by Kate Hewitt
What if Alessandro was right, and they could have a relationship, a marriage, that was strong and true and good? Based on companionship and affection? What if that was possible?
Why did that thought both terrify and thrill her in equal measure?
Alessandro gave her an endearingly self-conscious smile. ‘I guess she is hungry, as you said she would be. I’ve been trying to calm her, but no luck.’
‘You can’t provide the goods in this case,’ Mia answered as she held her arms out, and Alessandro danced his way over to her, making her smile.
‘Here she is.’
‘Has she had a change?’
‘Her nappy? Yes.’
‘You changed it?’ Mia couldn’t keep the surprise from her voice.
‘It took a few tries, I admit. Thankfully there were enough nappies. Those tapes...’ He shook his head. ‘They were not designed for durability. I might have to take over the company that makes them, to ensure a stronger design.’
Mia laughed at such an outrageous suggestion. ‘Is that how you decide what companies to take over?’
‘Actually, no.’ He looked serious for a moment before he deliberately lightened his expression. ‘But perhaps it will be, as far as nappies are concerned.’
‘So how do you choose the companies?’ she asked as she settled in a sofa in the cosy nook off the kitchen. Alessandro joined her, sitting on the sofa opposite. Conscious of his gaze on her, Mia bent her head, her damp hair falling forward as she brought Ella to her breast. When she was sure she was presentable and Ella feeding discreetly, she looked up, everything in her jolting at the sudden, blazing look in Alessandro’s eyes...a look of pride and possession that made her feel a welter of unsettling sensations.
As he caught her gaze, it faded, leaving scorch marks on her soul. He gave her a small smile. ‘I choose companies that have corrupt and weak leadership.’
Startled, she shook her head. ‘But Henry wasn’t...’
‘Corrupt? No, perhaps not. But he was weak and lazy, and he was running Dillard’s into the red. I estimated that in another eighteen months, none of you would have had jobs.’
‘Surely not...’
He shrugged. ‘Two years, at the maximum.’
‘I always knew he was a bit old-fashioned,’ Mia said slowly. ‘And he did like his golf game...’ But she’d considered those qualities endearing, rather than damaging. Now she wondered.
‘As affable as he could be, he was a weak leader,’ Alessandro responded firmly. ‘And he would have proved disastrous for the company and its employees.’
‘And you care about the employees.’ Once she would have said as much incredulously, but now there was the lilt of a question in her tone. ‘Because I don’t understand that—your reputation is so ruthless, firing most of the employees of the companies you take over. And yet...’
Alessandro smiled wryly as he raised his eyebrows. ‘And yet?’
‘And yet that didn’t seem to be the case with Dillard’s. Most of the staff were given jobs elsewhere, better jobs by the sounds of it, and the people who were let go had very generous redundancy packages, which has to cut into your profit. But none of that seems to make it into the press.’
‘No,’ he agreed, sounding unbothered by that fact.
‘Why? Don’t you mind being portrayed as some ruthless monster?’
‘No, because I can hardly be a teddy bear if I’m going to take over a company. Having a reputation helps.’
‘But why do you do it?’ Mia pressed. ‘What are you trying to achieve?’ He hesitated for a long moment, and Mia had the sense they were on the cusp of some great and terrible revelation.
‘I do it,’ he finally said, ‘because I cannot abide having weak or corrupt people in leadership, and I will not stand by and allow them to ruin people’s lives.’ He paused. ‘Like my father did.’
* * *
Alessandro gazed at Mia, noticing the way her hair, like a golden slide of silk, hid her face, so he couldn’t gauge her expression. He hadn’t meant to make that admission, but now that he had he was glad he had. He could hardly expect Mia to come to trust him if he didn’t share something of his life and past with her...even if doing so made him feel uncomfortably exposed.
‘Your father?’ she repeated softly. ‘How...?’
‘He was the CEO of a company in Rome. My mother was a cleaner in his office.’ He could not keep the old bitterness from twisting his words. ‘It was, as I’m sure you can imagine, a short-lived affair. He made my mother promises he never intended on keeping. And when he found out she was pregnant, he fired her.’
‘Oh, Alessandro.’ His name was a soft cry of distress. ‘I’m so sorry.’
He shrugged one shoulder, half regretting having told her that much. It made him feel scraped raw inside, to have these old wounds on display.
‘What did she do?’ Mia asked softly.
‘She had me, and then worked one dead-end job after another trying to make ends meet, which they rarely did. She told me about my father when I was quite small, and I followed his career, saw how he abused his power and privilege, not just with women like my mother, who had nothing, but in all sorts of ways.’ He shifted where he sat, that old determination coursing through him again. ‘I determined then that I would never allow people like that to abuse their power. And I’ve made it part of the mission of my work to take over companies that are showing such signs.’
Mia shook her head slowly. ‘I had no idea...’
‘You’re not meant to. I can’t exactly publicise what I’m doing. Hostile takeovers are just that. Hostile.’
‘Still, to do something noble and never be known for it...’
The warmth in her eyes both discomfited and awed him. He realised he liked having her look at him like that, feel like that. And that was alarming.
‘It’s not as much as you think, Mia. Some people are still out of jobs. I have a reputation for a reason.’ Why he was trying to dissuade her from thinking well of him, he had no idea. Perhaps simply because he wasn’t used to it.
‘Still.’ She pursed her lips as she gazed down at their daughter. ‘I wish I’d known earlier.’
‘Well, now you know.’
Alessandro paused, watching as she cradled Ella in her arms, their daughter feeding happily, one fist reaching absently for Mia’s hair.
‘It occurs to me,’ he said conversationally, ‘that you know more about me than I know about you.’
Mia looked up, eyebrows raised in surprise. ‘What do you want to know about me?’
‘Everything. Anything.’ He realised he was truly curious. ‘But we can start with the basics. Where are you from?’
‘The Lake District.’
‘A beautiful area.’
‘You’ve been?’
He smiled. ‘I’ve heard.’
‘It is beautiful.’ She looked away, seeming almost as if she was suppressing a shiver. ‘Beautiful and isolated and very cold.’
‘That sounds like a rather mixed description.’
She shrugged. ‘I didn’t like it growing up. I couldn’t wait to get away.’
‘Why? Just because it was cold?’
She hesitated, and he waited, sensing she had something more important to reveal. ‘No, because my father was...well, suffice to say, we didn’t get along.’ She kept her gaze on Ella, catching their daughter’s chubby hand in her own and gently removing it from her hair.
‘And your mother?’ Alessandro asked quietly.
‘She died when I was fourteen. I’d say of a broken heart, but I know how melodramatic that sounds.’
‘No.’ His mother had wasted away, worn to the bone by work and poverty. It was possible, Alessandro knew, to die of things that ate at you the same way a physical disease did. ‘Is your father still alive?’
‘I don’t ac
tually know.’ Mia looked up at him then, her blue eyes icy with a hard anger he’d never seen before, not even in their stormiest moments. ‘I haven’t seen him in eight years, and that is fine by me.’
‘I see.’ Although he didn’t see the whole picture, he was starting to get a glimpse. Whatever had happened with her father, Mia clearly had emotional scars from it. He didn’t know what they were exactly, but at least he knew they were there.
‘Anyway.’ Mia shrugged, her gaze back on Ella. ‘With the background you just told me about, how did you get to be a billionaire by age—what? Thirty-something?’
‘Thirty-seven. I worked my way up.’
‘From slums to a billionaire lifestyle?’ She shook her head slowly, seeming impressed. ‘That’s quite a steep climb.’
‘Yes.’
‘How did it happen?’
Alessandro shrugged. ‘I was lucky and I worked hard. I started in property, buying rundown buildings and flipping them. It grew from there.’
‘It has to have been more than luck.’
‘Like I said, I worked hard.’
‘Very hard, I imagine. You’ve always seemed...driven to me.’
‘Yes, I suppose I am.’ Although, coming from her, he didn’t know whether it was a compliment or not.
‘What about your mother?’ Mia asked. ‘Is she still alive?’
‘Sadly, no. She died when I was nineteen, just when I was starting, but we’d lost touch a few years before.’
‘That’s sad.’ Mia hesitated. ‘It seems as if we have something in common.’
‘Yes.’ It saddened him, to think that both he and Mia had come from such fractured, damaged families—and it made him more determined to make sure their own little family wasn’t. ‘Our family doesn’t have to be like that, Mia,’ he said, a new note of urgency entering his voice. ‘This can be a fresh start for the three of us.’
‘I’d like to believe that,’ she said after a moment, but her tone sounded wistful, even dubious, and that stung.
‘Why can’t you?’
‘It’s just... I don’t know enough about you, Alessandro. And sometimes the past isn’t so easy to overcome.’
‘We’re getting to know each other,’ he persisted. ‘And we’ll keep doing that. What’s your favourite colour?’
‘My favourite colour?’
‘We’ve got to start somewhere.’
She let out a little laugh. ‘Green.’
‘Favourite food?’
‘Raspberries.’
‘Favourite season?’
‘Spring.’ She laughed again and shook her head. ‘I suppose I have to ask you all the same questions.’
‘Only if you want to.’
Her mouth curved, her eyes lightening. Alessandro liked her that way. ‘I do.’
‘Then it’s blue, steak, and autumn.’
‘We’re practically opposites.’
He raised his eyebrows. ‘Is blue the opposite of green?’
‘Maybe not. But the others...’ Her laugh turned into a sigh as she glanced down at Ella, stroking her downy head. ‘I don’t know. Do such preferences matter, really? Shouldn’t we be asking each other more important things?’
Alessandro caught his breath as he stared at her intently, trying to decipher her mood. He liked what she’d said, but she’d sounded sad. ‘Such as?’ he asked after a moment.
‘I don’t even know. Such as what you want out of life. What you value. What you believe.’
‘What do you want out of life, Mia?’ He spoke quietly, knowing the question was important, the answer even more so.
She looked up, her expression serious, her eyes bright. ‘First, I want to keep Ella safe and healthy and happy.’
‘Of course. I want that, as well. Utterly.’
‘After that, I want to be independent. With my own money, my own choices. That’s...very important to me.’ Alessandro sensed a wealth of memory and meaning behind her words, and he nodded.
‘Understandable.’ He’d seen that all along, how she chafed against any autocratic commands...which, he acknowledged wryly, he had a tendency to give. But they could work on all that.
‘What do you want out of life, Alessandro?’ She glanced around the spacious kitchen, the sunny garden visible through the French windows. ‘It seems like you have everything already.’
‘I am thankful for what I have,’ Alessandro allowed. ‘But what I’ve wanted...what has driven me, as you’ve said...’ He hesitated, feeling his way through the words. ‘First, I want to protect and care for my family.’
‘Yes.’ The word was a soft assent.
‘And second...it is similar to what you want, in a way, I suppose. I want to be in control. I don’t want to have my life dictated by other people’s whims or poor choices, as it was for all my childhood.’
‘I can understand that.’
‘Yes, it seems you can. So once again we are in accord, Mia. I think you will find we are far more compatible than you once feared.’
‘Perhaps.’ She didn’t sound convinced, but Alessandro knew he could convince her. He had to.
‘I mean it, Mia. I want this to work.’
‘That’s something, then,’ Mia said with a small smile, and as their gazes met and tangled Alessandro found himself remembering a whole host of pleasurable things. The feel of Mia in his arms. The taste of her lips. How sleepy and warm she’d been that morning, snuggled up against him. And he thought how much he wanted to experience all of those things again, over and over.
Yet as his own blood heated, Mia’s seemed to cool, for she looked away, her hair sliding in front of her face. Alessandro felt her emotional withdrawal like a physical thing.
‘I should unpack,’ she said as she brought Ella to her shoulder, pulling her robe closed with her other hand. ‘And get dressed...’
‘Your things will have been brought up to your room by the staff by now, I am sure. Alyssa and Paulo are the couple who run this place. They’re very kind.’
‘I look forward to meeting them.’ She rose, clutching Ella to her a bit like a shield. ‘Will you be...returning to Rome? For work?’
‘In a few days.’ Alessandro couldn’t help but be stung by the question. Did she want him gone already? Resolve hardened inside him. He would break down her defences. He would get to know her...in every possible way. ‘Shall we have dinner together tonight? Alyssa is happy to sit with Ella.’
Her eyes widened and then slowly, seemingly reluctantly, she nodded. ‘Very well.’
It was a grudging acceptance, and one that irked him just a little. Why was Mia so guarded? Why couldn’t she enter into the spirit of what he was trying to do?
But what was he trying to do? Alessandro asked himself after Mia had gone upstairs and he headed to his study to check his work emails. Mia had asked him a host of serious questions that he had answered honestly, if not fully. What did he want from life? What did he want from this marriage? And how was he going to get it?
Already being with Mia was drawing emotion from him like poison from a wound. He felt it stir inside him, and it alarmed him. He did not want to be ruled by his emotions the way his mother had been, tossed on the turbulent waves of relationships that never delivered what they’d seemed to promise, and left destruction in their wake.
He’d always vowed he would never expose himself to that kind of horrible, humiliating risk. He would never need someone that way, let that need rule and ruin him. He would always stay in control—of himself, and of his emotions.
And he could be in control, Alessandro reminded himself. He wasn’t that lost little boy, hiding in the cupboard while his mother screamed and fought with one of her many boyfriends, or curled up on a narrow bed, wondering when she’d finally come home after a night out.
He was a man in control of his destiny and his fam
ily. His relationship with—and eventual marriage to—Mia would be on his terms. And they would be favourable terms for her, undoubtedly. He would be generous, thoughtful, kind. But they would still be his.
CHAPTER ELEVEN
‘AREN’T YOU HAPPY?’
Laughing, Mia tickled Ella’s tummy as her daughter grinned and giggled back at her. They were sitting on a blanket in the villa’s garden, enjoying the warm spring sunshine. It had been two weeks since Mia had come to Italy, and she was finally starting to relax into this strange and amazing new life of hers. She just wasn’t sure whether she could trust it...or Alessandro.
He’d been a model of kindness and consideration since she’d arrived; she couldn’t fault him for that. The first night he’d arranged for Alyssa to watch Ella while they’d had a candlelit supper out on the terrace, eating delicious food, drinking fine wine, and enjoying each other’s company.
And Mia had enjoyed his company... Alessandro had kept the conversation light and sparkling, without any of the heavy issues that seemed poised to drag them down.
She’d even enjoyed the heat she’d seen in his eyes when she’d appeared, having changed into one of her few dresses that fitted her post-pregnancy figure, and when he’d taken her hand, butterflies had risen in a swarm from her stomach to flutter through her whole body and send her senses spinning.
It would be so easy, she’d reflected, to let herself fall. To forget her worries, her fears, her choices. She could just gently bob along on the overwhelming sea that was Alessandro...
And then what?
Fear had knotted in her stomach at the thought. She’d pictured her mother, looking so worn out and defeated, the wedding album open on her lap.
‘He was so charming, Mia. So forceful and yet so caring. I fell for him hard... I loved him...’
No matter how many times she told herself Alessandro was not like her father, Mia knew, from both his behaviour and his admission, that he was man who liked to be in control. And that would always be a cause for alarm and even fear.
At the end of that candlelit dinner, Alessandro had brushed a gentle kiss across her lips, like a whisper of a promise.