by John Hart
“It won’t happen.”
“Because of the deeper truth?” Michael squeezed her shoulders, and she said, “What does that even mean?”
“It means the pursuit of justice is rarely perfect or fair.”
“Don’t be cryptic, Michael.”
“It means no one here wanted publicity around Julian’s adoption, not with Hennessey dead on a bathroom floor. The media would have eaten it up, so the senator kept it quiet.”
“He can do that?”
“He has money, power. It’s not like Hennessey had family.”
“What an unbelievably cold thing to say.”
“It’s the world in which we live.”
“But why would they even care?” She gestured at the far mansion. “You told Julian to say you did it. He was in the clear.”
“Scandal has been known to assume a life of its own, given the chance. Besides, I doubt Julian was entirely convincing. He’s never been a good liar. His heart is too close to the surface.”
“The police didn’t believe him?”
“Let’s just say the senator spent a lot of money and political capital to keep them from looking too deeply.”
“How do you know all this?”
“I made it my business to find out.” She frowned, and Michael nudged her hip. “Trust me, Elena. With all that’s happened in the past few days, a decades-old investigation is the last thing you need to worry about.”
“Promise me you won’t be arrested.”
“I promise.”
“Good. Thank you.” She leaned into him, looked across the lakes. “Is this what you expected?”
She was talking about the estate, everything. “There’s more security than I thought, but that’s good.”
She sighed. “That’s not what I meant and you know it.”
“Are you all right?”
“I’m just sad.”
“Why?”
She stared at the soft grass and the far mansion, then took his arm and leaned her head on his shoulder. “This could have been your life.”
* * *
Jessup found Abigail on the sofa in the living room. “Is he here?” she asked.
“Outside. Are you sure you’re ready for this?”
Abigail looked down. Her hand cupped a small photograph. It was black and white, very old.
“Is that Michael?” Jessup asked.
“From his file at Iron Mountain.” She tilted it so he could see. The boy was young, maybe eight. He had wild hair and a smile that looked forced. “It’s the only picture of him I’ve ever seen.” She touched the photograph. “I missed him by minutes, Jessup. I missed his entire life because we were slowed by a storm, by a thing as simple as wind and frozen water.”
“He killed a fifteen-year-old boy. He put a knife in his throat and left him dead on a bathroom floor. People like that don’t change. I’ve seen it. I know. That storm saved you a lifetime of misery.”
“He would have had a reason for what he did.”
“Then he should have stayed and explained.”
“He was a child, and frightened.”
“That’s no reason to trust him, now.”
“Of course not, Jessup. I’m neither a fool nor a romantic.”
“Then why let him into your life at all?”
“Because Julian would.”
“He’s dangerous, Abigail. I’m telling you this is a mistake.”
“He’s dangerous, how?”
“He carries a concealed weapon, for one. And I ran his plates. The car is stolen. He said he was a dishwasher. That makes him a liar, too.”
“I won’t condemn him sight unseen.”
“You pay me to protect you.”
“I pay you to do what I say. Now, just … be still. Okay. Just give me a second’s peace.” She closed her eyes, and when they opened, she pointed. “Outside?” Jessup nodded without speaking. She crossed to the window, lifted the curtain. “My God,” she said. “He looks just like him.”
Michael was taller, stronger. He had the kind of quiet confidence that Julian would never know, but there was no doubt they were brothers. They had the same brown hair, same dark, expressive eyes. But where Julian was soft, Michael was hard. Where one was timid, the other was not. Michael leaned against the car, arms crossed, one foot up on the front tire. He saw them and gave a nod.
“You say his car is stolen?”
“Yes.”
Abigail watched for a few more seconds. Outside, the girl paced, agitated; but Michael held Abigail’s eyes. There was power there, she thought. Knowing and cunning and calm. “Have it searched,” she said. “I want to know everything about him. Where he works. What he does. Who he is. Everything.”
Jessup opened his cell phone. “What changed your mind?”
“I haven’t changed my mind.”
“Then, what?”
“You’re right about one thing,” Abigail said.
“What’s that?”
She tilted her head, peered out through black lashes. “The man’s no dishwasher.”
* * *
Michael was thinking of Elena’s last words when he became aware of a subtle perfume on the air. He looked up to find a woman as elegant as the perfume she wore. She stepped onto the drive, and the moment was so many things: commonplace and strange and bittersweet. She could have been his mother. She was a stranger, but knew his own brother better than he did. Michael stepped closer, and saw that her skin was parchment pale.
“Have I interrupted?”
“Not at all.” Michael kept his own features neutral. “Thank you for seeing us. This is Elena.”
She acknowledged Elena with a nod, and when her gaze snapped back to Michael, she looked embarrassed. “I’ve often asked myself what I would say to you should we meet. It’s a normal question on its surface, you see. An everyday concern. Would I be matter-of-fact, as if we were, indeed, strangers? Or would I simply fold at the knees?” She laughed, a small sound. “I’m not the folding kind of person, but I wondered if it would all just be too much?” She looked awkward. “I’m not making sense.”
“You make perfect sense,” Michael said. “I completely understand.”
She curled one finger across her lips, and her eyes brightened. “I was at Iron Mountain the day you ran. I saw you in the snow that night, coat flapping, then gone. I saw that terrible storm take you away.”
“That was a long time ago,” Michael offered.
Her eyes went from bright to shiny wet. “If I could have found you, I would have.”
“It’s okay.” Michael didn’t know why he said it—he owed this woman nothing—but he said it, meant it, and in that moment felt the pluck of ice on his skin, the memory so real the frostbitten spots on his hands tingled. He never thought of that dark, cold run, saw it only in dreams; yet here they were, the both of them. Her eyes were large and green, and she was about to cry. “It’s okay,” he said again.
But she stepped closer and put her arms around him. “I’m so sorry.” For a moment, Michael tensed, but her hair was featherlight on his cheek. Her skin smelled of lavender and that elegant perfume. “You poor thing,” she said.
Jessup stepped closer. “Mrs. Vane…”
But she ignored him. “You poor boy.”
CHAPTER TWELVE
A small part of Julian knew where he was. He understood that he was in one of the guest rooms, that his mother came and went, that there was a doctor. But that knowledge was a flicker in the dark. He didn’t know why he was there or what was going on, didn’t know the day or the month or the year. Julian barely knew his own name.
He was scattered.
Afraid.
The bed was too small, a jumble of hot sheets that twisted around his legs and made him feel trapped. That was bad, claustrophobic. He kicked off the sheets, but kept his eyes closed so that he saw red through his lids, red and heat and smears of black. He waited for some kind of pattern, the coolness of reason.
But there w
as no reason.
The blackness moved, and in the red were flashes of bright, sharp metal. Julian rolled onto his side. His hands hurt and something smelled, so, he focused on the black. The black was safe, and the black was cool. Beyond it was heat, and beyond that was something bad.
Julian squeezed into a ball.
The black made an island, and if he stayed on the island nothing could touch him. That was another thing he knew, the island he’d made in his mind. He could go there when things got rough or frightening or hard. The island was safe, and the island was his. Beyond the island was …
He shied from the thought of it, looked for something else; but there were strange voices in the hall.
And that was scary, too.
Voices.
Strangers.
Julian thought he might fade, but the door creaked, and when he opened his eyes, he saw feet on the floor and legs that rose. He saw his mother and a woman he did not know. And there was a man, but the man made no sense. It was like looking in a mirror and seeing your own face twisted.
Julian blinked and darkness rose up. The man said something, but Julian didn’t want to see anyone. He wanted to be alone in the black, so he closed his eyes, and tried to break a bridge with his mind.
He knew how to do that, break bridges, float away.
Somebody touched his arm, and when he opened his eyes he saw the face that was his, but not. There was comfort there, and warmth, a reason to not feel so lonesome. But the bridge was already breaking. Julian heard his name, but it had no weight to settle. It touched him once and was gone.
Julian wanted it back, the touch of this voice. Some part of him understood what was happening, and that part wanted the man with the familiar face to understand why he was on the island, that something had happened. He had the wild, insane thought that the man with the face could make everything better.
So, Julian waited for the man to kneel, and when he was close, Julian said the horrible thing; he screamed as the bridge twisted and cracked and fell.
But the man was fading.
The island was an island. The red was gone, and there was only dark. But Julian, finally, understood.
Michael …
His voice echoed.
He was alone in the black.
* * *
Michael rocked back on his heels, then stood. His brother’s eyes were closed now, but what Michael had seen of them hinted at insanity. They’d been dilated, shot with red and the kind of wild, raw panic he’d not seen since the worst moments of childhood.
“What did he say to you?”
That was Jessup Falls. He stood in the door, an armed guard in the hall behind him. The guard was like the ones at the gate, competent but detached. Professional. Michael gave Falls a single glance, and then shook his head. There’d been a second of awareness when Michael took Julian’s shoulders, one instant of clarity and recognition as they leaned close. He’d whispered something so quietly only Michael could hear. The madness had stilled—understanding between brothers—then, somebody pulled the drain and Julian was gone.
“I’m going to have to ask again.” Falls started to cross the room, but Abigail stopped him with a hand.
“Please,” she said. “He’s not spoken for three days. Tell us what he said.”
“It was nothing,” Michael lied. “Something from childhood. Gibberish.” He squatted again and lifted one of his brother’s arms and then the other. Julian remained unresponsive, even as Michael pulled up his sleeves, checked the skin for needle tracks.
“There’s no sign of intravenous drug use.” The doctor pointed. “I checked between his toes, the backs of his legs. All the usual places.”
Michael rose. “May I see the other room?”
Dr. Cloverdale shot a glance at Abigail, who nodded. They’d moved Julian out of the bloodstained room, but the walls had yet to be cleaned. Together, they left Julian’s room and crossed the hall. The guard stepped back to make room.
“You can see why I hesitated.” Abigail stopped in the door, as if unwilling to commit.
Michael studied the room. “When did you move him?”
“Just this morning.”
“And this started three days ago?”
Abigail walked him through it again: Julian’s absence, how she found him in the garage and how he beat his hands bloody. “Have you ever seen anything like this?”
Michael touched a dark crescent of dried blood, put a palm flat on one of the drawn doors. “Something smaller, maybe. A long time ago.” He pictured Julian in the boiler room at Iron House, the glazed eyes and bloody knuckles. He touched the second door. It, too, was scratched through to plaster. “If things got bad, Julian went deep. Basements, caves. If he couldn’t get deep enough in the world, he went deep in his mind. It happened a lot when we were young. If something bad happened, he checked out. Minutes. A few hours. Never this long.”
“What about the doors?” Abigail gestured at the drawings.
“An old man told him once that there were magic doors hidden in the walls. Doors to better places, a different life. Tap them right and they open up. All Julian had to do was find them.”
“His poor hands,” Elena said.
Michael stopped by the bed. The sheets had been stripped. “Something bad happened three days ago.”
“You can’t be sure of that,” Falls said.
“I’m sure.”
“It’s been twenty-three years. He’s not the boy he was. You don’t know him anymore. You can’t.”
Michael cataloged the distrust in Jessup Falls’s face, the wrinkled skin, and folds of flesh at the corners of his eyes. The man was tense in his bones, and Michael bridled at the doubt. He looked at the blood-smeared walls, and he felt anger spark in the normally frozen place behind his eyes. Julian was his brother, and they’d allowed him to come to this.
Them.
Not Michael.
The old protectiveness rose as if it had never slept. Twenty-three years of suppressed worry, fear and doubt boiled into anger so immediate and hot that part of Michael knew he was off the rails. But he didn’t care. He pushed close to Falls and to Abigail Vane. He ignored the guard in the hall, the blunt, square-faced man who rose up on his toes and slipped one hand under his coat to touch the weapon there. “Do you have any idea what my brother endured as a child? The torment and abuse? The callousness and unconcern of people paid to care for his most basic needs?”
“No, I—”
“That’s right.” His gaze landed on Abigail Vane. “You don’t. None of you. Not how he hurt or how often he broke. You don’t know what it took to pick him up day after day, to put him back on his feet, to hold him together. You weren’t there and you can’t imagine. He was beaten, abused, ignored…”
Michael saw red as a day from childhood flashed into his mind with such clarity it was physical. Julian was eight and had been missing for an hour when Michael finally found him in the same bathroom where Hennessey would later die with a rusted blade in his neck. It was the screaming that led him there. They had Julian naked on the cold, tile floor, one boy on each arm and leg. Julian was still wet from the shower, thrashing, begging. Hennessey had a knife against Julian’s hairless prick, laughing as he threatened to cut it off.
I would like some beanie weenies …
No! Please!
Say it motherfucker.
“Julian doesn’t like to talk about his childhood.” Abigail put herself in front of Michael.
“That’s because nightmares are personal.”
“We can’t possibly understand what you boys went through at that terrible place, but we’ve tried.” Abigail looked down, sad. “This has been so hard.”
“Don’t talk to me about hard, and don’t question me on the past or on my brother. You may think you understand, but you can’t. No one can.”
Michael felt the stillness in the room, the way Elena stared at him. She’d never seen him raise his voice, never seen him angry.
; “No one meant any disrespect,” Abigail said. “We understand your connection to Julian. We welcome it. Please, don’t be angry.”
Yet. Michael was. He was angry at the world, and he was angry with himself. Stepping into the hall, he pointed at the guard. “You. What’s your name?”
“Richard Gale.”
“Are you any good with that?” Michael nodded at the weapon on Gale’s belt.
“Michael, what are you doing?”
Abigail came out behind him, worried. She caught his arm, and Michael pulled it free. He studied Richard Gale and liked what he saw. Assurance that bordered on eagerness. An utter lack of fear or doubt as he sized Michael up. “Try me,” he said.
And that moment told Michael everything he needed to know. He took Elena’s hand, and turned. “We’re leaving.” He led her down the long hall and onto the sweeping staircase. Behind them, Abigail followed, Jessup Falls two steps behind the hem of her skirt.
“Michael, please…”
He was resolute, but she caught him at the front door. “Why are you leaving?”
“I came to make sure my brother was safe. He’s safe.”
“What do you mean?”
“I’ve counted six guards since I got here. There’s probably more, all of them well armed and professional. The property is gated and walled. Video surveillance. Electronic countermeasures.” Michael shook his head. “Julian doesn’t need me.”
“But he does. You can’t just show up and then leave. He needs you. I need you.”
Michael stared out beyond the far gate. Jimmy was out there, coming. Elena’s hand felt warm and small when he squeezed it. “Other people need me, too,” he said.
That thought burned in Michael’s mind, and in Elena’s, too. She squeezed his hand in return, and he felt her relief in the way she molded against him. He’d done what he needed to do. Julian was safe. Now, they could make a life, build a family. “We have to go,” he said.
But Abigail was not finished. “You said he’s safe.”
“He is.”
“From what?”
Their gazes locked, and she was so desperate to know that Michael almost told her the truth. Jimmy. Stevan. The target painted on his back. But what purpose would such disclosure serve? “I have enemies.” He kept it simple. “People I thought might choose to hurt me through Julian.”