It may be Kade inside of me, but it is Jonas that I feel. His hand on my bare skin, his lips taking mine. I keep my eyes closed and see him looking into my eyes, those deep emeralds glowing in my mind. I let out a few moans as I felt another orgasm taking over my senses. I explode around him and he grunts in satisfaction.
I open my eyes and see Kade above me, still pushing deeper. I got what I came for, now I need to finish this quickly. I force him to his back and straddle him, putting his hardness back inside me. He holds my hips in a vice like grip as I ride him, pushing him closer and closer. His breath is raged and he is lightly covered in sweat. His hands tighten on me even more and he lifts his hips going as deep as he can.
"Em, I love you. I love you so much." he says through his pleasure as I bring him to his climax.
Shit.
∞∞∞
I'm on edge trying to make everything work. Kade is still a problem. I never should have gone to his place that night, it was a very stupid thing to do. I was just so worked up, I wasn't thinking right. I thought it was an accident when he blurted out he loved me for the first time a few weeks ago, but he swears it is true. He is making it very difficult to break up with him. All of the sudden he is trying to be ‘the good guy'. It's really annoying me.
Now he follows me around like a lost puppy, all sad eyed and sappy. I have been trying to put some distance between us but he just keeps showing up. He even went to the drag show on Sunday. I am suffocating. Every time he touches me it feels so wrong, not that it was ever all that great, but now I just feel dirty. I don’t belong with him.
I guess on the plus side he hasn't been treating me like crap, things could always be worse. I keep trying to find the right time but it never seems to come, or I'm just too chicken to do it. Maybe I am a little afraid of him. I have always told myself I wasn't, but now I keep envisioning him losing it on me. I know it will just get worse the longer I let this go on.
It has been a few weeks since I saw Jonas, since the kiss. We have both been busy with work and the launch party. Janessa has been dealing with the final details with me.
Spence and I went shopping over the weekend to find the perfect dress to knock him off his feet. I know it's silly but I want to impress him, even though I know I don't need to. I still find myself distracted by thoughts of him. It seems to be getting worse the last few days. Maybe because I know I will see him soon; the party is tomorrow.
We have rooms at the plantation for the whole weekend, Janessa was not keen on making that drive multiple times. Apparently American drivers scare her, makes me wonder if she has ever been to the Bahamas, that is scary. Spence and I are packing our bags ready for the long weekend to come.
“So, where is your pet?” I hear Spence before he moves through my bedroom door.
“My what?”
“Your pet.” he says with no amusement in his voice.
“I don’t know where he is and I don’t care. Just drop it Spence.”
“What happened to your grand plan? Break up with dipshit and be happy with the man of your dreams. He is perfect for you Emmey, you do know that, right?” he is getting angrier by the second.
“I know, I know. Chill with the attitude. I just want to have a successful event and be professional, my boss will be there.” I say with a bit more anger than I meant.
“Why do you all of the sudden need a babysitter?”
I can feel my eyes like daggers. “I don’t, Jonas invited her, so she will be there. That doesn’t change the fact that she is my boss.”
“Whatever.” he walks out mumbling about me being a jackass.
I sigh and sit on my bed for a moment, suddenly I find myself crying. He is right, it should have been done by now. I haven’t even told him about the kiss, and if he already knows he is waiting to use it at the perfect time, in front of Kade.
When Spence comes back to give me another piece of his mind, I am curled in a ball crying into my pillow.
“Shit Emmey, I’m so sorry. I didn’t mean it, I take it back. I know you know and your job…and…and I’m… I’m so sorry.” he crawls in bed with me and holds me like he used to when I was still grieving for my dad. This is why he is my best friend, because no matter what we may say to each other, no matter how mad we may get sometimes, we protect each other from the darkness.
It warms my heart that he is still willing to hold me till I’m done. When I finally calm myself down, Spence sits up and rubs my back till my breathing is normal.
“Emmey?” he says after a while
“Spence?”
“I didn’t mean to hurt you. You know you are my best friend in the world, right?” his voice is laced with concern.
“No, I mean yes I do know that, but it was true.” I say as I turn on my side in order to see him. “I don’t know what I’m doing, Spence. I was so sure of my plan and then I screwed it all up. I went to Kade for sex. Of all the things I could have asked of him that is what I needed and that asshole told me he loves me.”
Spence sat there looking at me not saying a word for fear of upsetting me again. Finally, he speaks. “And how do you feel?”
“How do you think I feel? I’m angry. I’m so fucking angry. Why say it now? Why does he even care? This relationship has been shit for the last year.” I’m almost screaming before I realize it. I take a deep breath and continue. “ I do not love him, I will never love him and deep down I think he knows. I think he saw it in my eyes when he said those words. Now he is clinging to me, afraid to let me go. I never wanted to hurt him. I never thought he would say those fucking words to me.”
Spence pulls me into his arms. “Emmey, I got you girl, I’ve always got you. We will find a way to break whatever spell you put him under and I promise you baby girl, you will get your man in the end.”
“I love you my sugar plum fairy.”
“I love you too baby girl.” he kisses my forehead and then pulls back suddenly. “So exactly what kind of sex did you give him to make him fall in love?”
We both crack up. I hit him with my pillow and he fell off the bed laughing. Then looks up with an ‘answer my question, bitch’ look. I just smile and shrug my shoulders.
∞∞∞
It’s just after 4:00PM when Spence and I get to the plantation. We must be the first ones here. Spence, Janessa and I are sharing one of the suite rooms and it is absolutely gorgeous. The view alone is breathtaking, the balcony looks right out onto the west garden. The river winds its way through the earth in the distance. It is truly picturesque. We just start to get our things unpacked when the door opens and Janessa walks in. I look around her to catch a glimpse of him, but he’s not there.
“He will be here soon, I promise” she says as she catches me. She gives me a warm smile and we all laugh.
“So, what is the plan for tonight? The bar is open down stairs and there are so many hotties roaming around.” Spence is looking out the window at one of the employees. “Oh yes, I want that one.” he points and we walk over to see who he is claiming as his.
“Isn’t that Victor?”
I squint my eyes trying to see him. “I can’t really tell from the back of his head.”
Spence looks at us and squeals. “Introduce me.” it was more a command than a request.
We make our way down to the garden to find Victor sweeping up fallen leaves and petals. He has headphones in and is dancing around as he works. Spence lights up when he starts shaking his butt. I don’t want to scare him but if we don’t get his attention soon I think Spence may lose it. I see a pebble on the ground and roll it into his path. He looks at it with his head tilted to the side.
“Miss Ember. My apologies.” he says as he puts his headphones in his pocket.
“Miss Ember?” I hear Spence say under his breath with a laugh.
“Hello Victor, how are you today?” I ask as he walks toward us.
“It has been wonderful, thank you. What can I do for you? Do you need a short tour of the grounds, I know you
did not get to see it last time on account of getting ill.”
“Ill? What happened?” Spence asks with fake concern. He makes it hard for me not to laugh at him.
“I had a dizzy spell, remember.”
“Oh, right well he said ill and I was worried you didn’t tell me everything.” He says as he puts his arm around my shoulder. “I am Spencer, it’s nice to meet you.”
I wasn’t sure which way this was going to go but Victor smiles and I can see it in his eyes. “The pleasure is all mine, sir.” oh, great that is definitely going to go to his head.
“Sir? Well I feel fancy now.” Spence is absolutely giddy.
“I think Spencer should have the tour. He has never been here. Nessa and I are going to get a drink, we’ll meet you in the lounge when you're done.” I say as I grab Janessa and take off, leaving them on their own.
“How does he just know that someone is gay?” she asked me with a curious look on her face.
“I really don’t know how he knows, but I’m glad he learned. In college he hit on the wrong guy once and we were in the ER for hours. That’s why his nose is a little to the right. He hates it, says it is a memory of his stupidity.”
“Oh, that is awful.” her hand on her heart and sadness in her eyes. She and Spence have gotten pretty close since they met. It makes me happy that she is able to see not everyone here is a pompous ass.
“Where is Jonas?” I ask as I chew on my lower lip, I don’t know how much she knows.
“He will be here, when I do not know.” her expression has changed to one of disgust. “Where is your boyfriend?”
Shit. I was hoping to get through the whole weekend without mentioning him. “Umm, I don’t really know where Kade is. Probably at the office going over cases.”
“Cases of what?” she asked, confused.
I giggle at her. “Court cases, he is a lawyer at his fathers’ firm.”
She shakes her head and laughs a bit. “Oh, that I never would have guessed. So that is why your mother likes him for you? His title?”
I think for a moment. “ I really don’t know that the job title really has anything to do with it. I know that lawyers and doctors are pretty coveted mates, but for my mom it is only about the family name and wealth.”
“I see.” she said so soft it was almost a whisper. “Do you love him?”
“No, I do not love him.” it is the truth, but she seems to doubt me. I understand why she knows how her brother feels about me. Maybe she is afraid I will break his heart. The thought of that sent me into a pit of sadness. I could never.
“Then why?” she still speaks softly. “Why stay when you know your heart belongs elsewhere?”
“It is not so easy. I don’t hate him, and I don’t want to hurt him. He may be a dick most of the time but that doesn’t give me the right to break his heart. What kind of person would I be if I did? I would be just like him.” my words seem to confuse me more than help. I shouldn’t care if I break him, so why do I?
She gives me a small smile. “I suppose you are right. I like that you are a good person, I liked you the instant I met you at the museum. I knew Jonas had met someone, I could tell he changed. I know he wouldn’t want me to tell you this but I think you should know what you have done to him.”
“There was a time that Jonas was much like Kade. He used women and treated them badly. He had a new girl on his arm every month, sometimes every week. I was worried about him, that is when I moved to France to be there for him. To remind him that all of those women he mistreated are someone’s sister or daughter. He didn’t like me much for it, but he settled down a bit.”
“It was when we started the company that he really got over that phase in his life. He poured himself into his work, forgetting everything and everyone else. When the first design was accepted by a small company he finally came out that phase and began to live a fairly normal life. Only he stopped dating all together. I haven’t seen him with a woman in over five years.”
“He always said the company is his mistress and he has no time for any other.” she stops for a sip of her wine. “I could see something had changed when we had our last video meeting before I came. His smile was different. It was warm and thankful. I wanted to ask him about it but knew he would just end the call, so I waited till we were in the car back to his place here.” she smiles and giggles to herself.
“I wish you could have seen his face, it was priceless. The mere mention of there being a love interest turned his face red. He tried very hard to keep from smiling, and nearly ran off the road trying to hide it from me. He finally opened up to me after we met at the museum under Jonas’s flat.”
I sat for a while letting her words sink in. What about me made him want to open his heart after so long? There is nothing special about me, is there? Of course not, that is just ridiculous.
Chapter 15
Ember
I have been staring at the dress hanging from the floor length mirror for the past 30 minutes. This is not really how I envisioned the night going. It was supposed to be the first of many nights, nights to be with Jonas. Yet here I am still in an unwanted relationship. I really meant for this to be over by now, but things don't always work out the way we plan them.
“You waiting for the mice to come dress you, Cinderella?” Spence says, pulling me out of my head.
“Sorry, I just have a lot on my mind. I should have brought a backup dress, this one is too...well it doesn't look very professional.”
“What are you talking about? Don't be ridiculous, the dress is killer and will have everyone wanting a piece. '' he says as he makes like he is running his hands down a curvy body.
“Yeah and that is what I mean, Spence. Don't you think it's a bit much?”
“Oh, you are going to be the most beautiful woman here. Never think any less.” Janessa says as she walks out of the bathroom in an emerald green satin dress that hugs her body.
Yeah of course she would think that way, she is perfect. I however don't have the confidence nor the body to see things the way she does. Stupid Amazonian princess.
“Thanks Ness, but I'm just not sure I should be so exposed while working.”
“Well it's too late now, unless you want to go down in your jeans.” Spence smirks.
I reluctantly climb off the bed and take the dress to the bathroom to get ready. I still think this is a bad idea. I bought it to impress Jonas, now I dont think I should be trying because of Kades stupid ass. I should have gotten it done and over with instead I used him for sex and now I cant get rid of him. Fuck this sucks.
I decided to go for a smokey eye and ruby red lips, might as well go all out. I slip on the silky red backless dress. It looks good, I guess. The front comes up to my neck, wrapping around like a choker leaving my entire back exposed nearly to my ass. The skirt of it lands just above my knees and hugs my hips and ass, with a small slit in the back so walking won't be a disaster. My hair is in a curly updo with a few curly tendrils hanging from the front.
“Girl, get your ass out here or we will leave your slow ass.” I hear Spence yell from the other side of the door.
“Go on then, I’ll catch up in a few.”
“Whatever you say.”
“Oh, Spencer must you be so impatient?” Janessa scolds him.
“No, really guys I’ll be fine. And it’s the open bar he is impatient for.” I giggle
“Hey! Are you calling me a lush?”
“Yes” Jenassa and I both say.
“Rude.”
With that I hear the door open and shut. He is such a drama queen. I peek my head out of the bathroom to be sure they are both gone before I exit. I put on a pair of strappy gold heels and finish off my look with a gold bracelet and earrings both with diamonds. Looking at the finished product in the floor length mirror I almost feel sexy.
Knock, knock, knock.
I open the door to find the most beautiful man I have ever set eyes on. He looks so good in his black suit, white button
up tucked in with the top two buttons left open. As I was taking him in, he was doing the same to me. When I reach his emerald eyes they seem to be darker than normal, and I can't help but bite my lower lip to stop myself from letting out a gasp. Just when I thought he couldn't get any sexier he licks his lips and it makes my mouth water.
“You are beautiful, Agápi Mou.” he says as he takes my hand and places a soft kiss on it.
I am pretty sure I need to change my panties now.
“Thank you.” I can't help but blush. “And I think you are quite handsome.”
“Do you now?” he gives me that devilish smile I love so much.
“I do.” I bite my lip again. Thank God for lip stain or I would be a red toothed mess right now.
“I was hoping to escort you downstairs.” he offers me his arm and I gladly take it, closing the door to my room and leaving all my doubts behind me.
He leans down and whispers in my ear, “That is a very tempting dress you have on.” as he runs his fingers down my spine.
Holy hell! Why is that so hot? My body feels like it is on fire, most of it centered at my core. If he keeps this up he will have me dripping by the end of the night.
He takes my hand when we reach the marble staircase, and leads me down. People are already flooding in and the instant our feet hit the ground level Jonas is bombarded by guests congratulating him.
“I’m sorry, I should probably greet my guests.” he says softly in my ear.
“It's ok, there are a few things I need to check on. I will see you later.” I kiss him on his cheek and make my way to the ballroom and make sure everything and everyone is where they need to be.
Soon the room is full and everyone is taking their seats. The presentation starts and everyone congratulates Jonas and Janessa on their new deal. Things seem to be going well. I see my boss and she waves me over to her.
“Well this place is amazing. I have wanted to tour it pretty much my whole life.” she says with an excited laugh. “And that dress is hot. How does Mr. Drakos like it?” she wiggles her eyebrows, teasing me.
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