
The next morning, I was left to my own devices. I showered, and dressed in my sack of a sweater. Not knowing, or caring, if clothes had been bought for me. The rebellion at such a simple thing kept my fire smouldering deep inside.
I left my socks off and padded bare foot down the staircase. I could only assume I’d been put in the staff quarters. The ruckus at five a.m., with people having showers and preparing for the day, kept me up.
Not that I slept. I was foggy-headed with tears and awoke with a splitting headache, but crying purged me, leaving me eerily empty and ready to face my new future.
One thing niggled, though. I didn’t have experience in the way of slavery and ownership, but found it surprising Q let me wander freely with no supervision. Probably some sort of chauvinistic mind game and power trip.
I couldn’t shed my apprehension as I entered the lounge and followed the sounds of cutlery clinking. Scents of freshly brewed coffee coaxed me forward, despite trepidation. My mouth watered for caffeine.
Rounding the corner, I halted as the kitchen came into view. Pale green tiles ran floor to ceiling, acting like a coloured mirror. They’re the same colour as Q’s eyes.
I had to admit my strange new owner had taste. White cabinetry with silver handles glinted like fresh snow, thanks to the sun streaming from the massive skylight. Three stainless steel ovens, a huge cooktop, and a fridge big enough to fit a whole cow completed the huge expanse. Another room, with a temperature gauge and wooden shelving, housed countless bottles of wine. No doubt from a vineyard close-by if we were, indeed, in France.
The girl who’d been so kind to me last night, smiled behind a counter. “Bonjour. Are you hungry?”
I didn’t think I could eat with all the strangeness, but nodded anyway. I had to keep my strength, and I couldn’t remember the last time I’d been fed. No wait, I did remember—the night Leather Jacket tried to rape me. Fucking bastard.
My lips curled, thinking how quickly I’d gone from a girl who never cursed, to a gutter mouth. In a way, it gave me strength, being crude and crass.
My stomach growled, taking control out of my hands.
The maid giggled. “Guess that answers the question. But before we can feed you, the master requested you join him. He’s in the dining room.” She cocked her head at the other end of the lounge. A pair of sliding glass doors blocked a decadent, old English style dining room.
Q sat at the head of the table. A newspaper spread wide, blocking his face.
Seeing him sent barbwire tangling around my stomach. The house lulled me into some sense of acceptance, but I’d never get used to being owned—of being someone’s slave.
Not that he bought me, only accepted as a bribe. Curiosity rose, wanting to know what I was accepted for, but I shoved it away. I didn’t care as I wouldn’t be staying long. I’d find a way to run—soon.
I shook my head, looking back at the maid. “I’m not seeing him.”
The maid stilled, hands full of pastries. “You have no choice. He summons. You go. That’s the law.”
“Law?” My eyebrow twitched. I instantly hated the word. The law was something officers upheld. A word implying safety, not rules dictated by a mad man.
“Law.” The masculine baritone came from behind. His presence sent chills up and down my spine. I didn’t jump. I prided myself on that, but I’d have to get used to how silently he moved. I did not want to be snuck up on, surprised, and taken advantage of.
Keeping my head high and back straight, I turned to face the master.
“I obey no such law.”
Q growled, rubbing a hand over his stubbly cheek. His dark brown hair was glossy, short, almost like a pelt rather than hair. His wintery green gaze froze me to the core. Dressed in a graphite suit with silver shirt and black tie, he looked distinguished, intelligent.
I cried out as he grabbed me. “I summon. You come. That’s the only law you need to understand. I am your owner. You haven’t forgotten that so soon, have you?”
He marched me through the lounge and into th
e dining room. Tossing me into a high backed chair at a table set for twenty people, he breathed hard and leaned over me. “You are mine. You are mine. Repeat that until it gets into your head. You cannot disobey. Unless…” A glint of interest smouldered in his eyes. “Unless you want to be punished?”
My heart kicked into high gear, thrumming with hummingbird wings. I shook my head hard. My tongue turned useless, incapable of speech. I’d never been so overpowered by someone’s sheer will, but Q flattened me with his intense demeanour. How could I hope to disobey when he only had to threaten with mere words and I turned horribly docile?
“You’ve forgotten how to fight, so soon?” His accent thickened and fingers captured my chin, pressing painfully. A rumble sounded in his chest, and, fast as lightning, he kissed me.
The force of the attack crashed my head against the back of the chair, radiating pain in my temples. His lips forced mine open, and a tongue darted into my mouth, stealing my will, my fight. He stole everything with one touch.
Growling, his tongue plundered mine ruthlessly, out of control. Fingers trailed from my chin to throat, circling possessively; an unspoken threat that he could kill me and no one would know or care. I was his—to do with how he pleased.
I moaned and scratched his face with ragged nails.
He jerked back, breathing like an angry bull. His lips glistened from ravaging my mouth, leaving the taste of rich coffee and something darker—a promise of more.
He glared, swiping his cheek with a shirt cuff. It came away with a drip of crimson. His body tensed at the sight of blood.
My heart swelled with pride. He may be able to molest me, but he wouldn’t stay whole while he did.
Grabbing a napkin from the table, he patted his cheek. “You will obey. Don’t make me use you like any other buyer would do.”
“Isn’t that what you mean to do anyway? Rape and ruin me?”
Throwing the napkin down, he stalked back to his chair at the head of the table. The discarded newspaper crackled as he placed hands in front of him. Every move was precise, calculated, as if he knew every nuance illustrated domination.
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