by S. Young
Determined to begin right away, Ari threw her wet hair into a messy bun and selected a light summer dress from her wardrobe. Checking her reflection before she left the bedroom, she noted the dark circles under her eyes and cursed. She took a couple of seconds to find some concealer and cover them up. Usually she didn’t much care, but this morning she was hunting down Charlie and wanted to look at least okay.
The fact was it was kind of easy for Ari to look “okay”. Whoever her mom was, she had to have been more than reasonably attractive because Ari had inherited striking looks that did not come from her dad. Her long hair was thick and dark brown, although when the sunlight hit it, it had a reddish tint to it. Her smooth skin looked permanently tanned all year round and she had pretty features, the most distinctive of which were eyes that seemed to shift colors under different light. No one was able to really pin point Ari’s actual eye color, only that they were beautiful with thick, long lashes so dark Ari never wore mascara.
Sure that she was presentable, Ari grabbed her schoolbag and hurried out of the house, foregoing breakfast, and texting Rachel to let her know she didn’t need a ride to school that morning. Ari marched down the street, her long legs eating up the sidewalk, the lactic acid in her muscles burning as she forced them into sudden and intense exercise.
She made it to the Creaghs in record time and just in time to bump into Charlie as he slammed out of the front door. He stopped abruptly, pushing his messy hair out of his eyes. He took the steps two at a time and half-jogged over to her, where she waited on the sidewalk. A waft of lemon danced up Ari’s nose and she noted he was wearing a freshly washed T-shirt over a long-sleeved shirt. He’d done his laundry. Surely that was a good sign. Right?
“What are you doing here?” he grumbled, shouldering past her.
Ari’s heart pounded as she took in his tired but non-dilated eyes. She brushed her hand across his arm to slow him down. “I thought we could walk to school together like old times.”
Charlie frowned, throwing her a suspicious look out of the corner of his eye. “What’s going on?”
“Does something need to be going on for me to want to hang out with you? We haven’t hung out in forever.”
“We don’t exactly run with the same crowds these days, Johnson.”
Here goes. Ari took a deep breath. “We could change that.”
“What’s that supposed to mean?”
The desire to scream and shout at him he was acting like a complete and utter asshole bubbled under Ari’s skin as it did sometimes when she forgot what he was going through. She shook it off, pulling on every ounce of patience within her. “It means you could stop hanging out with those bums and start getting your life back on track.”
“I’m perfectly happy with my bums.”
The distance Charlie put between them hurt, a painful ache that was as fresh today as it was the first day he’d spoken to her in that infuriating monotone. “You used to be perfectly happy with me.”
“Ari, don’t.”
“Don’t tell me what to do,” she muttered in irritation, frustrated that their meeting was already off to a dismal start.
Charlie grinned at her, and her heart lit up at the sight of it. “Don’t tell me what to do,” he countered teasingly.
See, why can’t he be that Charlie all the time? I love that Charlie. Giving him a soft smile, a smile meant to coax, Ari nudged him with her elbow. “How about we hang out this summer?”
“Yeah, sure.”
Back to Mr. Monotone again. Great. “I thought maybe we could take a road trip or something.”
“Yeah, whatever you want.”
“Or we could do something you want to do.”
He laughed bitterly, slamming his hands into his jean pockets and hunching over a little. “I wouldn’t let you do what I want to do.”
Okay, maybe it was too early for patience. “What? Get high? Get wasted. Sleep around with a bunch of STI-infected morons.”
“Ari,” he moaned. “It’s too early for this shit.”
“Yeah, well, it’s never too early to catch an infection,” she snapped, attempting to conceal her jealousy and hurt that he slept with anything with breasts and yet treated her like an asexual house plant. “Have you even been to a clinic?”
“Two weeks ago.” He tilted his chin arrogantly, narrowing his eyes to a smolder that should have annoyed her rather than cause the funny flutter in her lower abdomen. “Just because I’m eye-candy doesn’t mean I’m stupid.”
“Oh, ha-ha, funny.”
“I’ll have you know lots of girls find me attractive.”
“Yeah and you don’t turn down any of them, do you?”
“That sounds like you’re calling me a manwhore.”
“I am calling you a manwhore.”
“Ouch. I’m hurt.”
“Yeah, I can really see you’re cut up about it.”
Charlie grinned. “I miss you, Johnson.”
Ari’s heart stopped, a painful halt in beat. “I miss you too.”
He sighed, coming to a stop, eyeing her carefully. “A road trip, huh?”
Her smile widened to a grin that made Charlie’s eyes lighten even more. “Yup.”
“Okay, if it makes you smile like that, I’m in. I haven’t seen that smile in a long time.”
Surprised, Ari attempted a casual shrug as she replied, “I wouldn’t have thought you’d noticed.”
“What? How sad you’ve been lately? I’m stoned, Ari, not blind.”
“Didn’t think there was a difference.”
“Oh, ha-ha, funny,” he threw her earlier words back at her. “So you going to tell me what’s bothering you, or can I guess?”
A rush of overwhelming relief coursed over her at his question. This was Charlie. This was really, really Charlie. “Well, I—”
“Hey, C-man, wait up!” a deep voice cut Ari short. Mel Rickman strolled toward them in his beat up car. He stopped beside them, leaning out of the driver’s side window. “What’s up?”
Charlie nodded tightly at him. “Not much.”
Mel flicked a look at Ari, his eyes traveling up the length of her bare legs, resting on her breasts for a little too long, and then scanning her face with a twisted smile and burning eyes. “What’s up, princess?”
Charlie stepped in front of her, jerking his head toward the school. “Ari, why don’t you go ahead? We’ll catch up at your party.”
Furious at Mel for ruining their moment, for bringing reality crashing down on the remnants of what had once been a wonderful relationship, Ari clenched her jaw. “Why don’t you come with me?”
His eyes narrowed. “Because I don’t want to. I’ll see you later.”
“When?” she snapped, all pretense gone.
He sighed, rubbing a warm hand up and down her now chilly arm. “Your party. Okay?”
She glared at Mel. He just kept smiling stupidly. This was the person Charlie would rather hang out with? Seriously? Ari stepped away from Charlie’s touch. “Whatever.” She shook her head, her disappointment winning. Without looking back, Ari took off, her feet eating up the sidewalk in shovels.
“Ari!”
She stopped. Charlie’s melancholy tone tugged on her heart. Smoothing her features to a placid expression, she spun around. Charlie’s soulful eyes touched her even from so far away. He raised a hand in a forlorn wave and all of her angry resolve melted away. With a small, equally sad smile, Ari waved back and then turned, quickly marching toward the school.
Determined not to be a buzz kill again today, Ari tried to push Charlie out of her thoughts for once, making a mental list of everything she and Rache needed to get for the party on Friday. She was only at dip when a familiar voice brushed her ears, causing her to lose her train of thought. “Hey, Ari.”
Yanked from her daze, Ari stopped in the middle of the school hallway and turned to find Nick Melua standing pretty close. She tried to take a step back without being too obvious. “Hey, Nick.”
“I’m really looking forward to your party on Friday.” His blue eyes washed over her face with a familiar longing that made her want to stuff herself inside her locker and hide.
Nick was a friend of A.J.’s. They were both jocks, although Nick was on the basketball team, not the wrestling team, both nice guys, kind of All-American types. After confiding to A.J. that he’d always had a thing for Ari, A.J. had begun a campaign to get the two of them together at the beginning of senior year. After weeks of pestering, and to get over Charlie, Ari had given in and gone on a couple of dates with Nick. Nick was good-looking, tall, tan, dark hair, blue eyes; he was smart, considerate, nice. But he didn’t make her laugh and he could be kind of immature sometimes. She just didn’t feel that spark with him. According to A.J., Nick was devastated when she’d ended their brief relationship (if you could even call it that). But he put on a good front, always friendly to her. That little spark of longing in his eyes, however, made her uncomfortable.
“I’m glad. It should be great fun.”
He grinned again, shifting his feet, running a hand through his hair. He looked like a guy getting ready to ask a girl out.
Ari’s heart plummeted into her stomach.
“Uh… I got to get to class,” she mumbled and took off, leaving him in the exhaust fumes of her beat up social awkwardness.
They were doing jigsaw puzzles in Art History (all Art History related, of course) and Ari was feeling hot and claustrophobic as the classroom filled with the chatter of seniors and their talk of the future.
“I can’t wait to get to Brown,” Laurie Hollister chirped as Ari squinted at a puzzle piece she’d just inserted. It didn’t look right. She took it out, hunting for another piece of crackled flesh. Their puzzle was the Mona Lisa. “Of course I’ll need to get a new wardrobe and meet my new roommate, but at least I know Staci and A.J. are on the same island as me. It’s a small comfort, right?”
Ari nodded mutely, her chest squeezing tight. God, were there no windows open in this place?
“I bet the babes are smokin’ at USC,” Jim Deebs said behind her to his puzzle partner. “I heard they wear bikini tops to class.”
Ari couldn’t even roll her eyes. She was too busy gulping in air.
“What about you, Ari?” Laurie asked. “Aren’t you scared of going to Philadelphia all by yourself? I know it’s only a state away but the big city… kind of scary, no?”
Shut up, shut up, shut up, shut up.
“You’ll probably meet some really nice guys there. Do you know what classes you’re going to take yet? I’m still mulling mine over. Didn’t your dad go to Penn? He must be so proud. Maybe he can help you pick out classes. Are you getting a single room or do you want a roommate too?” Unable to take it any longer, Ari slid back from the desk with a loud scrape of her chair. Laurie looked up at her wide-eyed. “Are you okay?”
Trying to still the trembling in her hands, Ari nodded jerkily. “Just need the bathroom.”
Grabbing the bathroom pass from the teacher, Ari ducked out into the school hallway and almost immediately, she could feel her the pressure on her chest loosening with relief. Ari took off toward the front entrance, pushing the heavy door open with a muffled ‘oomph’ and coming to an abrupt halt at the sight that greeted her. Out in the parking lot, in the bright sun, Charlie stood with a junior, Vivien Meyer. He was smiling at her in a way that caused a sharp pain in her gut. It was the kind of smile a guy gave a girl he wanted to kiss. Vivien raised a joint to her mouth in full view of the school. She inhaled, and before she could exhale, Charlie pressed his lips to hers, kissing her deep, his hand clasping the back of her head. He drew back and blew out the smoke, the two of them laughing.
It wasn’t the first time she’d seen Charlie making out with someone else. And just like every other time she’d witnessed it, it hurt like hell.
The kiss settled in her stomach like a lump of solid stone, her day officially ruined. Ari trembled with fury, watching them walk across the lot toward the stoner’s spot. If it was the last thing she did before she left Ohio, she would save that little tool from himself. Pissed, she slammed back inside the school, marched toward her locker, and ripped her bag out of it. She couldn’t bear to listen to Laurie’s college chatter and she couldn’t bear to be even one hundred yards from Charlie. Screw it. She was ditching.
As soon as Ari stepped outside the gates, a feeling of relief flooded her. She glanced back at the school, bemused by the overwhelming sensation of disconnection. It seemed her mind had made the break from high school and was just waiting for the end of semester to catch up with her. Maybe she was terrified of the future… it didn’t mean she wasn’t glad to say goodbye to high school. Part of her had never really fit there.
The sun beat down on her back as she strolled homeward, the freedom of walking out of school brightening her day again as she evaded any thought of Charlie and the junior. So busy trying to forget what she’d seen, Ari stepped forward to cross the street without looking. Strong hands came down on her shoulders at the same time a horn blasted. Hauled back onto the sidewalk by the hands, Ari watched, heart pounding, as a truck blew past her.
“Jesus Christ,” she cursed at the near miss, inhaling her rescuer’s delicious scent of sandalwood and dark spices. She turned to thank the hero, the words sticking in her throat at the sight of the empty sidewalk. There was no one there. The cologne she had smelled dissipated. Ari searched the space all around her. Nothing. She had not imagined those hands. If it weren’t for those hands, she’d be splattered across the front of a truck.
What the hell was going on?
Another poltergeist?
But she’d never felt Ms. Maggie. Ms. Maggie wasn’t a solid shape. This thing had been a solid shape. Fear rose in the back of her throat.
“I’m going insane. I’m literally now going mental. I—”
“Ari, what are you doing?!”
Spinning around, Ari’s eyes settled on Rachel, who hung out the driver’s side window of her car. “Rache?” she frowned.
Rachel grinned at her. “I saw you ditching and decided it looked like fun, and it’s not like we can really get in trouble now, right? Come on, get in. I’ve already texted Staci and A.J. to ditch and meet us at your house. I thought we’d go to the store, buy some snacks.”
Hanging out with her friends sounded like a great idea after the weirdness that had just occurred. So relaxing. So normal. So real. Perfect. She grinned shakily and skipped to the passenger side door.
Ari struggled to open the jar of pickles. She slammed the top off the edge of her black granite kitchen counter. “Crap,” she groaned, shaking out her reddening hand.
Rachel, who leaned against the opposite counter munching on some chips, rolled her eyes. “Give it here.”
“You’re, like, half the size of me. If I can’t get it, you can’t.”
Her friend quirked a blond eyebrow. “I’ll have you know this tiny package is made of steel. Give it.”
To her amazement, the lid popped open in Rachel’s hands. Ari eyed her suspiciously. “Have you been taking steroids?”
Again with the eye rolling. “Oh please, I leave the drug use to Charlie.”
Ari glared at her.
Rachel laughed sheepishly. “Sorry, cheap shot.”
“Mmmhmm.”
“Really, I am sorry. How are you anyway? You seemed so down yesterday.”
Not wanting to get into it with her, Ari shrugged. “I’m fine.”
Her friend exhaled wearily. “I’m not stupid, Ari. I know when something is up with you.”
God, how Ari wished she could talk to Rachel about college and how much she was freaking out, but Rachel, despite being her best friend, was the last person Ari could discuss it with. Rachel had wanted to be a doctor since her cousin died of leukemia when they were eight. That kind of determination and single-minded focus was a huge part of who she was. Unfortunately, she tended to judge and thought that people who lacked focus were flakes
and unworthy of her time.
At her extended silence, Rachel grinned mischievously. “I know what would help.”
“What?”
“You need to have sex. Finally.”
Nearly choking on her pickle, Ari watched as a rice packet flew out of one of the open cupboards and whacked Rachel across the head. She burst out laughing as her friend’s eyes popped open in shock.
“What the hell was that?”
Ari chuckled. “That was Ms. Maggie defending my virtue, you tramp.”
“Your frickin’ poltergeist?”
“Yup.”
“I thought you were kidding about that!”
“No way!” A.J. suddenly loped into the kitchen, grinning. “Ms. Maggie totally took me out last time I was here when I cracked a joke about women ‘in the kitchen and in the bedroom’.”
“Good.” Staci strolled in after him, Nick on her tail. Ari’s spirits dipped a little at the sight of Nick and she hoped her expression hadn’t said so when Staci explained, “Nick was in our class. We offered to rescue him.”
“Of course.” Ari forced a smile. “The more the merrier.”
He smiled back. “Thanks. I thought I was going to die of boredom back there.”
Ari nodded, trying her best to fake relaxation. “Can I get anyone a drink?”
“You got any beer?” A.J. asked, pulling the refrigerator open and taking out her dad’s beers before she could respond.
They settled in her living room, eating and joking around as they took turns on the PlayStation. And by taking turns, Ari meant while the boys hogged the controllers. Hanging out with Nick was a little uncomfortable, but being with the group made it easier and soon he and A.J. were so engrossed in video games there was nothing to be uncomfortable about. Ari laughed as Staci made fun of the look of concentration on her boyfriend’s face.
“Oh God,” she mumbled to her girlfriends. “That’s his sex face.”
The three of them burst into loud laughter, drawing the guys’ attention.