I pushed myself off the couch and went back to my bedroom, bringing out my desk chair and placing it in the kitchen. I went back to retrieve my computer, then my monitor, and set them on the kitchen table.
“What are you doing?” Lisa asked.
I motioned to her. “Come help me a minute.”
She followed me back to my bedroom, and together we carried the large desk into the living room. I set my end of the desk down next to the bare wall by the fireplace. She followed my lead. We pushed the couch against one wall and put the easy chairs opposite the couch centered by the coffee table. Within minutes, we had a war room.
“Local stations are on channels two, four, seven, nine, and fourteen. Fox News is on Channel 31, and I can never find CNN.”
I grabbed my coat and billfold and headed for the garage.
“Where are you going?”
“To the grocery store to stock up. When I get back, I expect you to have your car parked in the garage. I’ll be parking out on the street.”
“I can’t do that to you. This is your house,” she protested.
“It’s the least I can do for you. And for Jill, remember?” I leveled my gaze. “I want to help. This makes me feel a bit more useful.”
Lisa was dumbfounded. She stood, mouth agape, and stared. Shaking her head, she said, “You’re already letting me sleep here. I’ll eat your food, Liv. But I’m not using your garage. Okay?”
“You’re still stubborn. Thanks for letting me help by feeding you. It’s the very least I can do,” I said.
With that I was down the stairs and out the door that led into the garage.
My Explorer wasn’t there, and for a moment I couldn’t for the life of me recall what had happened to it. Then I remembered I had driven to Denver with the policewoman, leaving my SUV at work. I turned to go back inside when I saw through the garage window that someone had parked it in my driveway. Joe. He had given me a ride back from Denver and must have arranged to have someone bring the Explorer to me from work. I thought for the thousandth time that I didn’t know what I’d do without him.
As I drove away, I realized how the lights in my living room made the place come alive.
FRIDAYS ARE GREAT DAYS at work. Although several of our customers operate seven days a week, twenty-four hours a day, three hundred sixty-five days a year, like we do, many don’t. Fridays tend to be the most relaxed days for those with a normal five-day workweek. The weekend allows us time to replenish our empty silos, as well as our tired bodies and overworked minds, and Fridays provide a perfect springboard to end the week productively with customers, vendors, and haulers.
I slipped out of the house before five-thirty, hoping to let Lisa sleep. I had heard her up reading, studying, and typing notes until two this morning. I prayed she and Agent Pierce would have a rewarding and successful day.
My first stop was at my office. After all, I had been at work for just a few hours the day before when I was whisked off to Denver by that awful policewoman. I had barely had enough time to call Brethren Social Assistance to arrange for an on-site grief counselor to be available yesterday afternoon for my employees. Probably could have used some time with them myself.
Speed reading through my e-mails and answering those that couldn’t wait until Monday, I focused on the stack of mail, reports, invoices, and requests in my inbox, quickly sorting and prioritizing my workload. After collecting all my voice mails and jotting down numbers so I could return calls, I glanced up at the clock. Eight fifteen. Lisa was at Detective Brandt’s office with Agent Pierce and Chief Richardson. Joe would be done with plant shift change and having set the direction for the quarry and maintenance crew. By now he’d be well into digging through his morning pile of invoices and messages.
I bounded down the hall, out the door, and nearly jogged toward Joe’s office trailer across the lot.
“How’d it go last night with BSA?”
Joe looked up from his pile of invoices. “They sent Cindy.”
“Great,” I answered. The employees were comfortable with Cindy; she was the one who conducted the annual Employee Assistance Program speeches each January. “Any major issues?”
Joe shook his head. Wounded, I thought as I read his eyes.
I offered a conciliatory smile, “Besides you?”
He offered a sad smile. “Everyone was thankful you brought Cindy in. No one wanted to ask her for one-on-one time, but they all hung pretty tight around her from about six to seven. Mostly plant guys.”
“Makes sense. The quarry guys didn’t know Jill as well as the rest of us.”
He nodded.
“And you?” I already knew the answer, but had to ask.
“Did I talk with Cindy? Nah,” Joe said. “I’m fine.”
“That’s what Jim Bowie told Davy Crockett at the Alamo,” I argued. That earned me a smile. “Have you cleaned out her locker, yet?”
Joe shook his head. “Didn’t know if Detective Brandt or Officer McDouglas would want to go through it first.”
Officer Jan McDouglas. The pushy policewoman. My cheeks burned. “Officer McDouglas can go—”
“Liv,” Joe warned. “Watch your language. New Year’s resolution, remember?”
I didn’t have the heart to tell him it was a lost cause.
I knew that Lisa wanted me to keep up the illusion that Detective Brandt was the lead on this case and figured she and Agent Pierce would want anything we had of Jill’s that might help them piece things together.
“I doubt if Brandt or McSmarty-Pants will be back anytime soon. I wouldn’t want Jill’s stuff to get misplaced or rifled through by anyone but her parents. Let’s at least box it up and give it to the Brannigans.”
Sounded logical. The reality was I intended to take the box home, to the new FBI headquarters, considering it would be a cold day in hell before Chief Richardson ever let the FBI use Brandt’s office. Lisa and the Denver agent she was assigned to could go through all of Jill’s personal belongings and glean whatever they could.
“You really think Detective Brandt won’t be back up here? To question me?” Joe asked.
“No worries, Joe,” I answered. His secret about Jill’s thankful kiss on his cheek would be safe with me. “They may be back, but we can stick with what we know of Jill’s work and who she gravitated toward on breaks. Okay?”
Relief washed over his lined face.
“Come on,” I waved. “Let’s go clear out her locker.”
On my way out the door, I grabbed an empty box from the lab. Joe was close on my heels. We walked across the gravel road toward the plant, bypassing my office. Joe led me to the lower break room next to the unisex bathroom and tapped on the third locker from the left on the bottom row, indicating the one that had been assigned to Jill. The locker was padlocked.
“Cut it,” I said.
Joe disappeared next door to the plant maintenance shop and returned with bolt cutters. One hardy snip and we were in. Jill had left her hard hat and her coveralls hanging on the hooks. The coveralls were dusty but had no rips or tears in them yet. Her hard hat was adorned with three stickers:one that said “Safety First,” one that had our company logo, and one that said “Go Rams!” On the floor of the locker, Jill had placed her steel-toed boots side by side with the laces neatly tucked inside each boot. On the top shelf of the locker cabinet, we found a blue bandana, a paperback edition of Crime and Punishment, and a silver chain necklace from which some heart-shaped charms hung. I placed the boots in the box first. After carefully folding Jill’s coveralls, I laid them atop the boots, scooped the contents from the shelf onto the coveralls, and placed the hard hat in the box last.
The whole process was more emotionally challenging than I had imagined it would be, and Joe must have experienced the same weightiness I had felt, if his sigh was any indication.
“She turned in her time card Saturday night,” he said.
“Let me guess,” I added. “On time and completed without a single error?”<
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“Yep.”
“The Jill Brannigans of the world are hard to find.”
“And even harder to lose.”
I placed the lid on the box and hefted it from the ground. Joe closed the locker door and ceremoniously peeled the sticker bearing Jill Brannigan’s name off the front. We both bowed our heads for a minute and quietly left the change room.
He stayed beside me as I walked to my Explorer with the box. “She didn’t mean a thing by that kiss, Joe, other than to thank you and tell you how much she appreciated your kindness.”
I had told him before, but I sensed he needed reminding.
“Thanks,” he said, opening the door to my backseat.
I set the box down and closed the door. “Anytime. Want to make a round through the plant with me?”
He nodded. “Kyle’s taking this the hardest.”
“Think he had a crush on Jill?”
“I think the entire team had a crush on Jill. What’s not to like about the girl?”
We took the catwalks along the conveyor and the steps up to the highest reaches of the plant, listening and looking at every piece of equipment as we passed. We pulled some samples along the way and shook them through sieves to check for quality. When we got to the top of the silos, we looked down below at the scale and the trucks waiting to be loaded, over to the quarry, and beyond the pit to the Rocky Mountains.
“Where are all the guys?”
We hadn’t seen any of the other four plant team members for this shift. Normally we would have at least seen the material handler loading trucks or the assistant charging the hopper for the dryer with feedstone, but we hadn’t seen a single soul for the past thirty minutes.
Joe said, “Maybe after sleeping on it, they’re struggling more today over the news than they were yesterday.”
“Think we should bring Cindy back?”
“Let’s find Allan and ask what’s up.”
We finally found Allan, Greg, and Oliver in the control room. Looking a bit sheepish, they started to scatter when Joe and I came through the door.
“Hey, guys,” I said, stopping their retreat. “Sorry about Jill and not being able to come see you about it yesterday.”
They made rumblings, but nothing coherent.
“Did it help to have Cindy here?”
Allan nodded. The other two kicked at invisible rocks on the control room floor. Not the boisterous, opinionated guys I had grown accustomed to. I hadn’t seen them this mulish since the Christmas party following the summer when I had hired a stripper as a material handler because she said she wanted to turn her life around. Night-shift workers’ spouses were not real thrilled with me that year. Not one of my finer moments. Tough on the guys as well.
“I’m thinking about seeing if she could come back again today,” I suggested. I wanted to send out the trial balloon to gauge their reaction. I got some subtle head bobbing but nothing definitive until I added, “For me, of course, since I didn’t get to talk with her.”
Cindy would be coming. They still needed her. Or something.
“Where’s Kyle?” I asked.
“Over with Terry,” Oliver said. “They’re talking with some of the drivers.”
“About Jill?”
More nods.
“What are you guys hearing? Besides a bunch of bullshit rumors,” I asked.
That brought them around a little bit. Fleeting smiles, at least.
Greg looked at the imaginary rock and kept kicking and swaying. “Heard she was cut to bits, boss. Heard she was hurt bad.”
He never looked up. I scanned the other faces. None of the men would look me in the eye. I was no psychologist, but I couldn’t help but wonder if this was about me being a woman and them having heard something about
Jill being raped. So I asked, “Are there rumors that Jill was raped?”
Allan nodded and elbowed Greg. “Go on.”
“Well, we heard she was raped,”Greg began, “and that she was cut bad all over her body. And her face. And that’s why they aren’t showing nothing on the news except those basketball pictures of her.”
“Well, none of that’s true. At least the part about her being cut all over her body and face,”I said. “And as far as rape goes, they haven’t even received the lab results yet, so whatever you’re hearing are unfounded rumors.”
“Ask her,” Oliver whispered to Greg.
Allan jabbed Greg again with his elbow.
“Well, you always told us that you hate rumors and that if we heard something that bothered us, we should just ask you and you’d tell us the truth. Straight from the horse’s mouth, you said.”
“And I meant that,” I said.
I braced for what might come. I chose not to lie to my employees, and I encouraged directness to combat rumors. But in this situation, I was obligated to Lisa to keep quiet about what I knew and was walking a fine line between not lying and not divulging too much about what I knew of the case.
“We heard you saw Jill yesterday,” Greg finally blurted.
I hadn’t noticed I’d been holding my breath. Relief allowed me to blow it all out before answering. “I did. Officer Jan McDouglas from the Fort Collins Police Department stopped by yesterday morning to escort me to Denver to identify Jill’s body. Her younger sister is also a student at CSU and was still torn up by all the news. The authorities wanted to start the autopsy as soon as possible, but Jill’s parents were in transit from Wisconsin. So they asked if Joe or I would identify the body.”
“How’d she look?” Greg asked.
The control room was as quiet and still as I’d ever heard it. All four men were rigid, awaiting my answer. My mind went to that lifeless face, so unlike Jill’s, which was always full of life. I wasn’t about to describe her deathly pallor, so I grasped whatever I could from the truth of what I saw.
“It was Jill, no doubt. She looked like ...like Jill. There were no cuts or bruises that I could see on her face, neck, or shoulders, so I can tell you for sure, some of those rumors you’re hearing are not true.”
Their eyebrows were still highlighting the concern in their eyes. They collectively held their breath. What did they want from me? I didn’t have the power to take away their concern that Jill suffered. She was dead. What suffering is worse than losing a life? Their faces told me the answer:what’s worse might be the survivors’ suffering over a lost life. I knew if I saw Jill’s sister or parents’ faces, I’d know for sure their suffering would be the worst of all.
“Look. I’m no doctor or psychologist. But I was struck by the sense that Jill died quietly, despite the hole. Something in her face. It wasn’t terror or pain. I can’t describe it,” I answered, as honestly as I knew how.
At some point while I was speaking, Kyle had walked into the control room behind me. The others’ eyes landed on him, and I turned to see what they were seeing. Kyle’s eyes were wide and bloodshot.
“Kyle? Are you all right?” I asked.
Kyle’s voice was unsteady, incongruous with his sturdy six-foot-three, two-hundred-fifty-pound frame. “It’s all over the news. The drivers. They told me and Terry.”
“What did they tell you?” Joe asked.
I couldn’t imagine what would have made the news by this early in the day. Maybe it was leaked to the press that the Fort Collins Police Department no longer had jurisdiction over the case and that the FBI was taking over. Maybe the coroner had released some of the early findings. It would be too soon for Lisa to make any conclusions on the behavioral profile or for Agent Pierce to be making any statements or release anything to the press. Maybe it was about Detective Brandt turning in his resignation because Chief Richardson was a pompous, egocentric ass. But it turned out to be none of my various speculations.
“It’s de Milo, the serial killer. The Venus de Milo murderer killed Jill.”
AS HE SIPPED HIS water with the twist of lime, he read the captions as fast as they flashed on the muted TV above the bar. The anchorwoman was de
scribing the breaking news that Jill Brannigan, the popular CSU student who was murdered west of Fort Collins, was indeed the third victim of the Venus de Milo murderer.
How he hated that stupid moniker.
And how completely asinine the FBI had been for choosing it. They weren’t even close. The least those idiots at the Bureau could have done was to name him the “Aphrodite murderer,” a more accurate and poetic name than the more popular name—Venus de Milo—for the same statue.
Upon further reflection, though, the parallels between who he was and what they were calling him began to come sharply into focus. Yes, the Venus de Milo was missing her arms. So were many of his models.
The ancient statue of Aphrodite had limbs originally, just as his models had. Only he intentionally removed the limbs from his models, something Alexandros never intended to do with Venus, arms breaking accidentally while being loaded on a ship. He was proud of his superiority in that his art was intentional, not accidental.
And the sculptor, Alexandros of Antioch, was a copyist, creating bizarre and striking images of life, just as he did. The brilliance of Alexandros’s ability to add original twists to his work was similar to his own. Although, he mocked life with far superior ability than Alexandros dared to do.
And finally, he would be revered in centuries to come, just as Alexandros, both men living in decadent periods of history.
He studied the images of the stony-faced man with a white butch haircut and the lovely girl with long black hair leaving the Fort Collins police station with Detective Doug Brandt. He followed the captions to find out who the people accompanying the detective were. But his instincts already told him. Those two were FBI, the idiots who were calling him the Venus de Milo murderer. Simply because of the way he had staged, more like molded . . . no, carved his models.
He grinned at the thought of his Great Masturbator. That poor, unsuspecting couple lying along the riverbank outside of Platteville had been quite perfect for his purpose. He had spent the entire evening enjoying his models and molding them into the surrealism of his own sexual neurosis. Not that he, too, suffered from nightmares that his mother might one day devour his penis but, rather, that such a horror could exist in the brilliance of his sculpture. Fascinating.
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