by Lauren Wood
“Not to mention her father, eh?”
“Hector!” But a knowing silence passed before I glanced around and leaned over the bar to whisper. “Of course, her father, I mean, honestly … ” We shared a little chuckle. “He’s a great guy, Hector.”
“And you’re a great girl, I always said, always said.” After a nervous pause, Hector leaned forward too. “But I don’t know if that’s what he wants, a great girl … or a good woman?”
“Hector, really, that’s enough.” Hector shrugged and backed away, palms up and flat to calm me. “Look, Hector, I’d really much rather if people around here didn’t make too many assumptions.” Hector looked me over, my slinky dress, my makeup and hair, and he didn’t need to say anything about them. We both knew. But I said, “We had dinner at my father’s table. He wanted to stroll around in the moonlight, I couldn’t wear a cocoanut sack!”
“No, of course not.”
“I’m representing the ship, my father, the whole cruise line.”
“Yes, yes, of course.” After a terse moment, I took a sip of my virgin daiquiri and said, “Well, it’s been a long day. I’m going to my cabin, take a shower and go bed.”
“Yes, Miss Dana, of course.”
“Alone,” I added, without any of the lusty suggestiveness Hutch had employed.
“Yes,” Hector repeated, “of course.”
Chapter 8
Dana
The next morning I was excited to see Hutch and Blu again. The day before had only been our first day of the cruise, and it had been an amazing time. Not only had I never enjoyed the ship so much in all the years I’d been on her, but I never enjoyed anybody’s company as much as I enjoyed theirs. Hutch was charming and gentlemanly without losing any of his strength or personal power. He had so much muscle he didn’t need to flex it, so much raw masculinity that his reserves were in excess. The world was his and he seemed to know it. And Blu was quiet and shy and courteous, but I felt like she was ready to open up to me even further. And I wanted to think she was grateful for the sacrifice both her father and I had made the night before, but I wanted even more for Blu not to know anything about any of it. I knew she had an inkling, of course. But it had been a long time since I was nine years old, and the world had changed a lot since then. Though for Blu Hutchinson, I knew the world was a more sheltered place, even her development seemed a little obstructed by it. But I felt I could help that, I felt I was already having some kind of positive influence, and that was more than enough encouragement for me to keep trying, as if I didn’t have plenty of that already.
We took the rock wall, all three of us strapped into our harnesses. We were perfectly safe, really, and for the first few feet Blu was confident. I glanced at Hutch, his long and meaty legs stretching to get a foothold on one of the many colored metal nodules bolted to the wall. He was a few feet above me, and my eyes drifted along the backs of his hairy thighs, muscles flexing, hard and perfectly shaped. As he pulled himself up, I caught a glimpse of his package, massive and bulky under white briefs. I shook it off and lifted myself another few feet, turning to Blu between us. Blu’s eyes were wide, her hands locked on the wall.
“Blu, what’s wrong?”
“I’m afraid,” she said, Hutch stopping to lower himself to her. But I held my hand out and shook my head, a signal for him to stop and let me handle it. It was a bit presumptuous, but it was happening anyway. “I’m gonna fall.”
“You’re not going to fall, Blu.”
“Yes, I am!”
“No, Blu, you’re not.”
“You can’t promise that!”
“Actually, this time, I can. Watch.” With that, I let go of the wall and leaned back. Blu gasped, but I just swung from the cable attached to the harness. I fell back to the wall, then kicked myself outward again. “See?”
Blu turned to Hutch, who nodded and did the same thing, swinging idly out from the wall and then back, arms and legs dangling, an unbothered smile on his face.
Blu looked back at me, then at him, then at the deck just a few yards below us. I said, “C’mon, Blu, this is best part!” After another skeptical moment, I added, “You can do it, Blu ... trust me! I wouldn’t lie to you, Blu, I promise I will never lie to you. That’s one thing I absolutely can promise, and I do, Blu.”
“Swear to God?”
I knew how that ironic rhyme went on, and neither one of us wanted to quote it. “I don’t think God likes it when you swear,” I said instead, swinging further and further out, arms outstretched. “Look, I can fly!”
Hutch did the same thing, pushing further away from the wall and swinging from the cable. “C’mon, Blu!”
Blu turned, glanced one more time over the side of the climbing wall, then closed her eyes and let go. Her little body went swinging outward, arms outstretched, body leaning forward. “Daddy! Dana, help!”
“It’s okay,” I said, reaching out and taking her hand. Hutch took her other hand and the three of us swung back and forth next to that climbing wall. I laughed, and Hutch followed my lead. Blu looked at us, the horror on her face slowly replaced with a creeping smile, her frightened gasp evolving into heightened laughter.
Our laughter rose to meet Blu’s, and hers to meet ours until we were all three of us swinging and laughing like three people too silly to know or care how to use a climbing wall properly. And that’s just what we were.
I couldn’t help noticing my father standing behind one of the big windowed walls in the crystal staircase piano lounge, staring at me with a grim expression, turning away once he knew he’d caught my eye.
So I wasn’t surprised that, when Hutch and Blu and I split up to shower before dinner, my father approached me and escorted me to his cabin. “Honey, honestly, I want to talk about this business with Mr. Hutchinson.”
“Hutch,” I said, knowing what that meant to us both.
He sighed. “Right. I know you’re having a good time, and I’m glad of that, I really am. But I just want to remind you that, well, in another five days, we’ll be back in Miami and you’ll probably never see the man again.”
“You don’t know that.”
“So it’s true, you’re in love with him, you’re already in love with him.”
“It’s been known to happen ... love at first sight.”
“And you think this man feels the same way about you?”
“Yes, Daddy, I do.” He sighed, rubbing the back of his neck. “Don’t be mad at me, Daddy, that’s not fair -- ”
“No, you’re right, my angel, it’s not fair. And I’m not mad at you, not at all. If anybody’s to blame for this, it’s me.”
“Daddy?”
“I sheltered you, treated you like a child, not a woman. So of course you see things the way a girl would see them, not the way a woman understands the world to be.”
“A woman like Caroline, you mean?”
“Well ... yes, actually, like Caroline.”
I took a step forward, eyes fixed on my father, using a tone of voice he often used on me to ensure my attention and my obedience, though I was only able to muster a fraction of his effect. “Is that the kind of woman you want me to be?”
“Well, no, sweetie, no. And remember, I count on you not to be that kind of woman, not aboard ship. You have a responsibility, you represent me, the ship, the whole cruise line.”
I couldn’t hide my slumping posture. “I know that, Daddy, and I’ve been doing that and I still am doing it. But Hutch isn’t like that. This isn’t some frivolous affair.”
“Not for you it isn’t, that’s what I’m saying. At least Caroline has the experience to handle a man like that.” Off my glare, he was quick to add, “Emotionally, I mean. But ... in this case, I’m just afraid you may be in way over your head. And I’m afraid if you don’t get hurt now, or sometime in the next week, it’ll only happen sometime in the future, when you walk in on this guy with his next conquest -- ”
“He’s not that kind of man, Daddy.”
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��But he is, Dana, they all are.”
“Are you? Is that the kind of man you are? Is that the kind of husband you were to Mom?” My father didn’t answer, but the guilt on his face was all the answer I needed. His twisting lips confessed it all, his arching brows telling me how sad and ashamed he was. “How dare you?”
“I just don’t want you to be disappointed, dear.”
“Well I am, Daddy, I’m terribly disappointed.”
Chapter 9
Hutch
Blu took a shower and came out in a thick ship’s robe, her hair wrapped in a towel just like a miniature adult. She sat down with a slump and looked up at me from her bed, pulling the plush robe up to her little chin, eyes big and wide and worried. “What’s wrong, sweetie?”
“It’s Dana,” she said, her voice cracking with the weight of her burden.
“What about Dana? You like her, don’t you?”
Blu nodded, but it was the only positive aspect of her sad face or slumped posture. She said, “And you like her too.” I nodded, but Blu didn’t give me a chance to say anything. “I mean, you like her like her.”
I crossed the smaller cabin room and sat down next to my daughter, touching my hand to her cheek, so small and tender. “Yes, I do.”
“So she’s basically going to be my new mommy?”
“Blu!”
“But it’s true, isn’t it?” I didn’t answer. “Isn’t it?” I stammered just a bit, but that was enough for Blu. “I knew it. No, Daddy, no!”
“Okay, first of all, you have to listen to me, Blu.” I let my voice take that low, authoritative tone that always held Blu’s obedient attention. “I understand that this brings up a lot of feelings, and it’s okay to have to those feelings; to feel threatened, worried that Dana is going to try to replace your mother in your mind, but Blu -- ”
“No, Daddy, it’s not that! If Dana becomes my new Mommy, men are going to come and steal her away from us the way they did Mommy! You can’t let that happen, Daddy, you can’t!”
“I won’t, sweetie, I promise.”
Blu was close to tears, a sob percolating just in the back of her throat. “But you can’t promise that, Daddy, you can’t!”
I couldn’t disagree, and I struggled to explain the complex balance of pleasure and pain that was modern life, life in any era, sadly even future eras, one of which will be her own. But how do you tell a nine-year-old that, or anything even close?
So I pulled her close, giving her a loving squeeze, nuzzling her with unspoken love and adoration. In a voice very low and soft, I said, “I guess you’re right, Blu. I like Dana, and she likes me. But we don’t know what’s going to happen. We could lose her, yes. She may not even want to come home with us, Blu, I can’t make any promises like that. I ... we’ve only known her a few days!” I chuckled at the absurdity of it, but in truth it wasn’t nearly as ridiculous as I hoped it sounded. “But there’s no promise that things will go bad. And even if they do, there’ll still be a lot of good things that happen before then, good things and bad, really. They come and go, Blu, but that’s a part of life. We both know that, and we’ve talked about it. We have to be brave enough to endure the bad times, but sometimes to enjoy the good times, we have to be even stronger. Do you understand?”
Blu shrugged. “A great man said something about being afraid of fear or something, how that was wrong.”
I gave it some thought, guessing, “You mean FDR? ‘We’ve nothing to fear but fear itself,’ that one?” Blu nodded. “Who told you that?”
“Dana.”
Dana, I reflected, of course, I should have known. How perfect. Most girls her age don’t even know who Franklin Roosevelt was, much less what he said. But not her, not my Dana. Instead of saying all that to Blu, I simply answered, “Well, Blu, Dana is right. We’ve been afraid for too long, don’t you think?”
Blu nodded sadly and I smiled, giving her a little peck on her damp forehead. I stepped out of Blu’s room and closed the door, giving my child privacy to change. When the knock fell on the door, lighter than a man’s knock, my first thought was that it was Dana. I opened the door to see the cruise director, Caroline Something-or-other, the hot redhead with the incredible body, knock-out face, and frankly forgettable personality.
“Hutch, hi,” she said, green eyes as wide as she could stretch them, deliberate cheer oozing from her eager smile. She looked me over to see me fully dressed and then glanced over my shoulder to the cabin behind me. “Am I ... interrupting anything?”
“My daughter and I were just freshening up before dinner.”
“Oh, well how perfect. My shift’s just about over.” Caroline arched the small of her back, hands behind her, shoulders pressing backward to show her amazing breasts. They were 36-Ds, perfectly round, pushing out of that stuffy uniform, which seemed purposely tight in all the right areas, as if it had been cut that way. And just like her breasts, every part of this wanton woman was desperate to burst through those buttons and come spilling out, full thighs and strong calves, nipples hard in my mouth, her fingers combing through my hair, jamming my face into those perfect tits.
I had to admit the temptation was hard to deny, even if I wasn’t very close to succumbing to it. I’d been a year since my wife died, and except for a few quickie trysts and one or two disastrous dates, I’d been alone for a while. Too long. I could sense Dana’s hunger, for example, and this Caroline’s; and more and more I could see it in myself. It was hard not to picture myself holding that redheaded hottie in my arms, slipped under her white, freckled thighs to pin against the wall, those sexy slopes rising and falling on my cock as gravity and I conspired to give her the ride of her life. I could imagine her moaning and sobbing and slapping her fists against my chest as her damp back thumped against the hallway wall, then holding her still, immobile in my arms while she came, again and again.
And she seemed to sense it. Caroline could smell my lapse of discipline, my primitive instinct to grab her and throw her down and ravage her. stalks of that red hair rising between my fingers, the gentlest yank pulling her head back. And she wanted it, that was obvious to everybody on the ship and probably a few of the smarter orca swimming alongside Oceania. I knew it wouldn’t take a single word to get her going, and the idea of those plump, polished lips running up and down on my unit was already making it rise in my slacks.
This caught her eye, and Caroline glanced down and then back up at me with a knowing little smile. It was all the encouragement she’d need, but more than I intended to give her. I could see how many men would call me crazy to turn her down, and if I hadn’t met Dana I might have had another perspective altogether. But I had met Dana, and when I asked myself what I wanted, who I wanted, the choice was clear. For me, there wasn’t any choice at all. I said, “Actually, were were going to enjoy a quiet meal ... alone, with regrets to you and your captain and the rest of the crew.”
“Oh, no apologies necessary, Hutch, of course not. I’m sure you and Blu will have a splendid evening.”
“Thank you very much,” I said, about to close the door on her as politely as I could.
But Caroline said, “Oh, um, Hutch, I wonder ... could I have a word with you? It’s ... it’s kind of why I came.” I simply smiled and nodded, but Caroline specified, “Maybe out in the hall would be better.”
I didn’t see the point in refusing her, although I didn’t have much faith in whatever she was about to say. She wasn’t there to talk; that much, I knew.
She glanced down the hall and leaned closer to me. “I know Dana’s been showing you ... around, and he’s a great girl, she really is. But it seems to me that I’ve seen you two apart quite a bit -- ”
“Right, about that -- ”
“I mean, she’s a sweet girl, but you know she’s a virgin, right?” I didn’t, but I tried not to reveal that. “I know you know what that means. She’ll be fumbling around, no idea what she’s doing. I’ve been watching her, Hutch, and she’s got no experience at all. But you ... you�
��re a man of the world, you need a real woman, one who can take you to the edge and throw your hot ass right over the side!”
“”Miss, um, Caroline -- ”
She leaned in a bit closer, voice low and gravelly in my ear. “You can call me Mistress Caroline if you like.”
I chuckled awkwardly. “Perhaps I shouldn’t.”
“Is that what you want, to lick the soles of my boots?” She grabbed my swollen package, giving it a hard squeeze. “You can pretend all you want, but this is all the lie detector I need.”
She pressed her face against mine, her lips smearing against my face, tongues intertwining. Caroline pressed her body against mine, and I couldn’t deny the pleasure it gave me, deep-rooted, a powerful pull on my animal instincts.
“Hutch?” I turned to see Dana standing at the end of the hall, brows arching, bottom lip quivering. She turned with a gasp and ran off.
I headed off after her immediately. Turning to Caroline, I pointed an instructive finger. “You take care of Blu, see to whatever she needs. Take her out, go down the stairs.”
“I will, yes, of course. She won’t be scared?”
“Not of you.” And I knew they’d be fine. As for me and Dana, I wasn’t nearly so sure.
Chapter 10
Dana
I stormed down the hall, fists balled up, teeth gritted, flashes of that hideous coupling filling my memory. “Dana, wait, wait!” But I didn’t turn, I didn’t want to hear it. I wasn’t sure what I’d seen exactly, I knew there could be some misunderstanding, but my mind and my heart were racing, my blood boiling. And my father’s words echoed in my mind’s ear, calling me immature, warning me that Hutch really was just putting on an act, a bounder trying to seduce me. But after two days, Mr. Romance turns from Miss Right to Ms. Right Now!
I sensed him walking up behind me, long legs giving him a forceful stride. I could feel his hand reaching out, an angry flash that couldn’t help but find me and spin me around.