“What do you want me to say?” He threw up his hands. “That I’ve been celibate for the past ten years? I haven’t, but that doesn’t mean I haven’t thought about you. I tried to track you down. Where the hell did you go?”
She lifted a shoulder as her gaze landed on the black and white photo of Zach and his date. “I needed to get away for a while, to sort things out.”
“How long have you been back?”
“A while.”
He had a perverse need to know everything that had happened to her in the years they’d been apart—everything except how she met the man in the photo. His eyes involuntarily slid back to the photo, and that’s when he saw the little boy. “Oh my God, you have a kid.”
He reached for the frame, wanting to get a closer look to determine if the little boy looked like his mother or the man he considered his mortal enemy. Before he could grasp the frame, she shoved it into her desk drawer. “I already told you I don’t want to take a trip down memory lane with you.”
“How old is he?” he asked, narrowing his eyes. The boy looked at least eight, which meant she hadn’t waited long to move on.
She licked her lips, and her eyes shifted from her watch to the door. “He’s… uh… turning nine.”
“Nine? So you meant him the year after you left me?” When she didn’t respond, he said, “God damn it, Rennie, you owe me something!”
“Fine, yes, okay. I met Nathan the year after I moved away. Are you satisfied?”
Satisfied? Was she out of her mind? He couldn’t remember a time when he’d been more irritated.
“I’m sorry to cut this short, but I have a meeting in a few minutes. I’ll have Terri contact your representative. If you can just give me a card with their contact information, or yours, I’ll pass it on to Terri.”
“I’m working with you.” He didn’t care if her husband liked it or not. Causing her new man as much discomfort as possible was suddenly his new mission in life.
“I don’t think so.”
“Really?” He scanned the letter on her desk. “Then you can be the one to tell Jake it ain’t gonna happen.” He was bluffing. He would never deny a sick child’s wish just to spite his ex, but she didn’t have to know that.
“You would do that?” she asked, her distaste for him seeping into her controlled tone. “Of course you would. I don’t know why I’m surprised.”
Taking a card out of his wallet, he slid the card across the desk. “So you can call me tomorrow. If you wanna make this happen, you can take me out for lunch so we can discuss the details.”
“But, but…” she sputtered, her face flaming. “You said to call your office, that your people would email your schedule and—”
“I know.” Lifting a shoulder, he smirked. She used to hate it when he did that. “I changed my mind. You must work with enough celebrity types to know how we are.” He hated fame and everything that went with it. She knew that—or at least she used to know that. Back when they knew each other better than anyone else. That seemed like a lifetime ago.
“So that’s the way it’s going to be,” she said, crumpling his business card.
“That’s the way it’s going to be.” He crossed the small room in two strides. “I’ll expect to hear from you tomorrow. Don’t wait too long to clear your schedule. Like you said, I’m a very busy man.”
Chapter Two
Rennie was still fuming half an hour later when Terri returned. “I brought you a peace offering,” Terri said hesitantly, holding a take-out cup from Rennie’s favorite café.
“How could you do that?” Rennie slapped her desk. “I hadn’t even approved the application.”
“But I knew you would have if you’d heard Jake’s voice,” Terri said, setting the cup down when Rennie failed to accept it.
“How did you hear his voice?” As if she didn’t know. Terri had obviously been busy contacting the applicant and his family while she’d been tied up in meetings all morning.
“I… uh… called his house. I thought it would be a good idea to go ahead with the preliminary interview, just in case you decided to move forward with it.” When Rennie dropped her face into her hands, Terri said, “I didn’t make any promises. I just told them we would see what we could do.”
Rennie reached for the coffee. She deserved a reward for putting up with all the strong-willed people in her life. “I can’t believe you did that. What were you thinking?”
“I was just trying to help,” Terri said, her normally harsh voice softening. “I’m sorry.”
Rennie allowed guilt to seep in. Terri was the best assistant she’d ever had, and she couldn’t afford to lose her just because she was a wreck after seeing her ex. She couldn’t believe it. Zach not only knew she was back in town, but he knew she had a son. What a nightmare. “It’s okay. We’ll figure something out.”
“You mean Zach Foster didn’t agree to meet Jake?”
Rennie took a sip of her coffee as she scrambled to come up with an excuse. “He will, but he expects me to make all the arrangements.”
“I don’t see the problem,” Terri said, frowning. “You usually do that when high profile people are involved.”
“This case is different.” Rennie was trying to decide whether she should confide in Terri about her history with Zach when her door burst open and her son came barrelling in.
“I’m sorry, Rennie,” her friend Karina said. Karina was a dental hygienist who worked three days a week, so they shared carpool duties. “I told him to knock first.”
“It’s okay.” Rennie laughed as her son threw his arms around her neck. “Thanks for bringing him by. I’ll pick the kids up tomorrow. If that works for you?”
“That would be great. Thanks.” Karina waved as she closed the door behind her.
“Hey,” Terri said, crooking a finger at Tyler. “I have a secret to tell you.”
Rennie watched her son move in close enough to hear Terri whisper. His big dark eyes widened and his mouth fell open, revealing two spaces where baby teeth had been.
“Mom, did you really meet Zach Foster today?”
Oh no. With a dozen butterflies flitting around in her stomach, Rennie forced a smile. “Sure did, buddy. How cool is that?” She definitely should have told Terri about her history with Zach. Tyler would be relentless about asking when he could meet one of his baseball idols.
“He was here, in this office, standing right about where you are,” Terri said, adding fuel to the fire as she looked at Tyler’s neon green and black Skechers.
“No way,” he whispered, staring at his mother. “Mom, why didn’t you keep him here so I could meet him?”
“What would you have me do, Tyler, handcuff him to my desk?” A wave of heat moved up her neck when she remembered the time they had experimented with handcuffs. Zach had just bought his first condo and they were enjoying the luxury of privacy…
“Hello?” Terri snapped her fingers in front of Rennie’s face. “Are you still with us?”
“Sorry, I was just thinking about something else.” Something she had no business thinking about in the presence of her child—correction, their child. “How was school today?” Rennie hoped there hadn’t been any more incidents. Tyler was a good boy, but he’d been acting out lately, trying to get attention in class and instigating trouble on the playground. Their therapist thought it may be the result of residual feelings about losing his father. How would Tyler feel if he found out he not only had a father his mother had never told him about, but his father was none other than baseball superstar Zach Foster?
“It was okay,” Tyler said, wrinkling his nose. “The best part was gym.”
“Of course it was.” Rennie rolled her eyes. Tyler was definitely Zach’s son in that respect. He had been born wanting to throw a baseball, not to mention all of the other sports he played when time allowed.
“Hey, I made sugar-free cookies last night,” Terri said. “You want one?”
“Can I, Mommy?” Tyler ask
ed. She was Mommy when he wanted something, Mom when he was trying to act cool in front of his friends or teammates.
Checking her watch, Rennie said, “Just one. You have baseball practice in an hour, and I’m making your favorite for dinner—beef fajitas with whole grain wraps.” She conned him into eating protein by telling him it would help to build the muscles he’d need to become a professional athlete.
“Can I chop the veggies?” he asked.
He liked to play with the new slice and dicer she’d bought to cut down on meal time preparation. She was usually in a hurry to get a decent meal on the table after baseball practice. He’d been trying so hard to help out around the house since Nathan died. It broke her heart to see her baby feel he had to take on the role of her protector when his only thoughts should be of school, sports, and spending time with his friends. “Only if I’m there to supervise. You know the rule.”
“Yeah, I know the rule.” He smiled when Terri offered him a cookie in a paper napkin. “Thanks.”
Rolling his eyes at his mother he said, “I don’t know why you won’t let me do more stuff on my own.” He took a bite of the cookie. “I’m not a baby, ya know.”
Terri and Rennie shared an amused glance. Terri had a nine-year-old daughter, so she knew the challenges of trying to survive life as a single parent.
“I thought you said you’d always be my baby.” Rennie stood as she collected a stack of applications to review that night. She slid them into her leather briefcase.
“So, when am I gonna meet Zach Foster?” Tyler asked, making her heart stutter.
“Mr. Foster is a very busy man. I can’t make any promises. Come on, let’s go. We still have to swing by the house so you can change.”
“Have a good night,” Terri said as Rennie ushered her son out the door.
A good night? Like that was possible. Even a good night’s sleep would be too much to hope for.
***
As soon as she’d found a spot on the bench, Rennie dialed her sister’s number. Jackie would understand her predicament. She was one of only two people who knew for certain that Tyler was Zach’s son. Rennie had kept the truth from her parents because they were close friends with the Fosters, and she didn’t want to put them in the uncomfortable position of having to lie to them about their own grandchild. She’d humiliated herself instead, claiming she had a brief affair with a man she barely knew when she left town. Her rebound guy, she’d called him. Her parents didn’t question her about it after she claimed the child’s father didn’t want to be a part of his life. At least that much was true.
Jackie’s husband, Mason, answered the phone. “Hey there, what’s new with my beautiful sister-in-law?”
Gotta love caller ID, Rennie thought wryly. Her brother-in-law was one of the good guys. He treated his wife like a princess and was an attentive father to their two-year-old, Alyson. He was the only other person who knew that Zach was Tyler’s father. Jackie told her sister that she couldn’t keep secrets from her husband, and Rennie agreed. The last thing she wanted was to cause tension in her sister’s marriage. Rennie reminded her kid sister all the time that men like Mason were few and far between. She knew how easy it was to get caught up in the day-to-day grind and forget to tell her partner how much she loved and appreciated him. Then one day, she’d wake up and realize it was too late.
Trying to shake off her melancholy mood, Rennie said, “Same old, same old. How about you? How’ve you been?”
“I can’t complain. When’re you coming over for dinner? I miss beating you at ping pong.”
Rennie laughed. Whenever she went to their house for dinner, she, Mason, and her dad made a beeline for the games room. They would waste the night away playing pool, ping pong, and vintage arcade games. Her mother swore they were worse than the kids, but Rennie loved every minute of it. Spending quality time with Mason and her father reminded her good men were still out there. Maybe one day, when the time was right, another one would walk into her life. “Save the trash talk for another day. I need to talk to my sister. Is she around?”
“Yeah, she’s out in the backyard planting some flowers. Hang on, I’ll get her for you.”
She heard Mason call his wife sweetheart. It reminded Rennie how much she missed the little intimacies of married life.
“Hey, sis,” Jackie said, sounding winded. “This is a nice surprise. I didn’t expect to hear from you tonight. Doesn’t Tyler have a game?”
“Yeah, I’m here now,” she said, smiling and waving to parents claiming the bench two rows in front of her. She lowered her voice. “You’re never going to believe who walked into my office today.”
“Who?”
“Zach.” Rennie waited for a reaction. Her sister would be as stunned as she had been that afternoon.
“How the hell did he know where to find you?”
Rennie was still using her married name, Alexander. Even if he’d Googled her, it wouldn’t have been easy to find her. “Call it dumb luck.” Rennie watched her son take the pitcher’s mound. The intensity in Tyler’s dark eyes reminded her so much of Zach. She always felt a pang of guilt and uncertainty when she saw him in his baseball uniform, following in his daddy's footsteps. “One of the kids who submitted an application wanted to meet him, so Terri called Zach to try to arrange it.”
“So he just showed up at your office?”
“Yup.” She still couldn’t believe it herself. “But that’s not the worst of it. He saw Tyler’s picture and started asking questions.”
“Oh no.”
Those were her sentiments exactly. The sisters had had numerous conversations about how Zach might react if he found out she’d kept his son from him. Rennie told herself that she’d been justified. She didn’t want her son growing up with a father who wished he’d never been born. Jackie always told her that people change. Maybe Zach felt differently now. Maybe he’d be mad as hell she hadn’t given him the opportunity to participate in his son’s life, and he’d use all of his resources to fight her for custody, or try to poison their child’s mind against her. The Zach Rennie had known wouldn’t have done anything so sinister, but after the phone call she’d overheard the night before their wedding, she questioned whether she ever really knew him at all.
“What are you going to do?” Jackie asked, breaking into her thoughts.
“He still thinks I’m married.” She knew she should have told him she was a widow, but she still found it difficult to admit that Nathan wasn’t coming home.
“Why would he think that?” Jackie asked, sounding confused.
“He saw my ring and our wedding picture.” She couldn’t block out how gutted Zach had looked when he realized she was married. What did he expect? That she would put her life on hold and wait for him to grow up and decide he wanted the family he never intended to give her?
“How did he react?”
“He seemed surprised.” Stunned would have been a more accurate description, but her sister didn’t need to know every detail.
“Poor guy.”
“Excuse me?” Rennie lowered her voice when a couple of grandparents a few feet away glanced in her direction. “Don’t make him out to be the victim in all of this. He made it clear he didn’t want the baby I was carrying.”
“I know.” Jackie sighed. “But don’t you think he would have felt differently when he found out you were actually pregnant? I mean, guys may say they’re not ready for a baby, but when the time comes, they usually feel differently.”
“Not a risk I was willing to take.” Rennie hadn’t softened her stance on that. She wouldn’t risk her son’s future on a man too immature and selfish to realize that winning the World Series would have paled in comparison to having a son like Tyler.
“I hear ya. What’s done is done. The question is, what are you going to do now?”
“He wants me to arrange his visit with the boy.” Rennie was normally meticulous about ensuring visits went off without a hitch, but just once, she’d give anyt
hing to delegate her responsibilities.
“Oh man, are you going to?”
“I don’t have a choice.” A sick boy was counting on her. When she took the job, she’d promised herself she would do everything in her power to make every child’s wish come true. She couldn’t allow her own fear to rob Jake of his one chance to meet his hero. Hero. The kid sure has lousy taste in heroes.
“So when are you going to see him again?”
“Lunch tomorrow. He wants me to call him to make the arrangements.”
“You have to let me know what happens.”
Rennie frowned at the excitement in her sister’s voice. She was dreading the meeting, and Jackie was acting as though the captain of the football team had just invited her to the prom. “Nothing is going to happen. We’ll have a quick lunch, in a very public place, make the arrangements for Jake’s visit, and that’s it.”
“But you’ll have to be there for the visit, won’t you? You know, on behalf of the foundation.”
“I suppose so.” Unless she could pretend to have the flu that day…
“Does Tyler know you met Zach?” Jackie asked, the amusement still evident in her voice.
“Yeah, Terri told him. Talk about making a bad situation worse.” She couldn’t blame Terri for spilling the beans. Her assistant knew nothing about her relationship with the All-Star pitcher. “Now Tyler is bugging me about meeting Zach. Any idea how I handle that?”
Jackie laughed. “You better not introduce them. Zach would take one look at my nephew and know that was his kid.”
“Don’t say that.” Fear rose up to choke off Rennie’s air supply. “I told him Tyler was eight. He assumed I met Nathan shortly after I left town.”
“Oh what a tangled web we weave,” Jackie said in a sing-song voice.
“Would you stop? This is serious.” Rennie felt terrible lying to her parents and Zach, but she didn’t feel she had a choice. She didn’t want her son to feel the sting of rejection anymore than she wanted Zach to feel some sense of obligation to her or their son. They’d been doing just fine without him and would continue to survive on their own. He could give Tyler anything money could buy and seasons tickets to watch his favorite baseball team in action, but he could never love Tyler more than Rennie did.
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