end.
“Yeah,” he said, the rage in his clenched jaw meant for them, not me. “I can make it go away.”
We drove to the clinic in silence. He filled out the paperwork for me, used a fake ID so nobody would know my real name.
He held my hand the whole time, as I was counselled, as I was prepped for theater, as the remnants of Dornan’s duplicity were painfully sucked from my cramping womb.
He crouched at the foot of my bed as I bled and cried. He stroked my hair and promised me he would kill Dornan Ross and his sons for what they had done to me. That he would make them pay.
For everything.
I shake that horrid memory from my mind and focus on the here and now.
“Are you going to stare at me all day?” I ask him gently, attempting to get a smile.
He slams his beer down on the glass coffee table and froth sloshes onto the wooden floor.
“A goddamned ghost just walked into my shop asking for a tattoo,” he says gravely. “Excuse me for needing a minute to deal.”
I look at the floor. “A ghost is someone who died. I didn’t die.”
“No,” he says, shaking his head. “But everyone in this city thinks you did.”
I sip on my beer as I study the intricate network of Elliot’s tattoos that reach from each wrist to shoulder before disappearing under his shirt.
“Why are you back, Julz?” he asks, studying me intently. My heart drops when I realize his hands are shaking.
“Hey,” I say, setting my beer down and putting my hands over his so we are both cupping his beer. “I’m sorry. I didn’t mean to scare you.”
“Fuck,” he says bitterly. “The last time I saw you …”
“Calm down,” I interrupt him. “Nobody knows I’m here, I swear.”
I take the bottle from his hands and set it down next to mine, and shift seats so that I am sitting next to him.
“Remember the last thing we spoke about?” I whisper, taking his hands in mine. It’s been so many years, but it feels like it was five minutes ago that he was holding my hands like this and promising me vengeance.
He shakes his head. “No.”
“Yes, you do,” I prod firmly. “You promised me you would make them pay.”
His eyes go wide as he finally understands what I’m here for. “Julz, no …”
“Elliot, yes,” I murmur. “It’s time. It’s time to make them pay for their sins.”
He pulls away from me and stands, walking over to the window. It is blessedly cool and dim in the apartment compared to the scorching heat outside. I look at my iPhone, aware that I am supposed to be at the clubhouse in four hours and require a tattoo that will take at least five. Still, I bear the moments as patiently as I can, worried that to push Elliot will make him refuse to help altogether. And, really, I can go to any tattoo artist and request a coverup for my scars.
But in a town run by Dornan Ross, I can’t risk showing his macabre handiwork to a single soul. Because if someone finds me out, I’m as good as dead.
And I still have so many things left to do.
“It should have been me taking them down, Julz, not you.”
I speak gently. “Grandma told me about your daughter.”
He seems startled, fear registering in his eyes.
“What I mean," I say quickly, “is that I understand why you haven't been able to do anything about…” I'm suddenly at a loss for words. “Well, you know.”
Elliott rubs his eyes, and I wonder how many sleepless nights he has had since we met in an Emergency Room decorated in beige and bathed in my blood six years ago. Or how many sleepless nights since he drove away and left me all alone, three years ago?
Elliot keeps shaking his head. “You shouldn’t have come back,” he says. “You should have stayed away.”
I rise from the couch. “I have four hours to get a tattoo that covers these scars. I am doing this with or without you. Are you going to help me, or am I going to leave and find another tattoo artist to cover this shit up?”
He turns, seemingly shocked by my determination. “Dornan knows artists all over this city. You can’t show your,” his voice cracks, “scars around.”
“Elliot,” I say firmly. “I’ve dreamed about this for years. I’ve danced in the dark after the lights were switched off, teaching myself the things I needed to know. I’ve memorized every single thing about Dornan Ross and committed it to memory. I am doing this with or without your help.”
With my final outburst, I turn to leave. I am bluffing, but he doesn’t know that. I think of the last time we were together, three aching years ago, and I can’t bear to think about how he walked away from me.
It was hot and dusty. It was always fucking hot and dusty. It had been a year since I had “died”, since I had been smuggled out of a hospital room circled by men who wanted to kill me, and delivered to a safe house thousands of miles away from everything I had ever known.
Elliot was my one constant. He was gentle and kind. He listened to all of the demons inside me that were clamoring to smother me, to kill me. He held me while I cried. He wiped away my tears.
And then, inexplicably, he fell in love with me.
We waited for a long time to do anything more than fool around, but once we took that final step, I was his, body and soul. I loved him. He was my world.
Only, he wasn’t enough to chase away the demons. Nothing was.
For the first three years after I escaped, I was a broken shell, trying to survive, trying to forget. The scars, my constant reminder. The sound of a motorcycle. The touch of leather under my fingertips. Being in confined spaces.
I was broken, destroyed, and although he tried, Elliot couldn’t put me back together again.
The first time I tried to kill myself, I swallowed a bottle of pain pills from his grandmother’s bathroom cupboard. It didn’t work. I woke up and I was still alive.
Elliot begged me to promise I’d never do it again. I did, and then the next day, I hooked up a hose to the exhaust of his car, locked the garage, and waited for sweet release.
Of course, he found me. Cut through the garage door with an ax and saved my sorry ass.
The third time, I was so pathetically obvious that he found me in the bath before I’d even had a chance to drag the razor blade down my wrists.
After the third time, he left. Because I was darkness, and he was sinking inside that darkness, and every time he tried to pull me out, I’d hold him under with me.
I understood. His life had revolved around saving my life for three whole years, and he couldn’t save me anymore.
“I have nothing left to give you,” is what he said, before he climbed into his car and drove away.
It was only after he’d left me that I realized I had been going about things all wrong.
That it wasn’t forgiveness and forgetting that my soul truly craved.
Once I set my sights on vengeance, life made perfect sense.
But by then, it was too late for Elliot and me. Our time was up. He was already with another girl, his baby in her belly.
So I stayed in Nebraska and learned to dance, and dreamed of my revenge.
“Wait,” he says.
I stop, still staring at the door that will take me downstairs.
He sighs audibly. “I’ll do it. If you promise to tell me what you’re up to.”
I spin around, the smile on my face impossible to fight. “I told you,” I say, grinning like an idiot. “I’m going to take them out. Dornan Ross will rot in jail for life, and his sons will suffer, too.”
Eliot looks at me quizzically. “The cops have never been able to get anything to stick on Ross OR his sons. What makes you think you’re different?’
I laugh. “Well, I’m the dead girl, aren’t I? I’m going to find that tape he made of me, and send it to every single TV station in the country. They’ll have no choice but to charge him with my murder.”
Elliot nods, and a slow, sweet smile spreads across his
face. He takes the three steps across his apartment to reach me and pulls me into a bear hug so tight, I can barely breathe.
“I missed you,” he says, his arms pressed tight around me.
I think of how we were strangers once, pulled together by circumstance and a burning will to survive. How, even though we haven’t laid eyes on each other in so long, Elliot is the one person on this planet who truly understands me and my past.
“Missed you too,” I murmur sadly, wishing it didn’t have to be like this, but knowing without a shadow of a doubt that it does.
Seven
Four and a half hours later, I’m running to the address Dornan gave me. Of course, I don’t need to look at the card – I know exactly where the clubhouse is. I’m almost there when it occurs to me that the address looked a little off, and I stop to fish the card out of my bag.
Sure enough, the address on the card is not for the clubhouse at all. I stand under the yellow glow of a street lamp, trying to massage the stitch out of my abdomen without touching the fresh tattoo gouged into my side.
I unlock my iPhone screen and navigate to the maps section. I plug-in the address that Dornan has written down for me, and wait impatiently as it loads. The little red dot is telling me to go in the opposite direction – 200 yards to what appears to be an abandoned warehouse. I jog the 200 yards and come to a stop in front of the warehouse, my fear a living thing inside me. My heart sinks as I wonder why Dornan wants me here instead of down the road at the clubhouse.
I jump suddenly as a dark figure materializes out of the shadows. I immediately recognize him as Jazz, Dornan's fifth son. He is painfully thin, and it doesn't take a genius to realize he has
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