by Jade Royal
She was mate-less. Finding a shifter who wasn’t going to eventually find their mate and bond with them would be nearly impossible. In the end; she would always wind up hurt because a male wolf moved on to be with his mate. Just like that Chloe chick when Tristan had to leave her. Kyra didn’t want to become like that. But she would also be lying if she said that she didn’t want to be with Jaxson for eternity. She supposed that’s what dreams were for. To imagine the world but know that it wouldn’t ever be tangible.
***
Jaxson entered the kitchen to find all the she-wolves except Kyra and Mira. They were already cooking something that smelled delicious and called out to Jaxson’s stomach. After three rounds of fucking, he was in desperate need of food.
“You’re up early,” Bliss said to him giving him a knowing look.
“It’s not that early,” he replied. He took Kingston from her arms and rocked the pup around. He smiled and kicked happily in Jaxson’s arms.
“You’re a natural.,” Rita commented.
“Looks like you’ll need to be having pups of your own.” Jaxson shrugged.
“Eh, if it happens it happens.” Mira came into the kitchen then.
“Talking about pups? You planning to have one?” she asked Jaxson.
“Someday perhaps,” he replied.
“Maybe with me,” she urged. Jaxson gave her a look. She was glaring at him intently as if her words were supposed to make him immediately bow down and agree to what she was saying. He realized then that when he looked at her, there was no attraction flooding his brain. He wasn’t compelled to follow her around or want to kiss her or touch her. Yes, he could acknowledge she was still very pretty, but it meant nothing to him. Again, he had to give props to Kyra. Her cookie was the fucking bomb.
“Um, maybe not,” Jaxson replied. He let Kingston grab onto his index finger and squeeze it.
“Why the hell not?” she demanded.
“’Cause I fucking said so,” Jaxson grilled her. Kingston began crying.
“Aw, I'm sorry to curse big boy. Stop that crying before your daddy tries to kill me.” Kingston’s cries died down before turning into light sobs. Jaxson handed the baby to Bliss who popped her breast out ready to breastfeed. Jaxson looked away just in time.
“I’m starving,” he said noticing how Mira hadn’t stopped glaring at him. He could only shrug and proceed on and ignore her. She was only craving attention. He began making himself a large plate then took out another plate for Kyra.
“Seconds?” Gemma asked him.
“No,” he chuckled.
“Making a plate for someone?” Selena asked.
“You can say that,” he replied. Selena looked at him.
“Your energy is more relaxed than normal. I feel emptiness around your private area,” she said bluntly. Jaxson fumbled the fork and cleared his throat.
“Huh?” he blinked trying to recover from her statement.
“Your balls are empty. You must have been doing some pretty hefty fucking,” Selena said letting go of the niceties. She was a sweet kid but knew when to be blunt.
“You can tell if I’ve been fucking?” he questioned.
“Well to a certain extent. Your balls are so empty I can practically feel it. Makes my body think there’s something to heal when technically there’s not.”
“You were having sex?” Mira asked quietly.
“With who?”
“Good morning everyone,” Kyra sang coming into the kitchen. She bowed to Bliss, then hugged and kissed everyone else except Mira. Jaxson cleared his throat and handed her the plate of food.
“You little slut!” Gemma exclaimed.
“You and Jax were doing the nasty?!” Kyra snapped her head in Jaxson’s direction. He quickly held up a hand, submitting. He took his plate and backed away.
“I said nothing,” he replied before he walked out of the kitchen with his food.
“Spill it,” Rita ordered.
“Tell us everything. Now.”
Kyra looked at her sister wolves who was not ready to let her off easy. She cleared her throat before stuffing her mouth with food.
“What was it like?” Gemma asked.
“He’s fucking packing I know that much,” Rita stated.
“Is he the territorial or the tender love making type of dude?” Selena inquired. Kyra just smirked and didn’t answer any of their questions. When she looked at Mira, she saw the sadness in her face. Even though Kyra did want to gloat and talk about how Jaxson made her feel so wanted. She wasn’t going to do that in front of a female who had feelings for him. Even if Mira hadn’t been nice to her, it still wasn’t her place to gloat like that.
“So, how’d everyone sleep?” Kyra asked instead.
“Bliss do you need me to watch over Kingston for a little bit?”
“I see what you doing,” Gemma called her out.
“But fine.”
“Actually,” Bliss spoke up.
“Kellan is getting some extra rest he was out last night helping build up the safe houses. I think he needs a decent wake-up call,” Bliss winked.
“Well I would be more than happy to watch him while you take care of that,” Kyra laughed. Bliss handed Kingston over to Kyra. She pranced off to her mate while the rest of the she-wolves ate. One by one, all the women left except for Kyra and Mira. Kyra bounced Kingston in her arms, rocking him to sleep.
“Do you wanna have pups someday?” Kyra asked Mira, the silence too deafening for her.
“Yeah, I do,” Mira replied.
“You?”
“Yeah,” Kyra sighed.
“How come you didn’t tell the other women about how good of a fuck Jaxson was?”
“Because it wouldn’t be fair to you. I’m not that vain.”
“So you care about how it would affect me?”
“Mira, I don’t wanna have problems with you okay? I was upset because you told me Jaxson was your mate and he wasn’t. Honestly I got this funny feeling around you. But I’m not looking for enemies. That’s why I didn’t challenge you even after you tried to attack me.”
“But what if I still wanted Jaxson. What if I tried to pursue him? Then what?”
“I mean he made it pretty clear as to who he chose Mira.”
“You’re a nice girl Kyra,” Mira sighed.
“I wanna be friends with you too. But I’m sorry to say that won’t happen unless I get what I want. You’re kind of in the way of that.” Kyra just looked at Mira and shook her head.
“Think about it, Kyra. If Jaxson had chosen me you would be just as mad as I am.”
“If a man I wanted didn’t choose me, and I couldn’t watch his happiness with someone else I would move out of the pack and move on.”
“Easy for you to say when you’re the golden one. When you’re the one he chose. When you’re going to get to kiss and make love to him.” Mira stood and rolled her eyes.
“This is not over yet Kyra. Trust me. By the way, remember I can sense auras. That pup you wanna have in the future; think twice about it. Whatever the hell kind of accident you got in before and fucked up your stomach and uterus will prevent you from having pups. Forever.” She slammed her hand against the table startling Kyra. She smirked evilly before walking away like she just won first prize in a bitch contest.
Kyra sat there speechless unable to grasp what was just said to her. Deep down she knew that her chance of having pups was probably gone but there was still a small slither of hope inside her. Now that Mira had said what she did, Kyra felt that small slither of hope slowly whispering away.
“Cocoa bean?” Jaxson said, stirring her from her thoughts. Again, Kyra jumped and looked at him.
“Yes?” she asked, still rocking Kingston.
“Are you alright? You look like you just seen a ghost or something.”
“I’m okay,” she choked out.
“I can sense your lie Kyra, but I respect you enough to give you space and hope that you can talk to me about it wh
en you’re ready.”
“Thanks,” she smiled at him. He kissed her cheek and looked down at Kingston’s sleeping face.
“He’s so precious,” Kyra said.
“Tell me about it,” Jaxson replied.
“I always think about what Maverick did to me.”
“Don’t-”
“I can’t not think about it! I mean, what if I was in heat and we did have a pup together? A pup that comes out of my womb I will always love. But to have a pup by Maverick; it would scare the shit out of me.”
“I’m happy that you never have to deal with that man again,” Jaxson said.
“I know it’s something you can’t forget. But baby I want you to never forget that as long as I’m here, there’s no man; human or otherwise that’s going to cause you the same harm that Maverick did.”
“Some people said I deserved what he did. Because I was so openly sexual and didn’t have a mate.”
“Fuck those people. You’re beautiful Kyra. Honest to the shifter Gods you’re so damn beautiful. That’s the reason Maverick wanted you the way he did. Plus without a mate in sight, he knew he wouldn’t have been challenged if he took you forcefully. You’re going to have beautiful pups one day Kyra. The memory of Maverick will be a distant fade. Trust me.” Kyra smiled and looked down at Kingston.
“Your pup would probably be just as handsome,” she said. Jaxson kissed her temple. He didn’t want to talk about pups anymore knowing that he was never going to have his mate to have pups with. She, on the other hand, would eventually find her mate, and they would be happy. Jaxson wondered how the hell he would deal with it.
“Can I ask you something?” Kyra questioned.
“Yeah?”
“When did you notice me?” she asked.
“I’ve always noticed you. I just kept my distance. When we moved to Kellan’s cabin, we were, of course, closer, but I always had this idea that you were just one of the guys you know. But then we started training together, and there was just something about you that called out to my wolf. And boom, here we are.” Kyra and Jaxson looked at each other deeply. They were slowly being drawn into one another as if they both wanted to kiss but were unsure if the other person wanted the kiss or not. Just as their lips hovered inches apart; a wash of soft blue light brushed over their faces. At the same time, they looked down at Kingston who’s eyes were opened looking directly at them. He had a small toothless smile on his face.
“Oh shit. His eyes opened,” Kyra gasped.
“Kellan come quick! Kingston opened his eyes!” Jaxson shouted knowing that with his keen sense of hearing, Kellan would hear him shout. In less than a minute, both Kellan and Bliss were running into the kitchen, stumbling over each other in their rush to get their pup. Kyra quickly handed the pup to Kellan who’s expression exhibited both awe and tenderness.
“He’s got my eyes,” Kellan gawked, looking into the blue wolf eyes of his son.
“Damn I had hoped he would get my eyes,” Bliss pouted, but she still stroked his curly hair. Kingston’s eyes glowed wolf for about ten minutes as proof that his animal spirit had completely engaged into Kingston’s body. As he grew up and his mind and brain began to expand he would be able to see his wolf in his head along with his parents. He would also be able to make his eyes glow and shift certain parts of his body whether he could control it or not. He, of course, wouldn’t be able to shift completely until he reached puberty. Most toddlers of shifters went through spurts of having tails or paws and not being able to control when that happened. Eyes glowing were also a thing of emotion. If he was angry, happy, or sad, his eyes may glow until he learns to control it.
Kingston cooed and blew spit bubbles up at his father still with his eyes glowing. Kellan made his eyes glow so Kingston would be able to recognize it. Bliss did the same. The rest of the pack came running out, excited to see the eyes of the new Phoenix pack pup.
“Another blue-eyed alpha,” Rita sighed.
“Quit talking about my kid,” Kellan joked. Rita snickered and threw up her middle finger. In all the chatter of the pack, Jaxson looked at Kyra and saw she was dazed out. She had a faraway look in her eyes when she looked at Kellan holding the pup. Jaxson began to wonder if she was worried about having her own family.
“Living in the future before it even happens is going to kill you,” Jaxson whispered in her ear.
“Live your life for the now. Not the future.” He kissed her on the cheek and was satisfied when she turned around and pecked him on his lips. When they looked back at the pack, everyone was staring at them.
“When the fuck did this happen?” Kellan gasped.
“Bruh you been holding out?” Tristan asked.
“I need some fucking details,” Jayce ordered.
“Let’s go.” He grabbed Jaxson by the arm and began dragging him away from Kyra. Bliss took the baby as the men headed towards their hangout room.
“I’ll see you later cocoa bean,” Jaxson smiled.
“Cocoa bean?!” Tristan exclaimed.
“Holy fuck he gave her a nickname! This is some serious shit!” Jayce gawked. The she-wolves laughed at the banter of the men as they hurried to have their bro-talk away from the women.
“Now,” Gemma said cracking her knuckles.
“You tell us if Jaxson can fuck it up real good, or I’ma gonna beat your ass.”
“Okay Disney princess,” Kyra rolled her eyes.
“He can fuck, okay? Shit.”
“But how good?” Bliss inquired.
“Squirt good?” Selena asked.
“Multiple orgasms good?” Rita questioned.
“Spasms good?” Gemma asked.
“Pass out twice good,” Kyra answered simply. All of their mouths fell open at her confession. Kyra burst out laughing, clutching her stomach at their shocked expressions. If she was them she wouldn’t believe it either.
Chapter Fifteen
“Gotcha,” Jaxson grabbed Kyra up from behind. She was trying to run from him, but he’d only intercepted her and still caught her in his arms. He kissed all over her face and neck while she giggled.
“Told you I would catch you,” he said.
“Eh, I let you off easy,” she smiled. Jaxson looked down into her eyes, feeling like he was blushing even though physically you shouldn’t be able to see it.
“You’re lucky we’re out here,” he warned.
“I would be eating my chocolate chip.”
“Save the chocolate chips for later. Meeting time,” Kellan said walking by them. Kyra and Jaxson snickered.
“Coming,” Kyra sang. Jaxson held her around the waist and followed behind Kellan to the meeting room. Mira was lurking in the tunnels just looking at them. Jaxson paid her no mind, and neither did Kyra. He didn’t want the drama, so he was happy for that.
“You go inside I gotta talk to Tristan,” Jaxson said kissing Kyra on the cheek. Kyra kissed him back and went into the room.
“What’s up?” Tristan asked leaning against the door. The day his brothers found out that he and Kyra knocked boots still rang hard in his memory. They were all happy for him, but yet still there was a part of Jaxson that wasn’t satisfied. He wasn’t satisfied with the fact that she wasn’t really his. Yes, they weren’t mates, but he wanted to be much more than just fuck buddies.
“It’s about you and Chloe.”
“Who?!” Gemma popped out of the meeting room, her eyes ablaze with the power of her animal.
“Would you relax?” Tristan kissed his mate on the mouth before turning her around and spanking her bottom. He pushed her into the room and looked at Jaxson.
“Sorry,” he smiled.
“What about Chloe?”
“Well, how did you decide that you were gonna be with her knowing she wasn’t your mate?” Tristan shrugged.
“I think it was more so for the security of commitment. I didn’t want her fucking anyone else, and she didn’t want me fucking anyone else. So we made that commitment and voila, relationsh
ip status. We both didn’t see any problem with it. Of course, she’s still upset that I found my mate, but she’ll get over it the moment she finds her mate.”
“Right. Thanks.” Tristan patted him on the shoulder before going into the meeting room. Jaxson stood where he was for a moment. He had no problem being in a relationship with Kyra. The only trouble was that when they had to break up because she found her mate; Jaxson wasn’t so sure he could get over it because he wouldn’t just be able to find his mate.
“Jaxson!” He stopped from going into the room at Mira’s call. He turned to look at her.
“Hey, what’s up?”
“Just wanted to ask what you’re doing after the meeting? I thought we could go to the hot springs and spend some time together.” That constant battle he had in his head when Mira was around ceased to exist anymore. His head was crystal clear. Yes, she was still an attractive she-wolf, but he desired nothing of her or from her. Most of all he didn’t have to question why his head was telling him to do something with her when he knew he didn’t want to.
“Nah I’m good,” he replied. Mira was stunned. She was focusing her power intently and didn’t expect him to deny her so easily. He shouldn’t have been able to.
“I said I want you to come with me to the hot springs,” Mira demanded, forcing her power down onto him. Instead of submission, he gave her a look.
“I said nah I’m good,” he snapped.
“The hell is wrong with you?”
“We’re ready to-” Kyra came to the doorway to see Jaxson and Mira standing there together. She looked between the both of them and felt herself getting self-conscious. The memory of what Mira had told Kyra consumed her brain. She realized Mira was completely serious when she said she wasn’t giving up her shot at Jaxson.
“We’re starting,” Kyra told him after clearing her throat. Jaxson looked Mira up and down before giving her is back and entering the room. He pulled Kyra inside with him then slammed the door. He was frustrated that Mira came up to him like that. Like she owned him or some shit.
“Anyone want to start us off?” Kellan asked as everyone sat around the large table.