‘Laetitia Dale appreciates it.’
A smile of enforced ruefulness, like a leaf curling in heat, wrinkled his mouth.
Why did she not speak of her conversation with Clara?
‘Have they caught Crossjay?’ he said.
‘Apparently they are giving chase to him.’
The likelihood was, that Clara had been overcome by timidity.
‘Must you leave us?’
‘I think it prudent to take Professor Crooklyn away.’
‘He still…’
‘The extraordinary resemblance!’
‘A word aside to Dr Middleton will dispel that.’
‘You are thoroughly good.’
This hateful encomium of commiseration transfixed him. Then she knew of his calamity!
‘Philosophical,’ he said, ‘would be the proper term, I think.’
‘Colonel De Craye, by the way, promises me a visit when he leaves you.’
‘To-morrow?’
‘The earlier the better. He is too captivating; he is delightful. He won me in five minutes. I don’t accuse him. Nature gifted him to cast the spell. We are weak women, Sir Willoughby.’
She knew!
‘Like to like: the witty to the witty, ma’am.’
‘You won’t compliment me with a little bit of jealousy?’
‘I forbear from complimenting him.’
‘Be philosophical, of course, if you have the philosophy.’
‘I pretend to it. Probably I suppose myself to succeed because I have no great requirement of it; I cannot say. We are riddles to ourselves.’
Mrs Mountstuart pricked the turf with the point of her parasol. She looked down and she looked up.
‘Well?’ said he to her eyes.
‘Well, and where is Laetitia Dale?’
He turned about to show his face elsewhere.
When he fronted her again, she looked very fixedly, and set her head shaking.
‘It will not do, my dear Sir Willoughby!’
‘What?’
‘It.’
‘I never could solve enigmas.’
‘Playing ta-ta-ta-ta ad infinitum, then. Things have gone far. All parties would be happier for an excursion. Send her home.’
‘Laetitia? I can’t part with her.’
Mrs Mountstuart put a tooth on her under lip as her head renewed its brushing negative.
‘In what way can it be hurtful that she should be here, ma’am?’ he ventured to persist.
‘Think.’
‘She is proof.’
‘Twice!’
The word was big artillery. He tried the affectation of a staring stupidity. She might have seen his heart thump, and he quitted the mask for an agreeable grimace.
‘She is inaccessible. She is my friend. I guarantee her, on my honour. Have no fear for her. I beg you to have confidence in me. I would perish rather. No soul on earth is to be compared with her.’
Mrs Mountstuart repeated ‘Twice!’
The low monosyllable, musically spoken in the same tone of warning of a gentle ghost, rolled a thunder that maddened him, but he dared not take it up to fight against it on plain terms.
‘Is it for my sake?’ he said.
‘It will not do, Sir Willoughby.’
She spurred him to a frenzy.
‘My dear Mrs Mountstuart, you have been listening to tales. I am not a tyrant. I am one of the most easy-going of men. Let us preserve the forms due to society: I say no more. As for poor old Vernon, people call me a good sort of cousin; I should like to see him comfortably married; decently married this time. I have proposed to contribute to his establishment. I mention it to show that the case has been practically considered. He has had a tolerably souring experience of the state; he might be inclined if, say, you took him in hand, for another venture. It’s a demoralizing lottery. However, government sanctions it.’
‘But, Sir Willoughby, what is the use of my taking him in hand when, as you tell me, Laetitia Dale holds back?’
‘She certainly does.’
‘Then we are talking to no purpose, unless you undertake to melt her.’
He suffered a lurking smile to kindle to some strength of meaning.
‘You are not over-considerate in committing me to such an office.’
‘You are afraid of the danger?’ she all but sneered.
Sharpened by her tone, he said, ‘I have such a love of stedfastness of character, that I should be a poor advocate in the endeavour to break it. And frankly, I know the danger. I saved my honour when I made the attempt: that is all I can say.’
‘Upon my word,’ Mrs Mountstuart threw back her head to let her eyes behold him summarily over their fine aquiline bridge, ‘you have the art of mystification, my good friend.’
‘Abandon the idea of Laetitia Dale.’
‘And marry your cousin Vernon to whom? Where are we?’
‘As I said, ma’am, I am an easy-going man. I really have not a spice of the tyrant in me. An intemperate creature held by the collar may have that notion of me, while pulling to be released as promptly as it entered the noose. But I do strictly and sternly object to the scandal of violent separations, open breaches of solemn engagements, a public rupture. Put it that I am the cause, I will not consent to a violation of decorum. Is that clear? It is just possible for things to be arranged so that all parties may be happy in their way without much hubbub. Mind, it is not I who have willed it so. I am, and I am forced to be, passive. But I will not be obstructive.’
He paused, waving his hand to signify the vanity of the more that might be said.
Some conception of him, dashed by incredulity, excited the lady’s intelligence.
‘Well!’ she exclaimed, ‘you have planted me in the land of conjecture. As my husband used to say, I don’t see light, but I think I see the lynx that does. We won’t discuss it at present. I certainly must be a younger woman than I supposed, for I am learning hard. – Here comes the Professor, buttoned up to the ears, and Dr Middleton flapping in the breeze. There will be a cough, and a footnote referring to the young lady at the station, if we stand together, so please order my carriage.’
‘You found Clara complacent? roguish?’
‘I will call to-morrow. You have simplified my task, Sir Willoughby, very much; that is, assuming that I have not entirely mistaken you. I am so far in the dark that I have to help myself by recollecting how Lady Busshe opposed my view of a certain matter formerly. Scepticism is her forte. It will be the very oddest thing if after all… No, I shall own, romance has not departed. Are you fond of dupes?’
‘I detest the race.’
‘An excellent answer. I could pardon you for it.’ She refrained from adding, ‘If you are making one of me.’
Sir Willoughby went to ring for her carriage.
She knew. That was palpable: Clara had betrayed him. ‘The earlier Colonel De Craye leaves Patterne Hall the better’: she had said that: and, ‘all parties would be happier for an excursion’. She knew the position of things and she guessed the remainder. But what she did not know, and could not divine, was the man who fenced her. He speculated further on the witty and the dull. These latter are the redoubtable body. They will have facts to convince them: they had, he confessed it to himself, precipitated him into the novel sphere of his dark hints to Mrs Mountstuart; from which the utter darkness might allow him to escape, yet it embraced him singularly, and even pleasantly, with the sense of a fact established.
It embraced him even very pleasantly. There was an end to his tortures. He sailed on a tranquil sea, the husband of a stedfast woman – no rogue. The exceeding beauty of stedfastness in women clothed Laetitia in graces Clara could not match. A tried stedfast woman is the one jewel of the sex. She points to her husband like the sunflower; her love illuminates him; she lives in him, for him; she testifies to his worth; she drags the world to his feet; she leads the chorus of his praises; she justifies him in his own esteem. Surely there is not on earth such beauty!<
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If we have to pass through anguish to discover it and cherish the peace it gives to clasp it, calling it ours, is a full reward.
Deep in his reverie, he said his adieus to Mrs Mountstuart, and strolled up the avenue behind the carriage-wheels, unwilling to meet Laetitia till he had exhausted the fresh savour of the cud of fancy.
Supposing it done! –
It would be generous on his part. It would redound to his credit.
His home would be a fortress, impregnable to tongues. He would have divine security in his home.
One who read and knew and worshipped him would be sitting there star-like: sitting there, awaiting him, his fixed star.
It would be marriage with a mirror, with an echo; marriage with a shining mirror, a choric echo.
It would be marriage with an intellect, with a fine understanding; to make his home a fountain of repeatable wit: to make his dear old Patterne Hall the luminary of the county.
He revolved it as a chant: with anon and anon involuntarily a discordant animadversion on Lady Busshe. His attendant imps heard the angry inward cry.
Forthwith he set about painting Laetitia in delectable human colours, like a miniature of the past century, reserving her ideal figure for his private satisfaction. The world was to bow to her visible beauty, and he gave her enamel and glow, a taller stature, a swimming air, a transcendency that exorcized the image of the old witch who had driven him to this.
The result in him was, that Laetitia became humanly and avowedly beautiful. Her dark eyelashes on the pallor of her cheeks lent their aid to the transformation, which was a necessity to him, so it was performed. He received the waxen impression.
His retinue of imps had a revel. We hear wonders of men, and we see a lifting up of hands in the world. The wonders would be explained, and never a hand need to interject, if the mystifying man were but accompanied by that monkey-eyed confraternity. They spy the heart and its twists.
The heart is the magical gentleman. None of them would follow where there was no heart. The twists of the heart are the comedy.
‘The secret of the heart is its pressing love of self’, says the Book.
By that secret the mystery of the organ is legible: and a comparison of the heart to the mountain rillet is taken up to show us the unbaffled force of the little channel in seeking to swell its volume, strenuously, sinuously, ever in pursuit of self; the busiest as it is the most single-aiming of forces on our earth. And we are directed to the sinuosities for posts of observation chiefly instructive.
Few maintain a stand there. People see, and they rush away to interchange liftings of hands at the sight, instead of patiently studying the phenomenon of energy.
Consequently a man in love with one woman, and in all but absolute consciousness, behind the thinnest of veils, preparing his mind to love another, will be barely credible. The particular hunger of the forceful but adaptable heart is the key of him. Behold the mountain rillet, become a brook, become a torrent, how it inarms a handsome boulder: yet if the stone will not go with it, on it hurries, pursuing self in extension, down to where perchance a dam has been raised of a sufficient depth to enfold and keep it from inordinate restlessness. Laetitia represented this peaceful restraining space in prospect.
But she was a faded young woman. He was aware of it; and systematically looking at himself with her upturned orbs, he accepted her benevolently as a God grateful for worship, and used the divinity she imparted to paint and renovate her. His heart required her so. The heart works the springs of imagination; imagination received its commission from the heart, and was a cunning artist.
Cunning to such a degree of seductive genius that the masterpiece it offered to his contemplation enabled him simultaneously to gaze on Clara and think of Laetitia. Clara came through the park-gates with Vernon, a brilliant girl indeed, and a shallow one: a healthy creature, and an animal; attractive, but capricious, impatient, treacherous, foul; a woman to drag men through the mud. She approached.
CHAPTER 38
In Which We Take a Step to the Centre of Egoism
THEY met; Vernon soon left them.
‘You have not seen Crossjay?’ Willoughby inquired.
‘No,’ said Clara. ‘Once more I beg you to pardon him. He spoke falsely, owing to his poor boy’s idea of chivalry.’
‘The chivalry to the sex which commences in lies ends by creating the woman’s hero, whom we see about the world and in certain courts of law.’
His ability to silence her was great: she could not reply to speech like that.
‘You have,’ said he, ‘made a confidante of Mrs Mountstuart.’
‘Yes.’
‘This is your purse.’
‘I thank you.’
‘Professor Crooklyn has managed to make your father acquainted with your project. That, I suppose, is the railway-ticket in the fold of the purse. He was assured at the station that you had taken a ticket to London, and would not want the fly.’
‘It is true. I was foolish.’
‘You have had a pleasant walk with Vernon – turning me in and out?’
‘We did not speak of you. You allude to what he would never consent to.’
‘He’s an honest fellow, in his old-fashioned way. He’s a secret old fellow. Does he ever talk about his wife to you?’
Clara dropped her purse, and stooped and picked it up.
‘I know nothing of Mr Whitford’s affairs,’ she said, and she opened the purse and tore to pieces the railway ticket.
‘The story’s a proof that romantic spirits do not furnish the most romantic history. You have the word “chivalry” frequently on your lips. He chivalrously married the daughter of the lodging-house where he resided before I took him. We obtained information of the auspicious union in a newspaper report of Mrs Whitford’s drunkenness and rioting at a London railway terminus – probably the one whither your ticket would have taken you yesterday, for I heard the lady was on her way to us for supplies, the connubial larder being empty.’
‘I am sorry; I am ignorant; I have heard nothing; I know nothing,’ said Clara.
‘You are disgusted. But half the students and authors you hear of marry in that way. And very few have Vernon’s luck.’
‘She had good qualities?’ asked Clara.
Her under lip hung.
It looked like disgust; he begged her not indulge the feeling.
‘Literary men, it is notorious, even with the entry to society, have no taste in women. The housewife is their object. Ladies frighten and would, no doubt, be an annoyance and hindrance to them at home.’
‘You said he was fortunate.’
‘You have a kindness for him.’
‘I respect him.’
‘He is a friendly old fellow in his awkward fashion; honourable, and so forth. But a disreputable alliance of that sort sticks to a man. The world will talk. Yes, he was fortunate so far; he fell into the mire and got out of it. Were he to marry again…’
‘She…’
‘Died. Do not be startled; it was a natural death. She responded to the sole wishes left to his family. He buried the woman, and I received him. I took him on my tour. A second marriage might cover the first: there would be a buzz about the old business: the woman’s relatives write to him still, try to bleed him, I dare say. However, now you understand his gloominess. I don’t imagine he regrets his loss. He probably sentimentalizes, like most men when they are well rid of a burden. You must not think the worse of him.’
‘I do not,’ said Clara.
‘I defend him whenever the matter’s discussed.’
‘I hope you do.’
‘Without approving his folly. I can’t wash him clean.’
They were at the Hall-doors. She waited for any personal communications he might be pleased to make, and as there was none, she ran upstairs to her room.
He had tossed her to Vernon in his mind, not only painlessly, but with a keen acid of satisfaction. The heart is the wizard.
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ext he bent his deliberate steps to Laetitia.
The mind was guilty of some hesitation; the feet went forward.
She was working at an embroidery by an open window. Colonel De Craye leaned outside, and Willoughby pardoned her air of demure amusement, on hearing him say: ‘No, I have had one of the pleasantest half-hours of my life, and would rather idle here, if idle you will have it, than employ my faculties on horse-back,’
‘Time is not lost in conversing with Miss Dale,’ said Willoughby.
The light was tender to her complexion where she sat in partial shadow.
De Craye asked whether Crossjay had been caught. Laetitia murmured a kind word for the boy. Willoughby examined her embroidery.
The ladies Eleanor and Isabel appeared.
They invited her to take carriage exercise with them.
Laetitia did not immediately answer, and Willoughby remarked: ‘Miss Dale has been reproving Horace for idleness, and I recommend you to enlist him to do duty, while I relieve him here.’
The ladies had but to look at the colonel. He was at their disposal, if they would have him. He was marched to the carriage.
Laetitia plied her threads.
‘Colonel De Craye spoke of Crossjay,’ she said. ‘May I hope you have forgiven the poor boy, Sir Willoughby?’
He replied: ‘Plead for him.’
‘I wish I had eloquence.’
‘In my opinion you have it.’
‘If he offends, it is never from meanness. At school, among comrades, he would shine. He is in too strong a light; his feelings and his moral nature are over-excited.’
‘That was not the case when he was at home with you.’
‘I am severe; I am stern.’
‘A Spartan mother!’
‘My system of managing a boy would be after that model: except in this: he should always feel that he could obtain forgiveness.’
‘Not at the expense of justice?’
‘Ah! young creatures are not to be arraigned before the higher Courts. It seems to me perilous to terrify their imaginations. If we do so, are we not likely to produce the very evil we are combating? The alternations for the young should be school and home: and it should be in their hearts to have confidence that forgiveness alternates with discipline. They are of too tender an age for the rigours of the world; we are in danger of hardening them. I prove to you that I am not possessed of eloquence. You encouraged me to speak, Sir Willoughby.’
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