A kiss stopped my scream.
I stopped struggling, and smiled, willing my heartbeat to slow down and my lips to savor the familiar taste.
I was in Seth’s strong arms. Exactly where I wanted to be. Safe.
“Miss Desroches, your curiosity will get you into trouble,” he said.
“Spare me the bad luck speech, the whole world has already warned me.”
“With great success, I see. I knew I couldn’t keep any secret from you.”
“And if you don’t let me go, Mr. Pryce, you’ll be the one in trouble.”
He laughed as he released me, his dark eyes sparkling with amusement and just the right amount of lust. He stepped towards the balustrade and for a moment surveyed his work below.
Tanned, with short jet black hair, a thick neck and a square jaw, he looked to have been carved by the elements from some ancient piece of rock. Even in casual khaki pants and a simple white t-shirt, he radiated intensity and focused effort – from his muscular body sculpted by a punishing workout routine to the way he asked questions. He never wasted time in small talk. Or small anything.
“Do you like it?” he asked in an unexpectedly quiet voice.
“Well,” I sighed, still dazzled by the extraordinary display of sophisticated opulence in the hall below. “I didn’t think anything could be more spectacular than our engagement party, but here it is. You’ve outdone yourself.”
“But do you like it?” he asked again, more sharply this time.
The edginess in his tone made me look up to him. His face had gone paler.
“Of course I do, darling. It’s beyond what I could have ever dream of.”
“If you don’t like it, there is still time to change,” he interrupted, his jaws clenched. “I have people on standby, and you haven’t seen half of it yet. Tell me what you want.”
I was about to protest when he winced, his hand shooting to his side. The blood had drained from his cheeks. It had happened a few times in the past weeks.
“Are you alright?”
He nodded.
I gave him a gentle nudge with my shoulder. “Is someone having wedding jitters?”
He smiled. “Yeah. You could say that.”
I probably looked more concerned than I should have. He turned to me, still pale, and put his arm around my shoulders.
“Jessica, I want this to be a celebration worthy of our love, and the commitment we’re making to each other. I want this to be the best day of your life. Nothing less will do.”
“It is, Seth. I’m the luckiest girl in the world. But is it what you want too?”
His forehead touched mine and he stroked my cheek with his powerful hands. They were trembling.
“All I want is to be with you. Forever. And ever and ever.”
When he kissed me, I closed my eyes and surrendered to the sweet relief washing over me.
I had the answer I had come here to find.
The dream had become reality. I was marrying my prince.
3
The memory fades. Darkness returns. Shadows whisper.
“Sixtine… Sixtine…”
I can almost make out the silhouette in my dark cell, coming slowly towards me. Its shape is unlike anything I have seen before; the body is human but the head cannot be. What beasts does the emptiness hide? It comes closer, and another scream dies in my throat.
When the green light returns, its shape remains on the stone wall like an after-image. But I am no longer looking at it. Instead, all my senses are trying to make sense of another dark shape on the floor.
Another body. Dead, too.
I refuse to believe what I see and my breathing becomes painful, so I focus on details. The short dark hair. The thick neck. The bulky, muscular torso.
My prince. Seth.
Unlike mine, his eyes are closed. Unlike me, his fingernails are not broken, his skin still smooth. Like me, a huge black cross is tattooed on his stomach.
There is a dirty, bloody hole where his heart is supposed to be.
Grief fills every inch of me, washing away even the disbelief, the fear, the questions. But it recedes fast. I understand what I am seeing, and that recognition scorches everything left in me.
He was murdered.
Someone killed my prince, and killed me too. Why else would his chest be empty, and the flesh on my fingertips scraped raw?
I want to throw myself against him, hold him, bring him back to life. I want to scream out loud “Who did this to you?” I want to weep and vow to avenge him. But everything in this room seems to exist in a dimension different to the one I am in. I can only watch as if from behind invisible glass, powerless, ignorant, and haunted.
The green light vanishes, and with it the last trace of my slain prince.
As despair overwhelms me, another memory creeps into my consciousness.
4
The hands of the large clock in the Mornay Wing pointed to seven-thirty.
In half an hour, an army of assistants would arrive at my hotel to help prepare me for my big day. The hotel was just around the corner, I still had a little time to spare. This was the last opportunity for solitude before a string of long, exhausting days mingling with the wedding party guests, and I was determined to enjoy it.
So I found myself in an Egyptian room, alone with one of the star attractions of the museum.
A mummy.
A three-thousand-year old adult male rested on an ancient table inside a glass case. The strips of linen wrapping his head were weaved into an exquisite pattern, and next to him lay the mask that once had covered his face, decorated with a winged beetle. A scarab.
The explanatory notice described the images depicted on the various parts of the mummy: the apron showed various goddesses and the four sons of Horus, including Hapi, the baboon-headed protector of the throne in the Underworld. Anubis, the jackal-headed god of the afterlife, was painted on the feet. On the casing, hieroglyphs said that the deceased entrusted his destiny beyond to them all.
I was fascinated by the extraordinary artistry of it; yet it struck me that I was looking at a dead man, alone and vulnerable in the middle of a busy museum hall. Would the hordes of tourists and selfie-takers who would pass by him in a couple hours pay him the respect he deserved?
Without thinking, I stepped closer. My hand touched the vitrine; my forehead rested against the cold glass. I couldn’t look away from his bandaged, eyeless, mouthless face.
I couldn’t look away from death.
The nervous excitement which had been bubbling under my skin since dawn morphed into something that took my breath away: a wave of compassion and gratitude and knowing, lifted my trembling chest. I couldn’t quite understand why I was so moved and what these feelings were, or even what I knew exactly. For a moment, I glimpsed at some complex purpose just beyond the reach of my comprehension, the expression of a greater power that lived within me just as it had lived within him, three thousand years ago.
Then the gentlest of caresses brushed my cheek, as if given by an invisible hand. My throat closed tight by emotion, as I knew this sensation well.
My mother was right there.
Her presence revealed itself as a feathery balm, a soothing song whispered silently. These gentle manifestations usually sparked within me an outpouring of hope. But on that day, there was a restlessness which I had never experienced before. As my mind wandered, my eyes blurred over the reflection of the mummy on the opposite pane of glass.
Lost in my thoughts, it took me a few seconds to realize that there was something else in that reflection.
The slim, dark silhouette standing right behind me.
“The symbol of rebirth,” the voice said.
I jumped and turned and at once recognized the man’s face, and that almost feline ability to stand perfectly still. Seth’s childhood best friend, artist and heir of a prodigiously wealthy family.
Thaddeus di Blumagia.
But remembering his name was not quite enough t
o slow my heart rate.
“Oh, hey, Thaddeus. It was you I saw earlier, wasn’t it? I tried to call after you, in the grand staircase? I was a bit lost.”
He stared straight at me with his deep, light grey eyes, and smiled. We had met only once before, at my engagement party. He was smoking under a No Smoking sign. We had talked on a frosty balcony, we had danced, and I had regretted it. What a strange night that had been. Every detail of the minutes we had spent together came rushing back, and my cheeks tingled with heat at the memory.
Gigi was right. I shouldn’t have come.
Hands dug into the pockets of a midnight blue suit, perfectly poised, he stared at the mummy.
“The scarab beetle. Ancient Egyptians thought it represented the rebirth of the soul. They were popular amulets in the time of Akhenaton and Tutankhamen. Queen Nefertiti, especially, was very fond of them. She had gold scarabs inscribed with her name.”
He seemed lost in thoughts for a while. I was about give a polite excuse to take my leave, when he suddenly turned towards me.
“Aren’t you getting married today?”
I laughed. “Yes. And may I remind you that, as best man, you’ll be right there at the altar. So we should both get going.”
“You know, I don’t think Seth could have picked a worse best man.”
“Oh really. Why?” Humoring him made my uneasiness melt away.
“Two reasons. First, I abhor candles.”
“It’s a church,” I said in a giggle. “Candles are like angels, gold and guilt. Part of the package.”
“For prayer or a funeral. Not for a wedding. There has got to be light, for God’s sake. And by the way, that Egyptian blue? Totally wrong.”
“Wrong,” I repeated, amused. “Aesthetically? Morally?”
“Historically. Egyptian blue comes from calcium copper silicate. What I saw in the decor of the Mornay Wing mimics a mineral from Iran. It’s Persian blue.”
“Mm, you’re right. I can’t see how your friendship of nearly thirty years can survive such polarized opinions.”
“Yeah, that. And also because I’m about to ask you to think twice before saying ‘I do’ to Seth.”
My heartbeat exploded inside my ear drums. I did not dare move. I replayed the sentence in my mind until I was sure I had heard it right. But his deep grey eyes, piercing everything inside me, convinced me I had.
“I am not sure this is appropriate, Thaddeus,” I said, my voice breaking into a reluctant whisper.
“It’s not what you think,” he said, his jaw clenched.
“You don’t know what I think.”
“Your blushing cheeks suggest otherwise.”
“Only because I am shocked by your words, angered and ashamed that you would even suggest that I…” I had raised my voice without noticing. I let its echo die somewhere in the emptiness of the museum. I couldn’t finish my sentence. What in hell was he suggesting?
He raised his hand. “Forgive me. I’m an idiot when I have something important to say.”
I was surprised to notice a flash of genuine anxiety in his eyes, just like the first time I met him. But my heart had leapt again at “something important”, and I was willing it to stop beating furiously.
“I love Seth, like a brother,” he continued. “And believe me, he drives me mad like only a brother can. But the Mornay Wing, the opulence, the gold, the blue, the treasures. The guests will make every effort to appear perfectly blasé. But don’t be fooled. Anyone would be blinded by all this.”
The white heat of anger rose in my chest. “Anyone, right? Not just the poor girl whom he met God knows where, three seconds ago. Isn’t that how it goes? Well, if that’s all you have to say, the mice haven’t finished my dress and my fairy godmother is waiting for me in the basement kitchen, so if you’ll excuse me, I better not keep her waiting.”
He didn’t take my bait, but as I was turning my heels, he caught my arm. He drew me close enough for me to inhale his cologne of exotic flowers and terebenthine, a heady mix which took me right back to the moment we had danced together.
“I’m the last messenger, Jessica. The last person who can tell you that if you remove all the shiny distractions, all that remains is a man, a woman and a promise to be together for eternity, in the name of love. The only thing that matters here and now is the answer to this question: are you ready to make such a promise?”
“Yes.” Oh God, why did my voice have to waver?
“In life, and in death?”
His beautiful face was so close I could see the imperceptible trembling of his lips. A dangerous familiarity had slithered between us; what he wanted out of me was so intimate, so raw. His intense grey eyes raised all the feelings of unworthiness, all the doubts and all the fears from the hidden depths of my soul.
Yet it felt entirely natural that he should know.
As I opened my mouth to speak, his long fingers bit hard into the skin of my arm. And suddenly, the whole universe cracked open in a flash of clarity. That cruel realization filled my stomach with a bitter, icy bile. What a fool I had been to think that the handsome, mysterious Thaddeus di Blumagia would care about me.
I could not help but chuckle. “I think you’re wrong,” I said in a tone dripping with disgusted glee. “You make a great best man, watching out for your friend and his gold. But you have nothing to worry about. Seth’s lawyers made me sign an iron-clad, gold-digger-safe prenup.”
I yanked my arm from his grip and whirled around.
“Jessica!” he called out after me, his voice magnified by the marble floors and glass cases. “There are things happening which are greater than you and me and Seth and a damn prenup! If you love him with all your heart as you say you do, you will live through everything. But if you don’t–”
“If I don’t, then what?” I shouted.
For the first time, he seemed at a loss for words, and his eyes flickered. Finally, he murmured in a voice so fractured it went straight to the deepest part of me. “I don’t know.”
We stood facing each other, united in our brokenness, an embalmed man as our witness. Around me, the world shattered. Time seemed to stop and wait for me to look away from Thaddeus’ grey eyes. They were burning with an ardent fire – threat or prayer, I couldn’t tell. I had to run before it consumed me too.
Before I walked away, I managed a smile and willed my painful throat to open enough to utter a few last words. “Well, I do. At the stroke of midnight, it all turns into a bloody pumpkin. Good try, Thaddeus. See you in church.”
I ran all the way to the hotel, the gentle Paris breeze toying with my blonde hair and my nascent tears.
5
“Sixtine… Sixtine…”
Darkness again follows the dying of the green light. I am now certain that there is no light source coming and going. Light and darkness co-habit within the same four walls, as do the dead bodies with the murmuring shadows. They belong to different dimensions, different worlds, invisible to each other.
Yet I can see both worlds. I ignore which one I belong to, but something tells me I have joined the shadows. It is said that only a thin veil separates the beyond, to the reality of the living.
The veil has lifted.
I now understand why this cell has no exit.
It’s a tomb. My tomb.
This is neither a dream, nor a vision. I am dead, my body resting for eternity in this very real place, next to my husband. I am just a soul. Headed for a place unknown.
“Sixtine… Sixtine…”
The black void swarms and swirls and the terrifying shape emerges again. I recognize it only when it is close enough to touch me. A man as tall as the walls, with the head of a black dog. I saw him on the mummy casing.
He is the Egyptian god Anubis, the usher of souls into the afterlife.
The air in the room vanishes. I am everywhere and nowhere, and so is the dog-headed god leading me away. I try to struggle, to hang on to what is left of the world I know. I try to rush to my de
ad self on the floor, to Seth with the hole in his chest, but I no longer have a body to fight or flee.
Will I ever know what happened to us? Will I ever know what enemies condemned us to this excruciating torment, our unjust fate haunting me just as I become powerless? Will the murderers live their mortal lives unpunished, free to enjoy the transient, imperfect, beloved world, while I don’t? Or do truth and vengeance travel through the veil as well?
Will I ever exact revenge?
“Come, my sister,” the voice of Anubis whispers. It is soft and almost kind – yet it is not a plea, but an order.
As he invites my soul into a new kind of darkness, my tomb and the bodies bathed in green light fade from view. Just before they disappear, I notice something in the corner of the room. A gold object glistening weakly in the diminishing light. Its afterimage perishes last; soon there is nothing left of it. Did I really see this, or are my eyes playing tricks on me?
Would a treasure so precious, cherished by all mankind, beyond races and cultures, be in the same world as my dead body, in my earthly tomb?
“Come, my sister. The tribunal is waiting.”
At the threshold between two worlds, I give in to the golden eyes of Anubis, and let go.
As I am about to depart, I remember one last thing.
6
“This is my ‘something new’ to ward off the evil eye,” I said to Gigi, attempting to sound light-hearted. I walked from the mirror to her armchair, and brought the fabric of the skirt to her hands.
I had asked everybody to leave me alone with my great-aunt, in my hotel room overlooking the Louvre. She was eighty-three years old, and lately she had been easily exhausted by noise and people. But if I was honest, it was more for me. Thaddeus’ words had carved such a raw wound inside me that I wanted to gather my thoughts before the ceremony, and Gigi always managed to soothe me when I was anxious. She was the one who raised me after my mother’s death, with a tenderness I had not always deserved.
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