by J. D. Robb
“She’s nothing to you.”
“They’re all something to me. Mira, take the kid.”
“Of course. There now, sweetheart.” Sliding Belle from Stella’s grip, Mira nuzzled her. “Everything’s all right. Eve won’t let anything happen to you.”
“She’s just another brat. Plenty more where she came from.”
“Not for you. You’re finished.”
Stella’s eyes gleamed. “What? You’re going to shoot me now?” She held up her hands. “You’re going to shoot me when I’m unarmed?”
“No, I don’t have to kill what’s already dead.” Eve holstered her weapon, watched Stella’s smile spread. And rammed her fist, with all her force—her anger, her despair—into that smiling face. “But I think I’ve needed to do that for a long time.”
Stella lay on the sidewalk, as she’d laid on the floor of McQueen’s apartment. The blood pooled around her, a black lake in the shadowed dark.
“You can come back. I’ll just kick your ass again.”
“Well done,” Mira commented.
“Where’s Bella? Where’s the kid?”
“She’s safe. They’re all safe tonight. You just needed to put a face on the innocent. It’s easier for you to stand for them than it is for yourself. Tonight you did both. I’m proud of you.”
“I punched a dead woman. That makes you proud?”
“So literal.”
“She’ll come back.”
“And you’ll beat her back again. You’re stronger than she is. You always were.” Mira took Eve’s hand, looked toward the fire in the sky. “These were terrible times. Out of terrible times, perhaps more than ordinary ones, heroes and villains spring. Sometimes there’s little difference between them but a choice, and the choice made defines them. Look at the choices.”
“Whose?”
“It started here, didn’t it? It’s time to go.”
She woke in the dark, steady and warm. No shakes or unloosed screams in her head. So she lay for a moment, still. She’d dreamed quiet, she decided, as Roarke slept undisturbed beside her. And she felt the considerable weight of the cat, heavy across her feet.
Not quite a nightmare, not quite a dream—and not quite a solution, she thought. But progress. She’d have to think about it, about choices, and about the fact it had felt so damn liberating to punch the image of her dead mother in the face.
She wasn’t entirely sure what that said about her, but she figured she’d be okay with it.
In fact, she felt pretty much okay now. Sort of happy, definitely energized.
She shifted, propped up a little as her eyes adjusted. She hardly ever got to watch Roarke sleep. Most of the time he rose before she did. And sleep for her tended to be wandering in lucid, often disturbing dreams, or an absolute exhausted void.
He looked peaceful, and God, so beautiful. How did genes decide to mix themselves up, combine and create such serious beauty? It didn’t seem quite fair to the rest of the population.
Then again, all that serious beauty belonged to her.
Screw the rest of the population.
“There now.” He murmured it, reaching for her. “Ssh. I’m right here.”
Could he hear her think now? she wondered, but went with it when he drew her close.
“Did you have a nightmare?”
“Sort of.”
“It’s all right.” He stroked her back, brushed a kiss over her hair.
“It’s all right now.”
Look at him, she thought, comforting her. So ready to soothe and hold. Could she be any luckier?
“I’m okay.”
“Are you cold? I’ll light the fire.”
Love simply swamped her. “I’m not cold. Not now.” She rolled over, onto him, laid her lips on his. “How are you?”
She saw his eyes, the dazzle of them close to her own. “Curious at the moment.”
“I had a dream. I’ll tell you about it.” But now she swept kisses over his face. “Then I woke up, and it was good. You were sleeping, and the cat was weighing down my feet. And it was all so good. The world’s so fucked up, Roarke, but right here? It’s all just exactly right.”
He trailed his fingers over the back of her legs, along her hips. “It feels just exactly right.”
“You’re probably tired. That’s okay. You can go back to sleep, and I’ll take care of this.”
“Oh, I think I can manage to stay awake, with the proper motivation.” He rolled her over, pressed center to center. “And there it is.”
“At times like this, I like that men are so easy.”
“Handily, I feel the same. It’s easy enough when I have my wife under me, warm and soft.”
“Maybe.” She hooked his legs with hers, reversed positions again. “But I like having my man under me, hot and hard.”
“That must’ve been some dream.”
She laughed, nipped at his jaw. “Not that kind. Besides, I like this better when it’s real.” She levered up, lifted off the nightshirt she’d pulled on, tossed it aside.
His hands slid up her torso to her breasts. “Again, we agree.”
She pressed her hands to his, closed her eyes as pleasure, easy as breath, wound through her. His hands, his skin, his body, taut and chiseled, under hers. Oh yes, so much better than dreams.
He rose to her, wrapped around her as their mouths met. Deep and slow. Their bodies pressed close, a single shadow in the quiet dark as her hands combed through his hair, tangled there.
He stroked the length of her, his fascinating, complicated Eve, and the muscles he too often found tense and knotted moved warm and loose. He found the pulse in her throat with his lips, relished the life there in that tender curve.
He let her ease him back, but caught her hands and drew her down to him. He so much wanted her mouth, wanted that most simple, most basic of matings before the heat and the hurry.
She gave, thrilled to be wanted, and to want. All but felt her skin shimmer under the glide of his hands. While she shimmered she tasted. The strong line of his throat, the sculpted lines of his torso, the spread of his shoulders.
Not a dream, but dreamy as they moved together, touched, savored. Neither of them heard the solid thump of the cat as he leaped down from the bed, undoubtedly in disgust.
Soft sighs, the whisper of sheets, a sudden catch of breath, and the world centered in that wide pool of bed even as the sky window over it bloomed with the first pale lights of dawn.
In its pearly glow she rose over him again. And took him in with a shudder, shudder of gluttonous pleasure. All and more, she thought as the need squeezed her heart. Together they were all and more.
While she rode him he watched her in that breaking light, her eyes gold and fierce, her long, lean body gleaming. With her hair like a tousled crown, her head fell back as the climax took her. Then even her image blurred as she whipped him to the edge of control. As she snapped it like a single thin thread.
As he broke, he reached for her, and held her close on the long fall.
When she got her breath back, they were still tangled together. And the cat had climbed back onto the bed to stare at them, his bicolored eyes unblinking.
“What’s his problem?” she asked.
“I expect we disturbed his beauty sleep.”
“He gets so much sleep he ought to be the Roarke of cats.”
“The what?”
“I was thinking, before your telepathy woke you up, how pretty you are. Then, since you woke up, I figured I might as well take advantage of you.”
“It’s appreciated.”
“You were probably almost ready to get up anyway, to slink off and start the first stage of your daily world domination.”
He glanced toward the clock. “Ah well, I’ll have to get a late start on that today.”
“I’d better get started on my daily hunt for bad guys.”
“Let’s have coffee in bed first.”
She liked the sound of it. “Who gets up to get i
t?”
“That’s a question. Rock, paper, scissors?”
“You’ll cheat.”
“How?”
“It’s the telepathy.”
“Ah yes. Then you might as well get it, as you’ll lose anyway.”
“Maybe, maybe not.” She shifted enough to hold out a fist. He held out his in turn. Counted to three.
“Damn it,” she mumbled as his paper covered her rock.
She rolled out of bed, fed the cat as she programmed the coffee.
“Tell me about the dream.”
“It was weird. Mixed up. All this digging into the Urbans. That’s where I was, here in New York.”
She brought the coffee back, told him.
“I was so pissed, but not … I don’t know. Upset? I don’t know if that’s the word. But I kept looking at her, listening to her. Bitch, bitch, bitch. Blame, blame, blame. And there’s Mira, so calm. Unshakable, the way she can be. Part of my head’s thinking, look how different they are. Like opposite sides. And Mira had some bad shit in her life, but it didn’t turn her into some monster. I didn’t let Stella turn me. So what has she got? She’s got nothing but what I let her have. I know it. I always did. But …”
“What happened in Dallas was vicious. You had to work through it.”
“I know it took a piece out of you, too. And I know the time since hasn’t been easy for you. It’s going to be better.”
“I can see it.”
“She wasn’t going to walk off with that kid, or hurt her. Then when I saw it was Bella. Jesus. Over my dead body, you worthless cunt.” Eve took a breath. “She wanted me to shoot her. It’s weird, right? Even though it’s my dream, my inner whatever running the show, she wanted me to shoot her, then it’s like I killed her. I guess there was some stupid little seed of guilt in there I had to dig out and crush. Punching her felt so damn good. Mira’d probably have something to say about that.”
“I believe she’d say, Brava.”
“It’s going to be like it was with Troy, when I worked through that. She may come back, but she can’t hurt me anymore. That’s done.”
He lowered his forehead to hers. “I can’t tell you what it means to me.”
“You don’t have to. There’s probably some crap in here that still needs shoveling, but everybody’s got crap, right? It’s what you do about it. Choices. I’ve got to take a good look at mine, at some point. And now, I’ve got to start looking at choices people made in the Urbans that helped build the maze that led to the choices Callaway’s made.”
“As I said, some dream.”
“You got telepathy, I’ve got dreams. And I’m going to use them to kick some ass.”
She compiled the notes, the data, the images, shuffling them together for the morning briefing. She rose just as Roarke stepped into her office.
“I’ve got to get in, start setting this up.”
“Before you do. Gina MacMillon.” He offered her a disc. “You may want to familiarize yourself on the way in. I’ve copied the files to your office comp.”
“Thanks. Interesting?”
“Very,” he said as she pocketed the disc. “She was married to a William MacMillon, and while he was listed as the father on the birth record—that record wasn’t recorded until the child was more than six months old.”
“That is interesting.”
“Also interesting. William MacMillon had filed for divorce, ultimately citing desertion. He filed eight months before the birth of the child, and the claim on the old documents states she’d abandoned him and the family home six months previously.”
“Fourteen months? If he was telling the truth, it’s either the longest gestation on record, or the kid wasn’t his. I’m going with the second option.”
“Better. I dug up a deposition where MacMillon states his wife had become involved with a religious cult, specifically names Menzini as an influence.”
Eve’s eyes sharpened as she turned to her board. “The wife takes off with Menzini’s group, gets knocked up. Somewhere in there has a change of heart—or re-engages her brain. Goes back to the husband—with a kid. He forgives her, takes responsibility for the kid.”
She paused a moment. “I’ve got some problems with that unless MacMillon is registered as a saint, but the time line reads like that.”
“It does. Love, if love it was, makes saints or sinners out of men.”
“I think mostly people are just born that way. So, the bio father maybe comes for the kid, and Karleen MacMillon’s now listed as an abductee.”
“And both Gina and William listed as dead, killed during the home invasion where the child was taken.”
“And eventually Gina’s half-sister finds the kid, takes her as her own—changing the name. Protect the kid.”
“It reads that way.”
“I’d like some verification instead of speculation, but I can push on it. Maybe there’s family or somebody in the know still alive. I’ll put some work into finding out.”
“I have one more,” Roarke told her. “I had a quick word with Crystal Kelly.”
“Who?”
“CEO of New Harbor, Callaway’s client.”
“Is it business hours?”
“Close enough for those of us trying to wrangle world domination. She’d heard about the incident here, of course, and knew Cattery. She was cooperative, and sounded sincerely fond of Cattery. She was, as he stated, at dinner with Vann when Callaway contacted him to tell him Cattery was dead.”
“Right on the spot. Handy.”
“It was, yes. She says Vann was stunned. Both of them were stunned and upset. They considered postponing the presentation, but then agreed to get it done and over. Joe, as she said, had worked hard on it.”
“And Callaway.”
“She claimed she didn’t know him as well as Vann, Cattery or Weaver. Hadn’t really connected with him, and considered him a more behind-the-scenes type. She didn’t really have any specific impression of him, which made one on me.”
“Yeah, he’s invisible to her—and that would grate.”
“More, Vann specifically—before he knew of the death—credited Cattery with two key points in the campaign, and Weaver for her flexibility. She doesn’t recall him mentioning Callaway except as part of the team.”
“Still doing what he’s told, and no more—sounds like. And pissed off that someone like Cattery, the family man, the soccer coach, the nice guy is passing him by.”
“It’s not much more than you had.”
“Little things, adding up.” To a clearer picture, she thought. “I appreciate it.”
“I’m a bit crowded today, but I can look into it sometime late this afternoon if there’s still a need.”
“I’ll keep that in reserve.” She stepped closer. “But don’t screw with your work and time for this. I’m covered, and you’ve already done more than your part.”
“Over a hundred and twenty people are dead. I’ll make time if I’m needed.”
“I’ll let you know. Thanks for this.” She patted her pocket. “I’ll bone up on the way to Central.”
“It’s a dangerous world out there. Take care of my cop.”
“Don’t worry.”
Wishing he could give her what she asked, he watched her walk out.
With her mind on steps, angles, she hurried downstairs to find Summerset in the foyer. He held out her long leather coat.
“It’s been fitted with the body armor lining, as in your jacket,” he told her.
“Yeah?” Roarke, she thought, never a miss. She took the coat, tested the weight, studied the flexible, protective lining.
He might tell her to take care of his cop, but he often beat her to it.
“A cold front moved in,” Summerset said simply. “We’ve had a hard frost, and there’s a bitter wind this morning.”
“Okay.” She hesitated, knowing very well they were both aware he rarely greeted her in the morning, much less with a weather forecast. “I can’t giv
e you all the details, but we found a link between the suspect and Red Horse. I have to tighten it, but it’s a connection, maybe—probably—an important one.”
“I could be useful.”
“Be useful to him.” She glanced upstairs. “He’s let too much slide the last couple months. I’ve got this.”
“Then I wish you a very productive day.”
She stepped outside, found Summerset’s description of the wind exactly on target. The bitter blew straight into her bones before she jumped into the vehicle—heater already running—at the base of the steps.
She plugged in the disc Roarke had given her, started to order it on audio. Then gave herself permission to deal with personal business first.
A sleepy-eyed, slurry-voiced Mavis came up on her in-dash screen.
“Hey. Guess I woke you up.”
“Not so much. We’re all having a snuggle. We put in a late night, and Belle woke up early.”
“Okay. Sorry I haven’t been able to get back to you. You texted you were all in Florida. Still?”
“Miami. We zipped down a couple days ago. I had a two-night gig, and Leonardo’s meeting with some totally-too-tanned clients while we’re here. We’re good.”
“Why don’t you stay down there until I get back to you?”
There was a rustle, baby-voiced babbling, and a low rumble that must have been Leonardo. “That’s affirmative.” Mavis shook back her hair, a cotton-candy pink froth sparkling with some sort of silvery overlay. “Weather’s mag, and we got a place with our own pool. Bellarina’s our little mermaid. We got the skinny off screen. What the you-know-what, Dallas.”
“I can’t give you the details, but we’re working it. I’ll be in touch as soon as I can.”
“There’s lots of buzz about terrorism.”
“It’s not, but it’s messy. Just stay sunny.”
“Totally, but—okay, sweet potato. Bella hears your voice. Hang a mo.”
“Das!” Belle’s pretty face popped on screen. Eve had a flash of that pretty face, with tears streaming.
“Hey, kid.”