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by Peter David


  “You have such a sensitive touch,” she told him.

  “Of course. Most Klingons do. It enables us to properly search out pressure points, to stop the blood flow and disable or kill an…” His voice trailed off as he saw her expression, her skin paling slightly, the darkness in her eyes suddenly looking much wider. “That was…the wrong thing to say, wasn’t it?”

  “It’s okay.” She patted him on the upper shoulder. “Fortunately enough, when one is romantically involved with a Klingon, one learns to have a sense of humor.”

  “I have a sense of humor as well,” Worf told her. “It is simply…dissimilar from yours.”

  “Really. How dissimilar?”

  “Well…” He gave it a moment’s thought. “There was a time I attended an exhibition of proficiency with the bat’leth,” he said, referring to the curved, formidable Klingon sword, “being given by K’Plok, one of the foremost bat’leth experts in the Klingon Empire. Unfortunately, K’Plok had a cold on the scheduled day, but no self-respecting Klingon would cancel an obligation simply over a minor illness. In any event, as he was demonstrating the famed overhead reverse thrust, he sneezed and accidentally cut off his own head.”

  “Oh, my God,” gasped Deanna. “What did you do?”

  “We laughed. It was the single longest, most sustained laughter in the history of the empire. K’Plok was immortalized as the greatest comedian ever known to Klingons. In fact, his name was officially changed to K’Plop in our annals, in commemoration of the sound his head made when it struck the—”

  She held up a hand. “I…get the picture, Worf. And did you truly think that was…funny?”

  “If I did not think that, would I have kept the head when it ricocheted and flew into my lap?”

  At that, Deanna visibly blanched. “You…you didn’t…”

  He paused only a moment, and then said, “That was a joke, Deanna.”

  She let out a sigh of relief that even resulted in a small chuckle at the realization that he’d fooled her.

  “You see?” he pointed out triumphantly. “I do have a sense of humor. I made you laugh.”

  “Yes, you did.” She hugged him affectionately. “Go be with your son now. I think he could use your company.”

  “You are very likely right…as you often are.”

  Worf headed off toward Alexander and, as he did so, made a mental note to send word to the Klingon homeworld, where many of his most treasured effects were in storage, and arrange for the prompt disposal of the head of K’Plop before Deanna found out. The Klingon Comedy Museum had been after him to donate it for years anyway, since they had an understandable dearth of displays.

  He passed Beverly Crusher, who was talking to Data. Data appeared to be asking Crusher whether or not she had happened to see his cat in all of the confusion. Worf found it strange that, with everything that had happened, Data was remotely concerned about some animal. He called out, “Data…”

  “Yes?” Data turned his attention to Worf as Beverly glanced over her shoulder at him.

  “Remember the other day? When you pushed the doctor into the water?”

  “Yes.”

  He stabbed a finger at Data. “That was funny. Damned funny. And do not let anyone else tell you otherwise.” With that, he walked off, leaving a slightly confused Data and a rather teed-off Beverly Crusher.

  The lake looked remarkably inviting.

  The air was uncommonly warm. Deanna felt remarkably grungy, what with the crash landing (but at least they’d landed, dammit!) and her own overall sense of exhaustion. She had been ministering to the needs of the crew for some time. Rescue vessels were reportedly on their way, but—and it was vanity, she hated to admit it—she was reaching a point where she felt self-conscious just having people looking at her. She felt so disgusting, so…

  “Yucch.” She studied her reflection in the water and shook her head, discouraged. She picked up a few palmsful of water and splashed them on her face, but all she managed to do was take the dirt smears on her face and transform them into larger dirt smears. Meantime she became aware that there were no sounds nearby. Everyone was quiet, tended to. She wasn’t particularly needed at that moment, and she was reasonably sure the area was secluded. Then again, it wasn’t as if Deanna Troi were the most modest individual in the galaxy in any event. Even if she was discovered paddling around, well…she had certainly attended her share of Betazoid marriages, during which the bride, the groom, and all the guests traditionally go naked. In fact, she had met William T. Riker, second-in-command of the Enterprise, at one of those exact functions.

  And the water, to her surprise, was actually fairly warm. There was probably an underground spring somewhere helping to heat it up.

  “Oh, why not?” she said to no one in particular. Within a minute, her uniform lay in a crumpled heap on the shore and Deanna was paddling through the water with quick, sure strokes. The moment that she submerged, she felt revitalized. She burst from the water, throwing her head back, droplets spraying the air, and she laughed joyously, just happy to be alive.

  She sensed that she was not alone before she saw him. But the moment she sensed it, she knew who it was.

  “Counselor,” came the amused voice of William Riker, “I believe that you’re ever-so-slightly out of uniform.”

  She dove beneath the surface again, turning around under water and coming back up facing the direction from which the voice had originated. She rubbed the water from her eyes and saw Riker seated on a large rock overlooking the lake. He was grinning widely and had her uniform neatly folded in his lap.

  “You should try it yourself, Will,” she suggested with merriment twinkling in her eye. “The water truly is wonderful.”

  “Oh…I don’t think so. Thanks all the same.”

  At the far end of the lake, water cascaded down via a rather impressive-looking waterfall. As Troi backstroked in a most relaxed manner, she called out, “Does any of this remind you of anything?”

  He looked around a moment, trying to think what she might be getting at, and then he laughed as he realized. “The Janaran Falls, in the Jalara jungle back on Betazed. How could I forget? It was after I’d rescued you from the Sindareen raiders, and we were heading back to the rendezvous point. Trip should have taken us three days, even though we were on foot. Took us five.”

  “Well, we kept getting…distracted,” Troi said teasingly. “And we spent most of our last day at the falls.”

  “I don’t know about you, but in my case, it was because I wasn’t particularly anxious to leave.”

  “I felt the same way. Gods, we were so young, Will. We knew nothing about anything.” She floated in place, treading water. “It seemed like we had all the time in the world. Who knew it would be the last time we’d see each other for so many years.”

  “Well…technically, it wasn’t,” Riker reminded her. “Unfortunately, everything that happened after that was…well…”

  She winced, remembering. After they’d been picked up from the jungle, the young Deanna—under pressure from her mother—had broken off her involvement with Riker. The sudden turnaround in the relationship had hit Riker hard, and unfortunately for the both of them, he had done something typically male: knocked back a few drinks and fallen into bed with a rather nubile and willing young woman. And Troi, who had only hours before defiantly declared her independence from her mother’s suffocating demands, had found the two of them together, and stormed off, hurt and angry. Had Riker remained on Betazed, they might have had the time to try and straighten things out. But such was not to be the case, as Riker had received his new shipboard assignment. There had been a fleeting reunion at a Betazed art museum before Riker had left, but it had been all too brief and unsatisfying. Once aboard his new ship, Riker had sent her a message, asking her to meet him on Risa some weeks later so they could take one last shot at salvaging their relationship. But the rendezvous was never kept…and they had lost touch until their unexpected reunion on the Enterprise yea
rs later.

  “Funny that you remember that so clearly,” she said. “Tom didn’t.”

  “Tom? Oh.” He got that frown then that usually crossed his face whenever the name of Tom Riker was brought up. Even though he was another person…he was also the same person. It was something that Riker didn’t particularly like to dwell upon. “Did you have to bring him up?” asked Riker. “I mean, things were going so…” He paused and forced a smile. “…swimmingly.”

  “I’m sorry, Will,” Deanna said, aware that she’d made him feel uncomfortable. “I didn’t mean to…”

  “It’s all right,” he told her, waving it off. “So Tom didn’t remember anything that happened after the Janaran Falls?”

  “Oh, I assume he did. When he said nothing of it, though, I chose not to point it out. It seemed…inappropriate, somehow. Perhaps even a little sad. It was likely a deliberate effort on his part not to dwell on it as well. He had a good deal of time on his own down on Nervala Four, and he claimed to have spent much of it thinking about me.”

  “I have no doubt,” Riker said with raised eyebrow.

  “So he probably idealized our relationship; chose to focus on the positive and pleasant memories rather than the…”

  “Tragic conclusion?”

  He said it with a good deal of humor, but there was something more to his tone that Deanna sensed very clearly. Plus, if there was any individual for whom she had an instant intuition for what he was thinking, it was…

  “…Worf?”

  She blinked herself back to attention, realizing that the warm water and her own ponderings had prompted her to mentally drift. Riker had been saying something, and the last word was the name of the ship’s resident Klingon officer. “I’m sorry…?” she asked, admitting tacitly her distracted state.

  “I was endeavoring,” he sighed, “to make a ham-handed change in the conversation. So I was asking how things are going between you and Worf.”

  “Oh. Fine. Very well.”

  “I understand,” and suddenly he was grinning in a devilish manner, “that Klingons read and write poetry during…”

  “Will!” Her face flushed slightly although she was, at the same time, slightly amused. “I don’t see that as any of your business. Unless, of course,” she added after a moment’s hesitation, “you feel your own abilities as a poet are being threatened. We were just talking about the falls. You wrote the poem there, remember? The poem.”

  He put his face in his hands. “Good lord, I’m never going to live that down. It was so awful….”

  “You keep saying that! It was not awful. It was beautiful.” Her gaze softened at the recollection. “ ‘I hold you close to me…’ ”

  “You still remember the first line?”

  “The first line?” And without hesitation, she recited:

  “I hold you close to me.

  Feel the breath of you, and the wonder of you

  And remember a time

  Without you

  But only as one would remember

  A bleak and distant nightmare

  And you shudder against me in your sleep

  Do you share the memory with me of dark times past?

  And you smile

  Do you share the memory of times to come?

  The future holds such promise

  And just as I cannot imagine how I survived the past

  Without you

  I cannot imagine a future

  Without you.”

  Riker stared at her in wonderment, shaking his head slowly. “I can’t believe it. I can’t believe you remember every line. I feel as if I wrote it a lifetime ago.”

  “In many ways…you did. I, uhm…I think I’d best be getting out now.”

  “Shall I turn around?”

  “That would be the considerate course of action.”

  “All right.” Riker got to his feet and turned completely around in a circle, so that he was facing her again just as she was about to emerge from the water. He grinned lopsidedly.

  “You’re a riot, Commander,” Deanna said with just a touch of scold in her voice. And then, boldly, she emerged from the water.

  Immediately Riker turned away, placing her uniform on the ground behind him. “My, my, Commander…becoming shy in your old age?” Deanna’s voice floated to him. “It’s not as if I have anything you haven’t seen before.”

  “True. But it’s just a matter of…of decorum,” he said after a moment of searching for the right word. “After all, you and Worf are a couple now, and I…well, it’s just…it wouldn’t be appropriate for me to be ogling you.”

  “ ‘Ogling’? Are you saying the sight of me naked would contain some prurient interest to you? Would be stimulating in some manner?”

  “No, I’m not saying that at all,” he briskly and rather ineffectively lied. And he had the sick feeling that she saw through the lie since, of course, attempting to dissemble with an empath was generally an exercise in futility. “I can…” He cleared this throat, which was problematic considering that at the moment he felt as if there was too much blood in it. “I can admire your…figure…in the same way that I would admire any naturally crafted work of art.”

  “Why Commander, you flatterer!”

  “I have my moments. The point is…” He heard the rustling of her clothing as she dressed, and endeavored to block it out. Searching for the right angle to come at it, he said, “I would just feel intrusive, that’s all.”

  “I notice that you didn’t feel so intrusive that you refused to sit by while I bathed.”

  “Old times’ sake,” he said quickly. “I admit, this place reminded me a bit of the Jalara jungle. I succumbed to nostalgia; hardly a capital offense. Besides, the bottom line is…how do you think Worf would feel if I started rhapsodizing about your body?”

  “That’s a good point,” she admitted. “You can turn around now, Commander. And this time, one hundred and eighty degrees should suffice.”

  He did as she said. She was busy shaking out her hair, which was already beginning to dry in the warmth of the air and sun. Her uniform was still a bit ragged, but at least she was looking refreshed. “Your concern over Worf’s sensibilities is very commendable, Will. But I am a bit concerned about yours.”

  “Mine? Deanna, we’ve been through this…”

  “I know, Will. We’ve been through…a good deal. And I…” She hesitated, looking down. Very softly, she said, “Sometimes I think that we spend so much time telling each other that our relationship won’t…shouldn’t…be rekindled…that it’s…”

  “What?” he gently prompted her after a moment. He went to her, took her hands firmly in his. “What are you saying?”

  She looked up at him with eyes that were deep pools in which he could have paddled forever. “Do we keep saying these things…because we believe it…or because we want to believe it? Because if we face the alternative, then we face the fact that we’ve wasted years that we could have been together.”

  It was a simple, casual, and calm observation, but it struck deeply into Riker’s heart. Suddenly his lips felt very dry.

  “Ow,” said Deanna, and Riker realized that he was, all unawares, squeezing her hands far too tightly.

  Quickly he released his hold on her and turned away from her. He straightened his jacket in unconscious imitation of a gesture he’d seen Picard make so many times. “Deanna…at this point, there’s really nothing to discuss beyond simple friendship, because there are other considerations. Worf, in particular, who is as decent and honest a man as I’ve ever known…who will love you and protect you…anything that I might say which would lead us down a different path would have an effect on him, and on Alexander, who I know absolutely adores you. I can’t operate without taking others into consideration.”

  “ ‘No man is an island,’ ” Deanna quoted ruefully.

  “Donne.”

  “For the moment,” she said.

  He frowned, not understanding, and then the puzzlement clear
ed. “I mean John Donne. He wrote that poem.”

  “So he did.” Deanna laughed. “I’m sorry, I was…never mind.” Then her expression drew serious. “Will…I’m just…feeling a bit confused at the moment. Conflicted. You’re saying one thing, you’re saying another, and I sense that there’s more, that…”

  “Deanna…in many ways…I will always love you. Just…I’m not…”

  His combadge beeped. Never before had he felt so relieved at that sound. He tapped the badge and said briskly, “Riker here.”

  “The rescue vessels are approaching, Number One,” came the crisp voice of the captain of the Enterprise… or, more precisely, of what was left of the Enterprise. “If you desire to have a final look around, now would be the time.”

  “I appreciate the suggestion, Captain…more than you know. Riker out.” He turned to Deanna and said, “We should really go.”

  “Will…”

  “Deanna…” His instinct was to reach for her shoulders, to look her squarely in the eyes, but he realized that—for whatever reason—he couldn’t do it. So he said simply, “There’s nothing that we’re going to say to each other now that we haven’t said before. The bottom line is, you’re happy with Worf now. You love him, don’t you?”

  “I…yes. Yes, I…I do…”

  “That’s it, then.” With that, he turned and headed back toward the wreckage of the fallen Enterprise.

  But that’s not it! Deanna wanted to shout after him. Whatever her feelings for Worf, whatever she and Riker said their feelings were for each other, she still felt as if there was much that was being left unsaid. It was a singularly frustrating state of mind for her. Here she was, the ship’s counselor, ostensibly trained in helping others sort out their feelings. And yet for herself, for her own feelings, there was nothing but confusion and frustration. How was it that she could and should know everyone else’s minds, but she couldn’t know where her own mind was? Finally, she fell back on the word that summarized the bafflement of women throughout the ages. “Men,” she sighed, and then added for good measure, “They’re all alike.”

 

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