by Delisa Lynn
“You have me now. I am all yours,” I say.
“I’ve wanted to tell you for weeks now. I just didn’t want to ruin our summer, but I’ve decided to join the army,” he says with a sigh. “It doesn’t change the way I feel about you, though.”
“What? Why would you leave me? What am I going to do?”
“Leave you? I’ll be back. I really don’t know what I want to do with my life and this seems to be the right thing to do. I signed up months ago, before we started seeing each other. I wanted to tell you when you asked me before, but like I said, I didn’t know how to tell you.”
I can feel tears streaming down my face at the thought of him leaving. Am I falling for him? Oh God, I am falling in lo—like with him and he is fucking leaving me.
“Look at me…are you upset with my choice?” he asks, running his hand down my back.
“No, I’m not, I’m just tired,” I lie.
“Please don’t cry. I’ll be back. Then, after you graduate, we can start our lives together.”
I’m sick that I have to see him leave, and hurt because I want to be with him more than he knows. I run my hands across his arm. “Liam, I’m okay. You just took me by surprise. I wasn’t planning on you leaving me—I mean leaving.”
He puts his arms around my waist. “I’m not leaving you. I’ll only be gone a year at the most. Then we will be together.”
“Let’s just get back to the party,” I say.
He grabs my hand as soon as I start to walk away. “L, please wait. I don’t want you to be upset with me.”
“I’m not upset with you. This is your future. How could I be upset when you’re doing something you want to do? Does Ads know you’re going?”
“No, I haven’t told anyone but you. I wanted you to be the first to know,” he says, running his thumb across my cheek.
I don't know what to say, so I stand there with my hand on my hip, staring at him, wondering why he wants to leave. He's supposed to stay here, be here for me.
“Don’t be upset. I’ll always return to you,” he says before placing his lips above mine. Then he kisses me. This time, I can feel everything he feels for me in one kiss. It literally takes my breath away. I can feel myself panting, wanting more. I’m hoping he will just throw me down and make love to me.
I know he isn’t that type of guy and I’m not that type of girl, but this man’s touch makes me want to fuck him every time his skin brushes mine. We hold hands and walk back to the house. The walk back is very quiet.
Once we get back to the party, everyone has settled down and is leaving. The skank must’ve caught a ride with someone else.
I decide to stay at the beach house. I figured Addie was staying too, but it looks like she's leaving, so I say to her, “Ads, you’re leaving me?”
“Yes, you’ll have Liam. Eric and I have plans of our own.” She winks at me as she walks out the door. That bitch set me up. She is so sneaky sometimes.
“Hey, you aren’t staying here by yourself,” Liam says, walking toward me.
I want him to stay after our make out session on the beach and that kiss tonight. There’s just something about him that makes me want more.
“Fine, stay with me then. I’m going to take a shower, just make yourself at home.”
“Hurry back, I miss you already.” He kisses me, and I smile as I walk backwards into the bedroom. It's an en suite with a huge shower.
I quickly get undressed and instantly wish he was with me. I step into the shower, thinking about that kiss, that wonderful kiss. I wonder what it will be like, kissing him more. Making love to him? We’ve been seeing each other for a couple months now and he hasn’t tried anything with me.
I hear the shower door open.
“Don’t be scared, it’s just me,” he says, pulling me close to him.
“I’ll never be scared of you,” I say.
“I just need to be close to you.”
I crash my lips into his. I’m so nervous, I can feel my body shaking. He still has his clothes on, so I place my hands at the hem of his shirt and pull it over his head. Placing my lips back on his, I unzip his jeans and pull them down.
“Are you sure you want to do this?” Liam asks.
“I’ve never been so sure about anything my entire life. I want to make love to you right now,” I say. “Please, I need you now.”
His body is smoking hot. I want to lick every inch of his beautiful, chiseled chest. You can tell he works out every day. I see the passion in his eyes when I run my fingers over his chest.
My knees shake as I run my hands up and down his body. I want to feel him in my hands. I stroke his cock, moving my hand faster and faster.
He groans and says, “Li-Lila. Oh, beautiful. Oh, fuck me. I mean—”
“It’s okay. I know what you mean,” I say, kissing him.
He runs his fingers down my body. I still have that feeling in-between my legs. He dips his finger in my heat and rubs my clit with his thumb in a circular motion.
“Oh, Li-Li-Liam,” I moan.
As we stand in the shower exploring each other with the hot water streaming all over our bodies, all I can think about is making love to him. I’ve known this man for years and never would’ve thought I’d want him as bad as I do right now.
As he lifts me up, I wrap my legs around his waist. He carries me to the bed. We fall down on the bed and I giggle.
“I want you to know, I care about you so much. If you’re not ready to do this, I’ll wait for you until you are ready. Please, don’t do something you’re not ready to do,” he says, kissing my neck.
“I want you! I have no doubts about being with you. I want you now, right here. Please, Liam, make me yours. Show me how much you love me,” I beg.
I can feel my body aching for him to be inside of me, but I feel weird. No one has ever seen me naked and here I am, completely naked. I think I have an okay looking body, but will he think it’s okay? He kisses me from the top of my head all the way down to my toes.
“I want to taste every inch of your body,” he says as he makes his way back up to my mouth.
“Please do,” I say.
My back arches as he pulls my right nipple between his teeth. He makes his way down, then spreads my legs and starts kissing my inner thighs. I grip his hair as he licks me inside and out. I want to scream! It feels so good.
Looking up at me, he says, “You taste so fucking sweet and your body is more beautiful than I imagined.”
All I can think about is him entering me. I notice he has managed to get a condom from somewhere. I’m so ready for him. I’m not sure what to do, though, so I lie there, trying to be patient while he puts the condom on. I’m ready for him, all of him. When he enters me, it hurts a little at first, but it feels so amazing.
“Am I hurting you, L?” He asks, concerned. “Please let me know if I am”
“No, not at all, it feels so good,” I moan.
“This is your first time, isn’t it?” He smiles.
“Yes.” I wonder if he remembers I blurted that out to him months ago when he saw me with Ashton. Damn, get that image out of your head, Lila. You're with a real man now.
“I’ll slow down. Please tell me if you’re in any kind of pain.”
“There's a little pain, but the pleasure I’m feeling makes all the pain go away,” I say.
“You sure you’re okay?”
“Yes, I’m fine. Please don’t stop.”
I laugh, but I can feel the tears burning my eyes. Liam wipes them away as he kisses my cheek. I can see tears building up in his eyes as well.
Oh damn, he's crying? Is it because I’m bad or because he really loves me? I reach up and caress his face as I pull him in for a deeper kiss, letting him know that I’m perfectly fine.
“This is exactly as I imagined it would be, Lila. I've dreamt of making love to you for years. I’ll always be here for you. I never want to lose you.”
I smile as I start kissing him again. He starts
moving faster and I’m unsure if I’m moving the right way. Just as I move my hips forward, he screams my name and falls on top of me, then he kisses me again. I lie on my side, rubbing his chest. I can’t stop smiling.
“I’m not a virgin anymore.” I giggle.
“No, you aren’t. Damn, that was amazing. You’re perfect,” he says, kissing me again.
We make love again that night, using different positions. I never knew how flexible my body was.
In a million years, I never thought I would end up with Liam Anthony Ellis. I've fallen for him after all. I lie there, watching him sleep. I’m hoping that he won’t be gone for long. I know I want to share my life with him; how can I if he is away?
I have always dreamt of going to New York for college, but I'd stay here with him if he asks. He's shown me what I’ve wanted all this time. Today, I realize he will be my future.
***
“Good morning, beautiful,” he says, kissing me. “Can you cook?”
“Good morning,” I reply, returning the kiss. “Depends on what you want. I can make some eggs and bacon?”
“Sounds great, my love,” he says.
“Okay, breakfast it is, but I want dessert first,” I say, climbing on top of him.
“Oh, I can handle that for sure,” he says, grabbing my ass. We make love again, before I make breakfast.
He walks into the kitchen and says, “Did you have a fun night?”
I blush as I answer his question. “I did. I hope we can have another night like that really soon.” I giggle.
“I love you, Lila Rae Carls, and someday you will be all mine,” he says.
Chapter Eight
Lila
The next couple of weeks fly by. Liam and I spend every minute we can together. I hate that he’s leaving for the army and not coming to New York with me.
Addison and I want to get matching tattoos. It’s something we've wanted to do for a while, but I keep backing out.
“Lila, you know this will hurt and involve needles, right?” Addison asks.
That’s the reason I keep backing out. I know it’ going to hurt really bad, but I need to just do it. “Yes Ads, I know. Let’s get it over with before I change my mind.”
“Just making sure. I know you hate needles,” she snorts.
I’m getting a pink and yellow butterfly and Ads is getting a yellow and purple one. They'll sit right on our shoulder blades. Since it'll take hours to get them, we lie side by side and hold hands. Liam called me to wish me luck. He said it wouldn’t hurt that bad.
Damn it! He surely didn’t know what he was talking about because this is the worst pain I‘ve ever felt.
After our tattoos are done, I hug Addie and say, “So glad we did this together.”
“Me too. Nikki is going to be pissed, though. We need to go see her during break.” She smiles.
“Yes, we do. Maybe we can get another one with her.” I laugh.
***
Liam and I spend our last night together in the guesthouse. Dinner and some movies will be the perfect ending to our summer.
“I love spending all my time with you. I wish I had known all this was going to happen months ago,” Liam says, holding me tight.
“Me too, me too.”
I climb on his lap. The moment I start kissing him, I can feel his erection.
“Um, sorry, he has a mind of his own.” I laugh as I reach down and start rubbing him. “Damn, beautiful, I’m turning you into a sex monster.”
“Rawr!” I say as I lick his neck.
“That’s sexy as hell, baby,” he says, squeezing my hips.
“Mmm.” I continue kissing his sexy lips. He takes my shirt off and then my bra. He checks out my new tattoo and laughs at how girly it is before rubbing my breasts.
“Oh my gosh, Liam. Fuck me right here, right now, please!” I beg, but then I notice that he has a look on his face.
“My love, I’ll never fuck you. I’ll always make love to you,” he says, kissing me again.
“Well, make love to me right now, please.” Damn, I guess I shouldn’t have said fuck. I have a bad habit of talking too much when I’m nervous. I always say the wrong things. “I want you so bad. Please don’t make me wait any longer.”
He lays me on the couch and pulls my shorts off. Then he teases me through my panties. He pulls my panties off and slides one finger inside of me. I’m squirming so damn much.
He says, “Come for me, beautiful.”
“Liam please, please,” I beg.
God, do I need to feel him in me. He laughs at me. How the hell can he laugh? I’m dead serious.
“You look so damn cute when you beg,” he says. “You’re so fucking wet. Are you sure you still want some?”
“Liam, please!”
Finally, he climbs on top of me and rolls on a condom. I wonder what it would feel like without one, but I’m not on the pill yet so I’m glad he has them. As he enters me, I feel a tear roll down my face. I love this man. I fucking love Liam. Anthony. Ellis.
***
Today, I leave for college. Addison and Ashton come over to say goodbye, but I haven’t seen Liam yet. He’s leaving for the army in two days. I didn’t tell Addie what happened between Liam and me. Of course, she probably already knows. Liam and I have been spending as much time together as we could.
“I’m going to miss you so much!” Addie cries. “I don’t think I’ll ever make it without you.”
“I’ll miss you too. We can text every day,” I say into her hair.
“I’m going to be so lonely without you! You’re the bestest friend ever,” Addison says.
“Thanks, so are you.” I’m really going to miss her more than she knows. We've never been apart longer than a day or so.
“I better be, considering someday we'll be family.”
I laugh at her, hug her tighter, and whisper, “Take care of my little brother, sister-in-law.”
She laughs and replies, “Always.”
I hope Liam hasn’t told her anything. I don’t think he would, but they’re really close. I want to be the one to tell her, just not right now.
Ashton steps in between Addie and me. “Good luck, babe. I’m sorry for everything I put you through. You know I’m a fucking jerk. I really care about you and wish you and Liam the best,” he says, hugging me.
“Thanks. Yes, you're a dickwad, but I forgive you.” I give him another hug. He inhales deeply and sighs. Did he really have feelings for me?
Just as I make it to my dad's car, I hear someone behind me and turn to see Liam. Thank god he showed up! I was getting ready to have a full two-year-old tantrum if he hadn’t. I'm sure the big smile on my face shows exactly how excited I am.
I run into his arms. I can feel my tears as he whispers in my ear, “I love you, my sweet L.” I want to say I love you too, but I don’t. “I’ll take you to the airport if that’s okay with your parents.”
“That’s fine, Liam. Take care of our girl,” my father says as he reaches out and shakes Liam’s hand.
“I’ll always take care of our girl, Mr. Carls,” he says to my father.
“I was ready to cut you if you hadn’t shown up,” I say.
“How much time do we have before your flight leaves? I have a surprise for you. That’s what was taking so long.” He winks.
“I still have a few hours,” I say, grabbing his hand.
“Great, that’s plenty of time.”
He drives to the beach. We lie on the sand and lightly kiss each other. I want more, but we don’t have much time. I want to climb on top of him and make love until we're both worn out. I can't imagine life without him now.
“I can’t wait to see you again. I’m going to miss you so damn much.”
Only if he knew I’ll miss him just as much, if not more, and that I’m dying inside, knowing I won’t see him for months. I want to tell him how much I love him.
I give him the address to my dorm and he promises to write as soon as he is able.
When he drops me off at the airport, I can see the tears in his eyes. “I love you, Lila Rae.”
I kiss him and go on my way. I want to break down, but I can’t. I have to stay strong. It takes everything I have not to cry and show my emotions.
What the hell? I still haven't told him how much I love him.
***
I take a cab to campus. My parents sent all my stuff last week so I wouldn’t have to worry about anything. Trying to pull myself together, I get my schedule and walk to my dorm. My parents told me that it’s more of a town home than a dorm and it’s off campus. I like that my dorm and the campus are separate but still in walking distance from one another.
My mom said the place is beautiful. It has two master suites, a full kitchen, and a living room. I know they paid a lot of money for it. My father wouldn’t let me work to pay for anything. He said he wants me to focus on school and that they would take care of everything.
I have no clue who my roommate is and that makes it worse. Am I going to like her? I hope she isn’t a slut or a weirdo. I can normally get along with anyone, but, with my luck, she'll be another Savvy.
I walk through the parking lot and look up at the town home. It’s really nice. It looks huge from the outside. I text Liam, telling him I’m here and I’ll call him later.
Nervously, I open the door and see someone I would have never expected to see.
“Nikki!” I squeal. “You bitch! I thought you decided to stay in Ohio.”
“Nope, I wanted to surprise you. I figured Eric would have told you by now.”
“No, I had no idea! So you’re my roommate?” I ask the obvious.
“Yes, I am, for the next year anyway. Your parents are the ones who suggested it. They paid for everything. Your dad said he knew my mom couldn’t afford it, so he took care of the first year,” she says, wiping away her tears.
“This is great, Nik! My dad is amazing. Eep, I can’t believe we are here together,” I say, hugging her.
“Okay, what’s been going on? What the hell happened with Ashton? You’ve never fully explained.”