by Tucker Max
When I meet new people, especially girls who want to fuck, I usually like to talk to them about themselves, probe into their lives and figure out their personality. It’s always interesting to see if I can get them to open up and discover the thing they try to keep hidden. Sex is only one part of the enjoyment of another person, after all. If I didn’t learn about all their hidden dysfunction, how else would I know how to manipulate them?
Well, this was a rare exception. I could tell just by the crazy, desperate look in her eyes that there was nothing but pain and misery in her past. And not the funny, network sitcom–type pain that you can guiltlessly laugh about; this was the bad kind that wins the Pulitzer Prize for literature. I had no desire to open that Pandora’s box of awful parenting leading to a series of abusive boyfriends and culminating in some demeaning job in the sex industry. It was bad enough to almost make me not want to fuck her. Almost.
But what would you do if an attractive woman—even one with crazy eyes—was standing in your living room, massive tits beckoning you from behind leopard-print lingerie, asking you to “beat up my pussy”? If you’re a guy and ultimately respond with anything other than “fuck her,” you’re either happily married, gay, or a liar. You should probably make her shower first, but the point stands.
As she came out of the shower, I pulled her into the living room and pushed her down on the sofa. I was right about to fire it in her, when I saw some dirt or something on her thighs. I stopped to investigate; small black spots around a woman’s crotch are not something you can just file under “worry about later.”
I looked at them, got confused, then went in for a closer look. I couldn’t believe my eyes. It was kinda dark in my place, so I turned on every single light. Yeah, there is no question what it was.
It wasn’t dirt or sores. The dark spots were permanent ink. Four little tattoos on her inner thighs. They were flies, buzzing around her vagina. And then two longer tattoos, maggots, made to look like they were crawling out of her vagina.
I literally gagged when I realized what they were.
Tucker “Are those flies… and maggots?”
Girl “Yeah.”
Tucker “Why the hell are those there?”
Girl “I don’t know. I thought it was appropriate at the time.”
Appropriate?!? Flies and maggots congregate in two places: stinking piles of excrement and fetid, rotting corpses. Which, exactly, did she think her pussy most closely resembled?
I didn’t want to know the answer to that question. This was too much emotional dysfunction for even me to deal with. Before that exact moment, the list of things that would have stopped me from fucking a conscious, willing woman who was lying naked and freshly cleaned on my sofa was four items long:
1. She has open sores or infections
2. She is actively shitting herself
3. She is actively pissing herself
4. She is actively puking on herself
That was the whole list. Well, not anymore. Thanks to Polly Rottenpuss, you can add one more thing to it:
5. Tattoos of flies and/or maggots around the vagina
NEXT-LEVEL SHIT
Occurred—December 2005
The month before I moved to NYC, I decided to spend some time in the area looking for an apartment. It’s about a 13 hour drive from Chicago to NYC, and since there were some cute girls from Pittsburgh who had been emailing me, I decided to stop and hook up with a few of them.
There was one girl in particular who I wanted to hang out with, Jess. She had good pics, wrote intelligent emails, made it very clear she wanted to fuck the shit out of me, and was a big drinker. But it was something else that really clinched it for me. A week or so earlier she posted this on my message board under a thread about road head:
“One of my very best friends, a guy I dated for about 4 hours in high school, found out his girlfriend was cheating on him, with a 17 year old baby daddy named Daeqwon. I cannot explain in writing how livid we both were to learn this. I also cannot explain in writing how vengeful and twisted he and I both are.
Instead of immediately dumping her and letting me tear her to pieces, he took her out on a huge date. Kind of like Tucker’s butt sex story—he buttered this bitch up. Dropped $250 on dinner and took her to the fucking ballet. All because he knew that a little romance and a little Dom would get her to open wide and give him a slob job on the ride home. And slob she did—he later said it was some of the best head of his life.
His life, not hers.
Before their date (immediately before) I ran over to his apartment really quickly—and let him fuck me. In the butt. Seriously, we are strictly friends, totally platonic. He didn’t come. Just a few in-and-outs to make sure his wang was nice and tasty. After he put it in my ass for a few minutes, he very carefully stuck his dick back in his boxers, saying he didn’t want to let anything rub off.
Two hours later he let his raging whore of a (now ex-) girlfriend suck on his penis for about 20 minutes. He claims at one point, she almost stopped, because he was laughing so hard he swerved off the road.
See you in hell.”
This was clearly a girl I needed to party with. Right before I got to Pittsburgh I called her to make a few things clear:
Tucker “I like to fuck before I go out drinking, so are you up for a quickie or two before we hit the bars?”
Jess “Yeah, of course, definitely.”
Tucker “Excellent. And one more thing: Just because I fuck you before we go out does not necessarily mean that I will go home with you. I’m not saying that I’ll be going out with the intent of hitting on other girls, but I never know what is going to happen. If you are not cool with me fucking you early and then potentially going home with some other girl, let me know now. I don’t want you to get pissed and stab me in my sleep.”
Jess “Oh no. I’ll even help you pick them up, maybe we can have a threesome.”
This girl is going to make someone a great ex-wife someday.
I get to her place and she looks just like her pictures: cute face and a really good body. I am so happy that she sent me honest pics. I have no idea why, but some girls seem to think that when I meet them in person, I won’t notice that they put on 40 pounds and 20,000 miles since their last good picture. Even better, though, there is also a bonus that her pics did not show: an amazing ass. To be honest, I am more of a tit guy than an ass guy, but hers is a piece of art.
We hang out for a while, she seems like a pretty cool girl, and we fuck. It’s cute: She is kinda nervous at first, but eventually she relaxes and we have pretty good sex.
Afterward, I notice a tattoo on her right hip. It is the initials R.H. with this weird design in between them. Obviously, I assume the worst.
Tucker “Who is that? Ex-boyfriend?”
Jess “No, fiancé.”
Tucker “He dumped you? Hahahaha, that tattoo doesn’t seem like such a good idea now, does it?”
Jess “No… he didn’t dump me.”
Tucker [joking around] “What, you dumped him because you caught him fucking your friend?”
Jess “No. He died. I got this after his death.”
Tucker “What, he couldn’t just break up with you? He was so sick of your shit he went and died?”
She actually laughed at that joke, but I did feel legitimately bad. Well, not really, but I sensed that a good person would have felt bad.
We went to a place called Fat Head’s for beer and wings. The bar was filled with what is apparently the unofficial mascot of Pittsburgh: the loud, drunk blue-collar idiot. These two older guys were sitting next to us in their Greg Lloyd jerseys and Harley-Davidson bandannas, screaming at the Penguins game on TV, when we sat down.
Yinzer “So, yinz two aren’t gonna argue like that last couple, are you? He spent two hours yelling at her ’cause she wouldn’t fuck him, and she was pissed because he was never home.”
Tucker “No, sex is not a problem in this relationship. In fact, right now she has a
bunch of my cum in her. And even a little on her. You can probably smell it if you get close.”
His eyes got all big and he leaned back and elbowed his buddy.
Yinzer “You hear this guy, Dale? He’s talkin ’bout shooting cum at her!” [turning to Jess] “You don’t mind him talkin’ like this?”
Tucker “She’s lucky I’m even here.” [Jess nods in agreement]
Yinzer “DAMN! I wish I had your balls!”
Tucker “I wish you had a breath mint, but I guess we don’t always get what we wish for.”
After that, they left us alone.
The place had like 40 beers on tap and another 40 in bottles, most of which I had never heard of, but Jess confidently recommended Arrogant Bastard Ale. It was quite good. Not only is this girl bisexual, good in bed, a huge fan of mine, and cool to hang out with, but she really knows her beer.
At this point I started to get excited; when you reach in the ho grab-bag, you never know what you’re going to get. Well, it looked like I had picked a winner. So of course I did what only a fool would do: I looked the gift whore in the mouth.
Tucker “I know you like girls. What about threesomes with guys? You ever do that?”
Jess “Oh yeah.”
Tucker “You do know that girl, girl, guy = awesome, but guy, guy, girl = gay, gay, whore.”
Jess “I know, but this was kinda different.”
Tucker “How? You were in love with both and couldn’t decide so you had a fuck-off?”
Jess “No… this threesome was more about the guys.”
Oh no.
Tucker “What?”
Jess “Well, my boyfriend and this other guy and I had a threesome, and they kinda focused on each other—”
Tucker “You fuck gay guys? Are you telling me I just fucked a fag hag?”
Jess “NO! It’s not really like that, you see my boyfriend—”
Tucker “You do know that virtually all AIDS cases are transmitted three ways: IV drug use, sex with prostitutes, and SEX WITH GAY MEN! If you don’t fuck those risk groups, you are probably going to be fine, yet here I am, fucking a girl who screws homosexuals. This is just fucking great. Where is the closest clinic?”
Jess “NO WAIT! It wasn’t like that, listen. My last boyfriend is gay now, but the first time he ever hooked up with a guy was that threesome. And it wasn’t really a threesome. We were drunk and high and this kid got blacked-out drunk and passed out and my boyfriend sucked his dick.”
Tucker “That was his first time with a guy? Yeah right, and you are the first girl I’ve ever fucked.”
Jess “NO! IT WAS! I’ve known him since he was 6! He is gay now, but that was the first time he’d done anything with a guy. He talked about it a lot before then, but that was the first.”
Tucker “Did you fuck him after he started putting random dicks in his mouth?”
Jess “NO! That’s pretty much the reason we broke up!”
Tucker “Pretty much! What are the other reasons? Murder? Arson? You mean raping a guy who was passed out wasn’t enough, there had to be other reasons?”
Jess “Did I mention that the blacked-out guy was 17? And a virgin?”
Tucker “I am going to take a wild guess and say that this ex-boyfriend is the same guy who you let fuck you in the butt right before he had his cheating whore girlfriend go down on him?”
Jess “Uhhh… yeah…”
Tucker “This just keeps getting better. Please tell me that incident was before he started fucking dudes?”
Jess “YES, of course!”
Tucker “That is the first good news I have heard since this conversation started.”
Jess eventually calmed me down by plying me with beer and promises that she knew her ex very well and that even though he is a big gay slut now, that really was his first time. I didn’t believe her and was still going to get tested, but I felt much better.
Then she started talking about the T-shirts I sell on my site and how she wished I had one that said I FUCKED TUCKER MAX.
Tucker “Who would wear that?”
Jess “Are you kidding?!? I would wear that shirt with pride. The only problem is that lots of girls would buy it who haven’t fucked you, so you’d have to have a limited edition only for girls you’ve actually fucked.”
Tucker “Well, if you are really serious about wanting people to know you fucked me, you should get a tattoo. Get I FUCKED TUCKER MAX right above your pussy.”
Jess “I would totally get that tattoo.”
Tucker “Yeah, OK.”
Jess “I’m completely serious. I will get it right now.”
Tucker “Get out of here, there is no way you’ll get that tattoo.”
Jess “Let me close our tab. I’ll do it right now.”
This isn’t happening. This girl cannot be serious. She is just bullshitting me, trying to lie her way into my heart. I am totally going to call her on this… after she pays the tab, of course.
Tucker “Are you drunk?”
Jess “No, not at all. I’ve had like three beers. I’m a fucking bartender, I drink more than this before I even go into work.”
Tucker “All right, come on, stop fucking around. You and I both know you aren’t going to do this. Let’s go to another bar.”
Jess “I am totally serious. Come on.”
We start walking toward the tattoo place. No way… she can’t be for real.
Tucker “Are you serious about this?”
Jess “Absolutely.”
Tucker “Why do you want to do this?”
Jess “For me, this is like… it’s… this is like for a devout Catholic if Jesus were to come down from heaven and say, ‘I validate you.’ ”
Tucker “I don’t care what anyone else says, you aren’t crazy, you are prescient and way ahead of your time. Good for you.”
Jess “That, and tomorrow I am going to take a picture of this and send it to my dad and say, ‘Happy Fucking Birthday, Dad.’ ”
Tucker “No you’re not.”
Jess “Oh yes, I am completely serious. Then I am going to show it to the whole family on Thanksgiving.”
Tucker “Why do you hate your dad?”
Jess “He married my horrible bitch stepmom and basically left me on my own.”
Tucker “So let’s see… the two men you have loved the most—your fiancé and your father—abandoned you?”
Jess “Well, yeah… I hadn’t really thought of it like that.”
Tucker “And your best male friend turned gay after dating you?”
Jess “Yeah…”
Tucker “I guess this tattoo is just the logical course of events. I may leave you, but the tattoo never will. Makes sense. Let’s go!”
We get to the tattoo place. I have never actually been in a tattoo parlor before, at least not sober, and I cannot believe all the pictures everywhere. Every wall is covered with art, some of it really good, some of it bad. The Jesus with the lazy eye was my personal favorite. The girl working there is straight out of an anti-drug commercial about the horrors of crystal meth: missing teeth, crazy eyes, twitching and dressed like an outdated Christina Aguilera.
MethGirl “What can I do for you?”
Jess “I want a tattoo. Just four words, right below the left hipbone.”
MethGirl “OK, what do you want it to say?”
Jess “I fucked Tucker Max.”
MethGirl [at least a 5 second pause] “Are you serious?”
Jess “Yeah.”
MethGirl “OK. It’ll be about 30 minutes until Jeff is done with the guy ahead of you.”
She walks off, and I kinda start to feel pangs of guilt. Can I really let Jess go through with this? This girl is totally fucked up, but she isn’t a bad person. I’m torn about what to do. And beyond that, once she gets this thing, she and I will be inextricably linked from this point forward, for better or worse. I need some guidance, so I turn to my higher power:
What Would Tucker Do?
I decide th
at Tucker would at least have to see if she is sure about her decision. I can’t make her do anything, but I can at least make sure she knows what she’s getting into:
Tucker “You know this is permanent, right?”
Jess “Yeah, of course.”
Tucker “You do realize that every dude you fuck from now on is going to see this, right?”
Jess “Yeah.”
Tucker “Look Jess, I think you are making a great decision and this is clearly the coolest thing I have ever seen. But not many other people on earth would agree with me.”
Jess “I know.”
Tucker “Because of this tattoo, you are going to have problems with every guy you fuck from now on not named ‘Tucker Max.’ I love this tattoo idea, but we aren’t ever going to date or get married. That job is going to fall to someone else, and he might not like that tattoo. Do you understand that?”
Jess “Yes, of course.”
Tucker “And you are still cool with it?”
Jess “Tucker, I idolize you. I mean, I relate to you, you are my fucking hero, and your writing is part of me, it is part of who I am and helps me define my existence. I want everyone to know this. I want my parents to know this, I want my kids to know this, and my future husband has to be OK with this.”
I pause and actually picture that scenario: her pulling down her pants to show her children this tattoo and then trying to explain it to them in a way that would make sense to a child… then I have to push the thought out of my mind. Sometimes, the unresolved pain that seeks me out and surrounds me is too much to contemplate.
Tucker “OK, as long as you know. If I were anyone else on earth I would call you stupid, but personally, I think this is awesome.”
At that point her phone rings. It is one of the bouncers she works with, who she tells me has a crush on her. I can hear only her side of the conversation, but the rest is easily figured out.
Jess “I am at a tattoo parlor… I’m getting a new tattoo… on my hip… ‘I Fucked Tucker Max’… yes, I am totally serious… oh Jesus… yes, I am sure I want it… no I am not drunk… what?… did you just say that I am one of the greatest girls you’ve ever met?… make me fucking sick… whatever, unless you’re drinking in the city with us, then I don’t want to hear from you for the rest of the night… bye.”