The Deadly Series Boxed Set

by Jaycee Clark

  Turning her back to him, she propped her hands on her hips. “Zip me up, and I’ll leave.”

  His heavy warm sigh brushed the back of her neck, as his fingers grazed her backbone. The zipper slid up slowly from the small of her back before it was yanked quickly to the top.

  She tilted her head to the side, caught him looking down at her, his hands hovering over her shoulders. Taking a deep breath, she took two steps away before facing him again.

  “Was it really so bad?”

  His silence hung heavy between them.

  “You know, I guess this goes without saying, but last night . . .” She stopped. Licking her lips, she continued, “It was—it was—”

  “What? It was what?” his deep voice coaxed, though she caught the strained edge.

  What the hell. Closing her eyes, she admitted, “It was the best night I ever had. More than I had thought it could be.”

  He couldn’t know, no one knew, just what last night had meant to her, the hurdle she’d finally overcome, the deep fears that had finally been banished.

  “It shouldn’t have happened,” he repeated, sitting down on the edge of the bed.

  “Why?”

  His eyes when they met hers again were tumultuous. “Because, it’s just not right. You’re practically my sister! Tori thinks of you as her mom!”

  Christian rolled her eyes. That didn’t make a bit of sense. Temper started to simmer beneath the pain of his regret. “Your sister? First off, Brayden Kinncaid, I’m not your damn sister—or, for that matter, any relation to you at all. The things you said to me, did to me last night—” She waited a beat. “It wasn’t to a sister.” Thank God. “And how dare you insult us both, demean us both by that simple, stupid statement.

  “Second,” she started, the anger warming even more. “I think of Tori as my daughter. I’ve seen her grow from a month-old baby. She’s as much mine as she is yours, regardless of whether or not I gave birth to her.” Then an idea shimmered. Cocking her head to the side, she whispered, “Or maybe that’s part of the issue here. I’m not JaNell, Brayden.” His eyes flashed. She hurried on, “But other than that, I really don’t see what Tori’s view of me, or my view of her, has to do with you and me, with us. Don’t,” she added when his head shook, “shake your head at me. There is an us. There always has been in one form or fashion, and if you say otherwise, you’re lying. Not that I would be surprised with the excuses you’re spouting this morning.”

  A muscle bunched in his jaw as his eyes narrowed. Temper now fueling her, Christian walked toward him.

  “I don’t know what changed from a couple of hours ago.” She leaned down into his face. “The words I said to you last night, I meant every one of them.”

  I love you. Now, she couldn’t believe she’d told him. “And, you said them back to me.” Hot and sweet in her ear as he’d brought them both to pleasure, the words still echoed in her heart, in her soul, in her very being. “You said them back.”

  The blue of his eyes shifted. She couldn’t define the emotion in them, the feelings behind them.

  “We were both drunk,” he said.

  “Drunk?” She straightened and laughed, but her heart skipped, cracked. “Drunk? That’s the road you’re going to take now? When a few hours ago you were whispering about perfection and beauty.”

  “Look, Christian.” He stood and she stepped back. “It never should have happened.”

  “Why?” She crossed her arms over her chest and hoped to hell he couldn’t see them tremble. God, why?

  He paced away, ran a hand through those soft wavy locks, and muttered to himself. Finally, he stopped. The confusion on his face tied her nerves even tighter.

  “We crossed a line last night, I know that. I’m just trying to figure out what the hell to do about it.”

  He would worry it, analyze it, and dissect it to death. She hoped to hell he would.

  “Fine,” she said tightly. “When you figure it out, you let me know. Stubborn ass.”

  Taking the bull by the horns, she walked up to him, leaned up on her bare toes, grabbed his face between her hands, and kissed him.

  Brayden rocked back, the feel of her wonderful against him. He started to push her away, but could no more do that than he could stop his next heartbeat.

  Her body, soft and pliant against his, roared the memories from the night before to life in his mind. Shifting and caressing, they teased his mind, his senses. Just as his hands got lost in her short, cropped hair, she pulled back from him.

  “There,” she whispered, licking those luscious lips, “maybe that’ll help you figure things out.”

  She stood barefoot before him, gowned in wrinkled silver with hurt and anger shifting in the depths of her smoky gray eyes. God, he loved her eyes.

  As she turned to go, he grabbed her arm. The skin, soft as satin, glided under his fingers.

  One dark brow arched in question.

  “We’re not through with this discussion,” he calmly told her.

  He wanted to kiss her again, and that only aggravated him more, made the tension in his voice more pronounced. “It shouldn’t have happened.”

  Her eyes flashed at him. “Have you bothered to ask yourself why it did?”

  He opened his mouth.

  One elegant finger rose between them. “Do not use the drunk excuse again, or I swear I will hit you.”

  Brayden had known this woman for well over eight years and could count the number of times she’d lost her temper or even raised her voice. The fact she was clearly close to doing both now fascinated and warned him.

  “I wasn’t. I will admit, I think the alcohol only pushed the foolishness to the front, but—”

  Her deep in-drawn breath and slight narrowing of her eyes told him that was the wrong thing to say.

  They shouldn’t even be having this conversation. What the hell had he been thinking? Well, it was obvious, he hadn’t been. That was the damn problem.

  “Maybe it was just—we spend a lot of time together, you and I. And as you pointed out, we’ve both raised Tori, in the same home, around the same people. We even work together. Maybe we’ve been playing house for too long.”

  Both her dark winged brows rose on that one.

  “House? We’ve been playing house?” The strain in her voice sharpened her tone to a fine edge.

  Why wasn’t she understanding? On a curse, he looked down, his disbelief, his self-disgust at what had happened between them, what he had allowed to happen between them, simmering into anger. There was no way to go back to what they were.

  “I hired you to help raise my daughter, my parents see you as part of this family, as a daughter of their own, my brothers think of you as their sister. This should not have happened between us.” He punctured the air with his finger.

  She jerked her arm free of his hold. “Well, Mr. Rochester, I’m so sorry, my lowly, employed self aimed, dreamed of better things. Yes, I should know better.”

  Women! How did they manage to twist everything so damn illogically?

  Christian strode to the door, anger radiating out of her like the ripples cause by a boulder splashing into a pond.

  There, she turned. “You can be such an ass, Brayden Gallagher Kinncaid. You know what your problem is? You’ve painted every woman with the brush JaNell handed you. And I could almost hate you for that alone. I’m not her. I didn’t lie last night. Part of me wants to believe you meant the words you said. But this morning has shown me you are either a liar or a coward.” Her eyes locked with his. “Maybe even both. I never thought you were either.”

  On those words, his bedroom door slammed shut.

  Frozen, he stood there. What the hell? A liar? A coward?

  He stalked to the door and all but ripped it off its hinges. The outer suite door slammed shut as well.

  In the middle of the living quarters, he stopped. Anger tempted him to go after her, but his pride wasn’t about to let him traipse out into the damn outer hall wearing a bed quilt,
for the love of God.

  He stood glaring at the door of his suite, willing her to come back so he could—he could what?

  Try to make her see reason, see what they had done was not only wrong it was—it was . . .

  Damn it.

  Right, so damn right, it made his breath catch to think of how it had been between them. Never had it been like that with any other woman—except JaNell. Maybe Christian was right. He was measuring her by another woman. God. He rubbed his hand over his face. He needed to think. Or a drink.

  Looking across to another door, he was silently thankful Tori, his eight-year-old daughter, elected to sleep in her grandparents’ suite a few doors down the outer hall.

  He bit down on his temper and frustration at the situation, at how hopeless it was, as he walked back to his room.

  In fact, the whole damn mess was beyond hopeless. No matter how much he cared for Christian, how great the night with her had been, it would not be again, and shouldn’t have happened in the first place.

  So, he had looked at her in the last couple of years in more than a sisterly fashion. No harm there, she technically wasn’t his sister, regardless of what the family thought of her. Or what he told her.

  Then what the hell was the problem? He stared himself down in the mirror and realized the problem was staring back at him.

  She was right, he was an ass, and would probably continue to be so. He’d learned the hard way, women and commitments weren’t for him.

  • • •

  Christian stood, barefoot, waiting on one of the private elevators. At least she’d remembered to grab her purse.

  Come on, come on. Surely it didn’t take that long for the elevator to get up here.

  The idiot! The jerk! Who the hell did the man think he was? A Kinncaid, that’s who. She’d been with them long enough to know, whatever a Kinncaid wanted, a Kinncaid got. It wasn’t just Brayden; they were all that way—strong, arrogant, powerful men. Handsome men who were loyal to a fault.

  She wiped a tear away and realized she was actually crying. God, her heart hurt. After everything, everything this was how it ended?

  Last night had been . . . Wonderful. Loving. Healing.

  And now?

  Footsteps sounded down the hallway.

  Without turning around, she all but snarled, “If you think I’m changing a thing I said or meant, you are dead wrong.” Silence greeted her, but the footsteps neared.

  “I don’t care to talk to you right now. Leave me the hell alone!” She turned to glare at the man, her anger charged and ready to zap the blind, denying idiot, and stopped short.

  Quinlan Kinncaid stood a few paces to her left looking straight at the elevator doors.

  Shit. Shit. And shit again. Bring the whole damn family into it. Good God.

  Christian inwardly sighed and closed her eyes. The ping of the elevator doors jerked her back.

  Quinlan stared at her with those green eyes he’d inherited from his mother, his hand holding the door.

  Without another look at him, let alone another word, she walked into the elevator. Stepping in beside her, he punched the lobby button, and just as the doors started to close, she saw Aiden Kinncaid walk out of his suite and holler, “Wait up.”

  Thankfully, Quinlan let the doors shut and the elevator went down. The entire Kinncaid clan was here at their hotel, the Highland Hotel, since they’d celebrated Gavin and Taylor’s awaited wedding reception. When the two had married several months ago, there had not been time to have a celebration. After Taylor healed, and the kids were doing better, the family threw a giant ball in honor of the new couple in the family hotel here in Washington, D.C. The night of dancing had ended in one of love. Or so she had thought at the time.

  The sunrise apparently changed the mind-set of Brayden. Idiot.

  Quinlan cleared his throat.

  She glanced at him out of the corner of her eye. His were locked on her. She could smell the aftershave he’d always favored and that always made her think of watery forests for some reason.

  “I didn’t think you’d want another one of us asking you what was wrong,” he said.

  Was it possible to fade into the wooden paneling?

  His head cocked to the side. “Want to talk about it?”

  “No.”

  Silence stretched between them. But then he cleared his throat again. “Not that it’s any of my business, but from the looks of things you’re rather upset. Bray being an ass again?”

  She didn’t snicker at the pun. “Isn’t he always?”

  “What did he do this time?”

  Turning, she faced this youngest Kinncaid, who was still a few years her senior. “Do you think . . . That is . . . Never mind.”

  His tongue ran around his teeth. “You two were awfully close last night.” He shoved his hands into his pockets, his dark suit jacket caught behind his wrists. “I know you left together, which isn’t really anything new, but I have to admit, seeing you barefoot, dressed in last night’s dress and your hair all a mess reflects a little close to a lovers’ spat.”

  She felt her face heat at the words and that damn cocky grin of his slid across his face. She should have just gone to her own room, but then she still would have been in Brayden’s suite. And they’d probably still be snarling at each other because Brayden could never just leave it alone. No, she had to get out and if she looked tumbled, well . . .

  “And the hickey on your collarbone. I wondered how long it would take you two.”

  Great. This just kept getting better. “Hell,” she muttered. “You know what, I don’t care. Tell me, do you think, since you obviously noticed something between us, do you think it’s only there because we’ve been playing house?”

  She crossed her arms over her chest and tapped her foot. It was beside the point she was beyond embarrassed, mortified more like. What if Brayden did have a valid point and she just couldn’t see it? No, that couldn’t be right.

  Russet brows rose at her question. Out of all the Kinncaid males, Quinlan was the only one to take after Mrs. Kinncaid, his mother, in coloring with his eyes, green as Ireland, and his hair as burnished as autumn leaves.

  One long finger scratched the corner of his mouth. “No, I don’t think . . . Playing house?” His eyes narrowed on her.

  The disbelief in his words mirrored her feelings. “Never mind, you answered my question.” Then an idea came to her. “Maybe I should find my own place.”

  “What?” His voice sharpened. “Did he say that to you?”

  The more she thought about it, the more the idea bloomed. Playing house. No way. Let the man see what life without her was like. ’Course, she might be spiting her nose to save her face. And she would miss Tori dreadfully, but if—and that was a giant if—Brayden was actually right, that meant he would eventually find some other woman and she couldn’t very well sit back and watch as someone else slid into the role she was used to playing. She could never be the passive little nanny.

  “Christian?” Quinlan’s voice pulled her back. “Did you hear what I said?”

  She shook her head. “I need you to do me a favor and be quiet about it.”

  “First, answer my question. Did Brayden tell you to find your own place?” His eyes were as sharp as emeralds.

  “What?” She waved her hand at him. “No. I just need you to do something for me.”

  “Well, that depends on what you want me to do.” The elevator reached the bottom level. The elevator was hidden behind a wall of gilded mirrors. The occupants inside—the Kinncaids—could see out into the lobby, but no one could see in until the outer mirrored doors were opened. The men said that as owners of the Highland Hotel, they didn’t want to be predictable. This gave them the advantage of seeing what was going on, on the floor, without anyone the wiser.

  Quinlan didn’t open the outer doors, nor did he look at the floor; his gaze was centered on her.

  “What do you want me to do, Christian?”

  Taking a deep
breath, she said, “I want you to keep quiet about me looking for a place. I don’t need anything fancy, just an apartment, somewhere between here and Seneca. That way I’m close to the shop and close to home, too.”

  His eyes studied her, made her feel like squirming.

  “Why?” He crossed his arms.

  She raked her hands through her hair. “Because, maybe he’s right. Maybe we just got lost up in the moment. No. That’s not it either. That can’t be it. I don’t know. Maybe if I was gone, he’d see that . . . that . . . Hell, I don’t know. Just keep quiet, will you? Be a pal, a brother. Help me look. It doesn’t mean I’m going to actually get it, but I might.”

  Another moment stretched between them. “Have you thought about Tori in all this? Or Mom and Dad? I think you need to think this through.”

  She loved this family, she really did, but they were all so damn protective, so—so—Kinncaid!

  Reining in her frustrations at the males of this clan, she said, “Yeah, I have. If he’s so set that I’m not the woman for him, that means that he will one day find one. What am I supposed to do? Sit back while she starts doing all the things I’ve always done? With a family I consider mine—and I’m not talking all you guys. I’m talking about Brayden and Tori. And if that does turn out to be the case, then in the long run, my moving will help Tori. I won’t be in the way for whomever, or whatever he decides he wants.” She stopped, his expression hadn’t changed. “I’m a grown woman, Quinlan. Have you ever known me to leap without looking?”

  “Before this morning? Or maybe last night? No. But need I remind you why you’re concocting this brilliant plan of yours in the first place? Did you leap or look before . . . Before . . .”

  “Before what? Before I made love to your brother?”

  His eyes slid closed and he pinched the bridge of his narrow nose. “I don’t want this picture in my mind.”

  “You’re the one that brought it up. I don’t want it there either.” Planting her hands on her hips, she said, “What do you think? I just hopped in bed for a damn one-night stand?”