"No," Nassar admitted.
"Can you tell me when the debt will be paid?" she asked.
"This arrangement is to our advantage," Nassar said. "It makes no sense for us to release you."
"I see. I'll have to release us then."
"Really?" Alasdair gave a short barking laugh. "How exactly are you planning on doing that?"
"My uncle has no offspring and I'm my mother's only child. To my knowledge, I'm the last of Mailliards. I'll have to make sure that I don't continue the line." She rose. "I think I've seen the washroom on the way here. I really need to splash some water on my face."
"Second door on the right," Nassar told her.
"Excuse me."
Grace walked away. Her knees shook a little in her jeans. Her face burned.
* * *
Nassar watched Grace's figure retreat down the winding path.
"Wow," Alasdair offered.
"Yes."
"Think she'll do it?"
"She's a Mailliard."
He'd seen the same steely resolve in her mother's eyes, Nassar reflected. He suspected it was the same will that drove the wedding night atrocities a century ago. It enabled her mother, Janet, to grimly bear her service, and fueled Grace's fight against it. He doubted she would ever go into outright rebellion, not while her mother and Gerald were alive, but he could tell by the way she held herself, by her face and her eyes and her voice, that she would rather give up her future children than bring them into Dreoch's "service."
"You like her," Alasdair said.
"What of it?"
"Why don't you make a move?"
The imbalance of power between them was too great and her antipathy and contempt for Dreoch was painfully obvious. Nassar took the towel off his shoulder and sat on the bench. "Because she can't say no."
* * *
When Grace returned, Alasdair was gone. Nassar sat alone. It was easier if she simply admitted it, Grace decided. Sometimes you see another person in passing, your eyes meet, and you know by some instinct that there is something there. She felt that something for Nassar.
It was wrong on so many levels, her head reeled from simply contemplating it. He was a revenant, a creature more than a man. Her great grandfather's brother slaughtered his relatives. His family held hers in bondage. If he really wanted her, he could simply order her to submit. Maybe it was some sort of twisted version of Stockholm syndrome. Or an animal attraction. He was... not handsome exactly, but very male. Powerful. Masculine. Strong. But there was more to it: the sadness in his eyes, the courteous way he managed himself, the feel of his magic. It pulled her to him and she would have to be very careful to keep her distance.
"You still haven't told me what you need me to do," she said.
He rose. "Walk with me, please."
Grace followed him down the path deeper into the atrium. Nassar led her out through an arched door and into a large round chamber. Bare, it was lit by sunlight spilling through a skylight very high above. A thick metal grate guarded the skylight. Plain concrete made up the floor, showing a complicated geometric pattern with a circle etched into its center. Nassar stood on its edge.
"When a revenant takes a new body, he gains great power but he also inherits the weaknesses of that body. The body I took was cursed. After I transferred into it, I was able to heal the damage and break the curse. But all of my invulnerability to the curse is gone. I've used it all up."
"And the man who was born in this body? What happened to him when you took it?"
"He died," Nassar said.
She'd hoped he wouldn't say that.
A woman entered the chamber through the door in the opposite wall. A pale blond like Nassar. She smiled at them. Nassar didn't quite smile back, but the melancholy of his face eased slightly.
"This is Elizavetta. My sister."
"Call me Liza," she said. "Everyone does"
"Grace," Grace said simply. "You're the one who drugged the cream."
Liza nodded. "Yes. Alasdair warned me I may have earned your undying hate for it. I sincerely hope we can put it past us. I didn't mean to hurt your feelings in any way."
"Given that I'm a servant, my feelings are hardly relevant, but I appreciate it," Grace said.
Liza blinked. An uncomfortable silence ensued. Nassar cleared his throat. "Liz?"
"Yes, right." Liza stepped inside the design.
"Every revenant has a fatal weakness," Nassar said, his gaze fixed on his sister. "This is mine."
Liza arched her back, spreading her arms. Her hands clawed the air. She spun in a place, twisting. Magic pulsed from her and filled the lines etched on the floor with pale yellow light. Liza brought her hands together, cried out, and forced them apart with a pained grimace. A clump of mottled darkness appeared between her fingers. She stepped back.
The clump spun, growing, and ruptured, vomiting a creature into the circle. The beast was three feet long and slender, shaped like a slug or a leech except for the fringe of carmine feathery hairs along its sides. A patina of grey and sickly yellow swirled over its dark hide, like an oil rainbow on the surface of a dark puddle.
The creature shivered. The red fringe trembled and it took to the air, sliding soundlessly a foot off the ground. A cold foul magic emanated from it. It touched Grace. She jerked back and bumped into Nassar.
"What is that?"
He put his hand on her shoulder, steadying her. "A marrow worm. They live in dark places, where there is stagnant water and decay. They feed on small animals, fish, and old magic."
The worm hovered behind the glowing outline of the circle. Its head was blunt and as it rose up, testing the boundaries of its invisible cage, Grace saw a slit of a mouth lined with sharp serrated teeth on its underside.
Liza approached the worm. The creature shied away, sliding as close to the glowing lines as it could.
"Think of them as germs. Most people have a natural resistance to them, an immunity. I don't. To me, they're fatal. We did our best to keep this fact to ourselves, but I have no doubt Roars know it. They would be fools not to. Unfortunately, marrow worms are easy to summon."
He'd stepped behind her and she was painfully sensitive to the presence of his large body only an inch from her back. His magic touched her. Her every nerve shivered, hyper-aware of his movements. She sensed him lean to her and almost jumped when his quiet voice spoke into her ear. "Do you remember when you sent that dog running? I want you to do that again."
Grace swallowed. "I don't remember what I did. It just happened."
His big hand pushed against her back gently, making her take a step toward the circle. "Try."
Grace took a deep breath and stepped over the glowing lines inside the circle. The worm jerked away from her like a wet ribbon. Grace glanced at Nassar.
"That's just normal resistance to humans. Keep trying."
Grace stared at the worm twisting. Go away, she thought. Gone. I want you gone.
The worm remained where it was.
Grace glanced at Liza. "Any idea what I'm supposed to be doing?"
Nassar's sister shook her blonde head. "None. Dreochs are aggressors. We have few defensive abilities and they're radically different from yours. Mostly our defenses consist of Nassar hacking at things with something large and sharp."
"The magic you're trying to do is called the Barrier," Nassar said. "It's one of the natural Mailliard's magics. Very talented members of your family used it both as defense and as a weapon. Your mother stated that it can't be taught. You simply do it or you don't."
Grace focused on the worm and tried to pretend it was a large, mean-looking German shepherd.
An hour later she sat exhausted on the floor. The worm floated at the edge of the design.
"It's useless." Liza unscrewed a cap from a fresh bottle of water. She had gotten a cooler with drinks, migrated to the wall, and now sat on the floor. "Why Janet didn't practice with Grace is beyond me, but she didn't. We'll have to change the plan. Instead of you and Gr
ace, I'll go with Alasdair."
"No." Steel laced Nassar's voice. He leaned against the wall.
"You're being unreasonable."
Nassar's face was dark like a storm. "Both of you will die. I have resistances and power to counter Roar's attacks. You don't."
"You can't counter this one."
He didn't answer.
"Why don't you just turn into a bird and fly through the zone?" Grace asked.
"Flight is forbidden in the game," Nassar answered.
Liza sighed. "Grace, would you like some water?"
"Yes."
Liza tossed her a new bottle.
"Thank you." Grace caught it. "Why are you fighting Roars anyway? What's this dispute about?"
"It's about children," Nassar said. "And killing me."
"Our aunt married a member of clan Roar," Liza said. "Arthur Roar. He turned out to be a wart on the ass of the human kind. Abusive, violent, cruel. She left after eight years and took their three kids with her."
"Should've left sooner," Nassar said. His green eyes promised violence, the light irises so cold that Grace took a small step back.
"She had her reasons for staying," Liza said. "There was a large dowry involved and she didn't want us to have to pay restitution and interest. But in the end it was just too much. After Arthur broke his son's legs, she grabbed the kids and came home. Now, nine years later, Arthur suddenly wants his children back."
Liza took a drink from her bottle. "He's never shown any interest in them. No calls, no letters, not even a card. He's done nothing to support them. But Aunt Bella signed the wedding agreement that specified equal amount of time with the children for each parent in the event of separation. Arthur claims that since the kids were with her exclusively for nine years, now he has exclusive rights to them."
"He doesn't give a damn about the kids. It's an excuse for the Roars to test the waters," Nassar said. "They have a couple of strong people and they're thinking of moving in on our interests. Before they do it, they want to weaken us. They knew that if they challenged the clan, I would enter the game, and they believe they have a reasonable chance of killing me. They'll knock out Dreoch's biggest power user and earn respect from other clans for killing a revenant and they will do it all before the war ever starts."
He pushed from the wall. "It's almost time for lunch. Let's take a break."
* * *
The lunch was laid out on a long table in a vast dining hall. Nassar held out a chair for Grace and she sat down. He took a place to her right, while Liza sat down at her left, next to Alasdair. Other people came into the room – two men and three women. They took their seats, nodded and smiled, started conversations in calm voices. Alastair said something and a woman laughed. They were so at ease and the warmth of their interaction began to thaw Grace's resolve.
The four chairs directly opposite her remained empty. She wondered who would sit there and a couple of minutes later she had her answer. Three children entered the room, followed by a pale woman. Of course. Nassar arranged it so she would spend the meal looking at the faces of the children whose fate would be decided in the game.
They took the seats: the woman with careworn eyes, a young boy with wild mass of dark hair, and two girls, one slender and blonde and the other only about ten or so, a kid with short dark hair and big blue eyes. The youngest girl saw Nassar and came grinning around the table. "Hug?" she asked him seriously.
"Hug," he agreed and put his massive arms around her.
"And no dying," she reminded him.
He let go and nodded.
The girl noticed her. "Hi. I'm Polina."
It was impossible not to smile back. "Hi. I'm Grace."
"You're supposed to protect Nassar," Polina said.
"That's what he tells me."
The child looked at her with her blue eyes. "Please don't let him die," she said softly. "I like him a lot."
"I'll try my best."
Polina went around the table to her seat. Grace leaned to Nassar and whispered, "Laying it on a little thick, don't you think?"
"I didn't put her up to it," he told her. She glanced into his green eyes and believed him.
The lunch went on. Dishes were brought and passed around the table: roast beef and mashed potatoes, green beans, corn, iced tea and lemonade. The food was delicious, but Grace ate little. Mostly she watched the children. The boy leaned to his mother, making sure her cup was filled. The older girl seemed on the verge of tears. She became more and more agitated, until finally, just as peach cobbler made its way past Grace, the girl dropped her fork. Her voice rang out. "What if they win?"
The table fell quiet.
"They won't," Nassar said calmly.
"If Arthur touches us, I'll kill him." Steel vibrated in the boy's voice.
Their mother leaned her elbows on the table and rested her forehead on her hands. "No. You're not strong enough," she told him in a dull voice. "Not yet. You must do whatever it takes to survive."
"That's enough." Nassar's magic surged out, spreading behind him like invisible wings. It brushed against Grace. Breath caught in her throat. So much power...
Nassar fixed the children with his stare. "You're our kin. You belong to Clan Dreoch. Nobody will take you from us. Anyone who tries will have to go through me."
With his power rising above the table, the prospect of going through him seemed impossible. His magic was staggering. It would take an army.
The anxiety slowly melted from the children's faces.
* * *
"Let's try again," Nassar said, as the two of them strode back into the room.
The worm still floated in the circle. Grace stepped inside. It shied from her.
"Why did you tell the children about the curse?"
"I won't lie to them. The possibility of defeat exists and they have to be prepared."
That defeat seemed very likely at the moment.
"But I will fight to the death to keep them safe. And even if I lose, the clan won't surrender them. We will go to war. We won't turn over children to a man who will break their bones."
Neither would she. It didn't matter who they were. A child was a child. She couldn't let them suffer, not after watching them near panic with fear of having to leave their mother. Their family and their home, all would be ripped away if Nassar and she lost.
"Now do you understand why I fight?" he asked her softly.
She nodded.
"I need your help desperately. Please help me, Grace."
"I wish I could," she said, her voice filled with regret.
Nassar watched her for a long moment. "What do you remember about your encounter with the dog? What did you feel?"
Grace frowned. "It was twelve years ago. I remember being scared for myself. And for the dog. He was my friend's dog. I knew that if he bit me, he would be put down."
Nassar strode to her, a determined look on his face.
"What are you doing?"
Nassar kept coming. She realized he was going to cross the line.
"Liza isn't here to save you!"
"No." He gave her the familiar half smile. "Only you can save me now."
Nassar stepped over the line. The worm streaked to him. It skimmed the surface of his magic and clamped onto his shoulder. Nassar's magic shrunk. He staggered and ripped the worm off. Grace cried out.
The worm flipped in the air and slid over him. Nassar tried to knock it off, but it slipped past his hands and leeched onto his side. Nassar gasped. His face went bloodlessly white. He spun, tripping over his feet, pulling at the writhing body, and stumbled to her. The worm slithered from his fingers and swooped down on him. Nassar fell.
Grace lunged forward. She meant to thrust herself in front of it, but instead magic pulsed from her in a controlled, short burst. The worm hurtled back, swept aside.
She pushed harder and the worm convulsed, squeezed between the press of her power and the glowing lines. "Nassar?" She knelt by him. "Nassar, are you okay?"
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Nassar's green eyes looked at her. His nose bled. He wiped away his blood with the back of his hand. "Protective instinct," he said. "You've done it."
It felt so right. As if the pressure straining at her from the inside suddenly found an outlet. So that's what she's been missing. All these years, she had suspected there was something more to the magic coursing through her and now she finally found it.
"I guess I did," she murmured.
"Were you scared for me?"
"Yes. How could you have done that? That was so reckless. What if I couldn't save you?"
"I hoped you could," he said.
The way he looked at her made her want to kiss him.
"Your family is free," he said.
"What?"
"I've let Clan Mailliard go," he said. "I've signed the order before lunch."
She sank to the floor. "Why?"
He sat up. "Because I decided that's not what I do. I don't force people to fight our battles. I don't want to be the man who blames children for their parents' mistakes. And I don't want you to be the last of the Mailliards. Whether you have children should be your choice alone. I don't want to take it away from you."
It slowly dawned on her. "So I'm free?"
"Yes."
She stared at him. "You don't even know me. I could just take off right now and leave you here to deal with the game on your own. Do you have any idea how scared I am? I don't want to die."
"Neither do I." He gave her another sad smile.
She hung her head, torn. She was deeply, deeply afraid. But walking away from the children wasn't in her. She wouldn't be able to look herself in the eye. It was as if they stood in the road with a semi hurtling at them at full speed. What kind of person wouldn't push them out of the harm's way?
"I should practice more," she said.
"We're going to need another worm then," Nassar said.
She glanced at the beast. It lay dead, sliced in a half.
"You killed it," he told her. "Sometimes the Barrier magic can also become a blade."
"But I don't even know how I've done it."
"We don't need to worry about that now," he said. "As long as you can defend me, we should be fine."
* * *
Three days later Grace stood in the middle of the street in Millighan City, hugging herself as the sun set slowly. Nassar loomed next to her. Behind them unfamiliar people moved, their magic shifting with them, their clothes color-coded by their clan: grey and black for Dreoch, green for Roar, red for Madrid. Nassar explained the rest of the colors, but she couldn't recall any of it. The anxiety pulsated through her with every heart beat.
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