by Pooja Sharma
which had color so black,
Warming heart she lacked,
People around her,
Would play with her,
Would dart a dreamy gaze,
And make her eyes go haze,
A wonderful sight,
Just so depressed inside,
Never saw her true self,
She had a rock like face,
Inside a nightmare of height,
Just so depressed inside,
Yet a wonderful sight.
Afraid
Fear, the four letter word,
It's not the first time I heard,
Clear is my mind I thought,
Just a lie I never bought,
Thought I could fight,
Thought I was right,
Just wanted to live again,
To build my inner plane,
Can't do it anymore,
Can't trust anymore,
Learned a good lesson,
Now I am done with this session,
Afraid,
Of heartbreak,
Afraid,
Of the loneliness,
Afraid,
To see my state,
Afraid,
To have a chase,
To have a base,
Yeah I am afraid,
Of the eyes so haze,
Of the chase,
You made,
Love, another small word,
Felt like a flying bird,
Crashed down badly,
It’s my story sadly,
Now building a wall,
Emptying the hall,
No more trusting the genes,
No more wandering in the scene,
Can't do it anymore,
Can't cry over and over,
Learned a good lesson,
Now I am done with this session,
Afraid,
Of heartbreak,
Afraid,
Off the loneliness,
Afraid,
To see my state,
Afraid,
To have a chase,
To have a base,
Yeah I am afraid,
Of the eyes so haze,
Of the chase,
You made,
Good thing you taught,
Good thing I bought,
Rather be lonely,
It will be homely,
Can stand up on my own,
Can do it on my own,
Don’t need a figure for living,
Don’t need a lustful being,
Afraid,
Of heartbreak,
Afraid,
Off the loneliness,
Afraid,
To see my state,
Afraid,
To have a chase,
To have a base,
Yeah I am afraid,
Of the eyes so haze,
Of the chase,
You made,
So afraid,
Of your hate,
Of you.
Afraid Of Forever
Hearing voices familiar,
To me it’s so dear,
Just can’t shake it away,
Memories tends to play,
Used to share the world,
Used to share the words,
Now you are not here,
When I have words so clear,
Afraid to make a move,
Afraid to get a clue,
That I am not wanted,
Thoughts are so clouded,
I have been so folly,
Just behaving so oddly,
Never felt the way,
I have felt in a day,
Just too afraid to let go,
Afraid to cry over,
Afraid to give the blow,
Just afraid of forever,
Afraid of the truth,
Just afraid of you,
Cold is my exterior,
Yet just a trial,
The heart is so burnt,
The lesson never learned,
Being everything so fake,
Causing many heart aches,
Heart having done madness,
Wanting to end this blindness,
Afraid to make a move,
Afraid to get a clue,
That I am not wanted,
Thoughts are so clouded,
I have been so folly,
Just behaving so oddly,
Never felt the way,
I have felt in a day,
Just too afraid to let go,
Afraid to cry over,
Afraid to give the blow,
Just afraid of forever,
Afraid of the truth,
Just afraid of you,
The addiction is so high,
Aloud is the cry,
Of thy heart,
You became my art,
Afraid to make a move,
Afraid to get a clue,
That I am not wanted,
Thoughts are so clouded,
I have been so folly,
Just behaving so oddly,
Never felt the way,
I have felt in a day,
Just too afraid to let go,
Afraid to cry over,
Afraid to give the blow,
Just afraid of forever,
Afraid of the truth,
Just afraid of you.
All I Wanted
Body squeezing tight,
The moment was so bright,
Jealous of that sight,
Wanted to be your light,
Oh I was just a petal,
Your heart was hard as a metal,
I was about to born,
When I was badly torn,
My soul flew by,
Felt the morning sunlight,
Oh why didn't you try?
To hold me tight,
All I wanted,
Was your love?
All I wanted,
Was your support?
All I wanted,
Was a parental shed?
But I never wanted,
The grave embrace,
You had a new bud,
Born after shedding my blood,
You just had to flood,
My life with a thud,
Whose fault it was?
I was just a female vase,
Ready to blossom,
You could have been my mom,
My soul flew by,
Saw the morning sunlight,
Oh why didn't you try?
To hold me tight,
All I wanted,
Was your love?
All I wanted,
Was your support?
All I wanted,
Was a parental shed?
But I never wanted,
The grave embrace,
I never opened eyes,
I always heard your cries,
Why didn't you want me?
Why did you bury me?
Into the fatal bed,
I was lying and waiting,
But you did a trade,
With my life upbringing,
My soul flew by,
Saw the morning sunlight,
Oh why didn't you try?
To hold me tight,
All I wanted,
Was your love?
All I wanted,
Was your support?
All I wanted,
Was a parental shed?
But I never wanted,
The grave embrace.
Alone
Craved on my heart,
Your name so beautifully,
Just waited to start,
Our story specifically,
Had memories so bad,
You helped me through it,
My soul was so mad,
You brought light to it,
Things changed drastically,
Jumping over me so effortlessly,
I waited so long,
You never heard the song,
The words, I wrote so strong,
Yet, ign
oring them all along,
Driving alone,
Trust was broken,
Now I will be gone,
Chasing away to the home,
In the sky, alone,
I will be leaving the troll,
I will be traveling alone,
The light’s fading,
Slowly into the dark,
My life cascading,
Searching for a start,
The warm feeling,
Became my habit,
Out of the blue stealing,
My heart was never static,
You stopped everything suddenly,
It pained me so strongly,
I waited so long,
You never heard the song,
The words, I wrote so strong,
Yet, ignoring them all along,
Driving alone,
Trust was broken,
Now I will be gone,
Chasing away to the home,
In the sky, alone,
I will be leaving the troll,
I will be traveling alone,
The one simple thing you explained,
I should never fall in the end,
I was so glad that you came,
But now it won’t be the same,
I waited so long,
You never heard the song,
The words, I wrote so strong,
Yet, ignoring them all along,
Driving alone,
Trust was broken,
Now I will be gone,
Chasing away to the home,
In the sky, alone,
I will be leaving the troll,
I will be traveling alone.
An Echo
Falling apart every day,
Not yet ready to show up,
Hearing unwillingly each day,
Yet never ready to blow up,
It is hard enough
To listen clashes real rough,
Having no moral support,
Trying to get mental transport,
Why do they fight?
Why don't they believe in light?
How can I make it right?
When I am the only one holding them tight,
Sounds muffling,
Words dripping,
Dishes crashing,
Wishes annihilating,
Everything shackling,
Only there's an echo,
Of their failure make up,
Yeah there's an echo,
Of their countless breakup,
And of my scattering heart,
Just an echo,
Of countless starts,
Torn in between heart and mind,
Making myself away from relationships,
Bringing back the rock like giant,
In heart no more than a friendship,
Remembering those childhood memories,
Crying out whenever my poor eye sees,
Thinking about having same fate as them,
Promising that I would never play this game,
Why can't I believe for once?
Why can't I forget for once?
How shall I give my heart a chance?
When they have no romance,
Sounds muffling,
Words dripping,
Dishes crashing,
Wishes annihilating,
Everything shackling,
Only there's an echo,
Of their failure make up,
Yeah there's an echo,
Of their countless breakup,
And of my scattering heart,
Just an echo,
Of countless starts,
Having misunderstanding,
Leading to lifeless bounding,
Thinking I am just a mistake,
The moment I can't retake,
Clashing between our own ideals,
Leading to hopeless survival,
Sounds muffling,
Words dripping,
Dishes crashing,
Wishes annihilating,
Everything shackling,
Only there's an echo,
Of their failure make up,
Yeah there's an echo,
Of their countless breakup,
And of my scattering heart,
Just an echo,
Of countless starts.
Appealing Lie
I said my good bye,
I had to lie,
The heart felt so guilty,
The way I feel so filthy,
Having known the truth,
And