Again the Far Morning

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by N. Scott Momaday


  And here the vacancy in which are met

  The vague contingencies of your regret.

  Here is the will’s disease. And otherwise

  Here is no reparation in surmise.

  Here is the white light that touches your white hair.

  Replaces you in darkness and despair.

  And here where age constricts you, death is dear,

  And essences of anguish stay you here.

  The Burning

  In the numb, numberless days

  There were disasters in the distance,

  Strange upheavals. No one understood them.

  At night the sky was scored with light,

  For the far planes of the planet buckled and burned.

  In the dawns were intervals of darkness

  On the scorched sky, clusters of clouds and eclipse,

  And cinders descending.

  Nearer in the noons

  The air lay low and ominous and inert.

  And eventually at evening, or morning, or midday,

  At the sheer wall of the wood,

  Were shapes in the shadows approaching,

  Always, and always alien and alike.

  And in the foreground the fields were fixed in fire,

  And the flames flowered in our flesh.

  The Wound

  The wound gaped open;

  It was remarkably like the wedge of an orange

  When it is split, spurting.

  He wanted to close the wound with a kiss,

  To graft his mouth to the warm, wet tissue.

  He kept about the wound, waiting

  And deeply disturbed,

  His fascination

  Like the inside of the wound itself,

  Deep, as deep almost as the life principle,

  The irresistible force of being.

  The force lay there in the rupture of the flesh,

  There in the center of the wound.

  Had he been God,

  He should Himself have inflicted the wound;

  And he should have taken the wound gently,

  Gently in his hands, and placed it

  Among the most brilliant wildflowers

  In the meadows of the mountains.

  Forms of the Earth at Abiquiu

  For Georgia O’Keeffe

  I imagine the time of our meeting

  There among the forms of the earth at Abiquiu,

  And other times that followed from the one—

  An easy contrivance of stories,

  And late luncheons of wine and cheese.

  All around there were beautiful objects,

  Clean and precise in their beauty, like bone.

  Indeed, bone: a snake in the filaments of bone,

  The skulls of cows and sheep;

  And the many smooth stones in the window,

  In the flat winter light, were beautiful.

  I wanted to feel the sun in the stones—

  The ashen, far-flung winter sun—

  But this I did not tell you, I believe,

  But I believe that after all you knew.

  And then, in those days, too

  I made you the gift of a small, brown stone,

  And you described it with the tips of your fingers

  And knew at once that it was beautiful—

  At once, accordingly you knew,

  As you knew the forms of the earth at Abiquiu:

  That time involves them and they bear away,

  Beautiful, various, remote,

  In failing light, and the coming of cold.

  The Gift

  For Bobby Jack Nelson

  Older, more generous,

  We give each other hope.

  The gift is ominous:

  Enough praise, enough rope.

  In the Presence of the Sun, 1992

  The Gourd Dancer

  Mammedaty, 1880–1932

  1. THE OMEN

  Another season centers on this place.

  Like memory the blood congeals in it;

  Like memory the sun recedes in time

  Into the hazy, southern distances.

  A vagrant heat hangs on the dark river,

  And shadows turn like smoke. And owl ascends

  Among the branches, clattering, remote

  Within its motion, intricate with age.

  2. THE DREAM

  Mammedaty saw to the building of this house. Just

  there, by the arbor, he made a camp in the old way.

  and in the evening when the hammers had fallen silent

  and there were frogs and crickets in the black grass—

  and a low hectic wind upon the pale, slanting plane

  of the moon’s light—he settled deep down in his

  mind dream. He dreamed of dreaming, and of the

  summer breaking upon his spirit, as drums break upon

  the intervals of the dance, and of the gleaming gourds.

  3. THE DANCE

  Dancing,

  He dreams, he dreams—

  The long wind glances, moves

  Forever as a music to the mind;

  The gourds are flashes of the sun.

  He takes the inward, mincing steps

  That conjure old processions and returns.

  Dancing,

  His moccasins,

  His sash and bandolier

  Contain him in insignia;

  His fan is powerful, concise

  According to his agile hand,

  And holds upon the deep, ancestral air.

  4. THE GIVEAWAY

  Someone spoke his name, Mammedaty, in which

  his essence was and is. It was a serious matter that his

  name should be spoken there in the circle, among the

  many people, and he was thoughtful, full of wonder,

  and aware of himself and of his name. He walked

  slowly to the summons, looking into the eyes of the man

  who summoned him. For a moment they held each

  other in close regard and all about them there was

  excitement and suspense.

  Then a boy came suddenly into the circle, leading

  a black horse. The boy ran, and the horse after him.

  He brought the horse up short in front of Mammedaty,

  and the horse wheeled and threw its head and cut

  its eyes in the wild way. And it blew hard and quivered

  in its hide so that light ran, rippling, upon its shoulders

  and its flanks—and then it stood still and was calm.

  Its mane and tail were fixed in braids and feathers, and

  a bright red chief’s blanket was draped in a roll over

  its withers. The boy placed the reins in Mammedaty’s

  hands. And all of this was for Mammedaty, in his honor,

  as even now it is in the telling, and will be, as long as

  there are those who imagine him in his name.

  The Stalker

  Sampt’e drew the string back and back until he

  Felt the bow wobble in his hand, and he let the

  Arrow go. It shot across the long light of the

  Morning and struck the black face of stone in the

  Meadow; it glanced then away towards the west,

  Limping along in the air; and then it settled down

  In the grass and lay still. Sampt’e approached; he

  Looked at it with wonder and was wary; honestly he

  Believed that the arrow might take flight again;

  So much of his life did he give into it.

  Long Shadows at Dulce

  1.

  September is a long

  Illusion of itself;

  The elders bide their time.

  2.

  The sheep camps are lively

  With children. The slim girls,

  The limber girls, recline.

  3.

  November is the flesh

  And the blood of the black bear,

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  4.

  In the huddled horses

  That know of perfect cold

  There is calm, like sorrow.

  Crows in a Winter Composition

  This morning the snow,

  The soft distances

  Beyond the trees

  In which nothing appeared—

  Nothing appeared.

  The several silences,

  Imposed one upon another,

  Were unintelligible.

  I was therefore ill at ease

  When the crows came down,

  Whirling down and calling,

  Into the yard below

  And stood in a mindless manner

  On the gray, luminous crust,

  Altogether definite, composed,

  In the bright enmity of my regard,

  In the hard nature of crows.

  Planned Parenthood

  If coupling should but make us whole

  And of the selfsame mind and soul,

  Then couple let’s in celebration;

  We have contained the population.

  The Great Fillmore Street Buffalo Drive

  Insinuate the sun through fog

  upon Pacific Heights, upon the man on horseback,

  upon the herd ascending. There is color and clamor.

  And there he waves them down,

  those great, humpbacked animals,

  until their wild grace gone

  they lumber and lunge

  and blood blisters at their teeth,

  and their hooves score the street—

  and among boulders they settle on the sea.

  He looks after them, twisted round upon his sorrow,

  the drape of his flag now full and formal,

  ceremonial.

  One bull, animal representation of the sun,

  he dreams back from the brink

  to the green refuge of his hunter’s heart.

  It grazes near a canyon wall,

  along a ribbon of light, among redbud trees,

  eventually into shadow.

  Then the hold of his eyes is broken:

  on the farther rim the grasses flicker and blur,

  a hawk brushes rain across the dusk,

  meadows recede into mountains, and here and there

  are moons like salmonberries

  upon the glacial face of the sky.

  Nous avons vu la mer

  We have been lovers,

  you and I.

  We have been alive

  in the clear mornings of Genesis;

  in the afternoons,

  among the prisms of the air,

  our hands have shaped perfect silences.

  We have seen the sea;

  wonder is well known to us.

  Wreckage

  Had my bones, like the sun,

  been splintered on this canyon wall

  and burned among these buckled plates,

  this bright debris; had it been so,

  I should not have lingered so long

  among my losses. I should have come

  loudly, like a warrior, to my time.

  Old Guerre

  For Janet

  Bertrande: Is he not aged?

  Catherine: Yes, Mistress. Greatly aged.

  Bertrande: Resentment burdens the heart.

  Catherine: And the body keeps time with the heart.

  Against his will old Guerre thinks of his son;

  You gall me, and I am grown old. You never were.

  But, yes, you were. Maybe you are, among soldiers and thieves,

  Monks and whores, men of public trust, actors and clowns.

  I must not think of you, whom God and I have damned—

  It is enough my cloak remarks my daughter’s hand.

  She bears the contagion of your abandonment

  As if it were a season on the fields, sunlight and dust,

  Cloudbursts and cold, those things that do permit at last

  Of harvests. Bertrande, the same shame encloses us.

  I shall go now across the way. In the valley

  In the long reach of the snow, I shall lift up my head.

  May you and Sanxi find me, small in the country,

  And sign me back farewell. And I too shall disappear.

  The Hotel 1829

  For a painter

  Dusk—and the shimmer of the sea

  Has quickened and gone still. The large,

  Lithe hurricane birds soar in circles

  Beyond the bay, and filmy flamboyants

  Stand on the green embankment wavering.

  A goat saunters in the street. Its eyes

  Gleam in the headlamps like amber

  Held up to the moon. Curious,

  Seeming not to see, they remain

  In after images. She finds them

  In the wine, the bright crystal

  At her place.

  The glitter on the fog is rain;

  And in rainy reach, the long beach curves

  Out on the glosses, the vault of lights.

  She sees oysters shining in their shells.

  Her hand on the hard linen, in candlelight,

  Expresses her.

  In a reflected arc the goat’s eyes,

  In the goat’s eyes a random will—and

  The late, faint shimmer on the sea.

  Great white ships roll in the harbor, illumined

  And gracious to the night, their ornaments

  Burn on the blur beyond the Hotel 1829.

  Concession

  Believe the sullen sense that sickness made,

  And broke you in its hands.

  Believe that death inhabits the mere shade

  Intimacy demands.

  I drink, my love, to your profound disease;

  Its was the better suit.

  I could not have provided you this ease,

  Nor this peace, absolute.

  Woman Waiting on a Porch

  Hot and slovenly,

  You imagine moving

  Towards a bleaker light,

  An emptiness.

  Go. The soft red morning

  Touches strife to your blood.

  You imagine

  Quiet and ice,

  Enough to close

  Accounts too lately here,

  A dipping of the moon

  To the black, jagged range.

  Four Charms

  1.

  My child,

  Can you reach those berries,

  The red and blue and purple berries?

  They are delicious perhaps.

  2.

  The bear is coming.

  There are pitiful cries.

  There are knives for mourning.

  The bear is coming.

  There are bones all about.

  There are entrails on the ground.

  The bear is coming.

  Someone very old has said so.

  3.

  At the very sight of my horse,

  At the very sight of my trappings,

  At the very sight of my shield,

  You are afraid, aren’t you?

  4.

  The wind is cold,

  Isn’t it?

  The moon is dark,

  Isn’t it?

  The plain is wide,

  Isn’t it?

  Death dances at the base of that hill.

  Rings of Bone

  There were rings of bone

  On the bandoliers of old men dancing.

  Then, in the afternoon stippled with leaves

  And the shadows of leaves,

  The leaves glistened

  And their shine shaped the air.

  Now the leaves are dead.

  Cold comes upon the leaves

  And they are crisped upon the stony ground.

  Webs of rime, like leaves, fasten on the mould,

  And the wind divides and devours the leaves.

  Again the leaves have more or less
to do

  With time. Music pervades the death of leaves.

  The leaves clatter like the rings of bone

  On the bandoliers of old men dancing.

  If It Could Ascend

  I behold there

  The far, faint motion of leaves.

  The leaves shine,

  And they will shiver down to death.

  Something like a leaf lies here within me;

  It wavers almost not at all,

  And there is no light to see it by—

  That it withers upon a black field.

  If it could ascend the thousand years into my mouth,

  I would make a word of it at last,

  And I would speak it into the silence of the sun.

  My Words Do Not Hold

  For my father

  My words do not hold,

  For I am dead.

  Nothing remains of me now—

  Nothing now.

  I am not there in the range of time,

  And my fine hands

  Do not make the signs

  That meant my love,

  That drew respect, that struck fear.

  Do you hear?—

  My breath ravels on the spool of winter.

  Listen:

  My words do not hold.

  My face darkens in the awful turning,

  And,

  Listening to the winds that wheel away,

  You ask after me

  And hear only the winds wheeling.

  Carnegie, Oklahoma, 1919

  This afternoon is older

  Than the giving of gifts

  And the rhythmic scraping of the red earth.

  My father’s father’s name is called,

  And the gift horse stutters out, whole,

  The whole horizon in its eyes.

  In the giveaway is beaded

  The blood memories of the fathers and sons.

  Oh, there is nothing like this afternoon

  In all the miles and years around,

  And I am not here,

  But, grandfather, father, I am here.

  Lawrence Ranch

  Lawrence named it Kiowa.

  The Lawrence Tree,

  Twisted density of black,

  Fronts the dawn,

  Stakes the silence

  Coyotes crack

  As they stitch the field.

 

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