by Sharon Lee
"Zhena Trelu," he murmured. "Buy is-" He tipped his hands out. "We not buy, maybe."
She frowned at him. "You don't have any money to buy clothes, is that it?" She shook her head, feigning irritation. "All the work you two have been doing around this place? Did you think you were working for nothing, Cory?"
"Dinner," Meri said unexpectedly. "Supper. Bed."
"For the little bit the pair of you eat," the older woman informed her with feeling, "I got the best end of that bargain. I owe you a few clothes-couple jackets, maybe. That should make us even for what you've done so far, all right?"
Meri looked at her husband, who moved his shoulders in that foreign gesture of his and bowed slightly. "Thank you, Zhena Trelu."
"You're welcome," she said, unaccountably touched.
Cory reached out and took the girl's hand, and the two of them slipped out of the kitchen, leaving only a soft "Good night" drifting behind them.
"Good night, children," Zhena Trelu said quietly, and turned to run water into the kettle.
"You should be as comfortable as possible," Val Con told Miri softly. "Later, you will be able to do this at any time, but to learn it is better to be at ease." He sat cross-legged in the middle of the double bed and smiled at her. "Perhaps you should unbraid your hair and take your boots off. Take off all of your clothes, if you will feel better so."
Miri grinned as she unbraided her hair. "I'd hate to tempt you like that."
"I," he said austerely, "am above such things. It is not for you to think that Scouts might be human."
She made the bow of student to teacher, hamming it, eyes very round. "Forgive me, Commander, I'll remember."
"Do so," he directed. Then he grinned. "I shall endeavor to keep my thoughts pure."
She shook her hair and combed rapid fingers through it, then sat on the wall-bench and yanked off her boots before shedding the rest of her clothes. "Now what?"
He patted the bed at his side. "Come lie down."
She lay on her back, eyes tight on his face, right hand fisted between her breasts.
"You are comfortable?" he asked. "Not cold? It is better if you put your arms at your sides and let your hands relax." He reached to brush the clinging copper threads from her cheeks; his fingers touched her lips lightly. "I promise you, cha'trez, this is a good thing-pretty and friendly-not at all frightening. Even I was able to learn it the first time."
She gave a gurgle of laughter and composed herself as he had suggested.
"Good," Val Con murmured, noting how tense her muscles still were. "Now I will tell you what will happen, then I will show you the way, and then I will ask that you repeat the process by yourself while I watch. All right?"
"Okay." Her eyes were on his, and he folded his hands on his knees, making no effort to break that link between them.
"The name of this technique," he said softly, "is 'The Rainbow.' It is a way of relaxing mind and body so that one may improve concentration and think-more rightly. People who are tense and confused make mistakes. And tension and confusion leach joy from life, which is a thing to be avoided. We should strive for more joy, not less-and that is what the Rainbow is for." He found his voice taking on the proper rhythm, found himself speaking the same words he had heard from Clonak ter'Meulen, all those years before.
"What you must do," he told Miri, "is picture the colors of the rainbow, one by one: red, orange, yellow, green, blue, purple, violet; and use the-key-of each color to relax more deeply. By the time you reach the end of the rainbow you will feel very nice indeed: warm and comfortable, perhaps a little as if you were floating. You will then walk down the stairway and through the door. That is what will happen." He lifted a brow. "Shall we continue?"
Miri was frowning "You're gonna hypnotize me?"
"No. I help you relax. Each person's Rainbow is unique. I may show you the way because of the superficial similarity of the color structure. But your Rainbow is yours, cha'trez. There is no danger. If you should become frightened or uncomfortable-or simply wish to go no further-you need only open your eyes. It is your will that commands, not mine."
"Got it." She closed her eyes, then opened them with a sigh. Her left hand had curled into a fist while he was talking, and she flexed it open before looking back at him with a ragged grin. "Well, let's give it a spin and see what comes up."
"All right." He smiled. "Close your eyes now, Miri, and breathe deeply. Try not to think of anything specific, but let the thoughts flutter by, unconsidered . . ." He closed his own eyes briefly, feeling for the proper rhythm and words. Wily old man, Clonak ter'Meulen, he thought; I wonder where you are now.
"Miri," he began gently. "Please visualize the color red. Hold it before your mind's eye. Tell me when you have it firm."
"Now," she said instantly.
"Good. Hold it; let it fill your head, pushing away all those little, half-formed thoughts. Let there be only red. There is only red. Warm, happy red, filling your thoughts entirely.
"Now," he said after a moment, "let the red flow down through your body, starting at the top of your head, warming and relaxing you-down through your face, your throat, your shoulders-warm, friendly, relaxing red . . ."
And so he took her through the Rainbow, slowly, gently, watching the tension ease out of her, her face soften, her breathing slow. He reminded her at yellow and again at purple, as Clonak had once reminded him, that she might open her eyes and return, should she so desire, but she did not choose that path.
"You are now concentrating on the color violet," he said softly. "The end of the Rainbow. How do you feel, cha'trez?"
"Nice," she murmured, voice slightly fuzzy. "Warm and kind of-cloudy-feeling. Safe." She smiled a little. "I'm glad we're closer here."
He tipped a brow at that but replied gently, "I am glad, also. Look about you now, Miri. Do you see the stairway?"
"Standing on the top stair," she told him, voice entirely unsurprised. "It goes down a way."
"Will it make you feel-unsafe-to walk down?"
"No," she said unhesitatingly. "Should I?"
"If you wish to, Miri."
"Okay." A slight pause, then she said, "Val Con?"
"Yes."
"There's a door."
"So?" he murmured. "What sort of door?"
"Old-time door-all shiny, dark-brown wood and a big brass knob. There's a keyhole as big as my fist."
"Why not go in? Or would you rather return now?"
"I'd rather go in," she said definitely. "But I don't have a key to fit this beast-"
"Perhaps in your pouch," he suggested softly.
"Naw, I don't have a key like-" Her brows twitched over closed eyes. "I'll be damned."
There was a longish pause before she said again, "Val Con?" Wonder and excitement filled her voice.
"Yes, cha'trez."
"It's a library," she breathed. "You never saw so many books-tapes and bound-and a desk and a chair-big and soft-candles-little knickknack things and-uh-oh."
"What is wrong?" He expended the effort necessary to keep his voice smooth.
"I'm in trouble, boss-there's a Belansium planetscape in here."
He grinned. "I do not think you need worry. Does the room please you?"
"Please-it's wonderful! Is yours like this?"
"Everyone's room is different," he told her gently, firmly refusing to consider the shambles his own must be in, if it still existed at all. "I am happy that you are happy."
He paused, then decided on a departure from Clonak's technique. "Miri?"
"Yo."
"May I give you a gift?"
Her brows contracted slightly. "A gift? Why?"
He winced. "It gives me joy to do so," he said very gently. "Will you allow it?"
"Yes."
"Thank you," he said seriously. "Look on the seat of your chair. Do you see the book there? Not a large book-very thin, in fact. Bound, with paper pages . . ."
"Here it is!" After a moment she went on, hesitantly. "Val Con?
It's-it's beautiful. You sure you want to give it to me?"
He extended a hand, stopping just short of touching her near-sleeping face. "I wish it," he said gently, "with all my heart." He paused. "Listen, now, and I will tell you about this book. You will see that each of the pages is blank, except for the first four, where I have written something for you."
"Yes."
"Good. The first page, that says 'Sleep,' does it not?"
"Yes," she agreed once more.
"And the next," he continued, "says 'Study;' the third, 'Relax;' and the fourth, 'Return.' Is that correct?"
"Exactly correct."
"Very good. Now, what you may do, whenever you come to your library, is look at this book and choose what you will do. If you choose to sleep, you need only open to that page, concentrate on the word there-and you will sleep. If you wish to allow your mind to review and integrate the day's affairs-or if you wish to work on a particular problem-you will open to the page marked 'Study,' concentrate on the word, and your mind will be ready to learn.
"If you find yourself growing tense, you might wish to go to your library and regard 'Relax.' And, if you wish to return to the world outside your room, you need only bring your attention to the fourth page, and you will awaken." He waited a moment to let it all sink in.
"Miri, please open your gift to the page on which I have written 'Return.' Concentrate on it . . ."
She took a sudden sharper breath, then her eyes flickered open, and she smiled at him, very gently.
He smiled back. "Hello, Miri."
"Hi." She stretched, catlike, her smile widening to a grin as she extended a hand and touched his scarred cheek. "You're beautiful."
He raised a brow. "I am happy that I please you," he murmured. "How do you feel?"
"Wonderful. This gimmick might not help me talk to Zhena Trelu, but if I feel this relaxed every time I go down and come back, we're up."
"But it will help you talk to Zhena Trelu. If you choose to do so, you may go to your library and concentrate on 'Study' and 'Sleep.' Then you will be able to assign your attention to sorting and making sense of all that has come to pass-today, for instance-while your body and your waking mind rest. Tomorrow you will then have access to all of today's data, not just a jumbled mess that you have no time to sort through."
"If you say so." Her brows twitched together in a frown. "Where'd you learn this gag?"
He unfolded his legs and stretched out beside her, head pillowed on an arm, eyes level with hers. "It is a Scout thing. A man named Clonak ter'Meulen taught me, when my uncle hired him to make Shan a master pilot."
"Your uncle hired a Scout to teach your cousin to pilot?"
"Oh, no-Shan had been a pilot for years! He merely required tutoring to attain his master's rank, and Uncle Er Thom would settle for no less. As for hiring a Scout . . ." He moved his shoulders. "Clonak desired passage; my uncle desired his son to have the best tutor available. So a bargain was struck."
"And he just taught you this Rainbow thing on the side?"
"Of his kindness. He had known my father, you see, and he was much taken with Shan and me. I achieved my third class that trip, under his training." He stroked her cheek lightly. "Will you do a thing for me now?"
"Do my best."
He smiled. "Will you go through the exercise again, while I watch? And when you achieve your library, would you assign your concentration to 'Sleep'? The past days have been very hard for you-I am sorry that I did not understand how hard, so that we could have resolved this sooner. And tomorrow we are to go to town and buy clothes, which may prove trying for us all . . ."
Miri laughed and laid her lips firmly against his; he felt her fingers in his hair, and a quickening of his own blood. When she leaned back, the laughter was still in her eyes. "Sure you want me to go to sleep?"
"Alas," he murmured, half smiling in regret and admiration.
"Slave driver." But she rolled onto her back and closed her eyes. In a little while, the rhythm of her breathing told him that she was asleep; and in an even shorter while, he followed her.
DUTIFUL PASSAGE:
Liad Orbit
Priscilla took off her shirt and laid it neatly on the bed, then stretched with casual sensuality and bent to remove her boots. The soft belt with its cleverly worked silver buckle was next, followed by the dark blue trousers.
Unencumbered, she stretched again and crossed the first mate's quarters to the wide, cloth-covered chair. She curled into it like a cat, which reminded her of Dablin, so that she smiled for a moment before closing her eyes and beginning the discipline that erased all expression from her face.
The discipline progressed: breathing deepened; heartbeat slowed until it was a distant boom coming at long intervals, like an ocean beyond the hills; body temperature dropped four degrees. When she was satisfied that those functions had stabilized and would remain steady until the body itself failed of hunger or trauma, Priscilla withdrew her attention to her place of safety, admitted the prayer that would keep her whole on such a chancy venture, opened the door between her Self and that which was not her Self-and went forth.
Sounds, dazzling patterns, seductive perfumes: the Passage and all within it suddenly experienced with only the inner senses. There: Shan on the bridge. There: Lina in the common room. There: Gordy in the trader's room; Rusty at the comm; Ken Rik, Calypso, BillyJo, Vilt . . . Priscilla touched each, acknowledged all-and let them go.
The Passage, with its din of familiarity and love, dropped away, and she was alone in the noisy outside. She disallowed the clamor of strangers, brought up the template of the aura she sought, and focused on it, stretching awareness until her Self was barely more than a webbing of moth antennae, listening, quivering, straining far and farther . . .
It was at the point that Self was strained to the thinnest, when the thread that anchored her to the Passage, to the body, was at the limit of its elasticity, that she heard/sensed/saw it.
A glimmer, no more. A hint of familiarity; a bare taste of acerbic sweetness . . .
Awareness contracted as Self rushed toward the hint, unsubtle in desire; everything focused on the pattern growing in her senses, intent on contact, so that it was not until the last instant that she recognized the subpattern of one protected within deep meditation.
Aboard the Passage the body cried out, awareness and Self expanding toward dissolution as she struggled to absorb the psychic impact, scrambling even then for the shredding lifeline, clawing her way back, awareness a shivering knot of pain within the fire-shot network of Self-and plummeting into the body at last, heavy as a stone.
She cried out again as the pain ate along nerve and sinew, heartbeat stuttering, respiration a gasping mess, body soaked in sweat, and it was hot, hot, too hot-
Cool.
"Shan!" That cry was no less desperate, for all he was Healer and strong in his skill. "Shan, no!"
Cool enveloped her, leaching the heat and stifling the agony. She collapsed into it as if into his arms, and opened herself utterly, allowing him to cool even the memory of the pain, letting it vanish out of knowledge as heart rhythm steadied and breathing smoothed . . . She sighed and drifted, thinking of nothing.
"Priscilla."
It was with no common effort that she opened her eyes and looked into his face, vaguely surprised to find that she was indeed lying in his arms.
"No more, Priscilla." Face and voice were stern; exhausted witch-sense brought her the echo of his terror. She thought about smiling, and perhaps she even did.
"I saw Val Con."
His pattern changed too subtly for her to read. "Where?"
She moved her head. "It doesn't work that way, love. There aren't any directions when you go-spirit-walking. He's alive . . . strong . . . Meditating-playing, perhaps. I should have remembered how the music rings around him when he plays . . .That's what got me in trouble. Rushing in before I looked close. Wooly-headed as Anthora."
"I don't recall that Anthora has ever put
herself in quite so much danger in her checks on my brother-or on any of the rest of us. Understand me-no more. You will not endanger yourself searching for my renegade of a brother, who is, incidentally, quite capable of taking care of himself." His arms tightened fractionally, and she had no trouble reading the shift in his pattern that time. "I can't afford to lose you, Priscilla; have some sense."
There was no talking to him, not with the fright he had just had-she saw that clearly, exhausted as she was. She smiled once more and lifted a hand to his stark cheek. "Of course, dear," she murmured. And slept.
STARSHIP CLARION,
ALLIED TO CAPTAIN ROBERT CHEN-JACOBS
Taking Orbit About the World Named Kago
The trip had been hasty and wondrous; the captain of the Terran vessel in which Sheather and his T'carais traveled was a gracious individual with an understanding nearly as bright as that of Val Con yos'Phelium Scout. He was a treasure, was Captain Chen-Jacobs, and Sheather had lovingly subscribed him to memory, knowing already how much might be learned from those hasty persons of the Clans of Men.
Consider that his T'carais, known to men as Edger, claimed untold wisdoms acquired from his adopted brother, that same Val Con yos'Phelium Scout-and the T'carais had a memory both long and rich. Indeed, only see what Sheather himself had learned, through their last brief meeting with the brother of the T'carais and the lifemate of that brother. Another treasure entirely was Miri Robertson; and Sheather dwelled often upon the honed brightness of her, to his wider appreciation of what was.
"Four days from Lufkit to this place," Edger said beside him.
Sheather blinked solemnly. "The Clans of Men and the ways of those Clans are hasty indeed, brother. And yet I find myself-exhilarated-by their speediness, touched by the valiance of their striving."
"Do you so?" The T'carais considered him with care.
There was that in the voice of the T'carais which brought to mind vividly one's own position as a mere Seventh Shell; yet Sheather did not efface himself. "I find myself," he said instead, "looking at this action or another of an individual with the eyes of our new sister. It is a difficult endeavor, and one that I perhaps undertake imperfectly, yet I say to you, brother, that a certain-correctness-exists, though the view must be both hasty and imperfect." He foundered somewhat under the unwavering regard of his T'carais and the eldest of his brothers. "No doubt there is much thought yet required."