by Sarra Cannon
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Lauren shook her head. “You’re wrong. Joe couldn’t stop looking at you all through dinner. ”
“I know, and it was really cool, but how much does that mean? He finds me attractive, and okay, the sex is hot, but that’s not a real relationship. ”
“It’s not a bad start. ”
Darcy wished that were true. “He’s not like other guys. He holds back. No one touches his heart. He let his wife go without a word. It’s been three years and he’s still resisting the Marcellis. How long will he resist me?”
“Maybe he won’t. Maybe he’s starting to get it. ”
Darcy wished that were true, but she didn’t have any evidence to back it up. “He’s a good man. Strong and loyal. I’d trust him with my life and even my heart, but I don’t think he’s interested in either. I’ve learned so much being here. About myself and life and people. I’ll be okay when it’s time to leave. I’ll…”
“Survive?” Lauren asked, her face serious, but her eyes bright with humor.
“Don’t you dare disco me. Yes. I’ll survive. Better than that. I want to get closer to you and Dad. I want to come to the White House and find a charity I can support and get involved in. ”
“What about Joe?”
“What do you mean?”
“Are you going to tell him how you feel?” Lauren asked. “Before you leave. ”
“I can’t decide. It’s not that I want to keep the truth from him, it’s that I’m not sure letting him know how I feel is very kind. I don’t think he can take one more person wanting him to love her back. ”
“I don’t agree. He seems like a pretty tough guy. ”
Someone knocked on the door.
“I’ll get it,” Lauren said as she stood and crossed the room.
She pulled open the door, and Darcy saw Joe standing there. He looked between the women.
Before he could speak, Lauren grinned and stepped into the hallway. “I was just leaving. You kids have a good time. Don’t stay up too late. ”
With that, she was gone.
Joe hovered awkwardly in the hallway. “She didn’t have to leave,” he said.
Darcy laughed. “Okay. That could make things interesting. ”
He stepped into the room and closed the door behind him. “I meant I didn’t want to run her off. ”
He stood in the center of the room and stared at her. There was a sadness in his eyes she hadn’t seen before. She rose and faced him.
“What’s wrong?” she asked.
“Hell if I know. ” He took a step toward her. “I’m sorry. I’ve been difficult and a jerk. Whatever I have going on isn’t your fault. I’ve always been good at moving on. At taking the next assignment. I don’t know what to do. But I do know that this is the only place where I can draw a breath. ”
“My room?” she asked, surprised it was anything close to a haven for him. “It’s not as if your family won’t think to look for you here. ”
He reached for her and pulled her close. “Not your room. Being with you. It doesn’t matter where. ”
Alex paced outside the guesthouse. The night was clear and cool. There was a forecast of rain, but he didn’t believe it. Not that it mattered one way or the other. Rain, snow, sleet, weather wasn’t his problem. Paige was.
He didn’t understand her. He’d stayed because…because. He swore. He didn’t know why. Because leaving hadn’t felt right. Because they’d had unfinished business. Or so he’d thought. But in the past couple of days, she’d acted as if he didn’t exist. Or matter. If he lived to be a thousand he would never understand women. Why did they have to be so damn complicated?
He turned and stared at the front door. He could talk to her. That was something women really seemed to like. Talking. Endless talking.
But about what? She was going to want to ask a bunch of questions, and he didn’t have the answers. She was like that. Tricky. Sly. Beautiful.
He stared up at the stars and thought about how she moved and the sound of her laughter. That in all the years they’d been apart, he’d never forgotten her or wanted anyone the way he’d wanted her.
Alex swore under his breath and walked into the guesthouse. He headed directly for Paige’s bedroom and opened the door without knocking.
She lay on her bed, reading. Her hair was mussed, her face free of makeup. The tank top she wore over pj bottoms looked thin and worn. Not the least bit sexy—but that didn’t stop him from wanting her.
They stared at each other. Neither spoke. Paige put down her book, then slid down on the bed and smiled.
That’s all it took. One smile.
Even as he jerked off his T-shirt, he moved toward her. He reached for her as she reached for him, and then he was in her arms. She felt soft and feminine and so familiar that he ached inside. Their mouths locked in a deep, hungry kiss. It had been so long, he thought as need rocketed through him. Too long.
Even as their tongues tangled and brushed and circled, they tore at each other’s clothes. He needed her naked—he had to touch her or die.
There were no gentle preliminaries, no murmured words, no light touches. Just reaching and getting naked and kissing. And then she was on her back and he was between her legs. She stared at him, her green eyes dark with passion.
“I want you,” she breathed.
“I’ve missed you,” he told her, right before he claimed her.
Tessa sat alone in the dark. Her room was quiet, even with the window open. Moonlight allowed her to see the vineyard and nearly to the ocean. Hints of salt air mingled with the heavy fragrance of the ripening grapes.
The chardonnay harvest had begun. Soon the machinery in the pressing room would clank to life, and the cycle would begin again.
Across from her chair stood the big, empty bed where she and Lorenzo had slept for so many years. She’d avoided it, spending her nights dozing in her chair. But tonight she felt differently. More at peace.
“Are you here?” she asked the quiet darkness. “Lorenzo?”
As she asked the question, she smiled. Even if her husband could reach her from the great beyond, he was just stubborn enough to refuse to speak to her.
“I miss you, Lorenzo,” she whispered. “So much. ”
There was no response.
Tessa stood and made her way to the bed. As she lay down on the cool sheets, she waited for the knot of fear and panic that had driven her from this bed the first night after he died. It didn’t come. Instead she felt somehow safe and comforted. And a slight dipping of the mattress, as if someone had joined her.
No one had, of course. When she turned to look, she was still alone. But not so lonely anymore.
Four hours later, Darcy was asleep, but Joe couldn’t relax enough to stay in bed. He dressed and quietly left her room. Instead of returning to his own, he walked out of the house and into the night.
The sky was clear, the moon nearly full. He walked into the vineyards, brushing against the heavy grapes.
The leaves were dry from lack of rain, but dry, warm conditions were supposed to be good for harvesting. Or was it less sun and no—
He shook his head. None of it mattered, he told himself. He was leaving on Monday and he wasn’t coming back for a long time. He had SEAL teams to get ready. Plans had to be made, training implemented. There was a whole world outside of the vineyard, and he intended to be a part of it.
“Anywhere but here,” he murmured into the night.
But even as he spoke the words, he felt a heavy weight on his shoulders. Brenna’s baby was due anytime now. How would she hire a manager before she gave birth? What about Marco and Colleen? They were sticking around to help when they really wanted to be on the road, selling the wines. There was the harvest, the pressing, the bottling. So many responsibilities and he—
“No!” he roared, glaring up at the heavens. “I don’t know where you are, Lorenzo, but
you couldn’t make me care before and you can’t make me care now. I’m not staying. This isn’t where I belong. I’ve never belonged here. I don’t blame you for this—it’s simply the truth. Not here. ”
His words drifted into the night. There was no response, and he felt a little foolish after his outburst. Yelling at ghosts wasn’t going to accomplish anything.
He turned to walk back to the house, only to pause. There was something…
He inhaled deeply and realized what it was.
Smoke.
20
D arcy woke to a loud shrieking sound she couldn’t place. Joe wasn’t in her bed and there was no way the alarm signaled good news.
She’d barely thrown back the covers when Mia burst into her room.
“It’s a fire,” Mia yelled. “There’s a fire in the vineyards. ”
Fire? How could that happen? Sure it had been dry, but what on earth could start a fire in the middle of grapevines?
Rather than consider an answer, she grabbed clothes and pulled them on. Lauren ran into her room.
“What’s going on?” her sister asked.
“A fire in the vineyard. Get dressed. We’ll go downstairs and see if we can help. ”
In a matter of a couple of minutes, everyone had assembled in the kitchen. The emergency siren had been turned off, but there was still a sense of urgency.
Grandma Tessa was already making coffee. Joe paced back and forth, talking to Marco in a low voice and making notes on a pad of paper. Marco left the kitchen and Joe glanced at everyone else.
“There’s a fire in the east field. I can’t tell how big it is, but it’s spreading fast. Everything is just dry enough to burn. The fire department is on its way. They’re sending three companies, and at dawn we’ll get air support. ”
“What about Brenna?” Darcy asked. “She’ll want to know. ”
Joe nodded. “I’ve already spoken with Nic, and they’re on their way. ”
“A fire,” Ian said. “Wow. Do you know how it started? There hasn’t been any lightning, has there? I didn’t think you got a lot of lightning in this part of the country. Maybe some homeless guy smoking or something. Could a match have started the fire? Or a downed electrical wire. Only why would it be down. There are—”
Joe, Colleen, Marco, and Mia all turned to Ian.
“Shut up,” they said together.
Ian took a step back. “Sorry. I was just trying to help. ”
“Help silently,” Joe said.
The back door opened and Alex and Paige raced inside. “You know about the fire, right?” Alex asked.
Joe nodded. Marco returned. He had several rolled sheets of paper in his hands.
“Maps,” Joe said. “We need to help the fire department find the best places to fight the fire. ”
Marco spread out the large maps on the kitchen table, anchoring the edges with salt and pepper shakers and a bowl of sugar.
“Here’s the house,” the elder Marcelli said. “Here’s the east field. ”
Everyone gathered around the table.
“There’s a service road,” Joe said, tracing a dark line on the map. “Where are the water connections?”
Marco pointed to several triangular icons. “These show them. The trucks can hook up directly to our main water supply. ”
Joe straightened and counted heads. “We’ll split up into teams and take maps with us. Tessa, I’ll tell you where to send Nic when he arrives. You’ll stay here with Brenna, Lauren, and Darcy. ”
“I’m not staying,” Darcy told him. “And before you start arguing, I’ve spent the last five weeks walking all over this vineyard. I know it better than you do. I know what the water stations look like. I’m going to help. ”
His dark gaze locked with hers, then he nodded once. “Alex, you’re with Darcy. Mia and Ian, as well. I want this fire stopped, but even more than that, I want Darcy kept safe. ”