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by Baileigh Higgins


  “Maybe, but if it weren’t for me, he’d never have stayed, and Joanna would still be alive.” Elise broke down, her sobs harsh and unforgiving.

  “Oh, my dear.” Julianne gathered her friend into her arms and held her while she cried. It took a long time before Elise was well again, but it served a purpose. Afterward, she seemed more at peace while Julianne was once more reminded that she wasn’t the only one with problems.

  “Feeling better?”

  “Much.” Elise glanced at the sky. “You need to hurry; it’s almost dark. I can finish up here.”

  “Are you sure?”

  “Positive. Besides, I’d appreciate it if you could watch Anne for a bit.”

  “No problem. I’ll bring her by later.”

  “That’s perfect.” Elise waved her off with a wan smile. “Now shoo.”

  Julianne hurried toward the schoolroom where she found ordered chaos. Michelle ushered the kids out in a row while they laughed and chattered. Hovering beside them were Erica and Tumi. Both nursed their babies, and she paused to admire them each in turn.

  Henriette, named after Henri as promised, looked much like her mother. She was both blonde and smiling, all dimpled cheeks and blue eyes.

  “She’s such a pretty little thing,” Julianne exclaimed.

  “That she is,” Erica agreed. “Sean is such a proud papa; he can’t get enough of her.”

  Sean showed up at that moment as if to prove her words were correct. “Hi, Julianne.”

  “Hello.”

  His face became wreathed with smiles when he spotted Erica and the baby, and he lost himself in wonderment. With his sandy head bowed over Henriette, he clean forgot about anyone else.

  Julianne laughed and moved away from the young couple to Tumi who also held her son in her arms. Thabo was a big baby for his age, and the birth hadn’t been easy, but Tumi couldn’t be happier. Neither could Joseph.

  As Julianne looked down into his dark eyes, the color of polished ebony, she thought she caught a glimpse of his father’s somber wisdom and courage. “He’s so big. What are you feeding him?”

  Tumi smiled. “Joseph says he takes after his grandfather.”

  “Well, his grandfather must have been an impressive sight.”

  “So I hear,” Tumi laughed. “A veritable giant.”

  A small hand tugged at Julianne’s sleeve, drawing her attention away. “Yes, my sweet?”

  Meghan stared up at her with earnest eyes. “Can Anne come play for a bit?”

  “Of course. She’s staying with us while her mom finishes with supper.”

  “Yes,” Meghan cried, acting like she’d scored a victory. She bounced around with Princess on her heels, the little terrier no longer a puppy. Buzz joined in on the fun and chaos ruled for several seconds.

  Julianne shook her head at the child’s irrepressible spirit, thinking not for the first time that she had a lot of Morgan in her. Always so brave, but also so reckless.

  Michelle handed Sam to her with a smile. “She’s getting big.”

  Julianne hefted the toddler in her arms with a grunt. “That she is.”

  No longer a baby, Samantha was flourishing under all their combined care. She was a sturdy walker and very curious, a trait that necessitated constant supervision.

  Julianne nuzzled her her soft cheek. “So how’s my little Sam doing today?”

  Sam smiled a toothy grin and clapped her hands together. “Mama, mama, mama.”

  “She ate a bug today,” Meghan exclaimed with a suitably horror-stricken look.

  “Oh, what was it?”

  “A beetle. It was this big.” Meghan held up her hands to indicate an insect of imposing proportions.

  Michelle laughed and whispered. “It was just a Christmas beetle, and I took it away in time.”

  “Gotcha.” With a wink, Julianne herded Meghan, Anne, and Samantha back to her place.

  Michelle stayed behind with the dogs, Mark, and Jenny. She’d adopted all four of them, and together they formed what was perhaps the strangest family in the camp. Though Princess belonged to Meghan, Julianne had neither the time nor the space to look after her. It wouldn’t have been fair to keep the little dog away from Buzz either as the two had formed a bond over the months. They’d grown very attached to the two orphans, Mark and Jenny, as well, and nobody had the heart to split them.

  Julianne hustled Meghan and Anne inside and closed the door. With one eye on the girls, she fed and bathed Samantha. Afterward, she boiled tea then read them all a story. It took her mind off of Christo, though she couldn’t help but stare out the window at the darkening sky with worry. Where is he?

  At dinner, she took them all to the common room where they had a frugal supper. Afterward, she handed Anne off to Elise before finding Max deep in conversation with Kirstin. “Max, have you heard anything from Breytenbach?”

  “I’m sorry, Mom. Not a thing.”

  “All right, but if you do…” she trailed off into a strained silence.

  Max nodded. “I’ll let you know immediately.”

  “Thank you. I’ll be up for my turn at the watch tomorrow morning,” she said before returning to her cottage.

  Meghan tugged at her arms and chattered non-stop, her face bright and vivid. As ever, it cheered Julianne, that and the company of the more sedate Samantha, but once they were put to bed, the silence oppressed her.

  With a sigh of regret, she closed the bedroom door and crawled into her bed. She shivered, feeling lost and lonely without Christo’s warmth next to her. Silent tears leaked from her eyes as she sent up a silent prayer. Don’t take another one from me. I couldn’t bear it. Not again.

  Chapter 8 - Nadia

  After Logan left, Nadia stood for a long time, rooted to the spot. His words rang harsh in her ears, and his retreating back felt like a slap in the face. Tears pricked at her eyes, stinging her lids with bitter recriminations. Doesn’t he want me to go with him? Doesn’t he care whether I stay or not?

  She turned in the opposite direction and followed the sidewalk. Her left hand picked at the surface of her right forearm in an unconscious gesture, her nails scratching the delicate skin until it was raw. She knew she was being unfair toward Logan, but her conflicting thoughts allowed no room for rational thinking.

  “Nadia? Is that you?”

  A voice cut through her thoughts, and she swung around. Her eyes fell on the tall, slender figure that strode toward her with determined strides, and her heart stuttered. “Donya?”

  “It is you!” The girl in question halted a short distance away and regarded Nadia with deep blue eyes from a tanned face. Her hair was scraped back into a tight ponytail which cast her square jaw into sharp relief. “I can’t believe it. After all this time.”

  “Donya,” Nadia uttered once more, her mind unable to comprehend what it saw. Of all the faces from her past, this was one she’d never expected to see again. “You’re here.”

  “In the flesh.”

  “You survived. How?” Nadia reached out to the other girl with a tentative hand but stopped when anger flashed across Donya’s face.

  “I’m here, alive,” Donya replied. “No thanks to you, of course.”

  “What do you mean?” The words were like a physical blow, and Nadia backed up a step.

  “You know what I mean.” Donya’s eyes narrowed to slits. “It was you. You were the one who infected Brandon. You were the one who murdered us all. Even Joshua who took you in when you had nowhere else to go. He was good to you. We all were.”

  “I’m sorry,” Nadia whispered as guilt rose to envelop her entire being. It was a futile gesture made more from a sense of despair than true denial. “I didn’t know.”

  “You should have guessed,” Donya said, one finger pointed at Nadia in accusation. “You should have known you’d be infectious. You and that stupid boyfriend of yours.”

  “But I didn’t. How could I know something like that?” Even as she uttered the words, Nadia felt disgusted at the whe
edling tone in her voice. She hated being on the defensive. It went against the grain. “How did you find out?”

  “It wasn’t all that hard to figure it out. You were the only link between Brandon and the virus, after all.” Donya leaned back on her heels and folded her arms across her chest. “Besides, after you bailed, I stumbled upon Elias. He told me what you said.”

  “Elias,” Nadia whispered. She remembered again the night it all happened, the memories as sharp and intrusive as a knife. The screams, the blood, Elias’s hand dragging her through the house and then out into the night. He saved her life that night, and she repaid him by leaving him alone to die. “He told me to leave. He was bitten.”

  “Oh, I know. We found him toward the end, just before he turned.”

  “We?”

  “Harry and I. We made it out, both of us.”

  “You did?” Hope blossomed inside Nadia’s chest.

  Donya nodded, and her features softened by a small degree. “He saved me.”

  “Where is he?” Nadia asked, looking over the other girl’s shoulder.

  “He’s gone.” Donya’s expression hardened once more. “He died about a week ago. Zoms got him. Ripped him to pieces right in front of my eyes.”

  “Oh.” Disappointment crushed the fragile hope that had sprouted for a brief moment in Nadia’s chest. “I’m sorry.”

  Donya’s mouth twisted. “Because of you, I lost everything. We lost everything. He could still be alive today.”

  “Try to understand,” Nadia pleaded. “If I’d known, I never would have let it happen.”

  Donya chuckled. “Yet, here you are. Once more keeping dangerous secrets from innocent people. I can’t say I’m surprised.”

  Nadia’s mouth worked, but she couldn’t summon up the energy to fight back, to deny the other girl’s accusations. While a part of her knew Donya was wrong, another part whispered that she was right. “You’d tell them?”

  “In a heartbeat.” Donya gestured around her. “These are good people. They deserve better than you.”

  “I’d never hurt them,” Nadia whispered.

  “Nice look you’ve got going there, by the way. I’m getting a real wolf in sheep’s clothing vibe there. Trying to fool everyone, huh?”

  Nadia sucked in a breath, and her hands curled into fists. “It’s not like that.”

  Donya snorted. “Uh huh.”

  “You’ll see.”

  Donya stared at her for several seconds, a bitter smile hovering on her lips. Finally, she turned away. “Well, this was nice, but I’ve got other business to attend to. See you later.”

  Once more, Nadia was left alone and bereft. On numb legs, she turned away and stumbled further down the hill. Her feet carried her to the edge of the dunes, and she looked for a sheltered spot to sit. She found it between a stunted tree and a weathered boulder.

  With her legs folded beneath her, she sat on the grassy knoll and stared at the surf below. The waves rolled onto the shore, the water pushing up the sand as the tide came in only to retreat again in a pattern as old as time. Never ending.

  Her fingers plucked at the grass with restless energy while her mind looped in endless circles. The guilt she’d fought so hard to bury was back in full force. It seared through her veins like battery acid. Grief for Brandon and the others burned like a bright flame inside her.

  Her past, never very far away, came tumbling back as her defenses crumbled to dust. Hot tears raced down her cheeks and dripped onto her jersey. “All my fault. It was all my fault.”

  Her hand encountered a shell, the jagged remnants of an abalone. Its pearl edges were razor sharp. Without thinking, she rolled back her sleeve and cut into the tender flesh of her forearm. The skin split like rotten fruit, precious blood spilling out onto the ground. The cut brought sweet relief as the tension flowed out of her the same way the waves splashed onto the sand. She sighed and closed her eyes.

  “Nadia? What are you doing?”

  Martin’s sharp voice caused her to whirl. She dropped the shell onto the grass and clamped her hand across the wound. “What are you doing here?”

  “I came looking for you.”

  His tall shadow fell across her face, and she blinked up into his somber face. “Why?”

  “I spoke to Donya. She told me everything.”

  Nadia’s heart sank. “She did?”

  He nodded. “She came in this morning with Josh and Dirk. They found her holed up in an old farmhouse and brought her in. She overheard Thys and I discussing the expedition, right after we welcomed her. She recognized your name and asked about you. That’s when she told us everything.”

  “I see,” Nadia whispered. Now that Martin knew, she was sure he’d kick her out of St. Francis. So much for making my own decisions. Will he even let me go with them on the expedition?

  “That’s it? That’s all you’ve got to say?”

  “No…I…does Thys know too?”

  “He does.”

  Nadia looked down at her hands. “Then everyone knows.”

  “Not yet. I told Donya to keep her knowledge to herself for now. I don’t need a widespread panic in the town.”

  “Smart.”

  “Yes. Not that you’ve been very clever about this whole thing.” He fixed her with a stern glare. “Why didn’t you tell me?”

  “Does it matter?”

  “Of course, it matters. Don’t avoid the question,” he commanded.

  “Because I’m a freak, okay?” she burst out. “A murderer.”

  Martin sighed. “You’re not a murderer.”

  “Then what am I?”

  He gazed at her for a moment. “You’re just a girl, a survivor like the rest of us.”

  She blinked, taken aback. That simple?

  “But,” he added, “you’re dangerous too.“

  She dropped her chin. “I know.”

  “So you must know you can’t keep secrets like that. Ever.”

  She nodded, miserable in the knowledge that he was right.

  “You cannot allow what happened before to happen again. You have a responsibility,” he said. “And you cannot endanger innocent people simply because you’re afraid they’ll shun you.”

  “I would never let it happen again,” she protested. “I’m careful.”

  Martin’s voice took on a razor’s edge. “Don’t be a fool. What happens if you get hurt and someone comes into contact with your blood by mistake?”

  Nadia shook her head. “I won’t…I wouldn’t let them.”

  “What if some stupid boy decides to take a chance and snatches a kiss? Don’t think I haven’t noticed Caleb’s regard for you,” he insisted. “People need to know. He needs to know.”

  When Nadia failed to respond, he gripped her by the shoulders in a gesture both sympathetic and angry. “Tell me you understand, Nadia.”

  She nodded as a single tear dripped down her cheek. “I understand.”

  He sighed and straightened up. “Good.”

  “So what now?”

  “What happens next is up to you. Logan tells me you are undecided on whether to leave or stay.”

  “I suppose.”

  “It’s straightforward. If you decide to stay, you will be required to tell people the truth. They deserve honesty.”

  “Okay.”

  “The same applies if you go. You must tell the expedition party the truth.” He paused for a few seconds. “Or I will.”

  Her breath caught in her throat as the implications of his words sank in. If she stayed, she’d have to tell Caleb the truth. If she left, she’d be abandoning him. Either way, he’ll hate me for it.

  “What about when we get to the other camp?”

  “I’d expect you to do the right thing.” His gaze was stern and uncompromising.

  “I don’t know what the right thing is anymore,” she confessed. “I feel so lost.”

  His features softened. “You’re not lost. The real Nadia is still in there. You just have to find her again.


  “Easier said than done,” she scoffed.

  “I never said it’d be easy.” He turned and walked away, pausing only to make a final remark. “Nothing worth having comes easy.”

  Once Martin disappeared from view, Nadia turned back to watch the scene stretched out before her while she pondered his words. The truth in them was undeniable. “Nothing worth having comes easy.”

  From her vantage point, she watched the fishing boats come and go in the distance. They went about their business without a thought for the zombies that now ravished the land. Fishermen cast their nets and strung their lines beneath the burning sun as if nothing had changed.

  Their skin showed the wear that came with the job. Deep grooves marked the leathery tan that turned their faces into uniform masks, and salt crystals formed in their graying beards. Later, they would pull in their haul, the nets filled with masses of quivering silver bodies, and tonight people would feast. Bellies would be filled, and fears would be stilled.

  A rubber duck cut a diagonal line across the water, launched from the nearby harbor. It bobbed over the crested waves, cutting through the water like a knife through butter. She surmised the boat carried Adam, returning from the morning meeting to once more take up his post at the helm of the Sincerity. It was the biggest and best equipped of all the fishing boats, and he rarely left it, preferring the open waters of the ocean to the claustrophobic arms of the town.

  For a second, Nadia contemplated what it would be like to stay. To say farewell to Logan and build a life for herself here, instead. She imagined what it would be like to live there on the shores of the sea forever, perhaps joining the watch as Ada had suggested. Some, like Donya, might hate her, but maybe the others would understand.

  Maybe Caleb would, a hopeful voice whispered in her mind.

  It would be a good life. One filled with honest work, loyal friends, and security of a sort, if not love and children. That was lost to her. Perhaps, in time, she could even make peace with what she’d done.

  But she couldn’t accept it. Refused to believe it. People would hate her, or at the very least they’d fear her. She pictured them shunning her, walking circles around her in the street while mothers herded their children away in fright. It was a painful reality. What should I do?

 

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