When Dreams Tremble

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by Radclyffe


  and rolled over onto her side as the bag opened and Dev extricated herself.

  Dev sat up and rummaged for the lantern and turned it on, then checked her

  watch. “It’s midnight. If the rain doesn’t let up enough for us to chance taking

  the boat out on the lake in the morning, we’ll have to try starting a Þ re to dry

  out some of our gear. The tent’s holding, but the ß oor’s damp.”

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  Leslie caught Dev’s arm. “What are you going to do for the rest of the night,

  Dev?”

  “I’m going to hunt out whatever dryish wood I can and get it under a tarp.”

  “You’re not going anywhere.” Leslie threw back the top of the sleeping bag, sat

  up next to Dev, and clamped a hand on her arm.

  “Besides the rain, it’s not safe out there. In case you’ve forgotten, trees are

  falling like matchsticks. If one comes down on you, I’d never Þ nd you.”

  “Les, I’ll be okay.”

  “No.”

  Dev looked away. On Leslie, anger looked a lot like arousal. And Dev was still

  very close to boiling, and the pressure of Leslie’s Þ ngers digging into her arm

  was as potent as a caress. If they struggled in the small space, she’d lose the last

  frayed rein on the desire that was choking her. She’d be all over Leslie, and

  there were only so many times she could stop. “Okay. We should both try to

  get some sleep, then. I’ll put on some extra clothes and sleep on top of the bag.

  I’ll be okay.”

  “That’s absolutely ridiculous,” Leslie barked. “We ought to be capable of

  sleeping next to one another fully clothed. We’re not teenagers, for God’s

  sake.”

  Dev laughed harshly. “No, we’re not. That part, I do understand.”

  “Then get back into the sleeping bag.” Leslie Þ sted the front of Dev’s shirt and

  pulled her down. Her expression softened as she barely resisted caressing Dev’s

  stony face. “Get in, zip it back up, and turn on your side with your back to me.”

  Since it made as much sense as both of them sitting up for the rest of the night,

  freezing, Dev complied. It took some doing, but Þ nally she lay with Leslie

  curved along her back and Leslie’s hand resting on her shoulder. As much as

  she knew it was crazy, she was grateful for whatever bit of contact she could

  have with Leslie for however short a time. She was too tired and wound too

  tight to think much beyond that.

  Leslie rested her cheek lightly against Dev’s back and closed her eyes. Truth.

  Do you love her?

  Yes, but never the way I loved you.

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  v

  Leslie awoke in hazy gray light, damp and stiff and aroused. She was in the

  same position she had been in the night before when she’d fallen asleep, her

  belly and breasts snugged against Dev’s butt and back. Her borrowed jeans

  were a size too big for her, but she still felt an uncomfortable tightness in her

  groin, a deep throbbing pressure that had her longing for release. She’d never

  been so aware of her body, or another woman’s, or of the relentless urgency to

  be touched. She inched away and felt Dev stir immediately. Dev must have been

  lying awake.

  “What time is it?” Leslie whispered.

  “About six.”

  “I don’t know what I want Þ rst. We skipped dinner and I’m hungry.

  I want to brush my teeth. And I have to pee.”

  Dev laughed, found the zipper, and opened the bag. She crawled out, gritting

  her teeth as pain lanced down her leg, and slowly worked her way into a sitting

  position. Her right hip was on Þ re. “The Þ rst two I can help you with. You’re

  on your own with the last one.” She leaned over and pulled a dry bag from a

  pile. “How about a protein bar to stave off starvation?”

  “Let me take a quick run outside and I’ll take you up on it.” Leslie lifted one of

  her ruined shoes and grimaced. “They’re a wreck. Would you mind if I wore

  your boots?”

  “Go ahead.”

  After Leslie left the tent, Dev tried her two-way radio. The batteries were still

  good, but she couldn’t raise anyone back at Lakeview. From the sounds of the

  storm, the wind was still high. She dug out the rubber boots she wore for

  shallow water work and followed Leslie out to take care of her own call of

  nature. When she was done, she inspected the trench around the tent. Even

  though nearly obliterated by the driving downpour, it had nevertheless protected

  them from a great deal of runoff. With a sigh, she turned to get the shovel from

  the tent to re-dig it.

  “Your leg’s bothering you, isn’t it?” Leslie said, stepping from the woods into

  the small clearing around the tent. “You’re limping pretty badly this morning.”

  “Too much time in one position.” As sore, tired, and emotionally

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  exhausted as she was, Dev couldn’t help but smile. Leslie had rolled up the

  sleeves and cuffs of Dev’s sweatshirt and jeans, both of which were a size too

  big for her, and she looked as young and fresh as she had when they were kids.

  “What?” Leslie asked grumpily.

  “Nothing.”

  Leslie cocked her head and squinted appraisingly at Dev, impatiently brushing

  rain from her eyes with one hand. The torrent had subsided to a heavy, steady

  deluge. “What do we need to do?”

  “For now, just freshen up these trenches to keep the ß oor as dry as we can. If

  we have to sleep another night out here, I don’t want the sleeping bag getting

  wet.”

  “I’m not sleeping out here another night.”

  “Don’t worry, we’ll be okay. Once we have a Þ re going, we can get things

  reasonably dry.”

  “Where’s the shovel?” Leslie walked to the tent and yanked down the zipper on

  the ß ap. It wasn’t about sleeping wet. She didn’t care if she had to sleep under

  the trees in a monsoon. She couldn’t spend another night next to Dev, not

  without imploding or attacking her. She couldn’t even look at her without

  starting to ache. Dev had circles under her eyes, her wet hair clung in disheveled

  strands to her neck, and her work shirt and jeans were mud streaked. And she

  was absolutely gorgeous.

  “I’ll take care of it,” Dev said.

  Leslie turned abruptly and found Dev inches from her. She balled her Þ sts so

  she wouldn’t slide her hands into Dev’s hair. “You won’t.

  You’ll get in that tent and lie down. You can hardly walk.”

  Dev’s jaw tightened. Even in the rain and shadowy light, Leslie’s eyes blazed.

  Dev wanted to kiss her. She wanted more than that. She wanted Leslie under

  her, naked and open and wet.

  “Get in the tent, Dev,” Leslie said, watching the hunger rise in Dev’s face. No

  one had ever looked at her like that before, and she craved it now like nothing

  she had ever known. Her voice dropped to a whisper. “Please.”

  “Leslie—”

  “Glad to see you two are still in one piece!” Natalie called as she materialized

  out of the woods.

  Dev jerked and stepped back a pace. Leslie took a long breath and settled

  hersel
f before turning to face the ranger. Natalie stood with

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  her hands on her hips observing them with a curious expression on her face. She

  looked tired but disgustingly dry in a rain poncho, nylon rain pants, and boots.

  Leslie tried not to snarl.

  “Sorry I couldn’t get here sooner,” Natalie said. “How about I give you two a

  ride back to land?”

  “I’ll take my own boat back,” Leslie said.

  “I’m staying here with my equipment,” Dev said.

  Slowly shaking her head, Natalie slid her hands through the slits in the poncho

  and into her pants pockets. “Sorry, no to both of those ideas. We’re evacuating

  all the campsites, so you need to pack up whatever critical items you have,

  Dev.” She regarded Leslie pointedly.

  “You were lucky to make it here at all, Ms. Harris. The lake is still far too rough

  for your craft. You’ll be riding with me.”

  Leslie didn’t like being given an ultimatum, but she needed to get back to the

  mainland. She needed enough space from Dev to be able to draw a breath that

  wasn’t Þ lled with need. “I want to be sure my boat is secure.”

  “I’ll help you with that while Dev gets her stuff together.”

  Natalie turned and walked back into the woods, leaving Leslie no choice but to

  follow. When Natalie stopped on the lake bank, Leslie came up beside her and

  studied her boat rocking hard in the churning water. Natalie’s larger, heavier

  departmental craft was anchored nearby.

  One of them would have to climb down the bank into the water to get more

  lines on her boat or it was going to break free. “We’re going to get wet doing

  this.”

  “I’ll get extra lines from my boat.”

  “I couldn’t get much wetter,” Leslie said when Natalie returned with the ropes.

  “I’ll go. You stay up here to secure them.”

  When Leslie started down the steep, muddy bank, Natalie wrapped an arm

  around a tree that canted out over the water, leaned out as far as she could, and

  held out her hand.

  “Here, grab on so you don’t fall.”

  “Thanks.” When Leslie took Natalie’s hand their eyes met.

  Natalie’s were dark and considering.

  “That was pretty risky, coming out here yesterday,” Natalie said

  conversationally.

  “She was out here alone,” Leslie said. “You would have done the same.”

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  “I wanted to.”

  “I can imagine.”

  Natalie smiled faintly. “Can you?”

  “Yes,” Leslie said softly, “I can.”

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  CHAPTER NINETEEN

  While Natalie stood at the wheel in the cockpit, her legs braced wide apart for

  balance in the buffeting wind and rain, Leslie huddled on the bench across from

  Dev. The sky was a muddy brown, the water an angry gray, and both suited her

  mood. She hated being rescued, even though she knew it was the wisest course.

  The swells were higher than she’d ever seen them on the lake, and even in the

  larger, heavier park service craft, the ride was harrowing. In her boat it would

  have been impossible. Conversation was impossible, too, but even if she’d

  wanted to talk to Dev, Dev clearly didn’t want to talk to her. Dev sat with her

  body angled forward toward Natalie, her face impassive.

  Leslie wondered what she was thinking. They hadn’t had any time to talk since

  Natalie showed up at the campsite, but then Leslie wasn’t sure what she would

  say to her. What could she say? I’m sorry?

  That hardly seemed to cover how many wrong turns she’d taken with Dev,

  starting when they’d been seventeen. Last night, though, might just have been

  her crowning moment. They weren’t impulsive kids anymore, but she hadn’t

  been able to keep her hands to herself or her mouth shut. She’d been in the

  midst of seducing Dev—Leslie cringed inwardly but there was no other word

  for it—she’d told Dev she wanted to make love, for God’s sake. And then in

  the next breath she’d said no.

  What had she been thinking? Nothing, obviously.

  When she looked back on her relationship with Dev, it was littered with regret.

  The only good thing to come of the entire visit had been that she and Dev had Þ

  nally talked about what had happened between them the night of the accident.

  Of course, that conversation had nearly

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  ended with them mindlessly screwing on the shore. Maybe it was better if they

  didn’t talk. Leslie stared at Dev and her heart raced. No, it was better if they

  weren’t anywhere near one another.

  With a sigh, Leslie closed her eyes. Her father was home from the hospital and

  headed toward recovery, her mother had hired a temporary cook and part-time

  handyman, and she had even gotten the medical tests she was supposed to

  have. God knew, she’d certainly had enough rest and relaxation. Any more, and

  she would lose her mind. She’d stay to help her mother with the July Fourth

  bash, and then she was going back to Manhattan. Back to the orderly, satisfying

  life she had chosen, the one that suited her.

  “You okay?” Dev shouted over the wind.

  Leslie opened her eyes, her pulse racing when her eyes met Dev’s.

  “Yes! You?”

  Dev grinned ruefully and shrugged.

  Even though relieved at the imminent prospect of heading back toward sanity,

  Leslie couldn’t ignore the pang at knowing she wouldn’t see Dev again. And

  with the heat of Dev’s body still alive in her mind, Leslie feared it would take

  more than distance to extinguish the memory.

  When the sound of the motor revving down caught Leslie’s attention, she

  looked away from Dev with both sorrow and relief.

  Natalie was guiding the boat up to the wide, rain-slicked dock alongside

  Lakeview’s boathouse. It was deserted, as were the grounds.

  Many of the cars that had been in the parking lot were gone, and Leslie

  expected that a fair number of people had cut short their vacations when the

  weather turned bad. In a way, that wasn’t such a bad thing, because it would

  give her mother a break before the inß ux of new guests for the long weekend.

  Natalie throttled down, eased the boat against the side of the dock, and called

  over her shoulder, “Someone want to climb out and grab the lines?”

  Leslie was closer to the dock side and hurriedly clambered out, dragging the

  stern line with her. She pulled the craft against the cushioned bumpers attached

  to the side of the dock and wrapped a line around a cleat while Natalie jumped

  from the bow and did the same.

  “Thanks,” Natalie called, hunching her shoulders in the wind.

  “No problem.” Out of the corner of her eye, Leslie saw Dev stumble as she

  climbed from the boat onto the dock, a grimace of pain on her face. “Dev!”

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  Leslie lunged for her, but Natalie was closer.

  “Hey there,” Natalie cried, grasping Dev around the waist and steadying her so

  she didn’t fall. Her face concerned, she smoothed her free ha
nd over Dev’s

  chest. “Your leg’s taking a pretty good hit in this weather, isn’t it?”

  “Some,” Dev said tightly, wrapping her arm around Natalie’s shoulders for

  balance.

  Leslie pulled up short, recognizing that her help wasn’t needed and also aware

  that although smaller, Natalie was holding Dev up. It was also obvious that

  Natalie knew about the old injury to Dev’s leg.

  Clearly, Dev had told her about the accident, and Leslie wondered how much

  else Natalie knew about that night. Not that it mattered.

  “Come on, let’s get the both of you up to the lodge and dried out.”

  Natalie kept her arm around Dev as the three of them negotiated the wet slope

  up to the lodge. Once on the porch, Natalie said, “I’ll let you know when you

  can go back out to the island for your gear, Dev. I don’t imagine you’ll be taking

  any more samples for a while.”

  “Not until the effects of the storm settle down. Probably a week or so.” Dev

  eased out of Natalie’s grasp and carefully put weight on her leg. “Thanks.”

  “My pleasure.” Natalie smiled softly at Dev. “I may be busy all day, but I’ll talk

  to you later.” She turned to Leslie. “I’ll give you a ride out to your boat

  tomorrow if the weather breaks.”

  “I appreciate it,” Leslie said, trying to inject some warmth into her voice.

  “Okay then. Take care. Get dry,” Natalie said.

  When Natalie turned to go back down the stairs to the path, Leslie stopped her

  with a hand on her arm. The woman had just motored over two hours in ugly

  weather to bring them home. “Come inside for coffee.

  I imagine you’re going to have a long day.”

  Natalie’s eyes ß ickered with surprise, then she nodded. “Thanks.

  Maybe your mother made some of those biscuits again.”

  Leslie smiled, Þ nding it hard not to like her. And after all, there was no reason

  not to. So Natalie was involved with Dev and didn’t bother to hide it. Why

  should she? Dev was…well, Dev was Dev, and what woman wouldn’t be

  attracted to her? Leslie clenched her jaws, angry at herself for even thinking

  about whatever was going on between Dev and Natalie. She turned and walked

  resolutely inside.

  They took their rain gear off and hung it on hooks by the door.

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  A few guests clustered around the Þ replace in the great room, reading

  newspapers or books, or watching the Weather Channel on TV. Leslie led

 

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