by Mason, P. R.
"Now boys," the coach said. "Calm it down or I'm going to have to call campus security."
"Call 'em," Liam said. "They'll be too late to save this jerk."
Keagan didn't back away. He just stared Liam directly in the eyes. When he spoke the words came out as a growl. "You wanna fight bro? Let's go."
"Aghhhhhhhhhhh," I screamed. "This arguing is driving me crazy. I can't take it."
The three of them—Liam, Keagan and the coach—all turned to me in concert. The expressions on their faces couldn't have registered more shock if I'd sprouted horns. Come to think of it, my outburst was sort of like a fluffy bunny turning into a charging bull.
"Just go ahead and kill each other. I can't stop you." My voice broke on the last word with the strain of the volume and the emotion.
As they all continued to gawp at me, I whirled and ran without really knowing in what direction. The only requirement was to get away.
* * * * *
"It was horrible," I said. "Liam lying there with his neck broken and then the two of them fighting...I knew where it would end. With Liam dead."
As I spoke, head resting on our kitchen table, my voice came out sadly muffled. But my grandmother heard. She reached over from her seat opposite me and placed a hand on my shoulder. The combination of patting and massaging didn't have its usual comforting effect.
"Oh honey. I'm sorry."
Sometimes I used to rail to my Gran about why a banshee could never see anything but death. I couldn't foretell babies or marriages or...well anything happy. Just another person's end. But bitching about my talent wouldn't change anything.
"Gran, what am I going to do?" I asked, lifting my head.
"I know what you're feeling, Tara. Believe me, I know," Gran said. "But there isn't anything you can do. It's fate."
My head shook so hard the hair fell into my face. "No. I saw Liam's death before. For seven years he's been fated to die of old age. Now, suddenly, he's gonna die on Friday night?"
"Sometimes that happens. There's a fork in the road." Gran smiled sadly. "He's passed over the fork and his destiny's changed."
My phone pinged, signaling a text. Pulling it out of the purse I'd dropped on the floor at my feet, I examined the face and found a message from Liam: Cum2 dinA @ my hous 2nite. I promiS 2b gud.
Like lightning, another text followed. This one was from Keagan: Won't promiS 2bgud but promiS no fyts w/bro or my MFF.
Keagan's text almost made me crack a smile. I knew the MFF was a less than polite reference to his father. For Keagan that pledge was huge.
Keagan and Liam. The two brothers. Each with a tragic future.
Placing the phone on the table, I glanced up at Gran. "If Liam's fate could change, then it can change back. I can do something to change it back."
"What?" Gran asked.
"I don't know," I said. "But I can't be responsible again for someone I care about dying. I just can't."
"What do you mean again? Who do you think you're responsible for?" Confusion knit Gran's brow.
Silence blanketed the room for long seconds until I could force out a sound. "My parents," I whispered.
"Oh sweetheart." Gran rose from her chair and then pulled me up and into a tight hug.
Blinking back the tears, I allowed the words to spill out. "I saw what would happen. But I didn't stop them."
"You weren't responsible for your parents. There was nothing you could do about that accident."
"I tried. I told them, but they didn't believe me."
"That was more my fault than yours." Gran patted my back. "I should have told your mother about the family gift. But I thought, since it would skip over her, she didn't have to be troubled about it."
"I coulda tried harder to convince them," I said, leaning into her soft neck. The scent of her lavender soap enveloped me just as her arms did.
"Even if you had convinced them, it wouldn't have changed anything. If they'd believed you, what would they have done? Never drive a car again? Don't you think I've tried to change fate in my seventy-two years? No, honey," she insisted with a little shake. "And what if you did change Liam's future? How would that change other events? Pull on one string and the whole fabric unravels, maybe? Perhaps someone else dies?"
What did I care about that amorphous someone else? I needed to save my boyfriend. "There has to be some way."
"Your parents' fate was not in your hands and neither is Liam's."
Not in my hands? Maybe not right now, but that didn't mean I couldn't try to grab onto Liam's destiny and tug like hell. But if I tried and I failed, his death really would be my fault.
Did I have the courage to take that chance?
* * * * *
Going to the Ellsworth house that night was the first step in my campaign. But I soon found that sitting through the uncomfortable tension between the brothers and their parents was an almost insurmountable challenge. How successful would I be in changing fate when I couldn't even manage to change the heavy mood of dinner conversation?
Keagan sat on one side of the table opposite Liam and me. He scowled down at his plate as he pushed the mashed potatoes around, trying to form a perfect circle with the gloppy substance. With one turn of the fork, black ink peeked out from beneath the cuff of his shirt.
Omigod, he'd gotten a tattoo circling his forearm a few inches above his wrist. I glanced around the table, hoping that none of the others had seen it.
Their father loomed at one end of the table, stuffing his face. In between bites he sipped a scotch. He wasn't drunk, just buzzed. Mrs. Ellsworth hovered about, mostly occupying the space between her seat and the kitchen. And it wasn't only her legs getting a workout. Whenever Mr. Ellsworth would make some nasty comment, Mrs. Ellsworth would treat it like a turd in a cat box. She'd giggle nervously and let loose a barrage of inane chatter as if she were trying to bury his comment so deep beneath her own words that we wouldn't realize how stinky his words were. The only blessing was that so far most of his jabs had been criticisms of politicians and work colleagues. Only a few had been directed at the family.
At the moment we were all sitting in a merciful pocket of silence between the turd laying and the scratching.
As Mr. Ellsworth finished chewing a bite of the meatloaf, he glanced at Keagan and then at his son's plate. He swallowed and his lips twisted into a displeased curl. He opened his mouth and I knew we were in for a smelly one.
"So Keagan. Flunked any tests at the new school yet?"
Keagan flinched, the slight movement so brief I would have missed it if I hadn't been looking at him. His eyes met mine and the corner of his lip curved upward into a wry smile before he turned his head toward Mr. Ellsworth.
"No," he drawled.
"Just no? Are you disrespecting me boy?" Mr. Ellsworth picked at his teeth.
"No...sir."
"I see you've got a new tattoo there?" Mr. Ellsworth pointed his knife at his son's arm. "Did you get one of your biker friends to do it with an infected needle?"
"No."
"Maybe septicemia's already setting in. Ever think of that?"
Mrs. Ellsworth jumped up and grabbed a water pitcher from the sideboard. "It's so nice to have you here tonight, Tara." She grabbed my glass, which was three-quarters full already, and began pouring. "We haven't seen you in so long. Isn't that right? A longtime. How's your grandmother? I haven't—"
"Minnie, stop." Mr. Ellsworth picked up the saltshaker and waved it around in the air. "I'm trying to talk to my son."
"You don't need to talk to him now," Mrs. Ellsworth said with a wan smile in my direction.
"Why not? You're always talking about the family conversing at dinner."
"But we have a guest."
"Tara's hardly a guest," Mr. Ellsworth scoffed. "She's like one of us."
Mr. Ellsworth smiled in my direction and I mumbled, "thank you."
"She's aware Keagan's a delinquent screw-up."
Liam stifled a laugh, disguising his snort with
a cough into his napkin as I pierced him with a glare.
I wanted to shout at Mr. Ellsworth to shut up. But he was an adult and, no matter what he said about it, I was a guest in his home. Mr. Ellsworth's verbal abuse of Keagan was bad enough but lately Liam had been getting more and more infected by the attitude.
My eyes returned to Keagan who was playing with his potatoes again. He drew two eyes with the tip of his knife at the starchy circle center before he directed his gaze back to me and drew a frowny mouth.
"Well?" Mr. Ellsworth demanded of Keagan.
The mental vibes of "I'm keeping my promise but it's damn hard" were wafting my way in waves from across the table as he answered his father.
"No, sir," Keagan finally replied.
"Been expelled yet?" At his son's shaking head, Mr. Ellsworth continued, "If you're not flunking out or getting in trouble, what are you doing?"
"I'm playing football. I'm the team's new middle linebacker."
"Linebacker? Hmmmm." Mr. Ellsworth took another bite and chewed. With his mouth still full of food he said, "You're a decent football player. I'll give you that."
Mr. Ellsworth was a fiend for football. Figured his only half decent comment to Keagan was about that sport.
"Thanks," Keagan drawled.
"'Course with Liam as running back, you don't stand a chance," Mr. Ellsworth continued.
"Yeah. The Flyers are gonna win whether you're on that pathetic team of not," Liam piped in.
"Oh really? The Hawks are a great team. We're gonna murder you."
Keagan's words took my breath and turned the food in my mouth to rock salt.
"I'm personally gonna score at least one TD by breezing right by you," Liam shouted.
"Dream on, bro," Keagan shot back. "You won't get one play past me, let alone a touchdown."
"You can't touch my speed," Liam yelled, clutching his dinner knife as if it was a stiletto he was about to stab his brother with.
"You move in slow motion. Your team sucks and so do you," Keagan said.
"Don't talk to your brother that way," Mrs. Ellsworth shot out at Keagan.
With a glare at me, Keagan threw down his napkin as he pushed the chair back.
"I'm so outta here," he said, before stomping his way to the front door.
"You come back here, young man," his dad shouted.
The words had no effect and Keagan continued out, slamming the door behind him.
Mr. Ellsworth turned to Liam with his fork upturned as he waved it almost like an epee. "Just make sure you play a good game, son. I hear there'll be a scout there from the University of Georgia."
"Yes, Dad."
The rock salt dropped from my mouth to the pit of my stomach. The chance of convincing Liam not to play in Friday's game had just officially gone from slim to none.
* * * * *
Sitting and holding hands with Liam on the Ellsworth's porch swing after dinner would have been a peaceful bliss, a respite after the family hostilities, if not for the fact that my mind was churning. Liam's voice blah blahing droned on about some subject...I didn't even know what. My ears were blocked by the locomotion of the freight train in my brain. Ways to try to convince Liam not to play in the football game, now less than forty-eight hours away, kept turning over and nothing seemed likely to succeed. Oh well, I had to try.
"Liam." I interrupted him mid-blah. "Don't play in the game on Friday."
"What?" His expression went from relaxed to wide-eyed shock. "Why would you say that?"
'Cause I'm a banshee and I know you're gonna die if you play in that game. Na. Saying that was my last resort. The one I'd take just before they had me drug tested. The one I'd take right before the men in white coats came to put me into the straightjacket.
"Ummm. I—" The argument I'd planned suddenly didn't seem that good an idea but I went with it. "I think you shouldn't fight with your brother. This game is escalating the war between you two."
"Who cares," he scoffed.
"I do. You have the power to convince your dad to change his mind and send Keagan back to school at the Academy. Then you wouldn't be on opposite teams."
He released my hand and it dropped in a thud on the seat of the swing as he jumped up to move to the edge of the porch. "Why are you so concerned about my brother? You into him or something?"
"Of course not."
"You are," he accused. "Just like every other girl. You think he's hot."
"Nnnnnno," I sputtered. "He gives me the creeps. I wouldn't let him touch me—" I stopped myself mid cliché. What was that quote about protesting too much? Keagan gave me the shivers but not the creeps. However, saying that wouldn't help my cause.
"I'm concerned about you, not him." I got up, crossed to Liam, and then placed a hand on his arm. "All this with your brother—It's making you into a person I don't recognize. You aren't you."
He jerked his arm out of my light grasp. "Because I won't let Keagan get away with his bull? Because I stand up to him?"
"No." I shook my head. "You don't just stand up to him, you gang up on him."
"Gang up?"
"With your parents. Yes. The three of you gang up on him."
Liam's face reflected a shocked kind of betrayal that made me cringe inside.
"Nice, Tara. Real nice," he mumbled.
"I'm sorry, but it's true," I defended. "And you can stop it right now by not playing that game on Friday."
"I've gotta play. You heard Dad. There'll be a scout there."
"Is that the most important thing in your life?" I shouted. "What if I said I'd go to the reserve with you on Friday?"
The meaning of my words dawned and a slow smile turned to a grin. "Really?"
"But only if you don't play."
"I'm not gonna be manipulated into giving up a chance for a scholarship to UGA." Shaking his head as if to clear it, Liam said, "This makes no sense. What's the real reason you don't want me to play on Friday?"
Time for the last resort, I thought.
"I had a vision that you're going to...going to get...get hurt if you play."
"Now you're just being ridiculous."
"Are you saying I'm lying?"
"Either that or crazy."
Now it was my turn to be hurt. "Is that what you really think?"
"No." His jaw moved with the clenching and unclenching of his teeth. "I think you enjoy teasing. I think you enjoy trying to wrap me around your little finger. And I've let you do it. But no more. I'm not gonna be whipped."
"Whipped! By me?"
"That's what the guys on the team said and they were right."
"Yeah. Billy and his band of jerkwads are real authorities on women," I said with more than a dollop of sarcasm. "If that's who you want to listen to, then I can't stop you."