by Kris Pearson
“This is more my idea of a kiss,” he said, moving over her in the near darkness, sliding a hand up her arm to turn her toward him, and settling his lips on hers.
He meant it to be—he swore he meant it to be—a sweet and sinless sign of affection. Nothing more. But her lips were soft and responsive, and clung to his just a second too long to be truly innocent.
He groaned as he pulled away and retreated to the furthest cold reaches of the bed. Hot lust raced through his veins. The wanting simmering just below the surface boiled over and scalded him, sending needle sharp torture along every nerve.
“Shouldn’t have done that,” he said in a voice husky with need. “Sorry. Bad night—get some sleep.” He knew his own chances of sleeping were now next to nil.
*
Jetta raised her fingers and touched her too sensitive lips. She could easily imagine his mouth still on hers, his tongue teasing her apart and the kiss becoming deeper and more passionate.
She wished it had.
The horrible night, the shocking danger of the fire, the loss of her possessions, the gut-wrenching emotion of confessing her deepest darkest problem, had all combined to make life so precious. Now she wanted to live to the full, experience everything it had to offer. Surely Anton would be gentle, and try not to frighten her after what she’d told him?
She turned on her side, desiring more than the brief touch of his lips on hers. Already she missed his skin. Wanted his arms around her again. Knew she was willing to grant him power over her. If he tangled his long legs through hers, and held her down as he had earlier, perhaps that was the price she had to pay for the pleasure and freedom that might follow?
She reached out a tentative hand. Where had he gone?
The bed seemed vast. She raised her head and saw his silhouette on the far side. With extreme caution, she slid and wriggled across until his body heat was a tangible thing, warming her from a tiny distance away. Then she extended her hand until it hit bare flesh.
He flinched. Maybe she heard him draw in a fast breath but he made no other sound. Surely he’d registered the mattress dipping as she crept across to him? And hadn’t tried to stop her?
Barely believing she had the courage, she edged closer, and stroked to and fro over the piece of him she’d landed on. His waist—because her fingers hit the edge of his pajama pants. He felt a hundred degrees hot, and as smooth as velvet.
“Are you asking for trouble?” he muttered, his voice a soft growl, almost animal.
The delicious thrill of what ‘trouble’ might mean arrowed down until it settled between her thighs, pulsing and fluttering, wanting to be set free.
She edged forward and pressed a kiss on his spine. This time she definitely heard his indrawn breath, but he stayed unmoving.
“Maybe?” she whispered.
He gave a very resigned-sounding sigh.
“You pick your moments, don’t you? I’m lying here so hard I’m in pain, but this is not the time for it, babes. You’re probably still in shock. You’re pumped full of adrenalin. You’re stone cold sober but hyped to hell.”
She kissed his warm back again, and then licked up and down over several of the fascinating bumps of his spine.
“God... you’re not going to make this easy on me, are you?” he groaned, rolling over and pinning her underneath him. “Feel what you’ve done to me? Hmmm?”
He gave a small thrust of his hips, and Jetta certainly could feel what she’d done to him.
“Sorry,” she said in a small voice, secretly thrilled.
“There’s nothing I’d like more than to hump you into next Sunday, filthy and tired as I am. But it’s not what you need, whatever you might think.”
His silhouette loomed above her. She knew where his mouth must be, so she stretched up and found it with hers. His lips parted on a gasp, and then pulled away. For long moments they remained frozen, then he sighed and dipped his head again until he found her. Groaning, he pressed her down into the pillow, biting at her softly.
Jetta parted her lips, seeing the beautiful shape of his mouth so clearly in her mind. The sharp bow of his top lip. The warm full cushion below.
The sensation of his flesh brushing over hers, lifting, returning, was accompanied by his hand sliding up her neck, his thumb tilting her chin and tipping her head to the exact angle he wanted it. He held her there as if she might wish to escape. Not a chance! And he deepened his kiss, cursing at her in the darkness, sliding his tongue over hers, and drawing in desperate breaths as he kissed her and kissed her until her whole body buzzed and hummed with pleasure.
“No more,” he grated, deserting her mouth for her neck. He pressed a hot open mouthed kiss below her ear, then lower and lower until he reached the junction of her neck and shoulder.
He bit her, not softly. His whole big body trembled with barely leashed power and the last vestiges of restraint. “We’re not doing this,” he said. “Not now, for sure. Maybe tomorrow when things are somewhere near normal, we can talk about it...”
He laved over the bite with his tongue.
Jetta was so far from wanting to talk about anything that she groaned with frustration and wriggled against him.
“Forget it!” he snapped. “Be pleased I can still stop. You deserve better than this.”
And somehow he rolled, taking her with him and tucking her into the curve of his body so her back pressed against his hard chest, and her butt felt exactly how aroused he was. Her only consolation was one of his big hands cradling her breast, thumb running over and over her nipple through the fine cotton of her nightgown. “Sleep,” he instructed. “No more funny business.”
*
Somehow, overwhelmed and exhausted, she did sleep.
And woke on Friday morning disoriented, in the wrong bed in the wrong room, and surrounded by the acrid stink of wet ashes.
Anton pushed the door open as she struggled back to consciousness. He was suited and shaved, and looking so distant that last night’s ferocious embrace might only have been in her imagination. He held a mug of coffee in each hand. “Morning,” he said, setting hers down.
He sat on the bed far enough away to be downright unfriendly, and she pushed herself up, tucked the sheet firmly over her breasts, and eyed him with suspicion. This wasn’t what she’d expected.
“Are you okay?” he asked. “At least they saved the rest of the house, so things could be worse.”
“Easy for you to say—your room’s not a soggy mess.”
“True,” he conceded. “And even though I got that door closed again damn fast, the fire smell is all through the place.”
“Yes, I’m okay.”
Or I can pretend to be until I know how things really stand between us.
“I presume you’re taking the day off work?” He sipped his coffee. “There are things in your room that need salvaging.”
“Are you going into town?”
Duh! Of course he is. Dressed like that.
“Only for a couple of hours. I’ll be back well before eleven to give you a hand. I’ve ordered another dumpster so we can get rid of the worst of the mess.”
She nodded, and the silence stretched out too far.
“About last night,” they said in unison.
He held out a hand in a ‘you first’ gesture.
This was difficult. There was so much she wanted to say. So much she wanted to know. And so much she didn’t dare ask with him looking daunting in his business tycoon disguise, avoiding her eyes, sitting miles away.
“Thank you for saving my life,” she said. “You’ll never know how grateful I am. How’s your shoulder?”
He softened enough to give her half a grin.
“Damn sore. You owe me.”
“Anything you want.”
“Yeeeahhh,” he said, stretching the word out so it hung on and on between them. “That’s the other thing we need to talk about.”
No! She saw her best ever chance of gaining her sexual confidence slipping l
ike sand through her fingers. How could she impress upon him how shockingly important it was to her?
“Please?” she asked, eyes prickling with unshed tears. “Please, Anton.” The hot drops brimmed over and slid down her cheeks, and she dashed them away with her fingers, furious with herself for being so undisciplined. “This isn’t meant to be a damned sympathy request,” she added. “You’d be kind to me, gentle with me after what I told you. In some ways that would be even more valuable than being rescued from the fire.”
He sat, silent for too long, not looking at her. Finally, he raised his eyes to hers; blue eyes that were both weary and wary now.
“I’m no doctor,” he said, “but you’ve still got to be in shock and a long way from your normal self. We’ll see how you feel tonight.”
Jetta nodded, not trusting herself to speak. She picked up her coffee and gazed down into it before she raised it to her lips.
“Thanks for this.”
“You’re welcome.”
We’re as stiff and starchy as a pair of strangers. How did I ever think this would work?
“I’ve just checked that latch you put on your bedroom door,” he said in a tight voice. “I’m kicking myself! You’ve got the two sides out of line. No wonder you couldn’t get it open. Why the hell didn’t you let me do it for you?”
She glanced up at him again, and saw how real his anger was. His beautiful lips pressed together, almost white. His eyes narrowed with fury. A patch of color blazed high on each cheekbone. Then his emotions got the better of him. “You could have died!” he yelled.
She jumped, slopping her coffee over the sheet to join the streaks of ash and smears of blood. “I didn’t want to ask.”
“You wouldn’t ask me for a bit of basic carpentry but you’d ask me for sex?”
“I did not ask you for sex. I asked you for some kindness.”
“I’d rather you’d asked me to check your carpentry,” he grated, running a hand back through his hair, messing its thick softness into furrows.
She shrugged. “Too late now. The damage is done.”
“I don’t want to do any more damage—to you.”
“You won’t damage me. I trust you. Look what happened last night?”
“How could I forget? You’re lucky I had that much self-control. You’re a hot little package, Jetta. Don’t go trying that with anyone else.”
“As if I’d get the opportunity...”
His words sank in an instant later. A hot little package. So he found her attractive, even though he was furious she’d disregarded her safety. So there might yet be room to negotiate?
“I won’t go in to work today,” she said, deliberately changing the subject. “I’ll ring. They’ll understand after last night. Lots of people are still on holiday anyway—like your wretched lawyers.”
Anton tilted his mug and gulped the last of his coffee. He stood.
“How bad is my room?” Jetta asked as he started to leave.
“Bad enough. Mostly the end wall, of course. The bed’s done for. The wardrobe doors were shut, so...?”
“So maybe some of my clothes will survive?”
“They’ll stink of smoke. You’ll have to get them dry-cleaned. I hope you’re insured?”
She watched as he pulled the door open and then half closed it. His swift steps progressed along the timber floor of the hallway, followed by the jingle of car keys and the hollow thud of the front door closing.
She sat on in silence, sipping her coffee, thinking the last of her childhood and family memories had probably disappeared in the flames. How could you insure that?
Her eyes settled on the big white robe hanging on the back of the door. She stripped off her smudged and crumpled nightdress and held the robe to her face. Anton’s lemony cologne teased her nose.
She had the ideal excuse to borrow it, so she slipped her arms down the sleeves and pulled the belt tight. It would be wonderful to have Anton wrapped around her like his robe. Maybe tonight?
She padded out to the laundry, searching for anything more suitable to wear, and found a pair of jeans, and shorts and panties, and several clean T-shirts, too. She chose the darkest.
But it was nice wearing his robe. She drifted around the bedroom, thinking of the way he’d kissed her. Or rather, the way he’d not been able to resist kissing her. Yes, it had been frightening pinned under his long heavy body, but she’d felt so desperately wound up that making the first move—reaching across the bed and touching him—had been out of her conscious control. She’d confessed her inhibitions, let him know she trusted him, and hoped he would be her teacher.
Poor guy—what a responsibility I’ve thrown at him!
She pulled the front of his robe up to her nose and sniffed once more before regretfully un-belting it and sliding out of it, imagining his fingers stroking and feathering over her. But it would be quite another thing to have it happen for real.
Once she was dressed in shorts and T-shirt, she pulled back the duvet, stripped the bed, and took the sheets to the laundry. She squeezed stain remover over the smears of blood and ash and set them to soak before searching for fresh ones.
She remade the bed, taking special care, smoothing the fresh sheets out, folding one over the top edge of the duvet with precision. She changed the pillowcases for a crisp new pair, setting the pillows exactly level, and imagining her body entwined with Anton’s. How badly had he hurt his shoulder breaking down her door?
Then the shock hit her. She could have been dead. Should have been dead. If it hadn’t been for him, she would have been.
Delayed reaction, she thought, shivering, and dropping onto the bed when her knees really didn’t want to hold her up any longer. It had been the same after her parents’ road smash. She’d been gently told about it, and seen the hideous wreckage on the TV news that night (much to Gran and Grandpa’s ire) but it wasn’t until the next morning the truth had sunk in.
Thank you, thank you, thank you, she murmured, rocking backward and forward with distress, crushing the beautifully made bed.
If only there wasn’t so much mystery hanging between her and Anton. Gran’s house already bore the scars of their battle—the demolished fence, the burned out room, the roughly installed extra door.
And there was still the question of his parentage. No matter how hard Jetta combed through her memory, she couldn’t recall anyone mentioning him or his mother. But if he wasn’t related, why did he think owned half her house?
And if he was related—closely—that wrecked her plans for any intimate games tonight.
She rose slowly to her feet, testing her balance before stepping away from the bed. Grimacing at the creases, she began to smooth the layers out again.
Anton flung the silver Porsche around the streets with more recklessness than was probably wise. Jetta had sneaked under his skin. Right into his head to mess with his brain. She’d offered herself on a plate, for the most unlikely of reasons, and he’d been far too tempted. For years, he’d avoided major entanglements, driven by fierce ambition to overcome his less than fortunate start in life. He had things to show the world, and being tied down by a woman wasn’t part of the picture.
But from the moment he’d seen her dusty tear streaked face under that terrible hat, he’d wanted to... protect her? He thought about that as he screamed to a halt at a red light. Such a compact ball of pride and anger and challenge. The challenge was the part he enjoyed most. Claire might look like a catwalk model but her personality was bland as blancmange.
Jetta spat sparks. Interesting sparks. She had a sharp brain, plenty of ambition, and a feisty personality that annoyed the hell out of him.
But—territorial and tetchy as she was—there was vulnerability there too. Now he knew why, and it ripped him apart.
She’d been nine. Nine. A little doll, he’d bet. All big eyes and dark hair and mischief.
He’d wager the uncle hadn’t gone to Canada. It would have been straight to jail. But okay, her family
had done a good job convincing her he was well out of the way, and plainly she hadn’t wanted to question it.
Canada it would stay.
A few minutes later, he angled in to his car park. He’d arrived early for his interested apartment buyer but there was something he wanted to do, well away from Jetta’s sharp eyes.
He unlocked the office, set his laptop down, and opened it. Googled ‘Incest in New Zealand’, and found himself on the Interpol site.
Illegal between parent and child. Illegal between brother and sister, whether of the whole blood or the half blood.
He raised his eyebrows at the old-fashioned phrasing.
Illegal between grandparent and grandchild.
Well, the first and last were off the menu. Was there any possibility he could be Jetta’s half-brother? He didn’t see how. Jetta was younger by six years, and he’d have noticed if his mother had suddenly sprung a baby sister on him.
Which left his unknown father.
Surely not Jetta’s father? The thought flashed into his brain like white lightning.
Bile rushed up in his throat—hot and acid and disgusting. He clapped a hand over his mouth to stifle the nausea. Sat there with his eyes screwed shut until he could consider the possibility with a calmer mind. He simply couldn’t be her brother...
Jetta’s Dad could have fathered a son years before he married her mother.
He mulled over that nasty possibility for a while longer.
But that would make me Anton Rivers and not Anton Haviland.
Relief washed over him in huge swamping waves.
No—somewhere there’d once been a man named Arthur John Haviland who’d left Isobel alone and pregnant, and there was no chance he’d fathered Jetta as well. He began to feel better.
Good old Wikipedia had the extra information he needed.
Not banned between cousins.
He and Jetta were in the clear—legally at least.
Chapter Ten — Inspecting Anton
“Do you want a coffee before you start?” she asked, embarrassed by her unlovely, soot- streaked appearance.